talking to the moon.

keeping up with the marauders 😉

thursday

(6:46pm)

pratfoot: can i ask you both a question?

there's something i've been thinking about.

i'm quite worried actually.

it's about moony,i want to ask him a question but idk if i am allowed.

does that make sense?

bambi: of course pads,you can ask us anything.

especially if something is worrying you.

wormy: yeah of course.

pratfoot: okay so,moony.

i've been texting him for about a month now i think,right?

wormy: yeah something like that.

pratfoot: right.

and he's been to the doctors a lot.

like i'm talking AT LEAST twice a week.

and i know some people just have stuff they need help with or whatever...

but like.That's a lot of appointments.

and he also said something about him not going to school and that he has a valid reason.

do you think he's okay?

bambi: that is a lot to be going to the doctors.

wormy: so you want to ask him what's wrong but you're not sure you can?

pratfoot: precisely wormy.

because i don't want to overstep or like make him uncomfortable but like...

i'm just worried i guess?

bambi: you could always ask,obviously in a gentle way and just make sure he knows that you aren't pushing him to answer.

like that he doesn't have to answer?

pratfoot: you think? is that okay?

bambi: yes i think so.

wormy: i agree.

it's not like your judging,you're just worried.

bambi: exactly and if he doesn't want to answer he won't.

pratfoot: thank you.

love you both.

wormy: love you too mate

bambi: love you too pads.

padfoot and moony!

Thursday

(7:16pm)

padfoot: hey moony.

moony: hey,you okay?

padfoot: i guess.

moony: what's wrong? anything i can help with?

padfoot: actually yeah.

but i want you to hear me out,okay?

because i'm worried i'm going to word this the wrong way and completely fuck it up somehow.

moony: okay,i'm listening.

take your time.

padfoot: can i ask you a question?

moony: of course.

padfoot: and i want you to know that i will in no way judge you or push you to answer.

so please tell me if your uncomfortable or don't want to answer,okay?

moony: okay?

padfoot: promise?

moony: i promise.

padfoot: okay.

so...

well.

do you know like...

this is so much harder than i thought

moony: padfoot?

padfoot: mhm

moony: breathe.

padfoot: thanks.

moony: take your time.

padfoot: okay,i'm ready.

i just wanted to ask if you're okay? i've noticed that you are at the doctors a lot.

and i was just thinking about it.

and you said that you don't go to school anymore.

and i'm really sorry if i have overstepped moony,but i was just really worrying myself over it.

and i guess i want to just know like...if your okay?

moonflower + mary poppins 🩷

thursday

(7:21pm)

moonpie: FUCK FUCK FUCK

lilyflower: what?

what's wrong?

moonpie: he asked!

he asked about the doctors appointments!!!

fuck

what the fuck do i do?!?!

marypoppins: who did?

moonpie: padfoot!!

quick! what do i do?!

lilyflower: do you trust him?

moonpie: yes?

lilyflower: so tell him.

if you don't feel like he'll judge you and you're comfortable with him knowing then tell him.

moonpie: i know he won't judge.

he told me before he even asked.

he even told me that i'm allowed to not answer but...i want to?

marypoppins: if you want to tell him,you can Remus.

moonpie: fuck this is scary!

okay.

i'm telling him.

lilyflower: you got this! love you x

moonpie: thanks love you both x

marypoppins: love you moony x

padfoot and moony!

thursday

(7:22pm)

padfoot: fuck.

moony i'm so sorry if i have offended you.

i shouldn't have asked and it totally wasn't my place.

i'm sorry.

(7:28pm)

moony: no padfoot it's okay!

i'm not offended just...processing?

i don't really like to talk about it.

but i do also know that you won't judge me and well...is it wierd if i say you're one of my bestfriends?

padfoot: of course i won't judge you,i would never.

it's not wierd if i say your one of my bestfriends too :)

moony: okay,good.

so just under a year ago,i was in a car crash.

it was pretty bad.

the weather was horrible,it was like pouring it down.

my mum and i were on the way to a big library,bookstore when a nearby truck lost control and hit our car.

crashing into my side of the car.

the car flipped and slid across the road.

my mum was okay,she had a concussion but other than that only a few bumps and bruises.

but because the truck hit my side,i wasn't so lucky.

i had a long list of injuries,the main ones being a broken wrist and a concussion.

however,with the way i was sitting,with one of my legs tucked under the other one

the impact basically completely shattered my hip bone.

i had a cast on my wrist and i was pretty out of it,doped up on different pain meds.

i went through 6 months of intense physio to help me walk again.

only thing is,i've never actually been able to walk without crutches since.

padfoot: oh my god.

moony that sounds awful!

are you okay?!

stupid question,sorry.

moony: it's alright.

they said i need surgery for my hip but i need to be 18 for this specific surgery.

and i may or may not turn 18 next week...so they've been pulling me in for tests and checkups a lot.

just to check up on me and make sure they can still go ahead with the surgery.

padfoot: wow,moony i am so sorry.

that sounds scary.

moony: it was.

to be honest,i wasn't myself for ages afterwards.

wouldn't speak to anyone except my mum.

i had therapists and even psychologists speak to me but i wouldn't talk.

eventually,i became more talkative and gained more energy.

but yeah,that's the reason for all the appointments.

padfoot: you are so brave moony.

moony: thanks padfoot.

padfoot: now,can we just skip back a sec?

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK?!

moony: yes.

it's not a big deal tho.

the whole can't walk without crutches thing kinda restricts what i can do so it's not that special.

padfoot: we can celebrate together!

over the phone.

that way you don't have to go anywhere and can still have someone to talk to!

moony: wait you mean like a call?

padfoot: sure,unless you don't want to.In which case we can still just text!

moony: no i'd be okay with a call.

i think that would be nice.

finally put a voice to your texts.

padfoot: exactly!

what date is your birthday?

moony: march 10th.

padfoot: omg it's a friday,so after school call?

moony: sounds perfect.

thank you,padfoot.

padfoot: anything for my moony ;)

don't roll your eyes at me.

moony: i would never :)

moonflower + mary poppins 🩷

thursday

(7:49pm)

moonpie: okay.

i'm going to admit something.

do not dare laugh.

Mary,i am talking to you.

no 'i told you so's.

marypoppins: no promises?

moonpie: i am dangerously close to falling in love with this boy.

how is he so perfect?

what the fuck.

lilyflower: did he take it well then?

moonpie: "did he take it well?" lily he took it better than anyone.ever.

marypoppins: rude.

lilyflower: rude.

moonpie: in all realness,he didn't say a single thing that made me panic or freak out or anything.

NOT A SINGLE THING.

and

AND

he told me i was so brave.

perfect.perfect i am telling you.

marypoppins: okay i won't say i told you so because you already know who told you this exact thing would happen.

just saying :)

moonpie: yeah,yeah.

we are just friends tho.

lilyflower: i'm so happy for you,Remus.

truly.You deserve it!

moonpie: thanks lils.

OH

i may have also dropped in that it "may or may not be my birthday next week" 

and this boy really says that we could call.A birthday call since i can't really go and do too much.

lilyflower: okay,fine i'll say it.

if you don't marry this boy i will.

marypoppins: i will also.

moonpie: you're both so dramatic.

lilyflower: just happy for you remuuuuu.

marypoppins: that and the fact that someone,not naming names,told you so ;)

moonpie: yeah yeah.

well i'm going to get ready for bed.

lilyflower: goodnight remuuuu!!!!

marypoppins: goodnight moons!!

keeping up with the marauders 😉

thursday

(7:51pm)

pratfoot: i did it.

i think it went very well.

he basically told me that he was in a car accident,almost a year ago.

and it like,shattered his hip? and now he can't walk without crutches.

and that he needs surgery but has to be 18 for it.

however,he turns 18 next week which is why he's been having all these tests and check ups.

bambi: wow,poor moony.

wormy: that sounds awful.

pratfoot: i know!

i also may have told him that i would call him on his birthday if he was okay with that.

and he agreed.

bambi: omg

wormy: wow.

pratfoot: ik!

i'm nervous already!

padfoot and moony!

thursday

(9:10pm)

moony: thank you for being so perfect.Goodnight,padfoot.

padfoot: good night moony x

moony: x