Save Your Tears

Pandora Rosier was well known for her charisma, her smiles and her outfits.

She was not a person with hatred in her heart, nor a person who easily hated someone. 

But even she herself was surprised by the hatred she harbored towards certain Gryffindors. She's been surprised at how many times she's cursed out loud, she didn't usually do that.

Her insults were mostly aimed at James Potter and Remus Lupin. She didn't want to do that, but those guys were trying hard to make her angry.

But there was something else.

Pandora Rosier didn't hate many things. But she hated Lily Evans. More specifically, she hated to hate Lily Evans.

Lily Evans had been his pillar in many things from the beginning. Lily had defended her, she had taught she to braid her hair with flowers, she had taught her to love and hate. She had taught her passion and pain.

And maybe he understood Lily a little, because after the prank, Lily had sided with Remus without hesitation. Pandora would never blame her for that.

What she would blame her for would be hating and tormenting Sirius. But for everything else, she understood her perfectly because she was now doing the same thing. She was siding with Sirius without thinking.

The prank affected them all in some way, of course, Remus and Sirius were the ones who suffered the most (James and Regulus followed them) but even so, the vast majority had been affected by that. She can even say that the teachers had been affected.

Before that prank, Lily and Pandora were close and in love.

They loved each other too much, in a way that no one could understand them. It was pure and sincere. It was sweet and soft. But now It was painful and bad.

Every look, every touch hurt more than the last. Pandora longed to simply run into her arms and hug her. But she would never do it. At least, not until Lily and all of her friends apologized with Sirius.

Yes, the redhead had the right to be angry, but she had no right to hurt Sirius so much. And that, in a way, also affected Pandora a lot.

Lily got involved, more than anything, with Sirius' upbringing and pureblood status. Also with the fact that, being pure blood, he could be a death eater. Pandorawasalsoa pureblood. And she knew, firsthand, how cruel people with minds like her and Sirius's parents could be. Especially Sirius's.

So when she heard Lily say that at the party, the last bit of hope and love she had had vanished. Well, maybe not about love, but about hope, yes.

So she simply did what she thought was best, getting away from Lily.

She avoided her in the hallways, in classes, in tutorials, everywhere. She even got rid of all the red she had (and little daisies too) because they reminded her of Lily.

It was painful.

This is how she is now, trying to remove a daisy vine that she made herself, from her bed. With tears in her eyes for everything that was happening.

"Shit." Pandora said as she broke the vine and fell to the ground.

Well, not to the ground, but into someone's arms.

"That would be 15 curses you say today. Okay, Dora, what's going on?" Evan said, carefully setting the girl down.

"What are you doing here? If someone discovers you..." 

"Sometimes you forget that we become animagos, right?"

"Right. I completely forget it." Pandora sighed and sat on her bed.

"Helena Pandora Rosier, what is happening? You've been sad most days and it's just... not you anymore."

"Well, first of all, don't use my name with an H. Second... A lot has been happening, Ev, you don't have to worry."

"Of course I have to do it, I'm your brother. Twin, to be exact. What in Salazar's name is happening?"

"...I guess I have to tell you."

Evan nodded and lay down next to Pandora, hugging her tightly. It was something they usually did since they were little, ever since Pandora's visions first appeared.

"Before all this, I was with... with Lily. We never made it public because we were still afraid of certain things, but we were sure of one thing: we loved each other."

There was a long silence before Evan broke away from the hug.

"Were you with Evans?"

Pandora nodded her head.

"Yes, I was and I'm not afraid to say it. Ev, I loved her too much... But then all this happened and she—she had to be so... so..."

Evan hugged her again.

"I loved her. I still love her. No matter what she does, I will still love her. I love her and it's killing me. It's ruining my life." 

Pandora He hid his face in Evan's chest and hugged him, squeezing his shirt tightly.

"And I do not know what to do. She's been saying so many things about us purebloods that we'll surely end up being Death Eaters or—or we'll end up in Azkaban. It's breaking my soul. I can't anymore. I just want back to the girl I once loved madly. I want back that beautiful smile and all those frictions that didn't hurt as much."

She started to cry. Cry and cry, until she ended up shaking.

"Sh sh, Panda, it's okay, it's okay. I'm here, I won't leave you. No one else will leave you. We all love you, we are here for you." 

But suddenly, Pandora's eyes glazed over in another way. The beautiful blue color began to shine brightly. The girl separated from Evan and began to speak in a deeper, darker voice.

"Three separated and two stayed. Two in two, three in three. A change will come and no one will like it but it may benefit. The roles will be changed. Nobody knows what will happen. But one thing is certain: he will return and no one will be the same again. The moon and the stars are in danger, danger danger, danger..." 

"Pandora, stop it! Came back!"

Pandora blinked many times and her eyes were the same again.

"Not again... Not again..." She got up from her bed and walked in a circle, grabbing a piece of paper and writing down quickly.

"I've had this vision for weeks, it means something. Not good. I need, I need..."

Evan hugged her from behind, trying to calm his sister. Sometimes things got like that.

"Pandora, you're feeling a lot, let's go for a walk."

By force, Pandora agreed and so they left the common room.

Mistake.

On the way they ran into Lily. And as soon as Lily saw them, she stood up and ran towards Pandora.

"My god Pandora, are you okay? A vision again?"

«I don't see I don't see I don't see» It was all Pandora could think of.

Pandora looked into her eyes and, for a minute, she thought about hugging her and begging her to stay. But then he remembered everything he said to Evan and, without even thinking about it, she started talking.

"I love you, it's ruining my life." 

"Baby..." 

Before that the redhead could say something else, Pandora ran away from a Lily with tears in her eyes, being followed by Evan, a cat and a dog.

"And you wanna scream

Don't call me "kid"

Don't call me "baby"

Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me

You showed me colors

You know I can't see with anyone else

Don't call me "kid"

Don't call me "baby"

Look at this idiotic fool that you made me

You taught me a secret language

I can't speak with anyone else

And you know damn well

For you, I would ruin myself

A million little times"