The Party Part 2
Sirius Pov:
Sirius was drunk. Plastered and Remus was looking more gorgeous than he ever had before. Remus guided Sirius through the twisting hallways of Hogwarts. Sirius couldn’t focus on anything but the feeling of Remus’s hand on his arm.
“Moony”
There was no response
“Remus”, he tried and Remus turned to look at him, “Yes, Sirius?”
Sirius made no answer.
“What is it, Sirius?”
Sirius tilted his head, “You just look handsome right now.”
Remus’s eyes widened and he stood still for a second before shaking his head and muttering, “C’mon Sirius, you’re plastered, you need to get some sleep.”
Sirius winked at him, “I think there are some funner things we could do.”
Remus’s cheeks grew red and he made no response this time, simply pulling Sirius further down the hallway. They walked silently for a few minutes before the entrance to the tower came into sight.
“Flibbertigibbet”
The portrait swung open and Remus stepped in with Sirius close in his heels.
“Moons”
Remus didn’t respond but Sirius kept talking, “Y’know I wasn’t joking in the hallway earlier. You’re handsome”.
They had reached the stairs up to their dorm.
“Shut up Sirius.”
“I’m telling the truth”, Sirius said with a small frown. Remus just kept walking forward as they walked up the stairs and Sirius had to speed up a little bit to be able to keep up with him, “Remus- hey wait!”. Sirius grabbed Remus’s arm and as Remus spun around to face him, Sirius spun as well and ended up with his back against the wall. Remus was standing in front of him and Sirius felt Remus’s hot breath against his face. Sirius found himself transfixed with Remus’s eyes which had dilated and were a deep brown with flecks of amber.
“Your eyes”, Sirius murmured,
Remus blinked, “What about them?” His voice sounded lower than normal and his eyes were still dilated.
Sirius tilted his head and smiled, “They’re amber”.
Remus nodded, “I’ve noticed”.
“They’re beautiful. Like little moons that go with your stars”, with that, Sirius lifted a hand and traced one of Remus’s scars.
“My stars.”
Sirius nodded,” I know you hate your scars, but to me, they’re like stars. They show how brave you are. They make you shine”.
“They make me shine.”
“Are you just going to repeat everything I said?”, Sirius giggled.
“Are you just going to repeat everything I said?”
Sirius leaned his head onto Remus’s shoulder and laughed deeply from his belly.
He could hear Remus’s heartbeat and his quick breaths. He looked up, still breathy and laughing and he saw that Remus was staring at him with an unreadable expression. Sirius stared into his amber eyes and blinked. You could feel the tension in the room, and could cut it with a knife. There was something there waiting, that Sirius couldn’t identify. He felt his heart starting to beat faster- nearly escaping his chest and his breaths became faster. The pupil of Remus’s eye dilated and they continued to stare at each other. Sirius suddenly felt his back against the wall more clearly than before. Remus leaned forward so that they were unbearably close. If Sirius tilted his head forward they would be kissing and fuck Sirius wanted to kiss him. He tilted his head ever so slightly forward, enough to feel the brush of Remus’s top lip against his. Remus let out a sigh and tilted his head forward and they were kissing.
It was everything Sirius had imagined and more. Remus tasted like smoke and chocolate and everything was good. His lips were soft and he was pushing Sirius against the wall and Sirius was going to die. Remus pulled away and rested his forehead against Sirius and breathed in. It was taking everything in Sirius to not kiss him again.
“So”, Sirius said.
‘So”, Remus responded.
They both looked up at each other and if the tension had been high before then this was that tripled. Remus looked down at Sirius’s lips and they were kissing again. It was so much better. Their first kiss had been sweet, nervous and gentle, this kiss was fire and brimstone, hard and fast and everything in between. There were teeth and tongue. Remus pulled back, “Sirius we should-“ Sirius cut him off by kissing him again. Remus leaned into it before pulling away again, “Sirius we have to talk”. Sirius nodded,”Ok let’s talk”. Remus sighed, “What now?”
Sirius looked at him, his Remus. He was so beautiful but he probably didn’t feel the same, the alcohol must have been deluding his brain, “This doesn’t change anything does it?” Remus blinked hard and for a second it seemed like he was disappointed but he blinked again and he was fine.
“Yeah we’re still the same, don’t worry about it”.
He still looked disappointed but it was probably just Sirius’s brain being strange. Remus wouldn’t like him. Sirius wanted to kiss him again.
He put his hand on Remus’s arm, “Can I kiss you again?” Remus pulled away, “Actually I’m pretty tired I’ll probably just head to bed”. Remus turned around and started to walk up the stairs. Sirius didn’t want him to go. He started to chase after, “Remus wait”. Remus turned around, “Yeah Sirius?” Sirius paused before speaking, “I’m in love with you”. Remus froze, his hand still on the banister, and was about to speak when the portrait swung open and James and Peter walked in. James called out, “Oi why are you two not in bed- we sent you up an hour ago”. Remus responded without taking his eyes off of Sirius, “Got caught up talking, I was just heading up”. He turned around and walked up the stairs without another word. Sirius felt his heart sink but he tried to morph his mouth into a smile, “Yeah, I’m tired, I’ll head up too.” James looked at him concerned, “We were going to sit by the fire for a bit, you sure you don't want to join”. Sirius nodded- looking up the stairs where Remus had just been, “Yeah I think I’m going to go up now. I’m really exhausted” Peter nodded, “Have a good night mate”. Sirius made some sort of waving motion behind him and walked up the stairs, speeding up as soon as he heard James and Peter resume talking.
He turned the corner and flung open the door to their dorm. Remus was standing by his bed and turned around quickly at the sound of the door. He and Sirius stood staring at each other for a moment before Remus quickly walked across the room and took Sirius’s face in his hands to kiss him. Remus kissed him for a few seconds before pulling away and looking at Sirius, whose face was still cupped in Remus’s hands, “ I’m in love with you too” and he kissed him again, this time they didn't stop until they heard James and Peter clumping up the stairs. Then they quickly ran to their own beds and tried to look asleep. Once Peter and James had gone to bed themselves, Sirius snuck into Remus’s bed and they fell asleep together.