The sun shined on the grasses morning dew. It was a lovely day marz thought. The kind that happened in people's happier ever afters. She turned at her walking companion, after last year he had cut his hair short. It didn't look great but their were higher priorities. She didn't get how he had gotten Cho with it. She had told him as much and he had replied at least he could talk to her. Which was just rude.
"It's nice out," Harry stated looking over the lake
Marz hums "it really is, sometimes you forget how beautiful hogwarts because of everything going on,"
"Yeah,"
"So you and cho broke up? What happened,"
"She chose Marietta over me, it would've happened either way. I mean she was jealous of Hermione and me can you believe that!"
"Well harry that one is kinda on you, you did bring up hanging out with her on valentines day in the middle of a date,"
He huffed, "When will you let go of that"
She laughed "just gotta keep you humble" she pushed him playfully with her shoulder, "Maybe it'll even give you more perspective in the future, remember when she asked you out and you didn't even realize?"
He frowned "How was I supposed to know?!"
Marz laughed harder and Harry's frown deepened.
"Your such a great friend," Harry said sarcastically
"Oh come on I'm just poking fun, I know you find it a little funny too."
Harry mouth twitched upward as he said "No, no I dont"
They settled in a comfortable silence for a bitjust enjoying the morning.
"I'm glad we met," Marz broke the hush
Harry looked at her thoughtfully for a moment before replying "I'm not,"
Marz scowled "I take it back, my life would be infinitely improved without you."
"No it wouldn't" he grinned
Marz sighed admitting defeat quickly, "No it wouldn't"
After a pause harry spoke again, "I am too, your not that bad" Marz smiled "for a slytherin,"
"I could say the same for you lion boy, also dont forget which one of us is a descendent of salsar."
"As long as you don't forget how many times you made me try to teach you parseltongue,"
"Oh don't worry I won't, I get better every time,''
"You really dont,"
"Oh shut your mouth,"
"Do you even remember how we met?" Harry questioned
"Oh um actually I don't, do you?"
"Not really, I only really remember times once we already had,"
"Huh, I never quite get how that mind erasing worked. The memories felt meaningful,"
"Mine two"
"Does it ever bother you? the fact they messed with our memories?"
"Eh, I don't really think about it much"
"Harry do you think much at all?"
Harry pushed her, "Hey! I'm trying to answer your question here. Anyway like I said, it feels a little weird, like sometimes stuff happens and I just think im reminded of something but I can't remember what it is. It happened with you when we barely remembered anything yet. I'd see you and feel like I was missing something that was so close."
"I get that, it felt like that to me too. Sometimes I worry about the idea that someone could erase anything they wanted from my mind. You'd never even know, your whole life, you could be completely different and none the wiser. What about the people you care about, imagine you see your best friend one day and they don't remember your name. That's scary."
"Yeah, yeah it kinda is. Theres not really anything we can do about it though is there?"
"I guess" marz shrugged as they sat down against a tree.
Later Harry would whisper "I'm scared Marz" saying it like it was a dirty confession. Like he wasn't supposed to be scared. Like a 15 year old wasnt aloud to be scared when they had the weight of the world on their shoulders. Like they hadn't watched someone they cared about a lot die not even a year ago.
Marz turned and grabbed his hand, "Its okay, your not alone. Not in your fear or in the fight."
Harry rested his head on her shoulder, "sometimes it feels like it"
"I know but your not, " she made a soft circular motion with her thumb as they soaked in those words. They each thought about people, whether that was Ron or Lisa, Luna or Hermione. They also thought about the people they didn't have anymore, whether adrien or cho, credric or aine, their parents. The people that made them feel alone.
"Sirius told me that my mom was really good at making potions, she liked it alot too"
Marz hummed even as she felt her chest restrict.
"You two have that in common, I think she'd like you," he continued
"I'm glad" marz said honestly. "My dad was a seeker like you when he was younger, he loved to talk tactics with you im sure,"
Harry chuckled "I'd like that"
"I think he did at least, I can hardly remember him nowadays" Marz confessed like it a sin. Harry squeezed her hand reassurely. "I'm just I don't know, it's been so long Harry. It scares me, it feels like hes, they're leaving all over again. Im the only one who knew them and-and even my nightmares Harry. Theyre leaving them, replaced by other things. Other people and I feel bad about it because the new ones hurt worse. It feels like I dont even care about them, what child wants to dream about their parents dying. What child wouldn't save their mom when they had the chance." Marz eyes started to water. Marz tried to blink away her tears.
Harry was a little confused about the last bit but tired his best to comfort her, "Hey hey its okay," Harry said. "You know my parents passed when I was one, I can't remember them at all but I remember they loved me and you remember that yours did too. They would want us to move on."
Marz looked down and nodded even as she wasnt quite sure of that. "Yeah maybe,"
"We're kinda fucked up, aren't we?"
Marz laughed "Yeah, but can you imagine us not being. With families that we could go home to, no voldermort, no evil teachers, no mind erasing summer camps. Maybe we'd even be sorted in the same house and know each other from 1st year."
"You think we'd still be friends?"
Marz pondered that before answering "I dont know but Its a nice thought"
"Yeah, I suppose it is. Even so since were not in that universe im glad we met."
"Me too lionboy"
They sat there for a while just watching the world move. They talked occasionally about silly things like what magical creature would in a fight and about serious things like plans about how they could convince the ministry. Marz took out her notebook and wrote ideas down. It had been a hard year so far, the ministry still wouldn't admit voldermort was back. Dolores was there and arse.
"I'm glad you guys broke up, you weren't right for each other. Youll find someone."
Harry's nods "You'll find someone too Marz"
"I don't know if I can do that, not-not anymore"
"Marz you'll have to move on at somepoint," Harry spoke softly
"Harry," Marz warned, this wasn't a conversation they would have.
He just sighed, "It's about time we head back isn't it" he offered his hand and pulled her up.
"Back to the real world"