That Odd Melancholy Feeling

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
F/F
Gen
M/M
G
That Odd Melancholy Feeling
Characters
Original Characters, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, James Potter/Lily Evans Potter, Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans Potter, Mary Macdonald (Harry Potter), Marlene McKinnon, Severus Snape, Dorcas Meadowes, Marlene McKinnon/Dorcas Meadowes, Minor Characters, Mary Macdonald & Marlene McKinnon & Lily Evans Potter, Pandora Lovegood, Petunia Evans Dursley, Mary Macdonald/Lily Evans Potter, Remus Lupin & Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black & Remus Lupin & Peter Pettigrew & James Potter, Petunia Evans Dursley/Vernon Dursley, Sirius Black & Mary Macdonald, Lily Evans Potter & Severus Snape, Petunia Evans Dursley & Lily Evans Potter
Tags
Friends to Lovers Motherhood Consensual Underage Sex Implied Sexual Content Found Family Canon Compliant Period-Typical Homophobia Marauders Era (Harry Potter) Coming of Age First Wizarding War with Voldemort (Harry Potter) Pre-First Wizarding War with Voldemort (Harry Potter) Growing Up Together Period Typical Attitudes Compulsory Heterosexuality Girls Kissing Underage Drug Use Underage Drinking Underage Smoking My First Fanfic Period-Typical Sexism POV Alternating Bisexual Mary Macdonald (Harry Potter) Period-Typical Racism Plus-Size Lily Evans Potter Endgame James Potter/Lily Evans Potter Bisexual Lily Evans Potter POV Mary Macdonald (Harry Potter) Period Typical Bigotry POV Lily Evans Potter Blood Purity Prejudice & Pureblood Supremacy (Harry Potter) Mary Macdonald/Lily Evans Potter-centric Fuck JKR endgame jily Demisexual Lily Evans Potter Valkaries marylily centric lily is not a mary sue creative liberties were taken considering this ship doesn't even exist in canon details their relationship romantically AND platonically sprinkling of homoerotic marylene at first one-sided pandalily if you squint (really really hard)
Summary
[ I love you, the thought rises, unbidden, to the forefront of Mary’s mind. It’s a dangerous thought. It can hurt. Perhaps the alcohol in her bloodstream has broken the inhibitors in her mind, allowing the thought to clearly formulate. It only takes a moment in her drunken clarity for her to realize it is the truth. She loves Lily Evans. Most certainly not like a friend. It is different to how she feels about Marlene. It is different because the tightening in her stomach, or the constriction in her throat, was never this intense. She feels like she could physically choke with the emotion. She is in love with Lily Evans – her roommate, her best friend, a straight girl with a boyfriend for fucks’ sake.“Something wrong?” She prompts.Wrong – yes, terribly wrong. Absolutely awful. Just came up with a torturous revelation Lily, I love- “No.” A tight smile. “Nah, I’m just sleepy.” ]mary & lily growing up - as individuals, together, apart. friendship & romance & childhood & angst & war - the lives of two girls & then two women who just tried reallyfic title inspired by 'Slipping Through My Fingers' by ABBA aka the most marylily coded song to exist
Note
READ ALL THE TAGS PLS!!DO NOT RE-POST ANYWHERE!!THIS IS VERY MUCH AN ANTI-JKR SPACE!!Though this fic involves various other romantic relationships & friendships (because platonic love is very important to me), this primarily focuses on the relationship of Mary Macdonald & Lily Evans throughout their years in Hogwarts and *after* and their characters as individuals.starting is the tough part, i've literally got lots of notes written down for the later scenes of yearning & the happenings of after halloween '81.. but this first chapter was SO difficult to write. there's the pressure to get it just *right* yk.

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