Mamma Mia

Peter Pettigrew PoV

This evening got more upside down, than every evening I had before.

There was this dark thing that was seeded into my soul and wanted to kill someone so bad. To win so bad. Like every other night I hate, which was a little obscure if someone would know that. It was a seed from years ago, where I got bullied, right before Hogwarts. I couldn't stop it. It would always be there. But know it's not about the bullies from preschool anymore, it's about James and everyone that came across me, even if I feared them.

And then... it stopped immediately.

One look from here and everything in me stopped.
The thoughts.
The want to strangle someone to death.
The breathing was on hold.
Even my heart went unconditionely and annoyed me for the record.

I never had a chance before. Never. I didn't get it, when i was around my friends.
Sirius, Remus and James had just more charm and charisma and were also hotter then me.

But that girl?
Until I knew she was not interested in James cause they were cousins, but also less interested in Sirius and Remus, as I saw that evening, I had my first chance.

Well.
My second.
Lily was my first.
The first I was interested in. The first, that was stolen by James.

The question was more, why Alya Potter was so interested in me.

None of the girls were. Not the ones I was interested in.
And then there was this angel.
This brave beauty that was looking straight ahead at me.

And did it again. And again. And again.

I was desperatly into her, when she did it the second time. But she didn't stop it. So I wasn't only into her, I was in freaking crazy love.

None of the girls at school did it so often yet when the boys and I were talking to them. I was just a side characte, a matchmaker.
They would only talk with me to got a "Yes, I can ask him to go on a date with you" or a "I will tell him good things about you, if I get five golden galleons, alright?". And I got my five galleons either way the boys did go on a date with them or not.

The point is, this evening was heaven and hell at the same time to me. Sometimes i were brave enough to talk with her, sometimes I wasn't. But I listened everything she said, to every brave strong word that came out of her perfect mouth, watched every little colour change from her cheekbones, felt how everything she said was consuming me and my dark soul. Locked with her eyes and didn't want them to let go of me.

I wanted to grab her, kiss her, feeling every fucking piece of her under my fingers. But I couldn't. Even if she wasn't the cousin of James and I would like to hurt him, I would wait for it.

Wait till she liked me back, wait till I got a "Yes, you can date my cousin" from James, wait, just wait, till she loves me so hardly, that she couldn't walk away from me just one second.

And I swore to Merlins long white beards, that i will beat everyone up, that was coming near her.

"So... who is Sirius brother?", her fucking beautiful well formed mouth asking the group.
"Regulus Black. Called Reggie from his friends. He is the prince of Slytherin, and someone most of the school fears, but not like Rodolphus, the king. You need to be very kind to them, if you want to be someone in there eyes, which is nearly impossible. I heard that to be accepted as one of the group you need to torture someone with a forbidden curse and that it's often a first year student that they will take for it. They never came back, they say.", Sirius tells her.
"Who is they?"
"Barty... but don't underestimate his powers, just because his talking to you, doesn't mean he like or won't torture you too. He was the prince in first year, before Reggie was in school. Barty isn't mad about him taking his place, but they are even now arguing about who the better prince is. Not that you need to know, but Barty things, that Reggie is still a little girl."
"A little girl? Isn't that a bit far from what he is?"
"Well... Regulus is... our mother never changed the name, you know. For her, he is a she and she is called Regina. He is Regulus since his first year, but Barty and mostly all of the Slytherin knew his back story."
"Oh... I... your mother isn't that kind, what?"
"Never heard about the kind Black family?"

Sirius made an awkward grimace.

"I am sorry..."
"You don't need to. Just two more years and I am out of there."
"And you're brother?"
"Wouldn't dare to leave. Even if our mother means he is a girl, he is still a mama boy."
"Aren't you a little to hard to him when you leave? He will need you."
"If so, he would said so. But he didn't. He never wanted my help. He never said, he needed me. If he wants to get out of there too, he follow later. But I will not help him, when he doesn't want me too."

"Other topic? Please?", James asked.
"Well, there is still the thing with... wait. Is it still night or did the sun just decide to raise up by the mountains?", I asked.
"Shit! I will get killed if I am not in my dormitory!" Alya said then.

"I will get you there."

How I could made up my mind to bring her there? It was nearly impossible to go to the Slytherin's common room as a Gryffindor, but the death for everyone, who was seen by a Slytherin's domitory! I was clearly crazy and mad in love with this woman. I would do everything for her. And if she gets killed for not being in her dormitory in the morning, I will bring her there... what's my death, but she doesn't need to know that, right?

"You would?", she asked then, looking at me with her angel eyes and a hope in her voice that would bring me on my knees, if I wouldn't sit on the floor right now.
I nodded.
"Can we go then, Darling?" I asked her, seeing her cheeks got blushed cause of me.
"Sure..."

I stood up and helped her to standing up to, getting a smile for the hand I gave her that she took.

This evening went more upside down then every other one I could remember.

There was this dark thing that was seeded into my soul and wanted to kill someone so bad. To win so bad. Like every other night I hate, which was a little obscure if someone would know that. It was a seed from years ago, where I got bullied, right before Hogwarts. I couldn't stop it. It would always be there. But know it's not about the bullies from preschool anymore, it's about James and everyone that came across me, even if I feared them.

And then... it stopped immediately.

One look from here and everything in me stopped.
The thoughts.
The want to strangle someone to death.
The breathing was on hold.
Even my heart went unconditionely and annoyed me for the record.

I never had a chance before. Never. I didn't get it, when i was around my friends.
Sirius, Remus and James had just more charm and charisma and were also hotter then me.

But that girl?
Until I knew she was not interested in James cause they were cousins, but also less interested in Sirius and Remus, as I saw that evening, I had my first chance.

Well.
My second.
Lily was my first.
The first I was interested in. The first, that was stolen by James.

The question was more, why Alya Potter was so interested in me.

None of the girls were. Not the ones I was interested in.
And then there was this angel.
This brave beauty that was looking straight ahead at me.

And did it again. And again. And again.

I was desperatly into her, when she did it the second time. But she didn't stop it. So I wasn't only into her, I was in freaking crazy love.

None of the girls at school did it so often yet when the boys and I were talking to them. I was just a side characte, a matchmaker.
They would only talk with me to got a "Yes, I can ask him to go on a date with you" or a "I will tell him good things about you, if I get five golden galleons, alright?". And I got my five galleons either way the boys did go on a date with them or not.

The point is, this evening was heaven and hell at the same time to me. Sometimes i were brave enough to talk with her, sometimes I wasn't. But I listened everything she said, to every brave strong word that came out of her perfect mouth, watched every little colour change from her cheekbones, felt how everything she said was consuming me and my dark soul. Locked with her eyes and didn't want them to let go of me.

I wanted to grab her, kiss her, feeling every fucking piece of her under my fingers. But I couldn't. Even if she wasn't the cousin of James and I would like to hurt him, I would wait for it.

Wait till she liked me back, wait till I got a "Yes, you can date my cousin" from James, wait, just wait, till she loves me so hardly, that she couldn't walk away from me just one second.

And I swore to Merlins long white beards, that i will beat everyone up, that was coming near her.

"So... who is Sirius brother?", her fucking beautiful well formed mouth asking the group.
"Regulus Black. Called Reggie from his friends. He is the prince of Slytherin, and someone most of the school fears, but not like Rodolphus, the king. You need to be very kind to them, if you want to be someone in there eyes, which is nearly impossible. I heard that to be accepted as one of the group you need to torture someone with a forbidden curse and that it's often a first year student that they will take for it. They never came back, they say.", Sirius tells her.
"Who is they?"
"Barty... but don't underestimate his powers, just because his talking to you, doesn't mean he like or won't torture you too. He was the prince in first year, before Reggie was in school. Barty isn't mad about him taking his place, but they are even now arguing about who the better prince is. Not that you need to know, but Barty things, that Reggie is still a little girl."
"A little girl? Isn't that a bit far from what he is?"
"Well... Regulus is... our mother never changed the name, you know. For her, he is a she and she is called Regina. He is Regulus since his first year, but Barty and mostly all of the Slytherin knew his back story."
"Oh... I... your mother isn't that kind, what?"
"Never heard about the kind Black family?"

Sirius made an awkward grimace.

"I am sorry..."
"You don't need to. Just two more years and I am out of there."
"And you're brother?"
"Wouldn't dare to leave. Even if our mother means he is a girl, he is still a mama boy."
"Aren't you a little to hard to him when you leave? He will need you."
"If so, he would said so. But he didn't. He never wanted my help. He never said, he needed me. If he wants to get out of there too, he follow later. But I will not help him, when he doesn't want me too."

"Other topic? Please?", James asked.
"Well, there is still the thing with... wait. Is it still night or did the sun just decide to raise up by the mountains?", I asked.
"Shit! I will get killed if I am not in my dormitory!" Alya said then.

"I will get you there."

How I could made up my mind to bring her there? It was nearly impossible to go to the Slytherin's common room as a Gryffindor, but the death for everyone, who was seen by a Slytherin's domitory! I was clearly crazy and mad in love with this woman. I would do everything for her. And if she gets killed for not being in her dormitory in the morning, I will bring her there... what's my death, but she doesn't need to know that, right?

"You would?", she asked then, looking at me with her angel eyes and a hope in her voice that would bring me on my knees, if I wouldn't sit on the floor right now.
I nodded.
"Can we go then, Darling?" I asked her, seeing her cheeks got blushed cause of me.
"Sure..."

I stood up and helped her to standing up to, getting a smile for the hand I gave her that she took.

This evening went more upside down then every other one I could remember.

There was this dark thing that was seeded into my soul and wanted to kill someone so bad. To win so bad. Like every other night I hate, which was a little obscure if someone would know that. It was a seed from years ago, where I got bullied, right before Hogwarts. I couldn't stop it. It would always be there. But know it's not about the bullies from preschool anymore, it's about James and everyone that came across me, even if I feared them.

And then... it stopped immediately.

One look from here and everything in me stopped.
The thoughts.
The want to strangle someone to death.
The breathing was on hold.
Even my heart went unconditionely and annoyed me for the record.

I never had a chance before. Never. I didn't get it, when i was around my friends.
Sirius, Remus and James had just more charm and charisma and were also hotter then me.

But that girl?
Until I knew she was not interested in James cause they were cousins, but also less interested in Sirius and Remus, as I saw that evening, I had my first chance.

Well.
My second.
Lily was my first.
The first I was interested in. The first, that was stolen by James.

The question was more, why Alya Potter was so interested in me.

None of the girls were. Not the ones I was interested in.
And then there was this angel.
This brave beauty that was looking straight ahead at me.

And did it again. And again. And again.

I was desperatly into her, when she did it the second time. But she didn't stop it. So I wasn't only into her, I was in freaking crazy love.

None of the girls at school did it so often yet when the boys and I were talking to them. I was just a side characte, a matchmaker.
They would only talk with me to got a "Yes, I can ask him to go on a date with you" or a "I will tell him good things about you, if I get five golden galleons, alright?". And I got my five galleons either way the boys did go on a date with them or not.

The point is, this evening was heaven and hell at the same time to me. Sometimes i were brave enough to talk with her, sometimes I wasn't. But I listened everything she said, to every brave strong word that came out of her perfect mouth, watched every little colour change from her cheekbones, felt how everything she said was consuming me and my dark soul. Locked with her eyes and didn't want them to let go of me.

I wanted to grab her, kiss her, feeling every fucking piece of her under my fingers. But I couldn't. Even if she wasn't the cousin of James and I would like to hurt him, I would wait for it.

Wait till she liked me back, wait till I got a "Yes, you can date my cousin" from James, wait, just wait, till she loves me so hardly, that she couldn't walk away from me just one second.

And I swore to Merlins long white beards, that i will beat everyone up, that was coming near her.

"So... who is Sirius brother?", her fucking beautiful well formed mouth asking the group.
"Regulus Black. Called Reggie from his friends. He is the prince of Slytherin, and someone most of the school fears, but not like Rodolphus, the king. You need to be very kind to them, if you want to be someone in there eyes, which is nearly impossible. I heard that to be accepted as one of the group you need to torture someone with a forbidden curse and that it's often a first year student that they will take for it. They never came back, they say.", Sirius tells her.
"Who is they?"
"Barty... but don't underestimate his powers, just because his talking to you, doesn't mean he like or won't torture you too. He was the prince in first year, before Reggie was in school. Barty isn't mad about him taking his place, but they are even now arguing about who the better prince is. Not that you need to know, but Barty things, that Reggie is still a little girl."
"A little girl? Isn't that a bit far from what he is?"
"Well... Regulus is... our mother never changed the name, you know. For her, he is a she and she is called Regina. He is Regulus since his first year, but Barty and mostly all of the Slytherin knew his back story."
"Oh... I... your mother isn't that kind, what?"
"Never heard about the kind Black family?"

Sirius made an awkward grimace.

"I am sorry..."
"You don't need to. Just two more years and I am out of there."
"And you're brother?"
"Wouldn't dare to leave. Even if our mother means he is a girl, he is still a mama boy."
"Aren't you a little to hard to him when you leave? He will need you."
"If so, he would said so. But he didn't. He never wanted my help. He never said, he needed me. If he wants to get out of there too, he follow later. But I will not help him, when he doesn't want me too."

"Other topic? Please?", James asked.
"Well, there is still the thing with... wait. Is it still night or did the sun just decide to raise up by the mountains?", I asked.
"Shit! I will get killed if I am not in my dormitory!" Alya said then.

"I will get you there."

How I could made up my mind to bring her there? It was nearly impossible to go to the Slytherin's common room as a Gryffindor, but the death for everyone, who was seen by a Slytherin's domitory! I was clearly crazy and mad in love with this woman. I would do everything for her. And if she gets killed for not being in her dormitory in the morning, I will bring her there... what's my death, but she doesn't need to know that, right?

"You would?", she asked then, looking at me with her angel eyes and a hope in her voice that would bring me on my knees, if I wouldn't sit on the floor right now.
I nodded.
"Can we go then, Darling?" I asked her, seeing her cheeks got blushed cause of me.
"Sure..."

I stood up and helped her to standing up to, getting a smile for the hand I gave her that she took. Then I go ahead. Upstairs, through the little tunnel and opening the picture from one side to let Alya through. Then go ahead again... silent beneath us, like we didn't have something to talk about. Not there wasn't something, it wasn't just helpful, to wake up the fat lady and let her scream through the whole castle, that a slytherin girl and I were out of our dormitorys at bedtime. I made a gesture for that to Alya before in the tunnel.

When we finally got to the basement we both sight and began to talk.

"Do you sneak out often with the boys? Or girls?"
"Not that often, but the boys and I know ways to get to the places we want to get as fast as we can. And you? Did you sneak out often after bedtime? Before Hogwarts?"
"No, that's the first time I did this..."
"Good that you didn't woke everyone then."
"I had a good marauder on my side."

Then we got to the picture from the slytherin common room.

"Stay away Gryffindor or I will let everyone know that you wake me up.", the picture said. I sighed.
"Can we please talk about this later? This beautiful woman need to get to her dormitory before bedtime ends and everyone wakes up."
"I warned you... password?"
"Toujour pour..."

Alya made a little grimace like Sirius did before in the dormitory.
"Isn't that the motto from the black family?"
"How did you know that?"
"I saw it on an emblem before when Sirius got a letter from his mother... a horrible letter."

The picture opened up for us... and we both got a shock.