"Shuji..."
"Shuji Tsushima..."
A blurred out ringing of a woman's shouting voice was heard in Dazai's, or rather Shuji's ears.
Ah, everything is more clearer now..
"SHUJI TSUSHIMA FUCKING ANSWER ME YOU USELESS PIECE OF SHIT!"
A woman's voice yelled out to Shuji. It's his mother.. [REDACTED] Tsushima.
Seems like she's having her daily mental breakdown again...
Shuji was trembling, his knees on his chest, pupils dilated, shaking hands, unable to speak due to the fear of being hit again.
"I-...S-s-sorr-sorry- M-mother-"
"FUCKING SPEAK PROPERLY!"
"I'm sorry..."
He whispered quietly.
"FUCKING SPEAK LOUDER SHUJI! ITS NOT LIKE YOUR FUCKING MUTE OR SOMETHING"
"IM SORRY!"
"FUCKING FINALLY! GOSH! IF ONLY [REDACTED] LET ME HAVE AN ABORTION!"
"Now...let me ask you this again...Am I a monster..."
Shuji didn't respond
"Shuji..."
She said louder
"Am I a monster..."
Shuji didn't respond
"FUCKING ANSWER!!"
She grabbed a crumbled paper. The paper seemed to have a drawing. A badly drawn frowned brown haired child on the left, and on the right what seems to be a drawing of a woman but with monster features. She pointed at the woman with the inhumane features.
"IS THIS ME!? IS THIS WHAT YOU THINK OF ME SHUJI!?"
She screamed, if they had any neighbours they would really hear her raging voice...
No..
no..
no..
no..
NO!
Dazai woke up...
Hermione woke him up.
"Dazai?" She spoke in a steady tone, "You alright?"
Shit.
He forgot that him and Hermione was going to the restricted section of the library to research about balliskis and so other important things. (IS THAT THE RIGHT SPELLING)
"yeah..." He lied.
"You seem to have a nightmare...you wanna talk about it?" She spoke in a sudden comforting voice.
Gosh she sounded like his older sister...
He missed her...
Dazai also realised Hermione also resembles her.
Hermiones Brown curly hair resembles [REDACTED] long dark brown hair,
Hermiones comforting voice, almost sounded like [REDACTED'S] soft voice...
A certain memory resurfaced from his head...
..
Memory:
The loud shouting of his father and mother was heard in the background, but the only clear voice he could hear was his sister's.
"Inhale, and exhale....while you breath think of the things that makes you happy." She spoke softly...
"But feelings are gross nee-san!" Shuji pouted but decided to do what she said. He slowly inhaled and exhaled, only thinking about one thing...
crab...
"It's better to calm down that way. Rather than...you know..."
Shuji peeked one eye at his sister who was breathing calmly. He knew what she was talking about.
She was talking about self harm. He brushed it off...
..
As dazai finally becomes conscious again he now realised he was being hugged and was being whispered comforting things by Hermione.
Normally he wouldn't let anyone hug him without permission but he let it slide this time.
He hugged her back.