Sirius stuck to Remus’ side after Christmas.
Sirius had gotten crucioed by his mother and he ran away to the Potters’ home after that. According to Sirius, James’ parents were extremely nice to him, but Remus didn’t trust adults. Not after what happened with his parents…
Back at Hogwarts James had told Remus what happened and it was one of the rare times that Remus initiated a hug with someone. Sirius had cried and Remus comforted him as well as he could.
So, Sirius just saw Remus as a safe space for him, even more than before.
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It started off with just hovering around him. It’s not bad at all, Remus thought, he just had Sirius following him to the library, common room, and the kitchens if Remus was ever hungry for a snack. Remus didn’t mind really, he was just concerned for his traumatized friend.
After school hours end Remus usually goes to the library for an hour to study or just to read, James goes to the quidditch field to practice, Peter stays in the common room and Sirius usually follows James wherever he goes.
This changed, of course. Now everytime Remus said he was going somewhere Sirius would jump up and go with him. If Remus was going to the bathroom then Sirius would hurry to James’ side and not move even an inch away from him until Remus returned.
Everyone eventually noticed Sirius’ strange mood but didn’t comment on it, after reading the article in the paper on the disowned Black heir.
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Every human on this earth who had ever given Sirius a second of their attention knows that his love language was physical touch. It’s obvious in the ways he’s always touching, hugging and showing affection to his friends.
Remus was used to playful punches on his shoulder, constant grabbing of his hand and Sirius laying their hand casually on Remus’ arm but he wasn’t expecting Sirius to get even closer to him.
Sirius was always cuddling with Remus now, in the common room, Great Hall, in their beds on a Saturday morning, all the time.
Remus didn’t really know how to feel about that. He felt important, needed, and cared about, and that felt good, he couldn’t deny it.
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Remus grabbed James’ shoulder and shoved him in an empty classroom.
James staggered backwards and straightened himself. “Hey Moony, what’s this about?”
“Sirius. Yesterday me and him were in my bed and Sirius tried to kiss me and I don’t know what to do about it.” Remus said desperately.
“He tried to kiss you? That’s amazing Remus!” James exclaimed.
“No! That’s not good. What if this is another comfort thing, what if he doesn’t really like me and this is just another coping mechanism?”
“Nah I know Pads, he’s liked you for ages, I can tell.”
“But that’s not fair,” Remus whined. “Why did he pick me of all people? He deserves so much better than me.”
“I reckon he picked you unconsciously. Like if you think of a person that’s safe, who do you think of,” Remus thought. Sirius, James, Lily, Sirius, Peter, Sirius, Madam Pomfrey, Sirius. Oh. “Sirius thinks of you. Because he knows you so well, you know him well, you’re strong, tall and comfy and just- safe.” James said.
Tears welled into Remus’ eyes, no way a sane person would think that about him, he’s a monster. A dangerous creature, a werewolf.
“Hey, Remus, it's fine, don’t cry.” James shushed him. “It’s alright.”
Remus hugged James and James hugged Remus and all was well. For now.
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“Hey Remus?” Sirius whispered, so he doesn’t wake up his other roommates.
“Yeah Sirius?” Remus rubbed circles onto Sirius’ back.
“Is your favorite color still green?” Sirius flexed his legs, which are wrapped around Remus’ hips.
They were in Sirius’ bed and Sirius was laying on top of Remus. It was their go-to cuddling position when Sirius wasn't feeling great because Remus’ heartbeat calmed Sirius.
“Not really, I prefer blue now, but it could change again I’m not sure.”
Sirius laughed. “Are you ever going to like red?”
Remus hummed. “Maybe, maybe not, we’ll see.”
Silence fell again. Sirius sat up and Remus copied him.
“Listen Re-”
“Can we ta-”
They both laughed awkwardly.
“You go first?” Remus asked.
“Okay,” Sirius took a deep breath. “Remus, I like you. Not in a ‘you’re cool mate way but in a ‘I love you’ way. And I know I’ve been weird lately but this isn’t a part of that I promise. I’ve felt like this for a while now and I just didn’t know what to say.”
“Oh.” Remus reminded himself to breathe. “Sirius I’ve liked you since third year and at first I was confused, about everything, but now I’m not. I love you Sirius and I want to be with you.”
Sirius looked at Remus with wide, excited eyes, he smiled and Remus thought that he was the greatest person he’s ever seen. “Seriously? Like, you’d want to be boyfriends?”
Boyfriends. Remus had never loved a thought more than the thought of Sirius being his boyfriend. “Yeah. I’d love that.” Remus smiled brightly at him.
Somehow Sirius’ smile got wider and he leaned forward and pressed his lips onto Remus’. Remus lets him and it was magical. Nothing can prepare you for kissing the boy you’ve liked for four years. The kiss didn’t go much further, because they were tired, and not pressured to go any faster, and they were in love. They pulled apart and Sirius tackled Remus onto the bed with a hug. He laughed in Remus’ neck.
Remus grinned. “What is it Pads?”
Sirius’ voice was muffled when he answered. “Nothing, I just love you Moons.”
Remus kissed Sirius’ hair and he whispered, “I love you too.” Like it was a secret meant only for Sirius to hear. Sirius hummed happily but gave no further response. Seconds later Sirius was snoring.
Remus fell asleep not much longer after that, enjoying the comforting weight of his lover on top of him.