Sirius is bored. Really bored. He's in the subway, travelling to his flat from Regulus' apartment. The ride is thirty minutes and he's been here for just three.
Last night was a good night. He spent the night at Regulus'. He's missed living with Regulus. They baked Christmas cookies and a chocolate cake together - they burnt half the cookies- and they watched The Holidays and The Grinch. And he cherished those moments. The moments with his brother that where supposed to be childhood memories but weren't. Because of their parents. So they make up for it now, spending time together, sirius being the younger brother mentally and Reg the older. They had such a fun time. Reg smiled and laughed for the most of the night. Sirius adores making his little brother happy. He smiled at the thought of his brother looking up at him and finding him worth smiling for.
He looks at his watch. Four minutes have passed; twenty-six to go.
Regulus isn't used to smile that much. He used to, when they were kids, before the awful reality of their house and their life kicked in and the expectations became too high. He used to smile when Sirius braided his hair. He used to laugh when he and Sirius sneaked out on the roof at night to stargaze. He used to grin when he and Sirius did pranks on their parents. He used to giggle when he and Sirius would exchange clothes; him in a tux too big for him and Sirius twirling around in his dresses.
He looks at his watch again. Five minutes have passed; twenty-five to go.
They hadn't talked about it. Reg never came out to Sirius. His big brother just... knew. It's like a sixth sense that comes with siblings; just like Reg always knew Sirius was gay, even before he himself had figured it out. Sirius, one day called him 'Reg'. Regulus was confused. His name used to be Reign; it didn't sound like 'Reg'. When he asked his brother why he called him that, Sirius responded "Because it reminds me of Regulus. Your favourite star. And also it's a very beautiful name.". Sirius will always remember the way Regulus had looked at him at that moment. In his gaze, there was happiness that his brother accepted him, love for Sirius and a brightness accompanying these emotions, but most importantly, there was pride. Pride that he could be who he wanted. Pride, because if Sirius agreed with him, then there was nothing wrong with him since his brother was always right. Pride because there was pride in Sirius' eyes as well. Sirius' thoughts linger on his brother for some time more.
He looks at his watch again. Six minutes have passed; twenty-four to go.
He sighs. He bounces his leg up and down. He stops. He starts tapping his fingers rhythmically on his knee. He fidgets.
He notices he's begun to annoy the nearby people with his restlessness. He tries to refrain himself. Instead, he watches all the strangers around him.
There is a mom, with two children. The younger one is sitting on her legs and the other is leaning on her arm. She smiles as she strokes both their hair.
Next to her, there is a young boy talking to an elder woman. He doesn't think they know each other, but the boy is very polite and kind.
A couple of seats away, there is a couple holding hands and listening to music by the same earphones.
He likes this, he thinks. It's proof that the world isn't just darkness and suffer; that it's filled with kindness and goodness as well.
Then Sirius sucks in a breath. Yes, there is definitely goodness in this world. Because next to them is sitting the most beautiful man he's ever seen. He's around his age. Golden hair, eyes the colour of honey, freckles and scars across his face. He is thin, and he wears an oversized maroon sweater with baggy jeans and beige all stars. But his looks isn't what has attracted Sirius' attention, no (even though he is extremely beautiful). What has drawn him in is his expression. He is reading a book and he is so concentrated. He looks like he's on his own world, lost in the book he's reading. He looks peaceful, happy. He's not smiling; he's holding his bottom lip with his thumb and index finger, but he does look happy.
Sirius, of course, as an artist, has the intent desire to draw him. So he does because he's bored and he doesn't have anything better to do (although he thinks there are too few things that could be considered better than drawing this man. One of them could possibly be snogging him senseless). He takes out his sketchbook and his pencil and he starts drawing finally after one month without any inspiration. It's like he's found his muse.
The time passes and the moment he finishes his drawing, he realises he has to get off the subway. He gathers his things quickly and steps out at the station. In his rush, he doesn't notice a really tall man and he walks right at him. He drops his things. He looks up to apologise, but he finds a surprise waiting for him.
★
"I'm so sorry." Remus mumbles as he reaches to grab the other man's things he dropped.
As he lifts the things, a sketchbook is opened at a page that reveals a drawing that resembles Remus very much. Actually, it is Remus. He is entranced by the beauty of it. He doesn't like how he looks, but this drawing can easily develop his self-esteem. The work is perfect. There are a lot of details and the artist has actually captured Remus' expression, his thoughts and feelings. They all appear clearly on the sketchbook like a book waiting to be read. It's like this artist has understood him completely. Never has that happened to Remus, and he can't say if the butterflies in his stomach is a good or a bad thing.
He lifts his head from the drawing to give the man his things and comment on the drawing but he freezes. The man standing in front of him is the most exquisite piece of art he's ever seen. And he was just thinking about how beautiful the drawing was. This man is like an ancient greek sculptor made a statue, so beautiful, that the gods decided to give it life and will for itself.
He's got long black hair and he is much shorter than Remus. He wears a leather jacket, a shirt of Abba, black jeans and black boots. He has the most breathtaking features: sharp cheekbones and jawline, french nose and beautiful grey eyes. He has eyeliner on. Remus thinks he died and woken up in heaven.
"Hi" he says. He sounds breathless. He hopes the man doesn't notice. "You dropped these. I'm Remus, by the way."
He hands the man his things. The man doesn't move for a while. Then, he clears his throat and speaks. "Uhm right thanks." Remus notice he sounds a little breathless too. That's good. "I'm Sirius." Of course. A magical name for a man like magic. Sirius, the brightest star, and as it seems, the brightest man. Oh, Remus is smitten. "About the drawing -"
Remus interrupts him. "It's really pretty. It is so well done and it conveys so many emotions."
The other man, Sirius, blushes. "Thanks... So you, you don't mind that I drew you?" He asks.
"No. As I said it's really pretty. I love it."
"Oh, well then great." Sirius looks nervous. He bites his bottom lip and Remus is damned. He wants to shove him against a wall and snog him senseless. "Uhm, this might seem weird but what are you going to do now?".
Remus smiles. Is Sirius flirting with him? He thinks so because he's leaned a little towards Remus and he bats his eyelashes in a seductive manner. The same man that one minute ago was red from his nervousness. Merlin, let him be flirting. Remus hopes he is. Otherwise he is about to be very embarrassed about what he's about to do. "I was hoping I'd get the chance to have coffee with a handsome man."
Sirius is blushing furiously. Well, it seems Remus was right. "The handsome man in question would really like that."
"Great. Then I guess I should go find him."
Remus watches as Sirius' eyes widen with shock and his eyebrows forrow in confusion. And then realisation hits him and he bursts out laughing. And Remus is smirking.
When Sirius contains himself, Remus looks at him with and amused grin and speaks. "Well, what are we waiting for? Are you coming?"
And Sirius says very quickly and very eagerly "Yes." And then they walk out the subway. And Remus is ecstatic. Because he knows himself and he can't deny the fact that he's gonna fall for this man.
★
Sirius is vibrating with enthusiasm. He's going on a date with Remus.
To be honest, he doesn't know why he is so excited about this date since he just met Remus. But God knows how much he is. I mean, he doesn't even know Remus. Yes, he is gorgeous, but that's not why Sirius wanted to go out with him. No, it was his demeanor. Remus was quiet and peaceful and he appeared to hold all the mysteries of the world in his hands. Sirius doesn't usually like quiet. He constantly needs to be among people and do something energetic. So, it really troubles him that he is willing to spend time with a man so tranquil as Remus. On the other hand, he already feels like he would do anything for this man, even turn the whole world upside down just to please him.
They are walking through a square when Remus suddenly says "I forgot I have to buy a birthday present. Would you mind go to a bookstore with me?"
Sirius thinks that this is the stupidest question someone has asked him in his entire life. Why the hell would he mind going anywhere with Remus? He would literally follow him through hell if he asked him to. But he won't say that. He doesn't want to appear too eager. So instead he says "It's alright. Let's go."
Remus smiles and they start to do small talk. Sirius learns that Remus is Welsh and that he has come here for university. He wants to be a teacher. It suits him, Sirius thinks. Don't ask him why he thinks that, since he's known the guy for literally half an hour. He asks what Sirius is planing to do. Sirius tells him about the art school he's attending and the gallery he owns.
They reach a bookstore and they step inside. Sirius watches as Remus' face lights up and how he scans the books with an admiring gaze. He is mesmerized by the way Remus is so careful with the books, taking them in his hands with care and turning the pages slowly. Sirius thinks he's falling in love. He knows that can't be possible, he just met this man, but that's how he feels.
When they leave the bookstore, Remus has two bags. Sirius asks him who are the gifts for.
"My best friend Lily is turning twenty three next week. She loves books as much as I do. But this bag is for me. You can't expect me to go in a bookstore and not buy at least one book."
Sirius laughs. Remus is so cute. He says so, and Remus turns a beautiful shade of red. Remus is even more beautiful when he is blushing. Sirius just made it his personal achievement in life to make Remus blush constantly.
They arrive at a café nearby that Sirius frequents. Remus orders chamomile; Sirius black coffee. They continue getting to know each other.
Remus tells him about how he misses his parents, now he's far from home. He tells him about his life in Wales and Sirius is intrigued. Not only by what Remus is saying, but also by the way he says it. He has this light in his eyes when he talks about his farm and his home, his city and his everyday life. And then he asks Sirius about his life.
Sirius tells him about Regulus. About how close they were when they were children, about those two awful years that neither spoke to each other, and about the way they reconciled. "Reg is the most important person to me on earth. I can't believe I managed without talking to him for two whole years. I missed him dearly."
They continue talking for four more hours, without that awkward silence between them, always one of the two speaking.
★
They have been in the coffee shop for almost five hours and Remus knows they should either leave or order something else. It's a miracle the owner hasn't kicked them out, but he suspects Sirius knows the blond waitress that's working here. In the back of his mind, he thinks that she looks like the girl Cas has a crush on. But he's too interested in Sirius to give it that much thought.
Sirius must have the same thoughts about the owner kicking them out because he says, "Well, it's getting pretty late. So I guess we should head home."
Anr Remus would be lying if he said he wasn't at least a little disappointed. He doesn't show it though. "Well, I guess you're right. I had a really great time."
Sirius looks at him confused. "I just meant that we should head to my apartment. Because I really like you and I don't want this to end just yet."
And Remus feels like his heart might brust out of his chest and start leaping around in circles from how excited and fluttered he is. This man is going to be the death of him. "Oh, thank god because I don't want it to end either."
When he hears this, Sirius flashes the brightest smile and he looks delighted.
They pay the bill - Sirius insisted on paying and although Remus strongly refused, since he's best friends with the waitress (Remus was right as always), he gets to have it his way- and then they leave. It turns out that the walk to Sirius' flat is a seven-minute walk but it takes them at least ten minutes to reach it because they're constantly stopping to laugh or point at something. Remus doesn't think he's ever bonded so quickly with someone; he has always been a shy person. But with Sirius, everything comes naturally.
They enter the flat and Sirius acts like a fucking gentleman. He takes off Remus' coat and hangs it by the entrance - Remus is dying internally, thank you very much - and then he guides him to the living room and tells him to sit on the couch.
As soon as he sits, a black puppy jumps on ths sofa and starts sniffing him while it shakes its little tail. It's the cutest puppy Remus has ever seen and he coos at it. He takes it in his hands and the puppy immediately tries to lick his face. "Who's this little guy over here?"
"Oh that's Padfoot. I found him on the street a few weeks ago and it was a true crime that he was homeless so I took him in. I mean look at that face." Sirius says as he returns from a room, where Remus suspects is the kitchen, with two bowls and an ice cream. It's not at all what Remus thought they would drink or eat but he can't say he really minds. He adores ice cream and anything that has to do with chocolate.
They fall into easy conversation once again while they're eating their ice cream.
★
They have been in his flat for nearly an hour. Remus is talking to him but Sirius doesn't pay attention. He can't. Not when Remus is speaking with so much enthusiasm and his lips are turned upwards. Sirous is mesmerized by those lips. He wants to lean in and kiss him. Immediately.
"Sirius? Are you listening?" Remus asks and Sirius instantly feels ashamed. But Remus doesn't seem mad so maybe he doesn't mind that much that Sirius isn't listening to him very carefully.
"No, I must admit. I was just thinking of how much I wanted to kiss you. Can I please kiss you?"
"After the third date." Remus jokes. Though Sirius doesn't seem to get he's joking because he deflates a little looking a bit sad.
But then there is a glint in his eyes and a smirk on his lips as he leans in a little. "Then I guess I should take you on the third date right now."
Remus smirks back. "And when were the first and second?" He asks playfully.
"The first was in the café and this is the second. Different place, different date. So, would you like to go on our third date?" Until Sirius has finished speaking, he has stood in front of Remus and he is offering a hand to him. And Remus obviously takes it while he says "I would love to." because what else is he supposed to do? Say no to this man? The man of his dreams that he didn't even know he dreamed of?
Sirius smiles bashfully as he lifts him off the couch and leads him to the kitchen. He pours two glasses of red wine - after he asks Remus which he prefers because that man is literally perfect and they sit there, sipping their wines and looking at each other.
Sirius is sitting on the counter and Remus is leaning against it. They don't talk, but the silence is comfortable. Sirius has never experienced something as a comfortable silence except for when he's with reg. It's marvellous how this man that he met just today can calm his nerves and drive away his restlessness.
They're staring intently at each other and Sirius lets his gaze fall to the other man's lips. Remus catches it and maybe because of the tension, or the wine (who knows and who cares) he leans in a little towards Sirius. He hears him inhale and he asks "What about that kiss you promised me?" Sirius then looks him in the eyes, his own filled with desire. Remus can't take it any more. He leans in completely and captures Sirius' lips with his own.
It's a soft and delicate kiss but it doesn't lack in passion. Sirius immediately places his arms around Remus' neck to pull him between his thighs so their chests are pressed together. Remus has one hand on Sirius' hip and the other sitting beside the man in front of him.
It's heaven how good Sirius tastes and it should be a crime because it's killing Remus.
★
Oh god oh god oh god oh god! Remus is kissing him! His lips are against Sirius' and Sirius is a dead man. He's so desperate he snakes his arms around Remus' neck in order to bring them as close as possible. He can feel the heat radiating off Remus and it's one of the best feelings he has ever felt in his entire life. He wants to stay like this forever, breathing the same air with Remus and drowning in his warmth. God Remus is just so hot and so perfect!! And he's kissing Sirius!!
He feels Remus' tongue on his bottom lip and he makes the most embarrassing noise ever. But that doesn't matter because Remus' grip tightens a little where it rests on Sirius' hip. So, when Remus enters his tongue in his mouth, he's not at all embarrassed that he makes the same noise, only louder this time.
They continue kissing until someone's keys can be heard and then the voice of James shouting "Hey Sirius!!"
He groans and curses his eleven year-old self for making the mistake of deciding that James is going to be his best friend for his entire life. "Go away!" He shouts back and then pulls Remus in by his face because he'd pulled away when he heard James.
But Remus leans back again. "Don't you think you should talk to your guest?"
"It's just my best friend." And then he is pulling him in again.
A whine is heard. "Just your best friend? Siri, you wound me!"
They pull away again and Sirius is pleased to notice that Remus' cheeks are red. But not so pleased as to prevent him from looking at his best friend with narrowed eyes.
James, the traitor, has the audacity to smirk. "Well, well. Don't let me interrupt you." And then when Remus turns around, his smirk becomes a happy smile as he says "Lupin!! How are you doing?" And then, his eyebrows furrow with confusion. "Actually, what are you doing... here?"
And sirius is lost. He nudges Remus so he turns and looks at him. "How do you know James?"
Remus seems as confused as James. "He's dating my best friend."
Sirius' brows shot up. "He's dating my brother."
Remus gapes at him. "Regulus is your brother? Jesus, where was he hiding you?" Sirius blushes a deep shade of red at that. "Wait... Were you talking about Reg before?" He hums. "Oh my god that's so funny. I'm sooo gonna tease him about what you said." And his eyes are alight with mischief.
James clears his throat behind them and they turn to look at him. "Well, I came to drop these" he says as he lifts a bag. "You forgot them at reg's and since I was here for work I brought them." He smiles and it's just so kind and James that Sirius smiles too for a little.
"Great, thank you." A pause. "Now go away so I can continue snogging my brother's best friend."
James nods quickly like that's a pretty valid point. "Right, right I'll leave you to it. Many many kisses!!"
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The bitches (+ Pandora),22:08
Remus: REGULUS.
Evan: ??
Barty: Ohhh trouble in paradise
Pandora: Remus what happened?
Remus: SIRIUS BLACK HAPPENED.
Regulus: what about my brother?
Remus: WHERE WERE YOU HIDING HIM?
Regulus: huh?
Remus: I just met him
Remus: and OH MY GOD
Remus: gay panic.
Regulus: what the fuck
Regulus: Remus
Regulus: no.
Regulus: no gay panic for my brother.
Remus: oh it's too late for that
Remus: I think I'm in love
Regulus: what.
Regulus: WHAT.
Barty: oh this is so fun
Evan: don't talk Barty he's gonna kill you too
Pandora: ohh I'm so happy for you Remus!!
Pandora: Sirius is so nice and lovely!
Pandora: oh how i love love!!
Pandora: lily I love you!!
Lily: i know panda
Pandora: :(
Lily: I love you too
Pandora::)
Regulus: can we please go back to lupin being in love with my brother
Regulus: because what.
Regulus: when did you even meet him?
Remus: today morning
Remus: at the subway
Remus: god he's so lovely
Pandora: aww that's so cute!!
Regulus: panda don't encourage him!!
Regulus: please
Dorcas: WOOHOO!!
Dorcas: GO REMUS!!
Regulus: DORCAS SHUT THE FUCK UP
Regulus: Remus you just met him
Regulus: you don't love him
Remus: i know but he's so perfect
Regulus: he's stupid.
Remus: james is a little tiny bit stupid too though
Regulus:.
Barty: OHHHHH
Regulus: Barty shut up
Regulus: do whatever you want Lupin.
Remus: it sounds like a trap
Dorcas: i think it is a trap
Evan: it definitely is a trap
Lily: yeah...
Barty: totally
Regulus: jeez thanks for believing in me
Pandora: don't worry reg I believe in you!!
Pandora: also I bought a fish!! 😁 🐟
Regulus and Remus, 22:18
Regulus: Lupin.
Remus: yeah reg?
Regulus: will I still be your favourite Black?
Remus: Regulus
Remus: Reg
Remus: you're not only my favourite Black
Remus: you're my favourite person
Remus: nothing's gonna change that
Regulus: yeah?
Remus: of course
Regulus: fine
Regulus: do whatever you want
Remus: i love you reg
Regulus: shut up
Remus: <3
Regulus: ...
Regulus: i love you too remus.
Regulus: goodnight
Remus: goodnight
Regulus and Sirius, 22:24
Regulus: he's mine
Regulus: I'm his favourite
Regulus: you have James.
Sirius: oh come on you have James too!
Sirius: please reg
Sirius: please please please
Sirius: he's so perfect
Sirius: he's so lovely
Sirius: he's everything good in this world
Sirius: I think I'll fall for him
Sirius: if i haven't already
Regulus: fine.
Regulus: I'm rolling my eyes right now
Sirius: oh trust me I know
Sirius: THANK YOU REGGIEEE!!!!
Regulus: shut up.
Regulus and James, 22:39
Starman: James
Starlover: yes darling?
Starman: i love you
Starlover: 😁
Starlover: i love you too baby
Starlover:❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Starman:❤️