good luck, babe!

“Cait! Welcome back!” Vi greeted Caitlyn as the girl walks down The Last Drop.

“Violet!” Cait said with a big smile on her face.

With an annoyed look, but somehow still smiling, Vi answered, “Vi. It’s Vi!”

“I know. But I like Violet.” Cait answered and took Vi in for a hug. She caressed the girl’s cheek as she pulled out of the hug.

“Fine. But that name’s only for you. I swear, if I hear any of your friends call me Violet, I’ll go on a rampage,” Vi jokingly said.

“Yeah, I like that. Violet’s only for me.”

—

“Cait, hey. Stop crying,” Vi said. She took a box of tissues from the bedside and carefully wiped Cait’s tears with the fear of ruining her make up, “Man, your mother’s going to be furious if your make-up’s ruined.” She said to try and lighten the mood.

Caitlyn could not stop crying. And she also couldn’t move.

“I’ll… I’ll leave, just stop crying, please. I, I don’t like seeing you like this,” Vi said, her voice betraying her as she sounds like she’s about to cry, too.

“Why are you here in the first place?” Caitlyn finally managed to let out.

“I didn’t know Jayce would make you go here in the room, I just brought what he asked me for. He-uh, reached out to me, through Powder, he asked what could he give for something blue, because Mel, Viktor, Ekko, and Powder are no help. Powder had the idea to ask me. That maybe I know something blue that you would like,” Vi rambled as she fidgeted with her fingers, without taking her eyes off Caitlyn.

“The necklace.” Cait saidand fidgeted her fingers to her neck.

“It’s faint, but it is blue. Yeah. The necklace.”

—

Whenever Cait is too busy to go to Zaun, Vi drives up to Piltover to see her. And today, Cait was woken up by knocks on her door and the smell of muffins and coffee. “Rise and shine, cupcake.”

“Vi?” Cait asked as she stands up from her bed, she rubbed her eyes and stretched her body, and she saw her, Vi, at the door with the bags on her hand.

“Good morning, Cait.”

“I missed you,” Cait said and went towards Vi for a hug. She kissed Vi’s cheek and took the coffees and placed it on a table, “go sit there, I’ll freshen up a little.”

Vi let out a hum and sat on the couch near the window, she took the pastries outside the bag and also removed the coffees from their to-go containers. She looked up at the woman going towards her and she stood up to welcome her with a hug, she said, “You’re beautiful.”

“Yes, yes, you keep on saying,” Cait answered and giggled, she remained on the hug and fidgeted with the necklace on Vi’s neck, “I want this.”

“The hug or the necklace?”

“Why can’t it be both?”

“The hug, I’ll give you everyday and every hour, the necklace? No. Never, sweetheart, sorry,” Vi said and laughed.

“Never?!”

“Yeah,” Vi pulls out from the hug and sat back down where Cait follows her, “It’s from my Mom. My Dad gave it to her when they got married, and before she went out the night she died, she gave this to me. Maybe for me to keep in case I get married one day.” Vi said and looked out on the window with her coffee on her hand.

“Oh. Sorry, I didn’t mean to pry. I’m sorry for bringing that up,” Cait answered and took one of Vi’s hand and squeezed it. Vi let out a smile and held Cait’s hand gently.

—

Caitlyn stopped crying. She’s now sitting down in a chair, being calmed down by Vi. Vi gave her a bottle of water and the box of tissues.

Caitlyn is so confused. She is angry, sad, but mostly confused. Why is she here? Why did she give it to me now?

“Why’d you give it to me? Surely, you know it’s for my wedding, so why? Why give it?” Cait asked Vi with an angry tone.

“Because you wanted it, Cait.”

Cait looked at Vi a lot more furiously, “That’s it?”

“Yes. Because during the time we were together, you always prioritize what I want, it’s always ‘what do you want to do, Violet?’,  ‘where do you want to eat, Violet?’;

You used to talk about a lot the things you’re doing for your family, doing the things that guy you’re marrying wanted, I mean, hell, if it wasn’t for him, you wouldn’t even stop to think about this marriage thing,” 

Vi looked Cait directly in her eyes, “I never heard you once talk about what you want, Cait. I mean, come on, your own friends— the friends you have since you can’t even remember when— don’t know what to get for you, because you don’t talk about what you want,”

Vi said, holding back tears as she tries to not raise her voice to the woman in front of her.

“The only time I heard you talk about what you want is when you asked about my necklace. So yes, Cait, that’s it. You’re entering a marriage, something I don’t actually believe you want; so, I figured, maybe Jayce, or maybe I could give you something you actually wanted.”

“You don’t know what I want!” Cait screamed, tears threatening to leak from her eyes again.

“Don’t I, Cait?” Vi asked softly, she then furrowed her eyebrows and looked away, “Maybe I don’t. But I know for sure it’s not this,”

Her voice started breaking, “Or maybe that’s just something I tell myself, because I was sure, I was so sure that I could be the one you’d want and fight for but, Cait, fuck, I watched you walk away from me! From me, Cait!” Tears started bursting out of Vi.

“You told me to leave!” Cait shouted back.

“Because you said you wanted to come back here! You said we were nothing! That I was nothing! I watched you walk away, and I saw you falter ten times before you could actually run away from me. You think I didn’t want to come after you? To run towards you when I saw you look back even just so slightly? But fuck, that time, in my head, I thought, she wouldn’t walk away from me if I am really what she wanted. But you did.” Vi said, she calmed herself down and held her hand near her heart, as if she could prevent it from shattering.

“I waited, Cait. The whole night, I waited for you to come back. You didn’t. And later on, I told myself, ‘she’s just not choosing what she want once again’. I know that it was nothing against me, that you were just choosing what you think is right. Unlucky for me, I’m not the right choice.”

Vi said the last words so weakly it’s almost inaudible, making the tears Caitlyn was trying so hard to hold back because she had just stopped crying broke out of her. She couldn’t keep it in, not with Vi crying, and with what she’s saying.

—

“You know, one day, I may actually give you the necklace,” Vi said. They’re cuddling under the stars on Zaun’s beach.

“You don’t have to,” Cait said, holding out her hand to reach Vi’s. Vi quickly placed her hand together with Cait’s.

“No, I want to. One day, when you decide this is what you want, I’d give it to you.”

Cait’s heart skipped a beat. She smiled. “Yeah? Then you’d marry me?” Cait asked.

“Yeah, I’d marry you, cupcake.”

—

“You told me you’ll only give me the necklace when—“ Cait tried to say through her tears, Vi cut her off,

“Yeah, I know what I said,” and looked away.

“And you’re still giving it to me, despite knowing it’s not what I chose. It’s not you I chose.”

Vi gave Cait a faint smile, “Yeah, cupcake. I don’t fucking care. I just want you to realize you could choose yourself. Maybe one day, you could be true to yourself, no?” Vi reached out for Cait’s face, she cupped it and smiled at her brightly, “You’re so beautiful, Caitlyn.”

Everyone had already told Caitlyn she’s beautiful today, but only Vi said it to her when she looks like a mess, with tears on her cheeks, ruined make up, ruined everything. 

“I’m going to leave, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come and ruin your big day,” Vi said as she tried to gather herself. She gave Caitlyn a quick kiss on her head and started walking away.

“How do you still remember that night?” Caitlyn asked before Vi could open the door.

“I can still remember every night and day you were with me, Cait.”

Caitlyn ached. She turned around to look at Vi.

“I didn’t mean it, you know?” Cait said as her own voice from that night echoes in her head.

Vi took a step forward to hold Caitlyn’s hand, “I know, cupcake. I know,” tears started running down again on both of their faces.

“You mean everything to me, Violet.”

—

“Leave? You want to leave?!” Caitlyn screamed at Vi.

“I want us to leave. Let’s leave this, start a life somewhere.”

“I have a life, Vi! My family’s on Piltover, and I have a probable fiancé there!”

Vi let out a sarcastic laugh, “Now that this isn’t as much fun for you anymore, you want to go back? You want to marry that hunk of a man?”

“We were fine before you came, Violet! We were happy, and we were gonna get married before you come along!”

Vi finally broke down and raised her voice. “What am I to you, Caitlyn?! Your six-month break?! You said you wanted to marry me! What was that? That was casual? That was nothing to you?!”

Cait showed more anger in her face and screamed, “Yes! You’re a temporary something! A break! I’m not— I’m not this.”

Vi grunted, “What? A lesbian?”

“I’m not a le— Queer. Whatever. I’m not this.”

Vi let out a forced laugh, “It’s not a curse word, cupcake. Yeah, sure. You’re not. You’re just never attracted to any man, and you just slept with me like hundred of times because you’re experimenting. Sure!”

“Don’t you dictate my life to me, Violet. I know who I am, what I am, and what I want!”

“And this is not what you want? You don’t want me? Want us?!”

“No,” Cait said with tears on her eyes. “This is exactly what you thought it was, an experiment, a fun-time. Nothing else. It was just casual. It was fun while it lasted.”

Vi is furious. She is in so much pain, and so much anger, but somehow she managed to let out her words softly, “I didn’t mean anything to you?” Her sadness and pain came through.

Cait hesitated, her brows furrowed as she said, “No. We don’t mean anything, Vi. I was never meant to be here. Just— there. I was meant to marry him, and take over my Mother. So, yeah. This? Us? It doesn’t mean anything.”

Vi could hear her own heart break right now. She started sobbing, but quickly gathered herself, “Leave. Don’t ever come back. Go live your perfect stupid piltie life.”

“Vi, please, you’re my friend—“

“No, Cait. I don’t mean anything to you, right? Fine! So be it. You’re fine before I come along? Go! Go there and never come back here.”

“I didn’t-“ Cait tried to said with tears on her eyes,

“Stop, Cait. Go live your delusions that this is what you want. You finally found an excuse to leave and a stupid fucking reason— that guy— one you claim you want. Go, leave.”

Cait hesitated, she did not say anything but she moved towards Vi, and before she could even say anything, Vi screamed, “I said leave!” and she threw something on the ground. Everything in her brain is so blurry  she doesn’t even know what she threw.

When she saw Caitlyn leave, something slapped her to reality. Is she actually leaving? Vi followed her as fast as she could. 

“Cait, wait—“ Vi said weakly, she was too weak, and Cait’s already quite far away from her.

She watched Caitlyn walk away. The woman she loves kept on stopping, faltering, as if there’s a magnetic pull from the house preventing her to go forward. She looked back slightly—as if she was getting a one final glimpse of the life she had for six months—before she ran away. She ran far away from there and never looked back. 

Vi waited for hours in the side of the road waiting for Cait to come back. She never did.

Not that night, and not for two years.