Chapter 1
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️~warnings: EATING PROBLEMS , KISSES ~ ⚠️⚠️
Pandora, Evan and Dorcas will talk about gossip in a train carpmartment about how Dorcas and Marlene are together and how pandora has becoming close to Xenophilius, and generally everything trying to find out Evans love life as he never talks about it. And generally talk bad about anyone who hurt their friends as their Holliday's were pretty boring.
While the marauders: James, Sirius, Remus, Peter would be in another train carpmartment and say how the Holliday off hogwarts were and since Sirius and James had spend most of it together as Sirius left the Black house from all the abuses and curses had the same sort of story of the holidays then Sirius would talk about how cool it is to date Remus and then Remus and Sirius will try and find out about Peter's and James love life which was kinda hard but everyone thought James still likes lily which he doesn't not romantically anymore, he has some sort of feelings for a short black haired attitudey boy. And would play truth or dare.
Then in another compartment is Mary , Marlene and Lily. Mary and lily will flirt the hall way through the trip to hogwarts as they were a couple and Marlene would talk about how great it is been a lesbian and dating Dorcas and will fill lily and Mary in any of the hot gossip which Mary enjoys very much and lily not so much as she doesn't know if your ment to saying it or not but she loves hear Marlene talk about it.
Lastly Barty and regulus would be in a carpment talking about randomest things like how many babys can be thrown out of windows at once and then how they both want to leave the house and random stuff. Until Regulus brought up how Evan gossips with the girls and not them. Regulus sees Bartys face flushed up at the sound of Evans name. "You like rosier ayy Bartemius crouch?" Regulus says grabbing a Book on magical creatures to read. "Shut up!" Barty says partly embrassed with a shake in his voice, "would he ever like me tho?" Regulus keeps his eye in the book "to be honest with you mate I don't know"
In the marauders carpmartment,
James pov:
"truth or dare pronges" Sirius asks trying to be mysterious but fails. I gives It a thought or two "dare." I said with hesitation not knowing what the dare was ahead of me like what if it's to do a dare that embarrasses me in front of his brother? The thoughts runs in my mind of all the what ifs. "I dare you to go and knock on my brother's train compartment and telling him I died I wanna see his reaction" Sirius says with a little bit of a grin and I start to make my way to Carpmartment, I was thinking about how am I going tell regulus that his brother Is dead on MY WATCH for a dare he's gunna hate me he has hated me for ages ofcourse he has but if I tell him his brother is dead he's gunna hate me more for a dare is he? Or will he react happy or relieved that it's a dare? Oh I just wish regulus came and went to my house on the holidays so he wouldn't have to deal with his parents but I guess maybe he will change his mind soon.
I get to his Carpmartment and takes a few breathes to try and get the nerve to knock the door and I feel my hand swearing. And I see the black haired boy with greyish eyes talking to who seemed to have brown hair with a slight green in it, hair and green eyes who I guess what Barty. I finally got the courage to knock on the door. I saw that regulus had: a Book on magical creatures in his hands and his mouth opening and shutting while talking is so pretty only if I can hear his voice I started to think about my feelings towards him then realises WAIT THAT'S MY BESTFRIENDS LITTLE BROTHER HE WILL KILL ME? I started looking around as they took a while to open the carpment , I had a feeling someone were staring at me then eventually the short black haired boy opened the Carpmartment, finally now all I got to do is say he's brother is dead not hard right?...."what do you want?" regulus, The short black haired boy says so bitterly. I find Barty given me a pacifically not a good look like some sort of death stares like what? "I wanted to talk to you and apologize" I say, normally I had a bright smile but I didn't for this once. "Okay? Go ahead apologise and then go on hang out with my brother" regulus' says, I could tell he has been hurted alot more when Sirius hasn't been there to help him. I couldn't bring it in him to do the dare I just sigh "Sirius and I apologise for him leaving the house but know that the doors to go to mine are always open okay? I know you hate me but I think you rather feel more safe with your brother and a guy you hate than stay with your parents abuse" I say, he just stands there and ends up saying "I'll think about it now please go we are in a middle of something" His face seems pink and I leave to go back to Sirius oh I'm not telling him I didn't do the dare but I'm so relieved he'd think about it to come which means he defo comeee!
~regulus and Barty's compartment~
Regulus pov:
"maybe there's away he will or does like you but is afraid to tell you and assumed you didn't like him you know" I started explaining to Barty until there was a knock on the carpment and Barty elbowed me then I looked up to see a tall, curly haired , bright hazel brown eye strangely attractive boy which is weird I never found anyone attractive but he kinda looks fit as I open the carpment I realise it's Potter, James potter I stare into his bright hazel eyes "what do you want?" I said bitterly, I glance at Barty to see him giving him a death stare for interrupting us I don't blame him but like why is Potter all the sudden attractive.
"I wanted to talk to you and apologize" he says normally but he didn't have his bright smile which is weird "Okay? Go ahead apologise and then go on hang out with my brother" I says I'm sorta wondering why is james speaking to me he hasn't spoken to me ever, I hear James sighs and says "Sirius and I apologise for him leaving the house but know that the doors to go to mine are always open okay? I know you hate me but I think you rather feel more safe with your brother and a guy you hate than stay with your parents abuse" I just stands there hearing his voice made me relieved I dont know why it's not like I will , will I? I end up thinking abit then ends up saying "I'll think about it now please go we are in a middle of something" my face starts to warm up and then James leaves , I sigh "sorry about that Barty as I was saying-" I started to say until Barty cuts me off which is unusual "your flustered you like potter! I got an idea,screw yours, what if me and you fake date to see if both or any of them get jelousy to see if they like us, but like we get to practice kissing" barty says and it doesn't seem like a bad idea. I roll my eyes "fine by me but if we ever get them we will tell them it ment nothing " And i say firmly then as time past we made it to hogwarts, I can't stop thinking about potter I really don't know why. Looking at the view outside waiting to go at home Which really was hogwarts.
~at hogwarts great hall~
regulus pov:
we get our timetables, and I've been thinking about how weird potter was by not doing his normal smile I missed seen it, yeah Barty says I like him but I'm not certain but I'm willing to fake date Barty for the time been as I never really know what it is to love someone or how it feels I normally leave that up to pandora which I still need to see her, pandora is my literal ride or die, my plantonic soulmate, and one of the sweetest girls ever and my parents have suggested me and her should get married before after hogwarts as we that close and a boy and girl but I don't have romantic feelings for her and she doesn't have any for me either, I've started to notice I'm more interested in liking boys than girls and I don't know if I should tell my parents or not but for right now I need to go and find if me and panda have the same lesson as I go to ravenclaw table I pass potter, he stops me in my direction "Reggieee" he says passing me a note and then runs over to the gryffindor table and sits next to Sirius, Peter and Remus with lily, the girl he loves or did he constantly asked her out ever since I known him but he hasnt yet thank lord he knows that lily likes girls and is with Mary , I get to Pandora's table where I see Emmeline and Emma My chosen mums I greated them all with a hug, forgetting I'm holding a note potter gave me. "So how' was your summers my loves" I ask them as they were the only people who seemed not to judge me and the only ones cared, the ones who haven't left me. "Amazing me and Emme spended the whole summer together!! And we heard that you might leave your house soon which is really good!" Emma says I smile "glad to hear you guys had a good summer , how about you pandaaa my plantonic soulmate!?" I ask pandora. "My summer was alright I guess but hay Reggie what's that note I saw jams gave it to you" pandora asks as she was literally friends with everyone she has a nickname for almost everyone Poyter happens to be jams, my nickname depends on her most of the time is my beloved star or Reggie which I love! "Oh yeah I forgot about that I read after but I need help as y'all open pansexual, lesbian and bisexual" i start to say. "I've been wondering my sexuality as I've never had things for girls, yeah or like anyone until today which was a guy and I was wondering am I gay and I don't know I keep thinking about him" I finish.
"My beloved star, your gay 100% and we support" dora says with her sweet smile. "Yayy we got a gay son!!" Emmeline says to Emma I just smile. And then opens the note James gave me saying:
Dear regulus, I hope you actually come to my house next Holliday Sirius really misses you and I want to teach you the ways how to be awesome like me ;)" I start smiling while reading it, "and by the way I hope we can be friends soon! And if your wondering why I didn't say your last name , is because I know you don't like it and who wants you not to like it, it should change, anyways: gryffindor will beat y'all at quiditch ;) love from James. F. Potter" I smile at the letter and puts it way "potter says he wants to be friends and will beat me at quiditch lastly wants me to leave house" i tell pandora as Emmeline and Emma had disappeared, only merlin knows what they're doing. "Ooooo you two should be friends and you should leave The black house and don't let him win quiditch I wanna see his ego lower" Pandora tells me joyful. I mean I can try and be his friends but my egos to high and what if he finds out I'm trans and gay?.. I mean Emmeline , pandora and Emma knows I'm gay but no one besides my family know I'm trans Mays well give it a shot and try and be his friend tho he is quiet annoying but hes my brother's bff and the reason my brother is safe. "Ill write him a letter back 'i say and then we go to our First lesson herbology which is my only lesson with pandora, me and her sit next to eachother like normal, god I missed her over the break and Barty and Evan sits behind us. I go to Barty to find out his thoughts on actually trying to fake date, after the professor finished talking,and then he just kisses me it didn't feel wrong that it was a boy? No I just wished it was some other person. I'm gay 100% now I know for sure and only love one person but I know he doesn't like me and fair enough I don't like me either.
I go back to my seat next to pandora while Evan has been given me dirty looks after witnessing Barty kiss me which is weird but oh well... Then I remembered I got to write to Potter, the guy who I hoped my first kiss will be from?, which I do so, I grab my quill and paper to write a letter to potter, as it's not that hard, I started to write and thinking it through and ended up finishing it which says:" dear James Fleamot potter, I've thought about your offer to go to your house and I agree to go. For my brother really not you but I will be friends with you and you will not win quiditch you idiot, from R.a.B' I should've been paying attention to the lesson but I can't not right now: at least now I know where me and Barty fake date stands I won't have to come out properly they will just know with me and Barty dating. I seal the letter up. "Hay panda do you mind-" i start to say and she cuts me off, with over excitement "give it to jams? Of course I can but you should come with me I'm meeting him tonight with Remus who is your brother's boyfriend and your second best friend "
"I'll go only for you pansie" I say , that was my first time given her a different nickname that other people give her , she gives me a bright smile and takes the letter, oh she's gunna be my future wife if neither us married or fall inlove I don't care.
~ in the great hall~
James Pov
On the train before getting into the great hall I was writing a letter for regulus I put so much thought in it I hope he enjoys it, I hold the letter running into the great hall , this is a second home to me , I see regulus near ravenclaw with pandora, the girl I'm meeting tonight, no not romantically plantonically I think shes the only one who knows about my feelings cause I really can't tell othe people as they tell Sirius, also remus is going to, I run stopping regulus in his direction "Reggieee" i say giving him a letter he seems annoyed but happy if that makes sense I run over to the gryffindor table to sit next to Lily, my plantonic soulmate who i asked multiple times just to annoy regulus to see if he jealous and to make Snape stop hitting on her and on my other side was Sirius and Remus. "Soo mate , prongsieee you and my brother gunna be friends?" Sirius asks me abit worried about it. "Hay I want him to stop hating me! And plus why not?" I respond to quickly, I take a glance at regulus. "He doesn't hate you..." Sirius starts to say, Remus continues "he actually loves you but doesn't realise it and don't tell him we said that, anyways him and Barty are going to date soon I swear" my jaw drop when I got told he loves me, lily just closes my mouth for me. I felt rash descions about him dating crouch, why him out of everyone? Why not me? If he likes me? I can't he's not even mine. "He... Loves me?" I just about say Remus and Sirius nod , I couldn't believe it, I thought he hated me... Well can't wait to see if he responds to my later I take a glance back where reg was with panda and two other girls to notice the girls gone and him reading the letter and smiling, oh just how cute his smile is, Pandora seems like she catches me admiring at Regulus who is her plantonic soulmate which she confirmed first time I saw her after I met regulus. At the end of hall Me and Sirius holding hands because we're literal icons and because we wanted to do duh talking about pranks. Then Remus and Peter were talking about a book? Who talks about books? Wait regulus does which is so cute but my friends talking about Muggle books? is annoying we go to potions which is our first class , I stare into space thinking about how Sirius and Remus told me regulus loves me, which I doubt he does? Or could his love language be been mean? Cause if it is it's so hot when he's mean to me oh my merlin, I could talk about regulus all day. Today's potion was Amortentia which is the strongest love potion ever. If you smell it , it smells like whoever you like? I'm pretty good at potions it's just that slughorn our potion teacher mainly picks on the slytherin students mainly Sniverless because he's« such a good student » really because he wants points for Slytherins so I gave up answering the questions but eventually Remus stand for our gryffindor rights!! Anyways I smelled the Amortentia and it smelled of black cat, something to do with quiditch and some brand new book? It reminds me of regulus, I really want to be his friend for right now to get to know him, the lesson ends and I miss the rest of lessons because it's really a free day since we just came back so I go on my broom during my free period waiting for the time to meet pandora with Remus!!
~astronomy tower~
As James go and meet pandora he sees her with the short black haired attitudey boy and James face start going pink at the sight of him, remus elbows James when he notices James catch is admiring him from afar with the ability to stop walking in their direction,
he's wearing a dark green crop top and some tight black jeans with his classy green converses and he looks so god dam pretty, James just want him more than anything and his hair is slightly wet dripping down his face from probably practicing quiditch, trying to be better than me and was sweating as hell oh James want to be his broom ;) , Pandora is wearing her cardigan, white shirt and White jeans with light blue converses converses and Remus is wearing his woolly jumper which has the scent of sirius on it from the cuddles, and blue jeans with his very cute Light brown converses and scribbled the all star to wolfstar as it's his and Sirius ship name and then there's James, wearing a white tank top with my blue jeans that sorta matchs with Remus and HIS iconic red converses, James ended up been dragged by remus so they actually properly near them and pandora gives James a letter: and she's says "it's from my precious star over here , and anyways do you guys like my style icon? Like I dressed him up!! Cause also he's gunna goo on a date with Barty? soo he dressed like that since him and Barty kissed!!" pandora says , James is happy for him to have a boyfriend and all but crouch, he felt his heart drop at the sound of it "thanks for the letter regulus- and mhm nice" he says and really can't stand the thought of regulus and Barty dating then he opens the letter regulus wrote to him while Remus, regulus and pandora talk well regulus isn't talking much as he not the social type yaknow. He reads the letter saying: dear James Fleamot potter, I've thought about your offer to go to your house and I agree to go. For my brother really not you but I will be friends with you and you will not win quiditch you idiot, from R.a.B" he decided to push his feelings of been hurt behind about regulus and Crouch and then close the letter. Then wraps his arm around regulus knowing he hates that "sooo reegggiee you wanna be my friend?" He looks around and sees pandora and Remus left them oh they set us up didn't they? James and regulus starts bonding over quiditch but eventually Regulus sat down and James sit next to him and just stay quiet not knowing what to talk about as they have nothing in common, waiting for time to pass, until James decided to play never have I ever with him. "So never have I ever read a book that isn't about quiditch" James says jokingly and he puts his finger down "I read books about anything! THATS NOT FAIR anyways never have I ever liked someone younger than me" regulus says , and james put a finger that he like Regulus but he's younger than me. "Wait, YOU LIKE CHILDREN?"regulus says jokingly and James laugh like crazy James can feel, he's loosen up to him. "Hm I like to have children of my own when older yeah but I don't have crush on a child, I have a crush on someone slightly younger sure but not older anyways: never have I ever liked a gryffindor " Regulus put a finger down "you have liked a gryffindor your lying!!?" He says shocked James put a finger down " yeah but now I know you like a gryffindor beforee soo you can't say all gryffindors are annoying" They continue playing never have I ever, James ended up with Three fingers up and Regulus has one up so James thought for a while to say and He ended up saying "never have I ever liked a slytherin" James put a finger down but he didn't care , regulus kept his finger up for a second and then remembered Barty and his idea then puts his finger down "you were hesitant why?" James asked him noticing all his fingers were down James had two left from never have I ever. "Forgot Barty was a slytherin-" regulus says. "Uhm okay! Well I won never have I ever and I'm feeling sorta tired so ima go to gryffindor dorm to sleep,see you around? And plus you got a date with Crouch don't you?" James say ,his mind racing with thoughts like to him getting told regulus loves him THEN he dates Barty??
"Good night james, and yes I do hope you sleep well" regulus says, James sorta blush getting up "so your using first names ayy?" James say just to be cocky. "Oh shut up" regulus says in spite. "Have a good date reggieeee" James say as James want him to be happy no matter what as James says that he leaves the tower and goes to bed to sleep to not think about Reggie and crouch which just hurts so much? Why?.
Regulus' picks his stuff up and stares at his watch to think when he should go and meet Barty for this "date" when all he really want do is hang around with James more.
~barty and regulus "date"~
Regulus sits down at a table on hogsmeade waiting for Barty to show up but of course he shows up late like he does to class all the time. "Reg don't kill me! I swear it was an accident! I didn't mean to be late I was getting changed and Then talked to rosier as he decided to give me advice for date which I failed one of the task and that was been on time and I'm sorry about" The tall Slytherin said, regulus sighs rolling his eyes "well it's not a real date. Neither us wanna be here let's be honest. " Regulus says all attitudey. Barty says while taking a seat "or we can not take it as a date and just have friends bonding." "Barty. Asoon as Evan likes you back date him. Okay? Don't keep him waiting. But break up with this "dating" with me and date him. " Regulus says. "Yes captain will do and same with Potter?" Barty says. "No I'm doing this for you and Ev not me and James he won't like me and we just becoming friends. " Regulus says fiddling around with his rings. "Okayy sooo Reggie! What did you and potter do in the tower alone? Before you ask panda and rem was getting you guys alone while they go to library because I may have mentioned you guys need alone time" Barty says and regulus' just glares at him before saying, "oh yeah we shared a kiss" been scarastic "seriously, we played never have i ever and he had or has a crush on slythering and I wanna know who andd the person is slightly younger than him by what I gathered" Barty pauses for a few minutes "see he may like you, anyways" Barty gets up and kisses regulus while everyone looks at them whispering "is that the black heir kissing a bloke" "ain't their bff's" "what would happen if walgabra finds out" regulus pretends Barty's james and putting his hands along the side of his neck and pulls him back for a kiss, Barty places his hands in regulus hair, "bathroom?" Regulus slightly nods his heads getting up to go to the bathroom while holding Barty's hand "your not James potter I'm not Evan rosier" regulus says while Barty kisses him against the bathroom stall "hm I know we're just two idiots having fun" Barty says with a slight wink and just traces regulus neck with kisses. Regulus opens the bathroom stall and goes in with Barty closing it and locks it with Barty holding him against a wall kissing all over his neck "claiming regulus is his". Regulus been fine with it not caring just enjoys the feel of kisses along his skin as really he isn't aloud to date at all unless his parents choose who he will date.
~time skip to great hall the next Moring with kisses marks all along regulus neck from barty~
No one's pov
Regulus' sits in Bartys lap wrapping his arms around bartys neck whispering some french pet names: Mon amour made Barty blush the most and Evan kept giving regulus this death stare wishing regulus was him with Barty not regulus, with a slight anger towards regulus not understanding why? Lots of people whisper about regulus been the black heir dating Barty "play boy" crouch jr. Regulus smiles and kisses Barty on a cheek and asks "Ev what's wrong why you giving me that look" regulus asks "I'm not giving you look I'm just tired" Evan says lying and gets up and goes to Pandora Emmeline and Emma "can I stay with you guys while Barty and regulus yaknow?" All of them nod knowing Evan likes Barty.
Marauders whispering around:
"I bet ten gallons they did it in toilet" Sirius says knowing regulus can hear and doing it to annoy him. But James looks sad staring at regulus neck wishing it was him who kissed him like that the one who regulus sitting on. But no? It has to crouch not him. Grabs a peice of toast "I bet they didn't even do It or if so Barty forced regulus into it knowing he can't date. " James says and regulus' smirks knowing it got to him and Evans head Barty gets a strawberry and feeds regulus knowing he hasn't ate for like a day or two not been romantically just been a good friend.
a few weeks past of Barty and regulus dating and James and Evan acting off the whole time while James and regulus friendship extremely closer and regulus barely hangs around with barty so people think they broke up when they haven't~
Regulus runs into the great hall straight to James jumping hugging him like a friend screaming "SO MON SOLEIL! " "Woah calm down little star"James says while hugging him brushing his hair having his face near his neck smelling his sweet cologne. "So me you Picnic in astronomy you can't say noooo mate" regulus says just wanted to hang around him more tho he's still dating Barty but he just wanted to be James more. "Fine regggieeeee only because you said I can't say no. " James says placing him down and sits at gryffindor gryffindor table next to a peter then regulus sat next to him as Sirius beside him on the other and rem is next to Sirius with Mary lily Marlene opposite. Regulus rest his head on James shoulder "do you think I'm a bad boyfriend for not hanging around with Barty?" "He's been hanging around with Rosier so no?" James says confused eating his breakfast his casual Lucky charms with pancakes and orange juice and Sirius had plain butter toast with Orange juice rem had His classic toast with tea and Peter Had Rice Krispies and a glass of milk . Regulus ate nothing just feeling sick but not sick? Like the thought of food makes him throw up? James finishes his food and asks "so Reggie you gunna eat?" Regulus shakes his head "don't feel 100% well anyways: I can't waittt for the picnic it's gunna be so amazing!!" "Okay Reggie okay" James says wrapping his arm around regulus while he's leaning on his shoulder, regulus felt comfortable around James not getting judged just feeling normal. "Soo Jamie when your next quiditch match?" Regulus asks "hm Pads? When's are next quiditch match" Remus looks at James like you should remember this. "I don't know Prongiees" Sirius says. "on Friday" Remus says rolling his eyes. "Moony I don't think pronges and Padfoot have good memory" Peter says quietly. "Soo reg my quiditch match on Friday xD why do you wanna know? Gunna cheer me on??" James says been torment. "Yes ima cheer on you on as a good friend" regulus says while Barty walks up to the table lily Mary Marlene Peter are gone leaving regulus James Sirius and Remus there. "Anyways,So James you have a crush some one? That one's gotta be lily you've liked her since Your first year?" Regulus says determined to wind him up "Ew no" James starts saying until he notices Barty "why he's at our table?" James continues regulus noticing Barty and gives a slight wave and smile getting his head of James shoulder. "I can hear you by the way?" Barty says gunna tell or give regulus a sign that Evan likes him back. James glaring at Barty having a bad feeling about his presents, mainly because he got close to regulus and don't want to loose him to Barty "can you hear me now?" he says out loud then mouths," bye" regulus laughs purely because he just can and doesn't understand why "James, be nice to my boyfriend. " Regulus says, "your ex boyfriend" Barty extends the sentence. Regulus' sits there for few seconds while Barty leaves . "I'm so sorry reg" James mutters underneath his breath he doesn't feel sorry well I mean if reg is upset he will but reg doesn't seem upset and million thoughts floods his brain, Sirius hugs regulus "it's gunna be okay reggie you'll get threw this" regulus pull's away from the hug not even upset about it "it's okay I know so we still gunna be good mates" regulus says forgetting they don't know they were fake dating and Remus Sirius and James give him a confuse look. Remus ends up saying what the three of them thinking "your gunna be friends with your ex??" Regulus thinks about it and nods while saying"yeah I guess? Cause he's call and we were just a fling yaknow? I like someone else and he likes someone else it was just so we're prepared for future references" James responds in excitement"oooo Reggie likes someone when I get to meet" regulus rolls his eyes "hm never. "