Casual
"What the fuck are we Sirius?"
Sirius looks up at Remus, he had never seen him like this before.
"What are we? Mo- Remus what do you mean?"
Remus looks around in shock. Were they friends? A couple? Fuck friends?
"You said no attachment but I- is this casual? Is this all I am, is that what you tell your friends?"
Sirius stands up slowly from his desk unsure of what to say. But he shakes his head slowly touching Remus' arm, he quickly flinches away.
"I don't know what we are Remus. But you mean a lot to me."
Remus looks like him like everything he just said was a total lie.
"This has dragged on for too long now Sirius. I need to either be commited to this or I'm gone."
Sirius' face changed to somewhat hurt by what Remus had said.
"There's a reason I needes this to be casual."
"Casual?! Was it casual when you told me you loved me just to take it back, was it casual when we talked for hours after sex. If you think that's casual you're delusional."
Sirius watches as tears ran from Remus' eyes, but he didn't look sad. Just angry, tired. Tired of this. But Sirius understood that.
"I want to be together, I was scared that you didn't want that."
Remus scoffs and sits down on his bed. With his head in his hands he didn't know what to do.
"I love you Sirius. But I need to call it quits if this is only going to be 'casual'"
Sirius shakes his head quickly and sits next to Remus on his bed. He dares to take Remus' hand and he doesn't move away.
"I want us Remus."
Remus nods his head and turns to Sirius to look at him properly. Sirius laughs a bit and wipes Remus' tears.
He leans in to catch Remus' lips in his.
They had kissed so many times before, but this felt different.
All the anxeity of being caught, of only being casual was lifted. This kiss was of love not worries, and they loved every second of it.