Invitation
Remus knows, he knows when something is off with Sirius.
He sees the way he flinches when Remus first touches him, or the way he avoids eye contact when Remus talks about his parents.
Or the fact that he hears Sirius crying at night and the only thing he can do to help is wrap himself tightly around him.
That Sunday morning Remus greets him with a morning kiss and asking what he'd like to eat. Sirius doesn't answer just moves forward to pull Remus into a tight hug.
"I need to tell you something." He whispers in the hug and Remus nods slowly and leads Sirius over to the sofa.
"A few days ago I got a letter in the mail." Sirius says slowly, looking up to Remus who gives him a supportive nod.
"And it was from Regulus, my Dad passed and I've been invited to the funeral."
Remus was in a bit of shock, Sirius hadn't spoken to his birth family for almost a decade. "Do you want to go."
Sirius sniffs and shrugs his shoulders. "Not sure, only if you're there. But still it's so hard, I don't think I'll be able to see my mum."
Remus nods and tightens his side hug around Sirius. "If you decide to go or not, I'll be with you all the way."
Remus wipes Sirius' tears and kisses his forehead. They stay in comfortable silence for a few minutes, a lot going through their minds.
"Sorry for keeping it from you, I didn't know how to deal with it myself. They've ruined my life so much."
Remus wipes the start of his own tears away. "Don't be sorry for something like that, just know that I'll always support you and be there for you no matter what. I love you Sirius."
"I love you most."
Sirius decides to go to the funeral. He sends Regulus a letter back, saying him and Remus will be present at the funeral.
After changing into his black suit the day of the funeral he starts second guessing himself.
Why should he be at his fathers funeral? When he got disowned by him at 15.
Remus' arms wrap around him gently as Sirius is looking at himself in the mirror.
"Gorgeous as always."
Remus can tell Sirius is nervous (which is understandable) because he's rubbing his thumb over his old scars, a habit of his.
"Ready?"
Sirius takes a shaky breath and nods his head, turning around to given Remus a soft kiss before they walk down to the car.
The funeral was pretty small around 30 people, so small Sirius was almost confused to why he was invited.
When they enter the 'party' room, Sirius scans the room for his 'mother', so he knew where to avoid.
But he does spot Regulus.
"Hey um Remus, I think I'm gonna go talk to Regulus.." Remus smiles and nods whilst walking over to a drink table.
Whilst pouring himself a drink he feels someone tap his shoulder politely.
"Oh hi."
The woman smiles, but not a kind one. A smile that gave Remus an unsure feeling.
"Walburga Black." She says introducing herself with her hand out. "And you are?"
Remus doesn't take her hand. "Remus Lupin, your son's fiancé." He says firmly, wanting to leave this conversation immediately.
Walburga takes away her hand at the mention of Sirius. "So he did come? Wasn't expecting that."
Remus nods his head, scanning the room for Sirius.
"Tell Sirius I'd like to have a word with him." Was the last thing Walburga says before walking swiftly off.
"What the fuck was that." Sirius says and Remus turns around to face him, the second they get eye contact they burst out laughing.
"Hell is she getting a word with me, I'd rather be the one laying in that casket."
Remus slaps Sirius lightly, to tell him to shut up since that's not the most appropriate thing to say at a funeral.
At that everyone starts moving outside to watch the burial, Sirius and Remus stand together, with Walburga and Regulus on the opposite side.
Sirius has a warm smile when he sees Regulus, they must have worked things out.
The service takes a while, sad music playing and Sirius trying to hold back his yawn.
The only thing that grabs his attention is when Walburga stands up to have a speech. Sirius only remembers a few things she says.
"The best father and husband to ever be."
"Helped raise our only son Regulus."
"The most kind and heart warming person."
And Sirius thought he was going to faint. The only thing keeping his sane was Remus' warm hand around his.
"Can we go home?" Sirius whispers after Walburga steps down after her speech.
Remus nods and without further question they leave the service.
——
"You don't want to talk about it?"
Sirius shrugs at the dinner table, shoving some spaghetti into his mouth. "Nothing much to talk about."
Remus sighs, Sirius can be hard to work with sometimes. He holds his free hand over the table.
"I know it's bothering you, what she said, I know it's bothering you."
He sighs and puts his fork down. "I mean she's not wrong.. I'm sure he was a great husband, and a great father to Regulus."
Remus smiles sadly and walks around the table to pull Sirius into a hug.
And that was when it all went wrong.
Sirius broke down crying, unable to hold it in anymore. But Remus didn't try to stop it, he let him let it all out.
The ended up together on the floor, Remus holding Sirius until the crying and his breathing calmed down.
"You deserve so much more Sirius, I'm so sorry."
Sirius hugs Remus tightly. "Thank you, for everything, I love you."
He kisses Sirius' forehead. "I love you most."