Only a fool for you

Evan would like to say that at this moment he is feeling some poetic emotion that comes plucked straight from the oldest love tale but that's not true. No, what Evan Rosier was feeling right at this bloody second was boiled down to two very non-romantic words. Horny and Frozen.

To be quite frank Evan has always prided himself on being emotionally advanced. It's how he's able to communicate with the loof ball that is his sister and it's also how he's been able to maintain his relationship with one Barty Crouch Jr but when it really comes to it when it's the time to use his emotional maturity and tell Peter that everything is gonna be okay, that they love him and would do anything for him to be theirs… he freezes.

It was bad enough when they had walked into this mangy abandoned classroom and he saw Peter sitting there looking so broken and crying. All Evan wanted to do was wrap Peter up to protect him from anything that might ever make him cry again. But he just stood there like a bloody moron. From then on it just got worse because then he stood there and watched as Barty grabbed Peter by the face and gave him a steering kiss, one for the books really and Evan knows that it was meant to be sweet and reassuring and definitely not something plucked straight from Evan's favorite dreams. Alas he had to stand there and watch and think of chopping slugs in order to not pop out of his skin right then and there.

So a quite awfully long story short… Evan had been absolutely zero help in calming their sweet Peter from the panic attack that he must have been having. Must still be having.

“I think it's time we talk, darling” 

Gods Evan needs to snap out of it and focus on the prize here because he knows that one slip up, one wrong word will make Peter retract back into his shell and they may never get a chance to be with him again. 

With this in mind Evan sat as gracefully as he could next to Barty in front of Peter.

“First we would like to start off by saying that we're so very sorry for all the confusion that we caused you sweetheart. We would never in a million years mean to hurt you.” Barty moved his hands from where they were cupped on Peter's face down to his hand. Barty clasped onto Pete's hand almost like a lifeline as he got the courage to continue with his speech.

“I also want to apologize for last year. I never meant to lead you on Petey. Gods if I could go back I would have never let you switch partners after I got with Ev. I would make you sit next to me for the rest of the year and I would get the courage to tell you how I truly felt. How I still feel.” Barty was looking at Peter with such intensity, such yearning, it made Evan shiver. Peter must have felt it too because he finally dragged his eyes from where they were glued to the grown up to make eye contact with Barty. Something in his eyes must have soothed Peter because Evan could physically see him relax.

“And what is that?” Peter's eyes changed in a flash going from unsure and hesitant to hard and daring, almost challenging Barty to finally tell him how he feels. “What is it exactly that you feel for me Barty? Because I can't do this anymore. I can't wonder or be confused. So you both need to tell me that whatever this is, is real or I'm walking away and I'm not coming back.” 

Evan thought absently that I'm moments like these he understands why Peter was put into Gryffindor.

Evan also thinks that he's going to ruin all of this. He has sat here listening to the two of them and while yes! He wants to tell Peter how he feels, he wants to tell Peter that he may just be the most beautiful thing he's seen and that when Peter talks to him it makes him feel like he's the most important guy in the world. He wants to tell Peter that he's falling in lo-

Woah.

He can't feel that yet, it's too, right? They've only just officially met last month, that is not enough time to fall in love with someone is it? He's never really understood love, he never truly felt love for someone that wasn't his sister til he was 11 and he never actually understood that what he felt for Barty was romantic love til 6 months into their relationship. It can't be love. He just likes Peter… he likes him a lot.

He's sorta freaking out right now and right now couldn't possibly be more of a worse time to freak out. He looks into Peter's eyes and all he sees is determination and the courage to walk away if they don't tell him the truth. How can Evan tell Peter what he needs to hear when he's having a total meltdown? 

“Gods baby, look at you getting all Gryffindor on us.” Peters face noticeably lighten just a smudge at Barty's poor attempt at a joke before he doubled down and shot Barty a glare to tell him he's serious. “Alright, here goes nothing.” Barty let out a heavy breath of air while doing his cute wipe of his hands on his robes when he's nervous before opening his mouth again “I want to be with you Peter. As in I have romantic feelings for you. I see you and my heart just explodes and all I want to do is hold you in my arms and make everything okay. I want you to be in this relationship and I want to call you my boyfriend and i'm so sorry I didn't tell you this earlier baby but I think that I've known that a piece of my heart was yours ever since you sat down next to me in that blessed greenhouse.” Peter's face broke into a wide almost disbelieving smile before basically launching himself into Barty. Effectively sealing their lips together again. This is definitely the worst thing that could happen for Evans' sanity.

It was his turn now, their kissing could only buy him so much time and soon both of their beautiful eyes will be on him and he needs to be ready. But he's not. Evan Rosier has never had to fight for what he's wanted before, largely because he never really got much of what he wanted growing up but when he did, it was because he made very strategic moves that led to them falling in his lap. (It was never a coincidence that Barty walked in on him making out with the cute Hufflepuff in the year below them the week before they got together.) Evan doesn't do this. The whole passionate confession in the rain while he begs for his lover to take him back. What was Evan supposed to do? Confess everything to Peter, that scared him. It's terrifying because there is still that very real possibility of Peter only liking Barty and then where does that leave Evan? With his heart in his hands offering it to a boy that only wants to take his boyfriend away from him.

“Evan?” He was snapped out of his head by the sound of his sweet boyfriend's voice. It was light and airy as if he had just been lifted up to the stars and Evan knew that it was the post kissing Peter Pettigrew effect, the same one he felt after kissing him out by the lake.

“Evan do you- could you… I mean do you feel the same about me?” Evan blinked and thought that this could not be happening. He could not have this absolutely perfect man in front of him asking a very simple question and all Evan could do was sit there frozen.

“I mean you don't have to feel the exact same way but… do you at least like me? I'm sorry but I'm going to have to hear it explicitly said to believe it.” 

Do something! 

Barty was staring at him with encouraging eyes just brimming with excitement but the slowly dimmed the longer the silence dragged on between them. Evan understood because it's been 30 seconds and his stupid mouth won't move his brain was too loud. He can't say all the things that he wants to say, all the things that he feels when he looks at Peter, it won't come out.

Evan watched as the lightness and hope drained out of Peter's demeanor, he once again turned cold and shut off as he looked over Evan one more time.

“Ok.” Peter got up and completely ignored Barty's protest as he headed to the door. Evan's heart was screaming at him.

Don't let him leave

Don't lose him again

Tell him

TELL HIM

“I love you” wait what?!

Peters hand froze where it was about to turn the door and walk out of their life forever. 

What is he doing! Evan really is royally freaking out now. Everything was spinning but it suddenly stopped when Peter let out an unamused scoff.

“No you don't.” And well that pissed Evan off. It pissed him off because who was Peter to tell him how he did or did not feel. It pissed him off because how could Peter not see how truly amazing he is, how could Peter not understand how easy it is to love him. To fall in love with him. There really was no better way to get Evan to man up and do something than pissing him off.

“The hell you mean ‘no you don't’... yes I do.” Peter stayed facing the wall, hand still frozen on the door knob.

“I mean that you don't l-love me, Evan.” 

“Yes I do.” Peter was still faced towards him and it felt wrong, he should see how Evan feels about him. “Pete look at me, baby please” slowly Peter finally turned but his expression was stone cold and unwilling to let any emotion out. 

“I do. I love you and Barty loves you and, gods I only didn't say it earlier because I'm an idiot and I was having a royal freak out but I know how I feel about you.” Please let this work was chanting over and over in Evans head, so loudly that he didn't even really know what he was saying. He just let his heart do all the work. “And if you let us, I swear we will be the best boyfriends ever. We will listen to all you're adorably boring muggle books and we will protect you from anything this stupid world wants to throw at you, and I'll sneak into the kitchens and make you something that you'll actually want to eat whenever eating in the hall is too much for you, and we will make sure that you know how loved you are everyday. So please, please give us a chance Pete.” Peter's eyes started to water and for a second Evan was scared that he had come on too strong and bombarded Peter with things he wasn't actually ready for, but then his face split into an absolutely beautiful grin and Evan knew that it was all going to be okay.

“Yes” 

“Yes?” Barty and Evan let out at the same time

 “Gods yes ,that's all I've wanted for so long. I want to be with you two and I want to listen to your bickering and I want to be the one that pulls you back from doing something truly stupid” Evan felt so happy he might actually cry.

“Okay. Okay so we will do this right. We're gonna take you out on a day and swoon the hell out of you.” Evan laughed as he watched his boyfriend wildly jester with his hands, quickly approaching the two of them

“Yes please” Evan kissed Peter and it felt just as good as the first time. Except this time Peter wasn't hesitant, he jumped right in and kissed Evan like his life depended on it. Then Barty, in order to not be left out, jumped in and they became just a pile of tongue and teeth. It was a complete mess but for the first time Evan Rosier felt totally complete.

It seems only standard that Sirius Black barging into the room would ruin his perfect moment with his boyfriends, yes there's finally two now. Evan and Barty seemed to make an unspoken decision to just ignore the annoying distraction that came into the room and just keep on kissing Peter.

“Alright, alright! Gods get off him, what are you doing? Trying to eat his face?” He was harshly pushed off of Peter but couldn't really be all that mad about it because they had finally got him and there was nothing stupid Black could do. 

“You two had your turn, now it's ours.” James Potter stepped into the room looking like a complete mess with his hair and clothes going all over the place as if he was nervously running his hands through them. “Can we talk Pete, please”

Evan supposed that they should let them have this time, to figure out their friendship because Evan knew that the marauders cared for Peter and Evan knows that Peter would never be able to truly be happy without his friends. So he gently grabbed Barty's arm and blew Pete a kiss before leaving and letting them have their privacy.

“Barty.”

“Yes, love?”

“We did it.”