Chapter 2
Stars look just as beautiful as him. Their glow on his face. It itched me forward.
I took a step towards Regulus.
That's the moment he seemed to acknowledge that he is no longer alone. His expression changed he seems straddled.
But then he looked at me, he wasn't straddled any more more calm but still defensive.
"What are you doing here potter. Don't sneak up on me."
"Sorry reg didn't want to scare you. I'll go if it's a bother" I wasn't in the mood for fights. It would hurt less to leave then make him mad even when It's not always exactly my style.
"You can stay" It was a quiet answer his eyes looked a bit sad. I think he remembered our meeting in the hallway.
I silently sat next to him. Not too close. I hope he won't leave. Breathing feels so much easier when Regulus is next to me. The pain looses its sharpness.
We sat in silence it was peaceful, but he didn't seem to be fully relaxed.
"areyoureallydying" he mumbled so fast I barely understood him.
"Yes" I answered calmly "I am dying"
He looked so anxious as if scarred on the prospect even tho until now he always told me he hated me with burning passion. My heart hurt at that memory.
"You don't deserve that"
I hummed in agreement.
"You really don't James"
"James? Don't say it like that ill think you care"
He scoffed. Silence fell between us again. It wasn't uncomfortable tho. His mere presence still made me breathe better. My heart lacked the heaviness it usually carries.
"Why" he spoke up again.
"Hanahaki"
He laughed. It wasn't ill minded no. He thought i was kidding. I smiled sadly. It's probably the first time I made him lough. And the last... That sucks because the sound is beautiful I could listen to it on repeat.
After a few seconds he realized it's not a joke. His face fell.
"Oh my god Potter you are telling the truth"
"what happened to James?"
"What?"
"Suddenly I'm Potter again you called me my name before"
He made a face at my antics. He seemed to get inside his head for a while like something just caught up to him. He looked so sad when he came back to reality.
"Something wrong?" I asked
"No. No, it's nothing. I'm leaving" he said getting up quickly before I realized what was happening he was already gone.
And with that came back all of my pain.
It hurt.
It hurt so bad I fell on my knees and started coughing violently.
With only the stars on the sky to accompany me.
Since my star left.
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Its morning. I'm sitting next to Sirius who is talking to Remus about their date tomorrow. I'm exhausted because I had maybe 2 hours of sleep. I kept waking up and puking flowers all night. It's worse than ever.
Lily and Mary sat down next to Remus. "Hey" I greeted them.
"I think we need to talk later" I said. Peter looked at me. He knew what was going on.
"Yeah. I think we do" Said Mary
"After lessons? " I offered
"Ok fine" said lily she seemed tense. She knew that that talk won't be a fun one.
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Today we are leaving Hogwarts for christmas. I saw Regulus is going back home too he got a letter 2 days ago.
I hope they won't hurt him.
My friends will be visiting me. I wish I had more time, but I know I won't leave long enough to come back. I'm more exhausted every day. Soon after Christmas may be my funeral.
"Prongs come on!!" Sirius yelled from downstairs.
"Coming Pads" I grabbed my trunk and when downstairs to join on the way to the train.
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We are in our compartment. About halfway home.
"Hey guys I'm gonna go say bye to some people" I said as I stood up.
They looked at me pitifully with sadness in their gazes.
"K prongs" said Sirius
I just smiled in response.
I went to Alice and franks compartment there was also Narcissa sitting there she befriended Alice about 2 years ago. They don't hang out much in front of people tho. Its probably because of Narcissas family.
I said my goodbyes to them. I was more emotional than I intended, but that's the last goodbye with them, so I can cut myself some slack.
I was coming out of the compartment when someone fell onto me.
The person was no one other than Regulus Black.
"Woah Black you are falling for me"
"Don't flatter yourself Potter" he replied, but his response lacked his usual bite.
When I looked at him, he looked sad his face was red as if his been crying
"Is everything ok Reg?" I asked concerned.
"Yes leave me alone Potter"
"Just know if you ever need a place to stay you are welcome at mine"
He didn't respond. Just pushed past me and started going his original way.
"Bye Reg" I said before I fully lost the sight of him.
If I listened more carefully and didn't almost start crying from pain when he left I might have heard his quiet response.
"Bye James"
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Time of death 8:24 PM
James died 2 days after Christmas day.
His friends were still there.
They knew he was gonna go but no one was really ready for it.
They were all upstairs when it happened. Playing games and joking around.
James started coughing, chocking. He sat on the floor against his bed.
Trying to breathe.
But he couldn't, he never took another one.
He died holding Sirius' hand with all his friends by his side.
He was loved oh so loved...
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There was knocking on the door in the middle of the night. Effie exhausted came to the door she almost didn't she was oh so tired her baby her son died today. Mere hours ago.
She looked bad.
But not as bad as the boy who was now standing in front of her.
If you could call that standing.
He was almost kneeling barely holding himself up.
He was crying. He had so many bruises and cuts. The biggest one on his stomach. He was rapidly bleeding out.
The injuries made him almost unrecognizable. Almost…
In front of her was Regulus Black.
Sirius' younger brother. The love of her sons life.
She quickly took him in calling for Monty to come help her.
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Regulus woke up. Next to him was his big brother.
"Sirius"
"Reggie how do you feel"
"Better now where is James"
"Oh Reggie"
"What. What happened he told me I could come here if I ever need help did something happened where is James" He looked panicked
"James is dead"
"What no no no why? When?"
"Yesterday"
"But how could someone not love him back he was literally perfect kind and helpful. Who even was he in love with"
Sirius seemed surprised at that but more than that he looked absolutely devastated. He looked at Regulus with a look that could only mean one thing.
"It was me" Regulus felt his heart fall.
Sirius nodded coming closer to the bed hugging his little brother.
They both started crying.
Shaken with grief of the sun that will never come up again.
Mad at the unfairness of time.
"I did love him. I still do." Regulus whispered into the embrace.