A sound can be heard ringing on the room where I am folding the baby clothes that are fresh from the laundry, signalling that there's a visitor on the lobby.
"Will you check on who is in the lobby for a minute dear?" A call from Andromeda on the other side while holding little Teddy, sporting a yellow hair just like the rubber duck his holding on his cute little chubby hands said.
I chuckle at his cuteness and answer in affirmative to Andromeda.
Upon arriving at the lobby, my smile got only wider because of another yellow haired (Well, it's more on the side of golden for me really) man standing next to the table. Gods I miss him!
I stride forward towards him not realizing that there're also two people not that far until I heard a voice from my left.
"Well I hadn't realized that elves suddenly become taller while I was in Azkaban" I flinched. I know that drawl, Lucius Malfoy, with Narcissa by his side telling him off.
"Mr. Malfoy." I spoke with force politeness and smile "The elves are all helping putting the kids to bed with Andromeda so I have come out to check whose our pleasant visitor this fine evening"
Narcissa turned towards me and smile politely "Don't mind him y/n. He seems to have forgotten how to interact to lovely people. It is good to see you!"
I return her smile more genuinely. "It's lovely to see you as well Mrs. Malfoy"
"Cissa! What brought you here?" Andromeda appears, still holding Teddy who immediately put up his hands towards me as if asking me to carry him which I gladly oblige while Dromeda greets Lucius quickly and warmly to Draco.
Draco.
I can feel his stare at me but I didn't dare look up. Not while his parents are here. Not when just that morning, they had another tension filled talk about what they are and where they stand, especially with his parents.
And of course, just like the other talks we had about that, it ends up with him storming out furiously and me with tears threatening to fall from my eyes.
I love him. And when we're together, I feel that he does too. But once outside, a foreboding feeling crept through as well that everything is just a bubble that burst so easily with just a tiniest blow of wind.
I love him. I am trying so hard to convince myself that it's ok. This is ok. Just us, in our own little bubble. But gods I love him, I want everyone to know that I'm his.
His!
His!!
His!!!
" – and we had this cake for dessert as suggested by Astoria and I remember you like this flavor as well, so here it is!" Narcissa said while pushing an elegant paper bag to Andromeda.
"Thank you! I've heard the food is really good there and I've been meaning to try it!" Exclaimed Andromeda.
"Well it better be. Since, they do require a hefty sum of galleon just for reservations" Of course, trust Lucius to flaunt his wealth at all times. Thank Merlin Draco turns out nothing like him at all!
I stole a peek at him and saw that he's already staring at me. I smile lightly, hoping he'll understand that we're ok. Despite the way our morning ends.
"We better get going now Andy! Draco still has a big date with Astoria tomorrow"
My smile falter.
No! Keep looking at me.
He closed his eyes. Jaw clenching.
Draco...
That. Is what I mean on what a hard blow is.
From there, I didn't understand any words that's been exchanged with how loud my heart is beating from my ribs and the ringing in my ears.
Look at me...
He didn't.
He followed his parents out from the orphanage. And I feel like he's walking away from me as well. Away from our little bubble.
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I drag myself to my bedroom, feeling so heavy with tiredness that comes from the day. Gods I just want to lie down and curled up with Draco's firm arms caging me.
Draco.
In my bed. Looking at me.
I gasped.
"You're here..." I whispered feeling a moisture gathering in my eyes.
He didn't say anything but just proceeded to envelop me in his arm and kiss me roughly. Just a battle of teeth and tounge. Nip, bite, kiss, suck. I whimper.
"Draco..."
He groans and cup my jean clad bottom.
After what felt like eternity, we both suck in a lungful of air while our mouth still hovers around each other.
Breath mingling. Staring into each other's eyes.
"Draco..." Fuck. I sound like a broken machine. With no knowledge of other words except Draco! Draco! Draco!
He kiss me again. Much more gentler this time. Like he's been saying everything unsaid through the kiss. My eyes starts to water again.
Stay with me!
He broke the kiss and with one last kiss on my forehead, goes out of my room.
I haven't got a clue what happened. Why I didn't stop him, I stay rooted from where I stand on my bedroom silently letting the tears fall.
Why does that feel like a goodbye?
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A month after that blissful morning waking up with Draco then that fight then that night in my room. I haven't talk to Draco again. I have seen him in passing when he goes visit the orphanage and Andromeda with his Mother but never once he looks back at me.
I miss you.
I love you.
Look at me.
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Daily Prophet Sunday Headline: A marriage of Pure Love!
Heir to the Malfoy and Black - Draco Lucius Malfoy and the youngest of the Greengrass family - Astoria Greengrass; both from wizardings famous sacred 28 announce their betrothal this August 11 –
The words blurred.
Chubby hands is pointing to the black and white picture of a man (whom I know looks golden with his blonde hair and fine suit) beside an equally beautiful young woman). I put down the newspaper.
I hug a now blonde haired Teddy as well tighter.
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Why am I here?
I lost count of how many times I ask myself that tonight. Standing alone on one of the terraces in Malfoy Manor while the party goes on.
Party. Engagement party. His engagement party.
I look towards the starry dark sky and sigh. Why am I here?
I really shouldn't be here. But oh who am I kidding? When Andromeda tells me that we have been both invited to her Nephew's engagement party, A part of me have wanted to conjure up some excuse to spare my heart from breaking further but the other part of me wants to see him. And him to see me. Because maybe, Maybe. He'll stay with me.
A footstep sounded behind me. I didn't look. I already know who it was. I smelt his cologne.
He stops just an inch behind me. I can feel his warmth. And oh how I want to lean back further to feel him more closely. I didn't need to. He's the one who did it.
I closed my eyes as I feel his arms snakes around my waist and pull me more closer to him.
Draco.
Stay with me.
I put my hands on top of his that's lying on my stomach and just beneath the swell of my breast to try and remove it.
"I miss you" He breathed on the side of my neck.
Gods. I want to cry.
I should be mad, should wrench myself out of his embrace but it's the opposite of what I wanted to do.
I miss you too.
I love you.
Stay with me.
He put a gentle kiss under one of my ear and I shuddered. He tightened his hold more.
"Draco!"
I jumped and see Lucius staring blankly at the both of us.
"Father" Draco answered in a clip manner.
"Your fiance is looking for you"
I stared at the garden below.
"I –" Draco started
"And your mother is asking for you"
I hear Draco took a deep sigh and makes his way out of the terrace back to the party.
"Ms. Y/N"
"Mr. Malfoy" I replied.
"I have heard so much about you, and almost everyone told me that you're a smart young lady." Despite of the words, I can hear the underlying mock of it all.
"I'm sure a lot of... appropriate... young man out there would be glad to get to know more about a smart, pretty and young woman like you are. You should go back to the party, the dancing will start soon" He smirks.
"I have heard so much about you as well Sir... Despite some... Unflavoury rumor about you, no one questions your love for your family" I said
"You heard correctly then Ms. y/n. I only want what is best for my wife and my son. After all, he's my heir" He said with finality and turn to make his leave as well
"I wonder..." I started
He stops to regard me again
"Would that power of love of yours include seeing them, him, happy? More than the power of your family name?"
Lucius looks me up and down and as his mouth slowly turns into a smirk said "And do you think someone like you can make my son happy?"
He chuckles like that is the most ridiculous thought he ever heard and follows the steps that Draco walks earlier as well. Back to his son's engagement party.
I breathed deeply and look up to the starry sky again while tears fall freely down my face.