Chapter 4
Severus was pregnant. There was no mistaking that hard swelling in Severus' lower belly for other than what it actually was. Lily wasn't sure that Severus was aware of her pregnancy, or the other pregnancy-related changes in her body for that matter, so busy and distracted as she had lately been. Lily was giddy with the knowledge of her impending motherhood, but sometimes, when she saw how tired Severus suddenly became, she wondered if she had made the right choice in keeping from Severus that her pew pew didn't shoot blanks…
Sometimes in the dead of the night Lily wondered how Severus would react when she found out. Would she want to get rid of their little miracle? Would she want to keep the child? Or would Severus just give birth to it and up and leave Lily with their baby? Lily knew the three were possibilities, but she never allowed herself to think too much on the first or third ones. For Lily, ever since she came clear to herself about what she wanted and who she wanted, there was no other way but for her to have Severus by her side, and later, when the possibility of children came a reality, there was no other future Lily could picture but the one she was hopefully making true.
If Severus wanted to get rid of the baby, Lily would have to resort to her manipulation, she wasn't above using mind-altering potions or dark spells to alter Severus' will. If Severus decided to bring the pregnancy to term but leave her and their child… well… Lily would just have to tie Severus to her any other way…
As Severus finished dressing for the day muttering something about her jeans being too tight around the middle, Lily petted the small green velvet box in the inside pocket of her denim jacket. She had been carrying that particular box for half a year now, and though Lily was ashamed to admit that every time she thought of giving it to Sev she got cold feet, she really, really wanted to give it to her.
Today they had decided on spending the day outside. It was a warm, sunny day outside and Lily had been wanting to take Severus to a picnic. She still remembers the first time Sev and her went on a picnic. They were about 10, the summer before their Hogwarts letters came. It was also the summer where Lily started suspecting that she was not like other girls.
She remembers seeing Severus, all small and shy and feral, wearing a blue blouse that made her seem even smaller than she actually was, and a faded pair of black jeans that hung loosely around her waist. Her hair had been chopped off by her mother the day before, when a pair of mean idiots from the block had cornered Sev and tangled bubble gum in her hair. Eileen hadn't bothered... She just grabbed the scissors and off she went.
Lily could still see the tear stains adorning Sev's pale, dirty cheeks. She had wanted to make Sev's hair grow, but knowing what would happen to her once Tobias saw her stopped her.
Lily had wanted to protect her so badly... Grab her and take her somewhere far away where no one could reach her, where no one could hurt her... Sometimes, she wanted to be able to cast magic so badly so that she could shrink Sev and tuck her into her pocket, keeping her safe from the world... She'd take care of Sev... She'd clean her and wash her hair, and feed her and dress her like one of her dolls... The prettiest doll she'd ever owned... But that had always been the issue, hadn't it? Lily had always wanted to own Severus, possess her, master her... Mark her in every way possible.
That first and only picnic they had shared had opened Lily's eyes to the dark truth of her cruel nature... She had wanted her little black birdie to live in a golden cage that Lily owned... When she was little, it scared her, the depth of her obsession, but now, safe in the knowledge that Severus was absolutely hers, that she had left her eternal mark in her in the shape of a child filling her womb... Lily had never been happier.
As Lily packed the basket with sandwiches and beef and grape juice and desserts, she reminisced of their first picnic basket. Lily's mother had prepared it with great care and love, thinking that Lily had finally gotten better friends than that Snape girl. Lily hadn't wanted to correct her assumptions. She had felt so proud that day, being able to provide for Severus... Of course she hadn't told Sev a thing, she knew that her parents couldn't afford it and it was most probable that she'd get beaten for it, so Lily had planned to surprise her. The emotion in Severus' eyes had been worth it. Despite her shame, gratitude had still shone in her eyes... She hadn't eaten in several days.
If everything went right today, then by the end of the month Lily would be married to Sev, and then no one would be able to take her away from her… She wouldn't be able to escape.
Severus ended up changing her clothes. She was now wearing one of Lily's favourite skirts... The black plated one with tiny silver stars, black stockings and a black turtleneck. She was wearing a pair of boots that Lily just loved on her... And there went her libido. Honestly, if it weren't for Sev's barely noticeable belly, she'd think it was her the one who was pregnant. Lily had been experiencing a spike in her libido that sometimes drove her up the wall when she couldn't pin Sev to one fast.
They were heading to the Muggle world, Lily had tickets for a zoo that had just opened and Lily hoped to make this an unforgettable date.
As they walked, discussing the animals and their possible use in potions, Lily's hand itched to grab Severus'. They were in public, so the had to force herself to clutch her bag or scratch her palms in order to quell her urge to just hug Severus to her or kiss her every once in a while... Stupid muggles with their stupid prejudices...
They went further inside the zoo, where a small forest gave purchase from the blazing sun. Families and groups of friends were gathering to start their picnics, so Lily dragged Sev to a small hill, casting a privacy ward around the biggest tree and enlarged the basket, placing the cloth over the grass directly under its refreshing shadow.
As they enjoyed their meal, Lily was planning on how to ask Severus THE question. Both had fallen silent while munching on their sandwiches and Lily got distracted that she didn't notice when Severus held a small green velvet box in her hand, nor when she opened it and due to her own surprise the rest of her sandwich fell to the floor.
"Lily..." Sev gasped, snapping Lily out of her stupor.
"Hhmm?" She turned, mouth still full, but her eyes widened when she caught sight of what Severus was holding. How the fuck had that happened? Lily remembers placing the box in the pocket of her jacket... Oh...
"What..." Severus took a deep breath trying to calm herself. Lily swallowed hard and sat closer to Sev, taking the box from her hand and admiring the beautiful engagement ring within. Sev never stopped looking at her.
"I wanted to surprise you..." Said Lily, suddenly very conscious of herself.... What if she rejected her? Sev was now looking at her with anticipation and fear in her eyes... "You know I love you with all my very being, Sev. I can't imagine spending the rest of my life with anyone else..." They both were tense, but Severus was five seconds away from either crying or bolting away... Lily came even closer, tangling one of her hands with Severus' to stop her from escaping. "Severus Snape, do you love me?" She asked. Severus swallowed hard and the most beautiful blush adorned her cheeks, Lily knew she wanted to escape, but Lily's hand anchored her to the moment, to her. Severus nodded. Lily let out the breath she didn't know she'd been holding. "Would you do me the honour of becoming my lawfully bonded wife?"
It was hilarious. Observing the wide range of emotions show on Severus' face in less than ten seconds was nothing short of amusing. First came the surprise, which must be because Severus might have expected everything but a proposal. Then came the realisation, it must have felt like a bucket of cold water thrown on her head. Next was the fear. Fear and self doubt and apprehension. Then came the resignation, accompanied by the tiniest spark of hope as Lily tightened her fingers around hers. Lily knew that Severus' worst fear was becoming like her father... Or worse, her mother. She never wanted to be in an abusive relationship, that's why she fought tooth and nail to be independent, that's why she refused to let Lily pay all their expenses on herself. Severus wanted to be able to walk out free if this relationship ever met its end.
But what Severus didn't know, couldn't hurt her. Lily had been saving all of Severus' money in a separate account in Gringotts for when the baby arrived. Lily might be batshit crazy about her, obsessed with her, ready to kill and die for her, get her pregnant without her consent and manipulate her emotionally to make her dependant on Lily, but Lily would never become a violent monster towards her or their offspring like that brute Tobias. All Lily was doing was so that they could have a future together. So that they could raise a family and to make sure that no one ever took Sev from her. That big was her love for Severus that Lily would do anything and everything for her.
A few tense seconds later, Severus slowly nodded her head. "Y-yes..." She whispered. Barely audible, but to Lily it felt like someone had cast a sonorus and screamed it in her face. As her own pink lips spread in a Cheshire-cat's smile, Severus' frown deepened and her eyes were becoming misty. Lily swept in and kissed her, dragging her down with her onto the checkered blanket.
As Lily slid the beautiful emerald engagement ring on Sev's finger, both of them felt something snap into place within their magical cores. Lily sighed and kissed Sev again. It felt like coming home.
Severus had momentarily forgotten her sense of propriety, allowing Lily to kiss her and position herself between her legs, in front of hundreds of strangers... Muggle strangers. Much too soon Lily felt delicate hands push at her shoulders, effectively separating her a few inches from Severus' pretty, red-flushed face. "What's it, love?" Asked Lily a little bit out of breath. Severus raised her head, a worried frown marring her pretty face, then turned frantically to see around them. The Muggle families were blissfully unaware of them, no one was paying attention. There was a couple a few meters next to them, also protecting themselves from the scorching sun under the shadow of a smaller tree. "They can't see us." Said Lily, catching up to what Severus might have been thinking. "I raised a privacy ward around us, don't worry, love." She smiled as reassuringly as she could. Not even Severus would stop her from having her then and there.
Sev was looking at her with doubt in her eyes. Lily knew that maybe she wanted to talk about that clever little bit of magic embedded into the ring, the one that practically proclaimed them married already, but she'd soon make sure she forgot. The bonding ceremony was yet to be had and Lily didn't want her wife to have second thoughts. At all.
Lily kissed her. Lipstick red, full lips devouring thin ones, sweetly opening them up to latch onto that shy, pink tongue that drove her wild with the urge to put it to better use. So far Sev hadn't felt comfortable to try and suck her pew pew or her vagina... Fuck Sev couldn't even bring herself to pronounce the word 'penis' without feeling uncomfortable.
As the kiss grew heated, Lily felt the thrill of power surge within her and rush through her veins. She was Severus' first in everything. Her first frend, her first kiss, her first time, her first lover, the first to ever see the value in her, the first to recognise her genius and her beauty, and now... Now she would be her one and only for all eternity, she'd be the mother of her children, the one she relied on, the one she'd need for eternity...
As Lily kissed and tasted those thin, pink lips, her hands grew bold, her libido skyrocketed and the power of the magic running through her veins felt like a thousand volts of electricity. Slim, freckled hands roamed the soft body underneath her. Lily's hands soon found their way under that black starry skirt and touched soft thighs… she could feel her cunt get wet. Severus was usually so thin… with the pregnancy, Severus' body had been slowly but irrevocably changing. What once was flesh and bone, now found itself filled with slight muscle and soft fat. Sev's legs were… squishy… All of Sev was squishy and sexy and Lily abso-fucking-lutely loved it. As she mouthed down Sev's long, pale neck, she used her free hand to wave her wand and change her nether regions non-verbally. Her pew pew was usually soft, and it took Sev a few strokes to get her to stand at attention, but this time, as her arousal was ready to burst at the seams, she felt her dick spring out of her in all its erect glory.
Lily opened the fly of her jeans and popped the button open to set her erection free, Sev's black stockings disappeared, along with her knickers, only the thin, dark fabric of her skirt kept her decent now, hidden from Lily's gaze still. Severus' little breathy moans were making her start to leak precum, so she kissed her again with all the desire she was able to muster and settled between her thighs. As her dick impaled Severus, the dark haired soon-to-be mother couldn't contain a scream of pleasure that, despite the wards Lily placed around them, was heard by the muggle couple.
Lily's blood felt like lava when she realized the muggles had heard Severus and looked, confused, for the source of the sound. They could hear them if they were loud enough, but they couldn't see them. Lily's green eyes shone a deep green with the knowledge of triumph after a challenge.
She took Severus slow and hard and fast and soft, her hands were all over her, spreading her thighs further away or guiding them to wrap around her waist, or pushing them up to Severus' chest, all the while Severus couldn't help herself from stopping those loud moans that drove Lily to dig deeper within her. Severus' eyes were either clenched shut or rolling upwards. Lily was sure that this time she could fuck Severus stupid while the muggle couple were getting uncomfortable by the minute. The woman was as red as a tomato, clenching her thighs together under her long skirt. She was panting, trying to keep it cool but her husband noticed. He placed their picnic basket strategically in front of her while his hand travelled down under her skirt and started to slowly move up and down. Lily then matched her pace with that of the man's hand, slowly creeping up on Severus while dragging another soulful moan from her. Severus came. She could feel her cunt clenching around her and gripping like a vice, and Lily came right after.
The woman came too, the man came in his pants, and just when they were coming down from their high, readying themselves to leave, a cop confronted them and arrested them. Lily kissed Severus while still moving in short thrusts inside of her. She felt her dick get hard again but this time she pulled out, enjoying the view of Sev's juices mixed with her cum leaking out of her. After the police had cuffed and moved the unsuspecting voyeurs away, Lily shrunk their basket and put it in her pocket, licked Sev's cunt clean, gathered her in her arms and disapparated.
Lily threw Severus on their bed and climbed atop her. Those slender arms surrounded her neck lazily and a dopey face shyly smiled up to her. Lily felt herself melt with love for the woman beneath her. She knew her love for Severus was tainted by the possessiveness she felt, by that dark desire that preyed on her, but it was real nonetheless.
Lily dropped small kisses on Severus' face, while the dark haired girl let herself fall into Dreamland. Lily got rid of every article of clothing on Severus' and let her hands roam free on that smooth skin, tenderly caressing the soft swell of the other girl's abdomen. Lily's baby now resided within Severus, soon, she would be made aware of their little miracle. Soon, Severus would belong to her officially. Soon... Soon, Severus would have no escape.
As days went by, Severus started to notice the changes in her body. First it was the way her lower abdomen felt abnormally hard and was swollen. Then was the way she started feeling tired by even the smallest movement. Later, her nipples, and her whole boobs felt like they were on fire every time Lily touched them. They felt heavy and bruised, even though Lily was usually careful in that area whenever she… touched her.
Lily insisted on taking Severus to the hospital. At first Sev had declined, but as the dizzy spells became frecuent and their intensity alarming, she ended up dragging Lily to St. Mungo's herself.
"Well, your symptoms could only mean one thing, but I want you to please shed a drop of blood into this vial." said the mediwitch while giving Severus a purple potion. Severus' eyes went big when she recognized the potion, and Lily couldn't help but think that Severus looked almost transparent as her already pale complexion paled even more.
With trembling hands, Severus picked the pin the mediwith was offering her and pinched her index finger, letting more than a drop of blood fall into the potion. As the healer capped the vial and swirled its content to mix it with the blood, Severus felt the oxigen leave her lungs at an alarming speed when the purple was replaced by a bright pink.
"Congratulations! You're pregnant!" announced the healer with practiced enthusiasm. Severus fell unconscious on the examination table.
As Lily feigned her surprise and let her indignation show when the doctor suggested she had been cheated on, Lily finally asked the dreaded question just as Severus was coming to. "How long?"
"Fifteen weeks." the healer answered, casting a diagnosys spell on Severus as she noticed her raising. "Everything seems to be good. The foetus is in good health as is the mother." Lily felt a fleeting dash of guilt when she noticed Severus' unfocused eyes and worried expression, which the healer totally ignored. While Severus was out, the healer had explained that abortions and provoked miscarriages were always punished by the ministry, what with the low rate of magical births after the First Magical War. Lily's progeny was safe… she only needed to know if it would be loved.
As they returned home, Severus didn't say a word and Lily didn't dare to break the silence. Once they crossed the threshold, Severus fell on her knees and broke into painful sobs. Lily's heart broke for her. She got on her knees next to her love and tentatively hugged her to her chest, allowing her to let out all she was carrying at the moment. Once Severus fell asleep in her arms, Lily lifted her without struggle and brought her to their bed, where she changed her into her pajamas and laid in bed next to her, observing her sleep.