Chapter 13
It was three thirty in the morning when they finished.
They sat side by side on the floor, still close to each other and still very breathless.
They were trying to pull their shits together, but were still in shock after having their greatest night of their lives - they had plenty of those, but kept saying the same thing every time.
"Wow. T-that was... Irreplaceable. Amazing.", Remus broke the silence with a big, happy smile forming on his face.
" Oh, you mean you were planning to replace me?", Sirius turned his head to his left to look at his love.
" Of course. As if I'd want to spend every day and night with you for the rest of my days. You're too basic sometimes, love.", Remus went to get up, when Sirius put his body on his lap, blocking him.
" Going somewhere?", Sirius smirked and was only a breath away from Remus' face.
Remus looked away, as he was desperately trying to hide his smile.
" When I ask you something, I want you to have your eyes on me.", Sirius took his chin gently in his hand, turning it to his previous position.
" You're too ugly to look at , love."
"Oh really? That's not what you said earlier.", Sirius pushed him back to the floor and rested his body above Remus'.
"Sirius, come on, it's almost four in the morning. We need some sleep."
"Oh, you're ruining the mood."
" I want to spend the rest of my time here, with you. Like this. But, we both need some sleep, pretty boy.", Remus picked both of their bodies off the floor and went to put his clothes back on.
" I'm looking forward to the day where we won't have to worry about school and sleep and having pairs of eyes so close to us. ", Sirius took him close enough to something that felt like hugging, but they were just gazing at each other.
"Well, we actually need the sleep part.", Remus laughed, as he teased his boyfriend.
"Oh come on now. You know what I mean.", he pulled away, but Remus pulled him right back in.
"I know what you mean,love. Honestly, it's the only thing I'm looking forward for, after school. You're my home, my safe place. I don't have to worry about it. No, actually I do worry all of the time , but you get what I mean."
"You worry abut me?"
"Well, of course. If I don't worry about my love and don't take care of it, who will?", Remus asked with confidence and made Sirius pause for a second.
" I love you, Moony. With my heart, with my mind, with my soul, with every cell and bone that I have in my body. They all exist because of you. Actually, you're the only reason I want to wake up in the morning. "
Remus' heart broke into pieces when he heard those words. He hated seeing Sirius getting sad, but he, also, loved hearing things like that come out of him.
" Trust me, my love, you are my only reason for wanting to get up in the morning. My life has no meaning without my Pats in it."
"Without your touch.", Remus began stroking his hand.
"Without your laugh.", he touched that beautiful, twisted mouth of his.
"Without your heart.", he put his hand on his heart and stared deeply into his eyes, so close to seeing his soul. That blue of those eyes was his favorite color.
Sirius rested his hand on Remus' and looked him back, with tears in his eyes.
" When we're finished with school and have settled down with a job and a flat and, well, everything, I want you to marry me.", he hesitated again. "Only if you want us to. ", he rushed nervously.
Remus' heart stopped. Time stopped. Everything around stopped.
There was only Sirius in front of him, with his big, blue, beautiful eyes and that question of his.
Remus wanted to scream yes. To go wake all of his friends and announce the big news, but... He was scared.
He already had been scared of the future that was waiting for him and couldn't worry about getting married, too.
But, when he lifted his head and saw his beloved's face, every worry, every hesitation, every trouble just... Vanished.
"Yes. I want us to."
And with that, the fear that had been haunting Sirius' everything for what felt like ages, immediately disappeared.
Remus took his fiance in his arms and hugged him like he had never before.
Sleep was just a memory now. Sirius was what mattered.
They spread sweet kisses everywhere and hugs, as they were laughing like babies.
"I can't believe you said yes!" , Sirius giggled, with his face burried in Remus' neck.
" I can't believe you asked me.", Remus went to kiss his lips. Those beautifully shaped, pink lips that were now his, forever.
The, once, gentle kiss became heated and their hands were anywhere and nowhere to be found.
But sex didn't matter anymore. Only Sirius and their love for each other did.