Silent Cries, Secret Strength

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
F/M
G
Silent Cries, Secret Strength
Summary
Y/N and Mattheo face an unexpected challenge that tests their love, revealing their inner strength and deepening their bond as they navigate a difficult and emotional journey together.
Note
Hi! this story contains topics of miscarriage, if this triggers you please DON'T read it. Also don't mind if I'm a little bit delulu, this is just a story. Take care of yourselves!

Mattheo and y/n are in their sixth year. It is three weeks before the yule ball and y/n’s period is 1 week late. She starts to panic because her period is always on time. She decides to go to Madame Pomfrey after class to ask for a pregnancy test. It's the end of potions and y/n and mattheo walk out hand in hand with their friends following closely behind. Y/n turns to mattheo and says.

 

“Baby i gotta go run an errand really quick”

 

“Oh i’ll come with you”

 

“No, no its ok, i got it”

 

Thinking she’s cheating he says very rudely, “what’s the errand?” 

 

y/n sighs and they stop walking and face each other. y/n waits until their friends have walked past.

 

“Calm down, I just gotta stop by Pomfrey”

 

“Why? Are you ok?”

 

“Ya just a female checkup”

 

“Oh ok baby, i’ll see you back in the common room, i love you”

 

“I love you too baby” they kiss before parting ways

 

y/n walks into the hospital wing. It isn’t too busy but Pomfrey is currently taking care of a patient so she just patiently waits. Once Pomfrey is done she notices y/n standing there.

 

“Hi dear, everything alright?”

 

“Um madame Pomfrey, I was just wondering if you had a pregnancy test?” y/n asks nervously, playing with the hem of her sweater.

 

“Oh” Pomfrey whispers to herself before saying,

 

“I can have you lay on a bed and do a full body examination with magic or…”

 

“No please i don’t wanna do that”

 

“Ok or i can give you a muggle pregnancy test stick that you have to pee on and it will give you an answer in five minutes”

 

“That works”

 

Pomfrey nods and goes to get the test. y/n just stands there waiting, luckily she comes back pretty quickly with two boxes in her hands.

 

“Alright here you are dear, I gave you two in case, the bathroom is right over there”

 

“Can I take it on my own?”

 

Pomfrey sighed. “You children, fine, but you must come and see me if it is positive” 

 

“Yes thank you”

 

y/n heads back to the slytherin common room and when she walks in, the group is nowhere to be found, so she takes this as the perfect opportunity to go to her room. She gets to her room and drops her bag down and heads into the bathroom. She opens the box and takes out the test, pulls her pants down and pees on it for a few seconds. Once she is done peeing she sets it down on the bathroom counter and anxiously waits. Five minutes goes by and it is time to look. 

 

She looks at it and gasps in shock. 

 

“What?! No, no, no, no, no” she whispers to herself. 

 

She decides to take the other one just to make sure. The other one comes back positive as well. She looks at it and gasps in shock again. She puts a hand on her stomach and starts to cry because she is very overwhelmed. After 10 minutes of crying, she wipes her tears and takes a deep breath. 

 

It’s time to tell mattheo. This can go one of two ways. Either he gets very upset and abandons her to figure it out by herself or he will support her and be happy. She walks into the common room where she sees all her friends chatting and laughing. 

 

“Ah there she is, hi my love” mattheo grabbing y/n’s hand and kissing it. 

 

Y/n smiles and decides to whisper in his ear. 

 

“Can you come upstairs please?” 

 

“Ya of course” he whispers. 

 

“We’ll be right back guys” he says to the group before following y/n upstairs. 

 

Once they make it back to y/n’s room, Mattheo sits on the bed and y/n goes into the bathroom to get the test. 

 

“Everything ok love?”

 

y/n walks back in the room and gives him the tests. 

 

“What is this?” he asks, holding the tests in his hands while looking her in the eyes.

 

y/n doesn’t respond so he just looks down and the tests say pregnant. He gasps and drops the tests by accident. He picks them up and looks at it again more closely and gasps again. 

 

“Oh my merlin, oh my merlin y/n” 

 

He gets up, throws the tests on the bed and immediately engulfs her in a hug. y/n sighs in relief.

 

“Y-you’re not m-mad?” y/n asks

 

“I’m going to be a father y/n, I could never be mad at the mother of my child, we will figure it out I promise you.” 

 

y/n smiles gratefully at him and says,

 

“I love you” immediately kissing him.  

 

“Oh my merlin, can I tell the group?” Mattheo says excitedly.

 

“No, we have to wait” 

 

“What? Why?” 

 

“You can’t really tell people you’re pregnant until three months after to make sure nothing happens and the baby is all good and my body can carry it”

 

“Three months?! Ok well what if I just tell Theo?” 

 

“No then theo is gonna tell pansy and then pansy is gonna be hurt that I didn’t tell her”

 

“I understand baby” he says putting his hands on y/n’s stomach and kneeling down and kissing it.

 

“Hi baby, I can't wait to meet you” Mattheo whispers, making y/n fall in love all over again. 

 

They decide to stay in the dorm and cuddle. They eventually fall asleep. 

 

*fast forward to the yule ball*

 

y/n gets dressed in a lavender floral dress and looks at herself in the mirror holding her belly smiling and admiring it. Mattheo walks in and just stands back and admires her. Y/n notices him and turns around.

 

“How do I look?” she asks.

 

“Both of you look beautiful” he says, coming closer and embracing her in a kiss. 

 

They go to the yule ball and dance and have the best time. Halfway through the ball y/n starts to feel discomfort in her stomach. She tries to push it away by sitting down and drinking some soda but it is getting worse by the minute. She gets up and goes over to mattheo. 

 

“Hey baby i’m just going to go to the bathroom for a second”

 

“Ok let me come with you”

 

“No it’s ok i’ll be quick” 

 

“Then let pansy come” 

 

“Mattheo i said no” y/n said irritated and just left the great hall. 

 

She got to the bathroom and let out the tears she was holding in, because she was in so much pain. She leaned her head against the mirror and held onto her stomach. Suddenly she felt liquid on her panties. She gasped and made it over to one of the stalls. Before she could even sit down a puddle of blood fell on the floor. She sat down on the toilet and started to cry heavily, holding onto the sides of the stall because of the intense, painful cramps. 30 minutes later, everytime she moved, more blood would come out. At that moment, mattheo walked into the bathroom. 

 

“Hey, y/n baby are you in here? I’m sorry for earlier I just wanted to make sure you were ok” 

 

“Mattheo” y/n says, shakily. 

 

“Yes love? Are you ok?” he asks worried

 

“Ummm… i’m kind of stuck… in here” y/n says

 

“Oh what do you need? Do you need toilet paper? Did you shit?” 

 

“Ummm… ummm… can you get me some paper towels?”

 

“Ya” he says going over to the dispenser.

 

“Like ten”

 

“Ya” 

 

“A-and can you wet some” 

 

“What?” 

 

“Can you wet some of them?” y/n says trying to not burst into tears. 

 

“Yes” he says, going over to the sink and wetting some. He walks over to the front of the stall. 

 

“Unlock the door baby” 

 

“Can you just hand it to me over the door?” 

 

“Ya” he says, passing it over the door

 

y/n tries to reach it but she feels pain in her stomach and more blood falls into the toilet. 

 

“Can you reach that?” 

 

“Ahhh, fuck” y/n cries. 

 

“What?! You ok baby?” 

 

“Ummm… i can’t reach that, just throw them” 

 

“No baby that’s gonna be unsanitary” 

 

“Ok go under then” 

 

Mattheo goes on the ground and is about to hand it under the door, when the door opens. He is shocked at what he sees. He sees a puddle of blood on the floor, blood stains on the stall walls, blood on y/n’s lavender dress, underwear, legs, heels and toes. Lastly, mascara is running down y/n’s face. y/n grabs the paper towels and breaks out into a painful, gut wrenching sob. Mattheo's vision is cloudy. 

 

“No…. baby” he says. y/n breathes deeply. 

 

“Close the door”

 

“y/n”

 

“Close the fucking door mattheo” y/n yells crying. He does what she says, giving her space. He is shocked and just sits there. 

 

“Mattheo instead of sitting there, can you please go and get me a tshirt or something please?!” y/n says pissed off. 

 

“Of course love” Mattheo says quickly, going to his dorm to get a shirt. 

 

While y/n is waiting she takes off her dress, wipes her legs and feet while sobbing, puts the paper towels on her underwear. Within ten minutes mattheo comes back with an oversized t-shirt and hands it to her over the door. y/n stands up quickly, puts on her underwear and grabs the shirt and puts it on. Mattheo patiently waits.

 

“Y/n i think we should stop by the hospital wing” 

 

y/n unlocks the door and walks out.

 

“I don’t need to go to the hospital, i’m fine” y/n says walking over to the sink and washing her hands. 

 

Mattheo sighs and does a spell to clean up the stall. He turns back over to y/n. 

 

“Want me to carry you?” 

 

“I’m gonna get blood on you”

 

“I’m ok with that” Mattheo says, picking her up bridal style. 

 

They get to the dorm. 

 

“You can put me down now” y/n says.

 

“Ok” Mattheo says, putting her down. 

 

y/n walks over to her desk and grabs her cup and says ‘aguamenti’, her body gently swaying because she’s feeling a bit dizzy. She stumbles backwards a bit while drinking her water. Mattheo walks up to her. y/n turns around to look at him. 

 

“You look like you’re gonna fall over” he says

 

y/n has tears in her eyes again and sighs. 

 

“I need to sit down” she says, sitting on the floor grunting in pain, mattheo sitting as well in front of her.

 

“I need to take a shower” y/n says out of breath. 

 

“I think you should just sit here” 

 

“I want to get out of this fucking tshirt” y/n says feeling gross

 

“I like my shirt on you, it looks cute” 

 

“Then why don’t you marry it” 

 

They sit in silence for a bit until y/n feels like she is ready to get up and head to the bathroom. Mattheo helped her walk and before she walked in the bathroom mattheo said, 

 

“My love, are you ok?” he whispers, putting a piece of hair behind her ear. 

 

“Yes, thank you” she whispers back before closing the door. 

 

She turned on the shower immediately but didn’t get in. She instead sat on the floor sobbing. Even though she tried to be quiet, mattheo could still hear her. He leaned his forehead against the door and sighed. He wants to do his best to make her feel better so he decides to go to the kitchens. 

 

When he comes back, y/n is still in the shower but this time cleaning herself up. She gets out, dries herself off and wraps her hair in a towel. She puts on a heavy overnight pad and a clean oversized tshirt and sweatpants. When she walks out she sees Mattheo with a bouquet of roses in his hand sitting on the bed with dinner for both of them, chocolate covered strawberries, chocolate, ice cream and a heating pad. She takes the towel off of her head and walks over to him giving him the biggest hug ever. 

 

“y/n the flowers! You’re gonna smush it” he says giggling slightly

 

“I love you” y/n whispers, tightening the hug. Mattheo smiles and tightens the hug as well. 

 

They pull apart and y/n slightly smiles sniffing the flowers. Mattheo puts it in a vase for her while she gets into bed turning on the heating pad and starts to eat dinner. Mattheo joins her. She could only eat half before she put it to the side and started eating some of the strawberries. Once they're done eating, Mattheo brushes her hair for her. A bit later, y/n starts to cry again. 

 

“I’m so- I’m so sorry b-baby…”

 

“What? No y/n” mattheo says

 

“i’ve been so m-mean to y-you, i-i lost o-our baby…”

 

“It’s ok y/n, i understand” 

 

“Y-you’re not m-mad?” 

 

“Mad? Never darling, we could always try again in the future when we’re both financially stable and out of school” 

 

“But you were excited to be a father” y/n says crying even more. 

 

“I w-was” mattheo says starting to cry as well.

 

They both cuddled up together, crying, consoling each other and eventually falling asleep. For the next week y/n and mattheo have just been in the dorm resting because y/n is still recovering and mattheo is keeping an eye on her. Their friends are starting to worry, they keep shutting them out. Once y/n has enough strength, they decide to go down to the hospital wing to see madame pomfrey. They walk into the hospital wing and Madame Pomfrey walks up to them. 

 

She notices both of their tired eyes. “Hello dears, what's the problem?”

 

y/n squeezes mattheo’s hand and he rubs her hand with his thumb. 

 

“I miscarried, I just want you to check if everything is alright down there” y/n says while tears roll down her face. 

 

“Oh darling, i’m so sorry, here sit on the bed” pomfrey says guiding them over to a bed. She tells mattheo to step out and closes the blinds around the bed for privacy.

 

“Ok legs up and spread apart” 

 

y/n does as she’s told. Pomfrey examines. After a minute or two she says, 

 

“Ok legs down” 

 

She takes out her wand and does a full body scan. She leaves to go get something and then comes back with some medicine for y/n to take. y/n takes it. 

 

“Everything looks ok, I don't see any more tissue in there, you should be back to normal in two days, just take it easy and rest.”

 

“Thank you madame pomfrey” 

 

“Also i’m here if you need to talk” 

 

Y/n smiles slightly and nods before getting up. They walk back to the dorm room and spend the next two days resting. y/n feels so much better and is ready to face her friends. Her and mattheo walk hand in hand down to the common room where their friends are. 

 

“ah there you two are, we’ve been worried sick for the past week” pansy says. 

 

Mattheo and y/n sit on the couch. 

 

“What happened? You two went on a honeymoon or something?” Theo asks jokingly. 

 

y/n sighs, “no, i had a miscarriage” 

 

The room goes silent for a minute or two. 

 

“You were pregnant?” pansy says. y/n nods. 

 

“How far along were you?” draco asks

 

“3 weeks” mattheo says

 

“I’m sorry you guys” blaise says

 

They all got up for a group hug and tried their best to cheer them up the whole day.