Prologue - An End?
When does a journey start?
Such a simple yet complicated phrase isn't it?
You know, on a story generally a journey can start many ways, some great and epic from the start, others funny and exciting.
But is that really when a journey starts? Normally the protagonist lived a life before the story right? So so much of their story goes untold to the readers.. So you can't really call it a start can you? After all you lack so much context, much less call it a bad start! Or a boring one, for example let's say..
...in the middle of a city in a bus with a boy is lazily sleeping against the window.
Calling it boring would be mean would it not? ..I mean you have no idea what is happening in his mind! He could be remembering his most epic Adventurers this very moment! He could be resting after doing some great deed that would be remembered by generations! ..though I guess you can't really see that can you? Everything you see is a boy sleeping like a lazy guy on a bus ..so I guess, I suppose, that maybe, I would get if you think it's.. just a tiny bit uh..
...
...
....boring.
Whatever! Things are about to change anyway.
The bus turns as it does as it does the head of the boy hits the window.. not too strongly.
Loud smack noise.
"O-ow.."
..ok maybe not too weakly either, the boy is me, if you somehow didn't notice, i am a normal 21 year old boy, English student, and guess what? Differently from a lot of others I actually have had a girlfriend in my life! That's right be jealous! Though uh kiss was the maximum we did but anyway! the boy (me) straightens himself annoyed, why annoyed you ask? Cause I am sleepy!
"..of course this happened"
Yeah I am annoyed, I wanted to sleep more after all ...hm? Why am I narrating what I am thinking? Or who am I speaking to? ...because I want to and I am bored, you will find out later why.. now let's stretch slightly continue on.
"Can't even sleep in peace.." I think but.. I mean.. yeah of course I can't, I am currently going home after wandering around doing stuff for other people, even worse I had to wake up early ...which I hate! Though if they need me I will go anyway ..why you ask? Because I am a big pushover! ..seriously they doesn't deserve me humf! Is what I think being completely serious.. definitely.. yeah.. as a voice interrupted me saying.
"It's your fault for not sleeping yesterday.."
Well well well.. speak of the devil, I look to see said other person, the one I am doing stuff for, who is my sister standing there, almost laughing at me.
Look! I tried to sleep early ok? It's not my fault the Rpg I was playing suddenly got really good ok? Also It's also not like I was stuck in a boss fight for almost an hour and went to sleep at 4 AM got it? I totally don't suck at it ...yeah I don't! Trust me! ...alright now to defend myself.
In a murmur I say.
"...hmf.. you do the same thing.."
I say and then look away after that, it was one hell of a response! ...yeah no, I am just not the type for confrontation even with my sisters ..or better mainly with them or people I care about.. urg! and it makes me feel even worse that she Is totally right.
"you don't have proof of that, besides even if let's say I do it normally, we were going to wake up early today so even if I could do it normally.. I didn't ...because unlike someone I can control myself"
I frown at that, she is completely right about my lack of control ...but I hate it!
Alright she will get it now! ...But as I was about to make an epic response to turn the tides of the conversation, it probably wouldn't, the bus stops at our destination and I sigh while getting up.. fine let's just forget about it like the millions of other things I forget about, it's not like it always bites me in the a... well anyway.
"fine let's get-"
As I turn I hear a scream ..when I look I see a man grabbing her.
What.. WHAT..?? What.. is happening here?? ..is everything I can think before my mind goes blanc.. thinking back on it, it was pretty obvious what was going on, by the way things turned out, the guy was probably a robber.. the best course of action would have been to not resist ...buuut I am not the type to think about things in situations like this, I'm either an overthinker or an airhead 100% of the time! So after my mind went Blanc I didn't hesitate anymore ...well then, remember how I said I didn't like conflict?
My fist flies into the Robber's face! The surprise punch takes him back as his sister struggles out but before the Robber can get a hold of himself I charge at him throwing him down.
That's because of my ...sorta violent tendencies, yeah I was always very prone to aggression and violence as a solution for things, from having fun in fighting clubs when I was young (Like 8-10) to beating up bullies, also I did Karate for a while so.. yes I fought a lot but as I grew up I resolved to change that and became like this, which is calmer and more passive I always disliked conflicts even when I liked fighting but I grew to despise them and please everyone and I did a great job at that change ..though in turn I might have accidentally become prone to swallowing and bottling up everything until I explode.. which is bad, though I do think i still had an improvement!
I keep beating the face of the robber with his fists, while this happens the robber tries to defend himself but I keep on beating him.
...yeah there goes the character development ...though there wasn't much I could do in this case, the thing is I am not the most fit, like I said I stopped fighting and grew uh slightly sedentary and reclusive? ..I am not fat! I just don't exercise much I swear! so because of that..
As I start to get tired the robber finally managed to push back and takes out a ...Gun.
I freeze at the sight I didn't expect that but it should be obvious he was armed shouldn't it? I mean what kind of robber isn't? he also doesn't look ok, my fists hurt but his face has some damage ...wait the way he is holding it ..uh he won't fire randomly will he? Crap!
The robber, a bit out of it from the beating shoots up almost wildly as the people of the bus he tries to say something but he coughed in pain.. he then aims at me but he is too disoriented to do it well though.. as he readies to shoot.
My eyes widen, the way he is aiming I.. can't stay still! I charge at him ... sending us crashing as the gun fires.. the bullet aimed my sister hits me straight.. as I crash down in pain
"W-wha.. what..?"
From the corner of my vision I see her ..my sister.. she is crying looking at me ..there are other people here too but I don't care about them.. after all it hurts... It hurts too much for me to care! ...I groan on the ground as she tries to help.. I look and realize something.. I am dying.. I got shot.. I am going to die.
Fear and panic run through me, my body it's hot.. and cold? I am.. not sure what's this horrific feeling.
I.. I will die, I.. no.. no! I don't want to die.. god.. please help me! I.. oh god.. if I die I am going to hell aren't I? ...i made way too many mistakes.. imm do I deserve it? I.. I mean I don't get to know yet but.. please god.. if I die send me to heaven.
...no no! No!! I don't want to die in the first place.. I want to live here!
[Confirmed]. [Obtaining Body capable of transition between spiritual and phiscal realm.. succesful]
"..you.. you idiot.. you can't.. you can't just.."
I look towards her, she looks so worried about me.. thinking about it, you know... I always saw her as the type of person that always put herself first.. she wasn't bad ...just always, or most of the time I guess, prioritized herself, it was annoying but.. I learned to deal with it.
I on the other hand was normally the opposite most of the time, feeling bad if I did anything that someone else didn't like, putting myself last until I exploded, which wasn't any better to be honest.
I held it all in and complained internally while she was vocal about it and didn't accept it, if I thought something was unjust with someone else, I would do something about it ..even if most likely not in the right way, but when it came to me I just.. let go, most of the time I did just that, in the past I solved it with my fists, but.. I grew to be this way, while my sister grew to be shaper with her words.
We both had our problems, that's something I can acknowledge, but even then she stood against me.. when I was younger I wondered if she even cared, she obviously did, that's something I now an adult now but.. sometimes the idea still flickered into my mind, this idea of solitude I always had.
Now though.. seeing her face like this, it makes me feel ...bad, she cares.. obviously she always did, my thoughts at the times were nothing short childish nonsense, like.. she is my sister! Of course she cared about me ...she just put herself first when it came to some things that.. frankly I don't care about.
Putting yourself first, that's something I should have done more times, look at me! Alone here with nothing accomplished in this life because I always listened to others over me!
If I get another chance in life.. I should live for myself more, instead of.. this, can It even be called a life? I always gave in and just let things happen like an idiot!
It's like how I spent so long, wasting away doing things I didn't want to, all of that just because of the expectations of others.. and when I finally leave to be able to study what I want, to do what I want.. and not even by my own decision but my parents.. this happens!
I am dying.. there's so many things I wanted to learn to do.. so many things I could have done.. and here I am.. if only learning wasn't so damn hard! I could have done both what I wanted and what everyone else did! ..o..ow.. it hurts to be angry.
[Confirmed]. [Unique skill Prodigy Sense].[successfully acquired]
..Even in my final moments I am thinking of living up to their expectations? .. just how, honest to god, broken am I!?
I.. I.. ...my final moments.
As the realization that I will die sets in, I started to think about what I will leave behind ...and suddenly I remember. IT ..my phone..!! H-hell no I am leaving that stuff as a legacy!!
"..my phone"
My sister looks at me confused, but I don't care!
"Q-quick..!"
Ignoring her confused look and pushing through the pain I quickly take out my phone.
With it in my hands I move quickly ...and delete it! Everything I downloaded and I don't like won't be allowed to stay! These things are private! And now they are gone.
There! It's done! my embarrassing secrets die with me!
"....what?"
Ok maybe not, God dammit she saw it all!
[Confirmed]. [Manipulation of data and download deletion of data]... [Cannot execute].. [substituting with]: [Extra skill: Perfect memory] [Extra skill: All of creation]. [Successful]
...I definitely ruined my soul by doing this in my probably final moments, in front of my sister no less! ...what the hell is wrong with me? This is some anime shit, at this point just kill me!
Coughing
The coughing gets worse.. as the time of death is near, in the end the medical help is nowhere to be seen, I feel desperation fill me.
N-no! I take it back! Don't kill me!
"?! No! You..!"
..did she try to call me something? I saw her mouth move but didn't hear anything.
While the thought crosses my mind, I watch as she tries to help, I appreciate it, I really do but at this point I already know what's happening ..I am dying and there's nothing I can do about it is there?.. I wonder what will become of my soul.. I wish I could choose but I can't can I? I never can decide what I do.. I always fail! ...this isn't fair! It isn't fair that.. this is happening!
[Confirmed] [Extra skill Soul manipulation acquired]
"..i.. don't want this.." is what I think looking at my crying sister.. this isn't how things should go ...I am not even going to get to say goodbye to my parents? How.. unfair.
"..h-hey.. tell them I.. I love everyone and I am sorry.. for everything.."
"!!! Don't.. don't you dare say that!"
..she looks so angry.. it isn't my fault okay! I don't want this!! I don't want any of this.. I have always wanted freedom I always said that I valued it immensely and hated being contained that's why I always had some kind of problem with authorities or bullies people that forced their authority on to others! and this.. this is no exception! this is not what I want to be.. this is not where I want to go.. I want to be able to choose! I want the people to change this.. maybe even change the world! ..is it too much to ask to be able to control what happens to me!? For once in my life I just want. I.. I want to be the one that makes the rules for my life ..for were I am and live and the world I am in for once ..but I can't can I?
[Succesful.] [Unique skill Spacial Dominion][successfully acquired]
..this is the end isn't it? ..how pathetic of me hah.. my end isn't even funny.. no redeeming qualities ...I wasted my life and I complained on the inside until the end too! I can't even stand up and say it dammit!! ..still I need to try to tell her.
"just.. tell them .... I really do love ... everyone.. ...and ... don't tell Dad about the phone thing.."
..she only stares at him for a moment and with a small laugh and cry.. tears on her face says.
"you're such a.. .. g-geez.. fine.. ..I.. promise.. but.. you.. won't actually die right?"
..in the end I made her laugh huh? ...thinking about it, even with everything that happened to me, I was still very blessed.. a normal life, a Loving family and this end while horrible and unexpected well I suppose ..it wasn't as awful of an end as it could be but even now I am falling to live up what she asks, I look down at my bloody bloody.. ah..ah I was.. trying not to see it because I..
"...."
"..N-NO!!"
i passed out, my body weakened and then...
Slowly.. his heart stopped.