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"How do you feel? Are you okay? Are you-"He exhaled." Regulus... I am fine. You don't have to do anything." Regulus stopped adjusting the pillow behind him and shook his head." I'm sorry, but you can get as angry with me as you want for taking care of you. I almost lost you."

Sirius' shoulders relaxed. Regulus was getting on his nerves, but he was also right. So he decided not to interfere with him anymore. He already had a much more important issue to deal with. It had been 2 days since he woke up and there was still no news of Remus. Regulus and James were also about to drive him insane. They kept claiming that they didn't know anyone named Remus. And then there was the Mike problem, of course. He was persistently trying to talk to Sirius even though he was told to go. And now they had come home. It was time for him to have a serious conversation with Regulus and James."Regulus, all right. My pillow doesn't matter right now. Sit down here."

Regulus and James looked at each other, and Regulus sat down in the couch next to James. "Now tell me what you're doing." Sirius said. Regulus' brows furrowed." What do you do? You've been saying Remus since you woke up. We don't even know anyone called Remus." Sirius took a deep breath. Wasn't he speaking clearly enough? Why they didn't want to understand.

"I'm telling you for the last time. Remus is my boyfriend.I was at his house when you called me on the day of my accident. Why do you say you don't know him?" Regulus' shoulders straightened and his expression changed. He and James looked at each other again. This time, James spoke. "In his house?... You.. Were you cheating on Mike?"

calmdowncalmdowncalmdowncalmdown,Sirius said to himself.

"I'm not cheating on anyone. I don't even know the guy you call Mike!" James had opened his mouth to speak when there was a knock on the door. He got up and went to open the door. He re-entered the room with Mike behind him. Sirius felt his body tense up. Mike was behind James,giving him sad looks."Sirius, I know you don't want to see me, but I have to talk to you"He was holding a box in his hand. Sirius wondered what was inside.

He looked at James, who was standing, and Regulus, who was sitting on the couch. He turned back to Mike and nodded his head in the affirmative. Mike's face colored." I don't believe you if you're going to claim that you are my boyfriend."Before Mike could start talking, the other two left the room and closed the door behind them. Mike slowly came to the couch and sat down and handed what he had to Sirius." What are they?" Mike just nodded to the box."Open it please"Sirius lifted the lid of the box. At the top was a polaroid of Mike and him kissing. He picked up the photo and started looking at it. They were really kissing. He felt his throat knotted. What was going on with these photos? There was a lot more behind the photo. Other photos, gifts, dried flowers..... Mike began to speak as Sirius took out the contents of the box in shock.

"I know. You're going to say we're not lovers again, but I wanted to bring you this. All of these are... proof of our relationship.The photos we took together, the gifts we bought for each other... I brought some of them from your house. Perhaps.. You remember me."Sirius really wanted to scream. He didn't have a single memory of this man, but what he had in front of him was very real.On top of that, Mike showed his phone while he was in the hospital. Sirius had recorded Mike as 'my darling' and in his messages they spoke as if they were lovers. More interestingly, there was nothing about Remus on his phone. No message,no call,no photo...

He stared at Mike.He followed the tears down her cheeks with his eyes. His heart ached a little. He didn't know what to say anymore. He could only say, "Don't cry."

When he put yourself in his shoes, the situation became even more complicated.He tucked the hair that fell in front of her face behind his ear. Licked his lips. Mike was nervously playing with his hands, waiting for a reaction from Sirius. Sirius decided to talk calmly instead of yelling at him like he had been doing for 2 days. Clearing his throat, he began to speak. "Look... Mike.I'm trying to understand you, but... You make things very difficult for me. I-I don't know you." Mike's face crumpled with pain." I'm sorry. I don't want you to suffer, but there's nothing I can do."

Mike lowered his eyes to his hands. His crying was intense."We had celebrated our first anniversary two days before the accident. I had a surprise for you. You were so happy. You told me all night how much you loved me. I-I ,If I kne-"He covered his face with his hands as he burst into sobs. Sirius wanted to cry,too. But there was something wrong with it. He was trying to recall a memory he had with Mike, but his brain was empty. The only thing he could think of was Remus. Mike started talking again. He seemed to have calmed down a little more.

"I don't want to believe you're cheating on me, but.... That seems to be the only explanation left." A feeble giggle escaped from his lips."You forget me after the accident but don't forget him-..."He got up and started walking around the room. He was trying not to look at Sirius. Sirius did not respond to what he said. It didn't make sense, but could Mike be right when he said it? He tried to convince himself that it wasn't true, but he couldn't find any other explanation. If Mike was right, Sirius thought he was a disgusting person. That was cruel. Could Sirius have been so cruel?As he grappled with hundreds of such questions in his mind,saw Mike left the room.He left without saying anything. A few minutes later, he heard the outer door close. He must have spoken to Regulus and James in the hallway.Immediately after, they entered the room." Sir-"

Without letting them speak, he said, "Leave me alone."He couldn't talk to them when he was so frustrated.They were only repeating the same things.James tried this time.

"Sirius,li-"

"I SAID, 'LEAVE ME ALONE.'" He pulled his quilt up to his chin and turned his back to them. When he heard the door shut, he looked back to see if they had left, and when he saw that the room was empty, he kicked the quilt off him. He felt overwhelmed enough, and he didn't need to be out of breath.He tried to silence the voices in his mind by closing his eyes, but they were too loud. He felt like he was in a huge labyrinth. Although he walked through all the corridors, he could not reach the door. He didn't know how to get to Remus.There was no one who knew Remus, there was nothing in his life that belonged to Remus.He stayed awake for minutes, trying to make a logical correlation between the events,but he had nothing more logical than Mike's theory. If he was cheating, he might not have hidden anything of the Remus to avoid being caught. Maybe he was deleting every call and message as well.Of course, he didn't keep the photos in his gallery.The only way left was to go back to his house-he was staying in Regulus'-and look at. . Even if he didn't have anything on his phone, he would definitely find something in his house that would take him to the Remus.

The biggest question he couldn't find an answer to was that even if Sirius couldn't find him,Remus could easily reach him. Didn't he know he had an accident? This possibility was worse because at the time it indicated that Remus had never wondered Sirius for 2 months. Maybe he had called and someone had picked up the phone and found out the facts and told Remus to fuck himself and was trying to convince Sirius that Remus wasn't real by taking out everything that belonged to Remus in his life.He shook his head at this ridiculous theory.The more he thought, the more clouded his brain became, and his theories became more and more absurd.Neither Regulus nor James would have done such a thing.They might have been angry at his deception, but they would never be inclined to do anything to play with Sirius' mind. But he didn't know Mike,maybe he did-

He quickly stood up and went to the table. He was going to do the best thing he could to get away from his thoughts. In other words,he would paint by listening to music. He didn't have any stuff here, but a piece of paper and a pen would help him.Searching through the drawers, he found what he was looking for. He put his headphones on and tapped to Spotify. During his time in a coma, Taylor had released a 31-song album. Now it was time to listen to the songs.He typed in the name of the album and clicked on the first song.

"I was supposed to sent away, but they forgot to come and get me.'"

Wow.Very relatable. He began to sketch on the paper.

When he was done drawing, he held up the paper and looked at Remus' face. Of course. There were no thoughs in his brain other than Remus. And now he had drawn it. He put the paper down on the table again. He gently stroked his face with his hands. When he saw a drop fall on the picture, he realized that he was crying. He took off his headphones and rubbed his temples for a while with his fingers. Enough thought for today.He left the table and went to bed, turning off the light. She crawled into the messy bed and pulled the quilt over him.The light coming in through the window illuminated the room. Sirius looked up at the stars." Where are you, Remus?" he whispered to himself. He tried to sleep by closing his eyes.Soon he fell asleep and dreamed of Remus

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When Sirius woke up in the morning, the ache in his head was gone. He came to a sitting position and began to rub his legs,numb from sleeping. There was the sound of two people talking in the kitchen.James must have arrived before sunrise. While Sirius was still rubbing his body, James walked into the room. He spread his arms wide and shouted with joy."Good morning, our little sunshine."

"You're still as stupid as you were 2 months ago."

Ignoring the insult, James sat down next to Sirius and threw his arm over his shoulder, pulling him to himself. Sirius looked at him with a grimace." I've been with you for the last 12 years of your life and you expected me to change in 2 months?"Sirius rolled his eyes exaggeratedly and tried to sulk, but couldn't help but laugh.James reached out and tried to pull Sirius' lips to the sides with his thumb and forefinger.

"Yes, Sirius, it suits you to laugh like that. It's not sulking in a quilt like a grumpy witch." Sirius angrily pushed James over him." Are you calling me a witch?" James let out a laugh and stood up." Come on for breakfast." He left the room with a kiss on Sirius' head. Sirius thanked God for crossing paths 12 years ago as he looked after James. Everyone had to have a James Potter in their life. In other words, municipalities could clone James and give it to every family. Thus, the welfare level of the countries would reach its peak.

Sirius went to the bathroom, washed his hands and face, and then walked to the kitchen.James and Regulus had already sat down and started putting breakfast on their plates. He said, "Good morning," to indicate that he had entered the room. Regulus looked up at Sirius." Good morning."

Then James said, "Good morning, sleeping beauty. We thought you would never come." Regulus turned as Sirius settled into the chair." You don't open the door the next time this guy comes." James straightened his shoulders." You forget that I have the key to your house." He received a middle finger from Sirius in response. Regulus, who had not yet deigned to participate in their conversation, was pushing every plate on the table in front of Sirius and said, "Eat!"

In normal times, he would have turned Regulus down, but after yesterday he couldn't say anything to either of them.They must have been mad with anxiety for 2 months.They didn't deserve to be scolded by Sirius. As they chatted casually, James turned to Sirius and asked, "How are you feeling today?" Sirius replied before he put the spoon in his mouth." Like shit. You?"

"Regulus and I came up with a plan.The doctor said fresh air might help speed your recovery.Also...We know that your head is very full.How about going on a picnic?"In fact, all Sirius wanted to do was get into bed and never come out again—and find the Remus—but he shook his head.

"Okay"