Chapter 3
Sirius
It just hit me that I'm the only one left. Voldemort killed James and Lily. You killed peter. You are in Azkaban, and that just leaves me here.
Alone
Do you know what made me realize that with such force on a random Tuesday?
The moon.
This is going to be the first full moon I've spent alone since I was a third year at Hogwarts.
Do you remember when you, James and Peter found out?
I do.
We were all thirteen, and you convinced James to help you steal the half completed Marauders map out of my bag while I was asleep. If my memory is correct, it still only had us four (plus Lily, on James's request).
When I left for the whomping willow that evening, you were all watching and following me at a safe distance.
I was so out of it because of the rising full moon and I didn't notice that you three were following me.
To this day I'm still glad you were smart enough not to come inside the shrieking shack. You looked through a window and saw me transform and left.
Instead of being terrified, all of you immediately began to scheme a way to help me.
I really should have realized something was up when you and James actually read books instead of planning pranks on the new first years. To be honest, I thought I was rubbing off on you.
But two months later, everything came to light.
When you all told me that you had seen me that night, I was convinced you were kicking me out, saying I had to find somewhere else to sleep because I was no longer allowed in the dorm room. But I never could have been prepared for what you actually said.
You had all learned how to become animals, illegal animangus, so that I wouldn't have to be alone anymore. So that I wouldn't claw at myself all night long until I pass out from blood loss. So I wouldn't show up to class the day after the full moon with more suspicious bandages all over my body and half healed bruises on my face.
I think that's the first time I felt like people truly loved me after I was bitten.
Now you are all gone, and I'm alone again.
See you after the full moon.
Yours,
Remus