Holiday has just ended, and new school year started in Hogwarts. James hadn't heard a single word from Regulus during the summer. He had overthinked everything possible, but now, he was waiting from Regulus in their spot. In astronomy tower.
James was leaning on the railing, as he hears quiet footsteps. He turns around and faces Regulus’ eyes. Something was wrong, James could tell that something was wrong. There was something missing from the others eyes. They looked weak. James takes a step closer to Regulus.
“Reg? Reggie, are you alright? Please tell me you are alright… What has happened.” James’ voice was filled with worry.
“James. I-” The younger boy can’t get words out of his mouth. James open his arms and takes Regulus into a hug.
“What is it? What’s wrong?” James asked again, hoping to get the answer.
“I- I got it.. They made me to get it- I'm sorry James. I tried to say no, they made me get it.” Regulus’ voice sounded shattered, like he would break down in any second.
James doesn't know what to say. He takes step away from Regulus and just look at him without saying anything. It feels the world just went quiet as James stare Regulus.
“James, please, say something, anything.” Regulus whisper. I tear fall from his eye.
“Can I see it?” James asks. Regulus just nods and roll his sleeve up, revealing the dark mark. There is hint of disappointment and anger in James’ eyes.
“I’m sorry James, I am so sorry.. Please don’t be angry.” Regulus sounded so weak.
“I just- what did u expect Regulus? I would hug you and tell that everything is going to be okay?” James shakes his head. “You are one of them now, you have become what we hated the most.”
“Don’t say that James.” He finally broke down crying. That’s not something Regulus does every day. He rarely shows any weakness.
“No.. I can’t do this anymore Reg.. I can’t be with someone who has..that..” James said.
“No, no, James, I'm still me, I'm still the same person.”
James just shake his head and walk out of the astronomy tower. Regulus feels like his whole world has just fallen down, like he has lost everything in his life. Regulus watches James walk away, as he broke down crying hugging his knees. He has never cried like this before. There was just so much pain. So. Much. Pain.
Regulus try to catch his breath as the panic takes over his whole body. He just stares the mark in his arm. Everything feels just too much. With shaking hands, Regulus takes a piece of glass from his pocket. He wants the mark out of his skin. He needs to get rid of it. Regulus’ body wince a bit as the sharp glass cuts his wrist over and over again. First just small marks, but they go deeper and deeper, until the whole dark mark is covered with wounds. For the moment he just stares the wrist, how blood is tripping to the floor. Time moves slowly, it feels like couple minutes since James left, but in reality it happened over hour ago. After a while the reality hits and the panic comes back. The piece of glass drops from Regulus’ hand as he realizes what he has done.
Regulus doesn’t know what do to. He can’t go back to the common room. Nobody can’t see him this broken.
Time skip couple hours.
“Regulus? Are you here?” Regulus wakes up from familiar voice. He didn’t even realize he were so tired and had fallen asleep. Quickly Regulus covers his wrist with a sleeve of the sweater. “Reg?” It’s James.
“Reg. I’m so fucking sorry, I didn’t mean anything I said. I just didn’t know how to react.” Regulus can tell that James has cried. A lot. He feels bad, he didn’t want to make James cry.
“James- you are back?”
“And I will never leave you again, I love you so much Reggie.” James sits next to Regulus. He moves his stare to the floor, noticing a couple drop of blood and bloody piece of glass. “Regulus?” He sounds worried. “Can I see your wrist?” He asked calmly, first Regulus shakes his end, but after a couple seconds he offers his wrist to James and looks away.
Slowly James rolls the sleeve up, hoping he doesn’t hurt Regulus. Mentally or physically. A little gaps comes out of his mouth as he sees all the bloody wounds.
“Can I clean it?” Regulus nods his head as an answer. James takes a paper out of his pocket and use a spell to get bit of water. He starts to clean the blood off.
“I was so scared James, I thought I would never see you again, I thought you hated me.” Regulus whisper. That broke James’ heart.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Reg, I love you. I will never ever leave you again, We will get thought this, together.”
“I love you too Jamie.”