Rosekiller

You can appreciate the light but before that you have to know the darkness.

Darkness is something Remus knows well,
After all he had spent most of his life living in it, that was before he met Sirius, despite what you may think Sirius is not the light to his darkness or anything like that,
But rather, the only and the brightest star in his pitch black sky, the day they met on the train was both the worst and the best day of his life,
his parents had just told him they were getting a divorce and he had to pick one of them to live with before summer break,
his dad hadn’t been around until that very moment.
He hadn't seen him since he was five and when he showed up at the train station, he is ashamed to admit that he got his hopes up a little, and when he met Sirius he just forgot about everything that happened.

And right now he wishes he could go back to that moment, when he offered a beautiful stuck up rich kid his jumper, he didn’t understand why this was happening, one moment they were packing up to go back home then the next Sirius was on the floor,
He had to cover Teddy’s eyes as they took Sirius to the Operation Room. He knew Effe was trying to explain to him what was wrong, but the only thing his brain could comprehend was that Srirus was in trouble.

“---In his lung–” His gaze shot up. “Wha-what’s wrong with his lung?” She gave him a sympathetic look and started over.

“A piece of the car got stuck in his lung, it caused an infection. I need you to sign the forms for the Transplant surgery” he nodded, when he tried to grab the pen his hand started to shake.

“I-sorry” she shook her head. “I understand Remus” somehow he managed to sign it though he was pretty sure it didn’t come out right.

He looked down at Teddy who had gotten really quiet as he sat on his lap.

“Are you okay Seren fach?”
[Little star]

“A fydd tad yn marw?” he answered in a small voice.
[Is Papa gonna die?]

“No-no he won't, why would you think that?” Teddy looked up at him, his big grey eyes filled with tears ready to overflow.

“Because the man said it was my fault, because I told him you said he must die-”

“Hold on, what man Teddy?” the younger boy pouted. “I’m sorry, I know I’m not supposed to talk to strangers” Remus shook his head.

“That's okay, just tell me what he said–or what he looked like yeah?”

The younger thought for a moment, before shaking his head.

“I don’t remember, uncle Reggie saw his face” he stared at his son with a million questions running through his mind but settled for one instead.

“Where were me and papa when this happened?” Teddy tilted his head and his pout grew and he mumbled something.

“What did you say?” he asked gently. “When you and papa were–when you were–” he started to tear up.

“Okay buddy I get it–you don’t have to say anything, how bout’ we go and find uncle Reggie yeah?”
He nodded.

Just then a painfully familiar voice spoke up. “Remus?” he looked up.

“Dad” Teddy looked between the two. “You look wel–”

“Don’t-just don’t” he nodded, then looked at the boy in his arms. “And who is he?”

“My son”

“Where is your wife then?” Teddy tilted his head at the word ‘wife’. “Dada doesn’t have have a wife”

“Then where’s your mother?” he asked the boy, and he in turn scrunched up his nose, not in disgust but in confusion.

He shook his head in frustration. “I don’t have a mum, I have a papa, my father's husband?” He sounded like he was talking to a dumb kid.

He looked at Remus, who just shrugged.

“Then how was he–”

Remus cut him off with a smirk. “My Husband gave birth to him” Teddy turned to him with a pout.

“You promised that we could go to uncle Reggie, I wanna show him my wolf plushie I got from the nice nurse” he nodded.

“Okay buddy, I’ll see you another time dad” before he could answer, Remus got up and walked away.

That’s enough daddy issues for one day..
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Evan has decided that he needs to form a protection squad.

The dinner was a week ago, after Yvonne’s bitchy stunt everyone went home, Halloween was surprisingly quiet and uneventful [something that rarely happens in this fandom]
And now his dad has been trying to contact everyone for some reason, of course Evan’s not stupid, He did date Seph but other than that he’s not stupid.

So he didn’t pick up, he and Barty decided to introduce Bea and Roise to each other, so the moment he heard the doorbell ring it must have been Barty right? No instead it was–

“Ciel?” The boy had been crying and Evan noticed a few bruises and cuts on his arms and wrists.
He didn’t want to think about what they tried to do, he quickly got them inside.

Bea was sleeping on the couch, Evan told him to sit anywhere he wanted, he then went to the kitchen and made three cups of hot chocolate Barty was still on his way–he heard a knock at the door.

“Speak of the devil” he mumbled and placed the cups down on the coffee table, then he opened the door, Barty held an angry–well if cats can even look angry–Rosie in his arms along with his phone.

Ciel was still on the couch fidgeting with a ring on his finger, the other two sat down, Evan handed Ciel the cup and he took it, Rosie cuddled up to Bea very quickly.

The room stayed silent until Evan spoke. “How did you find this place?” he asked.

“I went over to Felix’ place and he hid me there until my mum came around and asked if I was there. Eva came upstairs and gave me your address-” he turned to Evan. “If I’m imposing just say it”

He shook his head. “Not at all” he answered with a smile. "Why did you go over to Felix’ in the first place?” asked Barty.

Ciel took a deep breath. “Mum told me that she was pregnant–” She looked at Evan.

“Wait, how old is your dad?” Barty looked just about as confused as he felt. “I don’t know, I know he and mum are about the same age”

“How olds your mum?” he thought for a moment. “Thirty-two, nevermind that continue” Ciel nodded with a slight smile on their face..

“Anyway, yeah she told me that she was pregnant, and that since I was already a teenager that I had to marry someone, I don’t know how it was supposed to make a difference but I told her that I'm not a girl–you can guess what happened next–

I really don’t want to get married–I already have a boyfriend and-”

“You have a boyfriend?” asked Barty. “Aren't you like thirteen?”

“I bet you did a lot of things at that age but no I’m sixteen, and yes I have a boyfriend, your not the only gay one here” Evan smiled.

“Did you meet him at hogwarts?”Ciel nodded. “He’s a gryffindor in my year, I beat him up the first time we met” Ciel smiled at the memory while Barty gaped at him.

“Why the hell did you beat the kid up?” he shrugged. “He left me a note to meet him after school in the courtyard, I thought he wanted a fight when really he just wanted to give me a present”

Evan tilted his head. “What present?”

“A binder, he wrapped it up so nobody could see what it was–he doesn’t know what happened to me, my mum broke my phone after I came out”

Both Barty and Evan looked at each other and nodded.

“Okay-how about I clean up those wounds and we can go out somewhere”
Evan smiled.

“Where?”

“It’s a surprise” Ciel thought for a moment then nodded.
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The three soon arrived at a familiar apartment building, once inside they made their way to the seventh floor.
They knocked on the door, Lily opened it with a bright smile on her face.

“Panda’s in her office–hi there Ciel” he smiled at her. “Hi Lily”

They all made their way to Pandora’s office and when they opened the door, they saw Eva, Felix, Rosa and Cece all sat down at a table, Felix immediately got up and hugged Ciel, who returned it.

“Thank god you're okay” Felix whispered. Evan couldn’t help but feel a pang of jealousy, when he and Panda were hurt by their dad Felix wouldn’t even spare them a glance, but he knows that he doesn’t deserve to feel this way, but he can’t help it.

They all sat down at Pandora’s round table, she probably cleaned up for once.
“Okay so where do we go from here?” asked his sister. Eva was the second to speak.

“I know we don’t have to explain ourselves, but this baby is Felix’s, and yes I am a lesbian and yes he is gay but—our partners broke up with us a while back and we both got very drunk—that night might have been a mistake, but this baby isn’t and I-” Pandora reached for her hand.

“You were right you don’t need to explain yourselves, but thank you for being honest, and trust me when I say that when that child is born, he or she is going to receive all the love they could ever want from all the people in this room and maybe even outside of it” Eva nodded.

Cece looked over to Felix.

“Honey, I’m sorry I haven’t been–that I was never present in your life, I have no excuse for it, but I do want to know if there is still a chance that maybe we could–start over?”

Evan only remembers one time he heard his mother’s voice crack like this.

Felix looked at her, with a little bit of tears in his eyes. “Mum, It did hurt a little that you just ignored me but I know that you were just a child, I know you never really hated me and I’d be really happy if–we could-start over I mean, I’d really like that, and Evan, Pandora”

They both turned to him. “I’m sorry for everything, I should have protected you guys when we were younger-instead I just did whatever he said, but I want you guys to know that-from the moment that I saw you two I adored you and loved you with every fibre in my being, and I still do”
At this point everyone in the room was crying[Except for Barty, he just smiled].

Both twins got up and hugged their big brother, before Pandora pulled away and huffed a laugh.

“This is not what I meant when I asked ‘where do we go from here’ but I’m glad you guys took it the wrong way” everyone laughed.

“But back to the problem at hand, Ciel cannot go back to that god forbidden place, that woman already knows that Rosa, Cece, Eva and Feli, are people they could turn to-sorry Ciel darling what are the pronouns of the day?”

“They/Them” she nodded.

“It’s only a matter of time before she suspects Evan, or me, so what do we do?”

“I could go stay with my boyfriend-his parents love me-”

“Hold on, you have a boyfriend?!” Eva exclaimed.

“Yes, yes, we’re very cute and all I’ll tell you guys about it later-but could that work?”

“Where does he live?” asked Cece.

“Actually not far from here, we passed his house on the way here-” They pointed out the window, to a nice looking house that wasn’t too far away.

Barty hummed.“Okay, but we need to get you a new phone and some new clothes, and an appointment for surgery, we should space them out so maybe top surgery first-”

“Wait what-you would actually do that for me? What about all the stuff my mum said about-”

“It’s no trouble, plus if my mum heard any of those things she would have laughed in that womans face and called her a Coglione”
[It translates to: testical, or jerk or dumbass or idiot, take your pick]

“What does that mean?” asked Eva.

“Uhh-It means like four different things but one of them is testical, so yeah” Rosa snorted.

“Okay, I’m gonna start dinner, I hope you guys like lasagna” Barty looks at Lily.

“Do you even know how to make it?” she smiles. “Nope, but we have all the ingredients so unless someone who knows how to make it comes and help-” she trails off.

“Will this end in me making dinner myself?” She shrugged.

“I can chop the onions?” he looks at her horrified. “Che Cazzo, there’s no onions in lasagna” [What the fuck]. He got up, grabbed her hand and walked to the kitchen rambling[cursing] in italian.

“Is there really no onions in lasagna?” asked Eva. as if he had super hearing Barty runs back in and points to her.

“You might be pregnant but that does not mean you can’t sit and watch, come on” despite his tone he helps her up.

“Now that’s what I call husband material” Pandora muses, Evan threw a roll of fabric at his sister.

“You bitch, that was expensive! ”

“Yeah it was a shame wasting it on a cheap thing such as yourself”

“Mum” she whined. The older woman shook her head. “Evan play nice, but I do agree with her he would make a good husband”

“Certainly better than the other men you’ve dated” she adds.
He gaps at both of them. “Felix” it was his turn to whine, his brother seemed caught off guard but smiled.

“I plead the fifth”

“Traitor, Ciel?” They shook their head, he turned to Rosa and she held up their hands in surrender.

“Traitors all of you” he hissed.

It took less than an hour for dinner to be made, they brought the food into Pandora’s office, and Evan can safely say that this was the best family dinner he had ever been to…
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When he opened his eyes, the last thing Sirius expected was to be hooked up to more monitors.

He tried to look around but his neck hurt, everything hurt really, the last thing he remembered was packing, he was so excited to go home he and James had been talking about it since halloween.

He built up enough courage to move his head to the side, naturally it hurt like hell but the look on Remus’ face hurt more, the younger man had been staring at him with that god forbidden look in his eyes.

“Hi darling, how are you feeling?” Sirius didn’t speak or rather he couldn’t, this sent him into a panic.

“Hey-look at me, everything is going to be alright–Effe said it’s only temporary, you had a stroke, love–just nod your head for yes and shake it for no okay?”

He nodded.

“Are you feeling okay?”

A nod.

“Do you wanna know where Teddy is?”

Another nod.

“He’s with Reg and James there both in the waiting room” Sirius looked down.

“I—I–mn–no—Home?” he let out a frustrated sob, why couldn’t he talk? Why can’t he do one simple thing?

Remus, seeming to understand what he was trying to say, shakes his head.

“No love not today”

In that moment Sirius felt his gut wrench, he wanted to scream at the top of his lungs, he just wanted to go home, he just wanted to be normal, he doesn’t want to spend the rest of his life here,
He doesn’t want Teddy to grow up seeing him like this, thinking that he’s weak, he doesn’t want Remus to take care of him or keep him away from everyone else, he wants him to have a life, he wants him to be free, he wants to be free.

“Sirius?” that gets his attention. “You still with me, Mon Etoile?” [My star] Sirius felt his heart melt, he learned french?

“Y-you–hmn–f-” Remus just shrugged.

“Only a little bit, plus Effe told me that you’d have a much easier time talking in your native language, and I asked Reg what it meant since you always call him that”

What did he do to deserve this man?

“You know this won’t change anything right? I’ll still love you even if you never get better, but I know you will, just know that I will be with you every step of the way-”

“All of us will” Sirius turned to the door, and saw James, Reggie and Teddy there, Teddy was in Reg’s arms, refusing to look at him, okay ouch.

Remus got up and took Teddy from Reg, he then walked back over to the bed the same time as James and his brother walked more into the room, closing the door behind them.

“M-Mon–mn–bebe?”[my baby]. Teddy still refused to look at him, even when he extended his hand to cup his cheek, he just shrugged it away.

Sirius let out a whine. And Remus looked at Teddy who had buried his head in the crook of his father’s neck.

Sirius then heard him let out a tiny sniffle, Remus gently handed him Teddy, much to the younger's dismay.

You see, despite being sassy, and everything, Teddy was usually calm and he rarely ever cried or threw a tantrum.

Sirius felt himself cry as his own son kicked and screamed to get away from him, so to spare himself any more heartbreak, he carefully handed Teddy back to Remus.

“Teddy, what’s going on with you, Little man?” James asked. While Reg held Sirius as the older of the two cried silently in his arms.

“I don’t wanna go to him”

“Yeah and why’s that?” Teddy looked like he was bracing himself for something.

“Cause I don’t like–Because I hate him” those were the words that utterly broke him.

“Teddy Lupin-Black, that is your father” Remus scolded, Sirius felt himself hyperventilating, he didn’t want Teddy to hate him, what did he even do?

As if this night-day whatever the fuck time it is couldn’t get any worse the lights went out…
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