Chapter 5
Ron didn't know where he was
he has started out at the leaky, before getting kicked out for smashing a cup on top of Theodore notts head
or maybe that was yesterday
or last month
Ron didn't know where he was but he made sure to thank the man pressing another glass into his hand, "for saving the world" the man yelled into his ear, trying to be heard over the loud music
Ron wishes he would stop, wishes that people would stop thanking him, but with the praise comes the drinks and so Ron just mumbles and smiles at the man until he gets the hint and moves away.
Its not that he has a drinking problem exactly, its not something he's ever had to deal with before, he honestly drank less than most people in his year, him Harry and Hermione usually not having the time to experience the activity's most would say were the best memories they had.
But he likes the way it dulls everything,numbs him from the outside in, makes everything seem so small.
When Ron was seven years old his mother gave him a small pot with a even smaller plants growing in it, said that if he wanted a dog he had to keep the seed alive and make it grow into a plant, that his parents would finally let him get the long dreamed upon pet.
the plant ended up dying two weeks either, when his mother asked him what happened, he said he had kept it in the sunlight and watered it every day, when molly examined the dead soil she realized that it was more liquid than solid, said that he must have over watered the plant.
Ron never did get a dog
sometimes Ron thinks his whole life is like that, he gives too much of himself to everything,everyone. feels things too much, doesn't know where to put everything he has inside him.
"you're drooling Weasley" its Pansy Parkinson of all people that is speaking, well Ron thinks its her, all he knows for sure is he is not a fan of them. Ron must have spoken out loud because a second later she is looking at him with a look on her face Ron cant quite place, its something close to understanding. Ron thinks shes alright then,stands down, until shes stopping someone from giving him a drink
"why the fuck do you think you can speak for me deatheater" Ron snarles at her, wantched her eyes squint and she looks him head to toe before looking deep in his eyes
"Get your shit together ginger, a lot of people lost a lot more than you"" she hisses the truth and it knocks the wind out of Ron for a long time after she leaves him.
The war took all his kindness and turned it into anger, the war made Ron cruel.
"oi, that drink still available?" he slurs at the bystander.