i just want some more (pt 2)
“James! You know how you love me so so so much and would do anything for me?” Sirius practically yells into the phone. James probably could’ve predicted this, but nonetheless, he had to quickly jerk his head away from the speaker.
He sighed, “Yeah, Pads, I remember making that mistake.” He rolled his eyes as he said it. He heard Sirius gasp in fake offence and continued rambling as usual.
“Soooooo,” he drawled out, “could you come over real quick? Moony is picking up my brother from his new apartment and told me to clean the apartment, but like you know I can’t do that. So can you pretty please help?” With anyone else James would be annoyed as hell, but he knew Sirius genuinely couldn’t stay focused on a task long enough to effectively clean.
“Yeah, sure, man. I'll be there in like 10?” he said, making his way to his room to put on something other than a towel. “Wait, does this mean I'm also meeting your brother?” he asked curiously. He had always been intrigued by the man Sirius had talked so much lately, apparently, they had gotten over some fight, but James wasn’t really sure what about.
“Uhm, I mean I guess? He’s not much of a people person so maybe don’t stay too long but like you can say hi.” Sirius had a weird tone of voice, but then again they had only started talking again a few months ago.
“Okay cool! See ya soon Pads!” James quickly hung up and threw on his sweater, grabbed his keys, and headed over.
…
As James entered the apartment, he found the problem. Remus had clearly cleaned up the place, but there was a large, overflowing pile of clothes trailing out of the bedroom. “Couldn’t choose what to wear, Pads?” James said with a grin, grabbing some clothes to fold.
Sirius came out of the room, grumbling, “Well I just wanted to look good. You know, show him how much I’ve changed and like how good I’m doing or whatever” he kicked awkwardly at the clothing.
“Pads, I’m sure he isn’t going to think anything bad about you. If he’s even half as amazing you are I’m sure he’ll be understanding and just excited to see his brother.” James said, giving the other a warm smile. Despite Sirius’ eye roll and shove past him, James could tell that meant a lot to him.
As they finished cleaning and were just shoving the last pair of pants into the drawer, they heard a key in the apartment door. Sirius practically jumped over to the door, yanking it open and exclaiming loudly at his brother.
James slowly stalked behind, not wanting to intrude on the moment. But then he heard the voice. The one from last night. The one that had been whispering sweet nothings into his ear.
I’m gonna throw up.
I need to leave right now.
“Oh yeah, and this is my best mate, James. James, this is Regulus.” Sirius said, grinning and oblivious to the way they were frozen staring at each other. Regulus held out his hand, “Pleasure to meet you, James.” He paused long before the other's name, as if he was unsure he was allowed to say it.
James swallowed the lump that was practically a bowling ball in his throat, “Uh, yeah. Good to meet you too.” He awkwardly shook the shorter man’s hand, hoping he wouldn’t notice his nervous sweating.
How did I not notice this? They look so damn similar.
He noticed the others looking at him, curious and worried about his wellbeing. “Uh, sorry, I need to get home I’ve got, uh?” he looked around the room frantically, seeing a lamp. “I left the lamp on. So, I gotta turn it off. You know, electricity bills and all that jazz.” He awkwardly bumped against Regulus’ shoulder as he practically sprinted out of the apartment.
…
Okay
This is okay
I only hooked up with him once, its not like I’m dating his brother
We were drunk it was an honest mistake
A really fucking good mistake, god the things that man can do to m-
No, stop that’s Sirius’ brother
So what if he made me feel better than anyone else
So what if he made my brain go quiet
James looked over at his pill calendar box. He had apparently missed yesterday and today. But he didn’t feel like he usually felt after missing them, he felt…good? Like yeah, he’s panicking but like a normal person would.
James knew exactly what had changed and he knew what he had to do
I need to keep fucking Regulus Black