Unfinished Canvas (Macolet)
Characters:
Maloi as Mia Ramirez
Colet as Celine Vegas
Mia's POV
We have a very beautiful relationship. It's close to perfect. We know how to sync together. It will never be me without her and it will never be her without me. Everybody looks up to our relationship. People thought that we would be each other's end game. But... God has a different plan...
We've been together for 13 years. Almost half of our lives were spent with each other. Everyone knows that she's the one for me. But just like what I've said, God has a different plan.
It was our 13th anniversary when she decided to be on her knees again and ask me "Will you marry me?". She did that in a most romantic way in a perfect place. But... I'm still not ready yet.
She's been on her knee for 30 minutes waiting for my answer. I just stared at her with her offered ring of a lifetime.
I don't know what to say. I don't want to say ‘‘no’’ because she waited for so long and I know that she’s the only person I want to spend the rest of my life with. But… I'm not ready to say yes just yet. There are still so many plans I need to set in motion, so many paths I have yet to explore. I still have a lot of unpainted canvas in my life, waiting for the right colors to fill in.
Without knowing, a couple of tears started to fall down my face. And when I look into her eyes, I know that she knows my answer. The sadness and disappointment was seen in her eyes. But she kept still in her position. Hoping that my tears meant otherwise.
"I'm sorry." That's the only answer I gave to her after waiting for how many minutes.
She just bowed her head for a couple of seconds, put the ring back in her pocket and then looked at me with tears in her eyes.
I love her so much. And I really want to spend my lifetime with her. But I don’t know why I can’t, just yet. I still have a lot of dreams and plans to do. I don't want to hurt her but what did I just do? The pain of rejection was seen in her eyes. But still, she managed to smile... again...
"It's okay. I know, tha-that will be your answer." she stuttered. "But I still tried, for the 4th time. I still try. Hoping that I will get the answer that I want for the past years of trying. But I guess, that's the end. That's the last time I will ask you that question... You know that I love you so, so much, but I think this is the end..." She said after she stood on her knee and looked straight in my eyes.
It hurts. I want to shout at her. I want to slap her face. But I can't. Just because I can't say 'yes' yet, she has the means to put a period in our story? But I understand her. Maybe this is the right thing to do. And if we were really destined to each other, we might find our way back home to each other's arms.
I love this person so much and I know where she is coming from. And yes, she asked me a lot of times but I still gave her the same answer of rejection...
"I don't want to end this because you're the only woman I want to spend my whole life with but..." She cuts and holds my hands. "I don't have enough time for this lifetime. So, this is the last time that I will hold your hand." She squeezed my hands. "This is the last time that you will feel my embrace." She hugs me for a couple of minutes. I just cried in her chest silently. "This will be the last time that I will look into your eyes." She held my chin and let me meet her gaze. "This will be the last time that I will hold and kiss your cheeks." And she did what just said. "And lastly, this will be the last time that I will say I love you then kiss your forehead..." she kissed me on my forehead "...kisses your nose..." she kissed my nose. "And your lips..." After she said that, she kissed my lips so deeply. I can taste the bittersweet of tomorrow. She pours all her emotions into this kiss.
I'm scared.
Because after this kiss, there’s no more “us’’. And I don’t know if I can take that.
She finally let go of my lips. She caressed my cheeks and looked in my eyes. Without saying anything, I know the message of it. She smiled bitterly at me before she removed her hands in my cheek and slowly stepped backward. When we were finally one meter away, she raised her right hand and waved goodbye with a bittersweet smile in her face.
After that she turned her back to me and slowly walked away without looking back. I want to follow her. I want to take back my "no". But I feel like my feet are glued on the ground. I can't move. She left me... For good…
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"Hi! Love. It's been a year since you left me. I still regret that I rejected you a year ago. If only I knew, I wouldn't say no...If only I knew, I won't let you go." The tears are slowly falling down my cheeks.
"Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you share your pains with me? Why didn't you let me know that you're suffering from heart disease?" I said while crying in front of her tombstone with her name and picture engrave.
Yes, she died.
After our talk that night, I never heard from her for 3 days. After that, her mother called me and said that Celine died because of her heart condition. I didn't know about that. After knowing what happened to her, I blame myself but her family keeps on comforting me and assuring me that it's not my fault.
It's just, this was God's plan.
Not in this lifetime, but maybe in the next one.
"If only I knew that this thing will happen, I wouldn't say no the first time you ask me to marry you." I kept on crying while caressing her picture.
"I'm sorry that I became selfish. I'm sorry for keeping you wait so long for nothing. I'm sorry I didn't let you fulfill your first and last dream..." I paused and wiped my tears. "...To have a family..."
"Maybe in the next lifetime we'll meet again. And if that happens, I will never say "no" to you." I said before slowly standing up.
"It's long overdue, my love, but please, wait for me in that next lifetime… And maybe in that one, we can finally finished the unfinished canvas of our love"
I said before I finally placed my blank canvas near her tombstone. This is me saying that in the next lifetime, I will finish our unpainted love of tomorrow…
The End.