Dear Lily,
It's been 4 days, four days since you broke the news. Four days since you pulled me aside and told me that we were over
Hey, I can't lie. I’m happy for you and Mary, and I know how you’ve always had a place in your heart for her, yay, you go, you finally got the love of your life!
But I have one question Lily, why did you have to break my heart? Why would you make me fall in love with you, why would you kiss me, hold my hand, and why would you make me think that somebody gave more than half a shit about me if you left me for Mary?
I have nothing against her, fuck, I would date her too, I would if you had asked.
I hate how you can make me feel. I hate that you have the power of love. I hate that you can make me think that I found love, I hate that you made me love you.
Fuck you, Lily
Love,
Dora
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Dear Lily,
It's been around a week? I don't even know, I’ve lost all senses, and some of my friends are worried about me since I've been “depressed” lately.
Well, maybe I am. We were once on a rollercoaster, and I feel like we just plummeted down while you stayed moving up with Mary.
Anyways how have you been? You seem happier, and well good for you, you look happy, you know, I still love you Lily, but I hate you, Lily, I don't know what the fuck I should do.
Have you heard of Voldemort? My parents have been saying they should join them, as Reg had, but I don't want to join. Regulus is dying because of it.
I'll write soon
Love, Pandora
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Dear Lily,
Do you ever feel like you’re a burden, that your entire existence is just making it worse for everyone?
Well I do, My friends are going through worse, and I have to help them. Reg is the only one that would understand, he got the mark and then fucking Potter saw it and then broke it off, go tell Potter to go fuck himself.
Today's the month anniversary since we last talked, touched, and smiled. I see you a lot in the halls full-on having public sex with Mary, why can you not love me like that?
Oh yeah, I heard you got your driver's license last week like we always talked about, congrats, you were so excited for me, to finally drive up to your house over the summer and help you escape the hellhole, and live together, you're gone now, but I still miss you.
I was walking the hall, you know, and I heard you were right there. After what you did,t I didn't even want to associate with you anymore, but I can hear you laughing out there with Mary. Why could you do that with me?
You know, I've been improving. I've gotten out of the dorm.
But every day I wake up and ask myself, how could I ever love someone like I loved you?
Hey, I know we weren't the perfect couple, but I’ve never felt this way, for no one, and I just can't fucking imagine how you're so okay, now that I'm gone. Guess you didn't mean what you told your friends about me. Did you even tell them anything?
But you said forever now I'm all alone again in a damn fucking corner.
As I walked the halls I pictured that I was going to our spot.
Our spot, the small area of the astronomy tower, where you would kiss me, where you said that we would be forever, the place where we got caught by James and you obliviated the fool
I understand why you did that now.
You were fucking scared that someone would see you with a person like me, a girl, maybe you wouldn't have cared if I wasn't in Slytherin. I'm not even in Slytherin.
I still see your face in the mirror, while I'm dying, but you're not here to hold my hand.
Anyone have fun with your life, asshole.
Love,
Pandora Rosier
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Dear Lily,
Question,
Remember the time we went to Hogsmeade in the middle of the night, it was fun. We got vanilla ice - cream that we used to hate. Then we traded jackets - mine was so fucking large compared to yours - and we just sat at that little bar like idiots, until we got kicked out.
That was one of the best days of my life.
I bet you remember it. I bet you think about it at night. Come on, there’s no way that you’ve forgotten about me that easily. It’d be nice to know if you think of me as much as I think of you.
I bet that Mary goes to her friends and brags about how you’re “so unique” and all of that kinda shit, but then I heard from a little birdie that the two of you went to Hogsmeade this weekend, had vanilla ice - cream and traded jackets, then went to the bar and sang like fucking idiots.
You know, that's quite funny, I'm sensing some deja vu, oh yeah that's right, we did that before! Come on, I mean can't you at least have original Ideas?
So when are you gonna tell her, that we did that too? She thinks it's special but it's all fucking reused.
You know what else the birdie told me?
That you two made out in our fucking spot. What. The. Fuck. Is. Up. With. That
I found that spot, that was our spot. I made the jokes you tell to her.
I bet you get deja vu when she with you.
Love,
Pandora Rosier
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Dear Lils
It's been a while since I've last written. A lot of stuff has been going on
for starters, I'm about to be arranged to marry some random pureblood now who's going to make me a death eater.
Surprising, I know, right?
Anyway, I know now that that means we will be on different sides of this War, I guess that means we could never be together ever again.
You know I'd always hoped that one day we would be together, we would get a house near the beach and fill it with cats. Ginger cats.
But Im happy for Mary, then again I'm not, just cool vintage clothes, and a single vacation photo, and I know that looks are not what ack, but I can't fucking let it go.
Anyway, I'm being restricted from writing to anyone now, maybe I'll escape this place soon, who even knows? I love you Lily so much.
Love,
Dora