Consequences
December 29th, 7th Year
8 weeks, it’s been 8 fucking weeks since Sirius’ 18th birthday, also known as the day Remus lost his damn mind. He never got too drunk, yes of course he drank at parties but he always made sure he paced himself in case James or Sirius went too far. But he was not doing well, he just wanted to not think anymore. It was Padfoot’s birthday and Remus wanted to enjoy it but Padfoot enjoying it meant flirting with everyone in the godforsaken common room and he’s gorgeous so obviously it was getting reciprocated. Great for him, not for Remus, his stupid heart just kept cracking every time it happened and he didn’t want to think about it so he got drunk.
This decision came back to bite him in the ass when he woke up naked and sticky with an also very naked Sirius Black in said man’s bed. He was sticky and sore in multiple places that made it very obvious what he was doing here and he was bloody mortified. At first he couldn’t remember but then when he really tried it all hit him in the face. Starting with spin the bottle, then 7 minutes in heaven, and ending with the 7 minutes turning into hours and locking everyone out of their dorm for said hours. He was starting to panic so after peaking out making sure the other beds had their curtains closed, he silently slid out of Sirius’ bed, grabbed clothes and went to the bathroom as quickly as possible without waking anyone up. By the time he was done showering everyone else was already getting ready for breakfast, Sirius wasn’t acting any different so he followed suit, Peter didn’t seem to know anything happened and Prongs was giving him knowing looks but thankfully said nothing. So nothing changed and no one acknowledged anything that happened and it’ll be a cold day in hell before he was the one to do it.
Back to it being 8 weeks, it’s holiday break and something is wrong. Everything smells different, either more than usual or just horrid and makes him want to vomit. He can barely go a day without feeling nauseous, he can either barely sleep or sleep through everything. He’s so confused, his emotions have been all over the place and he’s 80% sure he knows why and has had suspicions for a couple of weeks. He’s in 20% denial still so now he’s in his bathroom at home with a muggle pregnancy test and he never thought he’d have to use one of these. He’s gay isn't that supposed a perk of that but no he’s re reading directions to make sure he doesn’t get a false positive. He’s by himself because he can’t tell his mam without being sure and what would he even say right now?
Okay so 3 minutes, that’s all he has until he either chalks everything up to just something that’ll pass on it’s own .. or his whole world turns upside down. What does he do if it’s positive? He still has the rest of the year at school. What is he going to tell Sirius? Does he even tell him? He doesn’t want to be with him obviously or he would’ve said something by now so why would he want a kid with him? But that’s not fair to the kid, the kid deserves both parents. Shit. This is a whole child. When did he decide he was even keeping it if he is pregnant!? He doesn’t even know if he is yet he needs to calm down, has it been 3 minutes yet? Maybe he should just check anyway it’s probably negative, he’s probably just nervous and anxious about school and that’s why everything has been weird. Yeah it was probably just stress, now he just needs the test to confirm that he’s not… Fuck.