dear estelle
Dear Estelle,
Has Reg said anything about me? I really miss him, and I miss you too. You're the only person who wasn't horrible when writing. Professor McGonagall said she's happy to write to you, considering maman and dad are such nasty people. My words, not hers. She said she understood my situation and didn't want to put me in any dangerous situations. I don't know why, but Reg wont write. I really don't like how I've been cut off, Estelle. I'm scared of whats wrong with me. Maman thinks I'm a bad heir, doesn't she? I just don't want to have been dropped from our family. Are you spending Christmas with me? I just don't want to be alone.
-Sirius
To my dearest Sirius,
I'll be round at yours for Christmas. Don't worry, I promise I'll be there for you. I can't say for certain, but I'm fairly certain Maman has said that he's not allowed to write to you. He's not received any of your letters anyway. I know that this isn't the best way for you to be, but I think Maman is scared of the influence that you might have on Reg. You know what her and Father are like. If you need anything, I expect to be wrote to. Are you making friends? Your friends are people you carry with you through life, they don't leave you. How are your lessons? Don't mess around in Slughorn or McGonagall's lessons. Especially McGonagall's; she'll have your head as a trophy. I love you so much, Sirius. Ezra has started with the habit of banging his hands on the table when he wants my attention, and Charlotte is doing a really good job of rolling. I think she'll be crawling by Christmas if she keeps up the progress! Ezra keeps asking where Uncle Sirius is, he really misses you. I don't think he's quite grasped the concept of Hogwarts. I don't think he's grasped the concept of learning. Romeo is starting to snore- I've told him I'll actually smother him if he keeps doing it. I think he thinks its an empty threat. I love you so much.
-Stelle
Estelle,
Yeah, thats good. Hogwarts is going well. I got mates. James Potter, hes dead nice. There's a boy called Peter, whose a bit of an whinging wuss. He's not too bad though, once you learn to zone out. Pettigrew, he is. And theres another boy called Remus Lupin. Can you try find out if there's a wizarding family called Lupin? I swear there must be. Anyway, already started annoying McGonagall. It's fun. And theres also this girl called Lily Evans. She's alright, but shes got this creepy little mate called Snivellus Snivelly Sevnillus Severus Snape. He's proper weird, and greasy and nasty. Anyway, please smother Romeo, I don't like him.
-S
To my dearest Sirius,
The Potters? I personally have nothing against them, but you know how Maman would feel if she found out. Salazar, you know how Bella would feel if she found out. I'm trying to understand how you feel, but you make it harder every day. The Pettigrew boy, while he is less of a blood traitor, still isn't someone I would try to make friends with. As for your Lupin friend, I know a little about his father. I'm not sure it's my place to tell you. If he feels comfortable telling you, he will, and I think that'll be better than you coming out with that information like a creep. Lily Evans? I think she's just a normal mudblo muggle born girl. And Snape? The name rings a bell, but it's not that big. Smothering Romeo was an empty threat. Stop trying to get me to give Romeo an untimely demise. I love him. I can assure you he's not as bad as Rodolphus Lestrange. That boy creeps me out. I might smother him if he calls me Elenora one more time. My name is NOT ELANORA. Anyway, have a good time in lessons, behave, and be good,
-Stelle
Stelle,
Is mum mad?
-S
To my dearest Sirius,
stop writing letters for the sake of it.
-EEG
Romeo sits beside me in the living room of our house, reading the news paper. He seems slightly put off, biting his tongue in between his sips of wine. He's preoccupied with something, I'm not sure, and I really don't want to interrupt. Finally, he says, "I want to move to England."
I turn to look at him. He wants to leave France? To go to england? Near my family? I'm not sure what's happening, but he's clearly lost his mind. I scoff, "Why in the name of Salazar would you want to move to England? May I remind you what is over there? My mother, my father, my aunt, my uncle, the entirety of muggle london, Hogwarts is far too close to it. I don't want more reasons to visit my mother, Romeo."
Romeo sighs, nodding, "I get it, but for our family it's better. Ezra and Charlotte could benefit from the family, you could benefit from London and I could really benefit from the ministry. My work are willing to transfer me over. I just need you to be on board with this. I want us to be a team, a united front, but I am willing to put my foot down. And as for visiting your mother, would it really hurt to form a better bond with her? You've said yourself you wished she loved you more, maybe this is the perfect time-"
"Do not bring up my mother's love-"
"The war is finally picking up-"
"Do not bring up the war-"
"We would be happy."
I stiffen. We are happy. We are happy? We are happy! We are in the first happy family I think I've ever been apart of. My immediately family was full of abuse, as was my extended family. I'm not trading the happiness of my family for Romeo's stupid fantasies of being a member of the british ministry of magic. My face must show how I'm feeling, because Romeo sighs, "Stellie, you know I only wants what's best for us. The war is going to keep getting worse, and truthfully, I want to be there for your family when it does. You keep saying you don't understand what the dark lord wants. Do you want me to explain it to you?"