Sirius O. Black
Hi. I know they don't allow you to read letters in Azkaban. I'm just writing this mostly to get my feelings out and also incase they ever do allow mail from family. Family? Friends? I don't know, Sirius.
Why did you do it? I thought you were better than that, Sirius. You loved James and Lily with your whole heart. You hated your family's ideologes. I don't even know if I'm mad at you, to be honest. I'm pissed off that I loved you while you were planning to murder your own best friends. You called James your brother. And you killed Peter too. You killed The Marauders, Sirius.
Mary is the only one left now, apart from Pandora - but she's gone AWOL. She's not taking it well, Sirius. Worse than I am. She hasn't left her bed in days. How could you do it? You saw Harry and Lily and James and Peter, they were all dressed up for Halloween - they were all so happy, and you just decide to rat them out to Voldemort?! I thought you didn't want to end up like your mother?
My first full moon without you was hard. I scratched deep. You always said the anger is better out than in, but now my chest is aching with both blood and grief and I'm starting to think that was a lie too.
I'm just hoping there was some sort of mix up. Maybe the traitor was Frank or Pandora or someone. That's just wishful thinking.
I miss you and I hate you and - I love you. I don't know why, I just do.
Remus Lupin