The first thing Remus Lupin became aware of was the sharp, sterile smell. It prickled at his nose, faintly metallic, undercut by something sickly sweet. The second thing was the cold—an unnatural chill that seeped into his bones, as though it had been waiting there all along.
His eyes fluttered open, unable to bear light, even the dim ones
Where am I? Was the first thing Remus thought about.
The third thing Remus noticed was the emptiness of the room, this wasn’t his room back in St. Edmunds, the pattern of the ceiling cracks was different. The fourth were the bandages wrapping his bare chest
His eyes snapped open, looked at his chest, the only thing covering it was the blanket, he tried to pull himself to sit, which made him realize the pain he was in, similar to the transformation pain, if not worse
‘What happened?’ He found himself unable to speak, his throat hurts like hell
He saw a button near his bed, ‘oh’ he stretched his arm and pressed it ‘I guess I’m in a hospital’
After some minutes, a nurse came to the room “oh dear”
She went to him and checked his vitals “you finally woke up, do you remember what happened to you?”
He tried to speak, his throat hurts, it’s stabbing, he shakes his head while putting his hand against his neck
“Try not to speak now, your throat was seriously damaged, it looks like you were attacked by some teenage muggles or something, I’m going to call the main healer to see your condition”
She left the room
‘Does she know about my furry little problem’ he thought, ‘she seemed unbothered’, he shifted a little, his whole body hurts
The healer came and checked him, then he gave him a potion for the pain “Moody will be here soon, rest for now, you will be leaving with him when he arrives”
The healer left after saying that, Remus laid down again
He was at St. Mungo’s probably, ‘how did I end up here?’
All he remembers was him wanting to go and visit Grant, he was on his way, and didn’t remember anything after that, was he attacked? by who?
His head was throbbing so he stopped trying to remember
There was a clock, it reads 9 and according to the windows it should be pm, below it there was a wooden plate that reads “August 15th”
‘I was unconscious for 4 days’ he told himself
Then he heard the sound of footsteps echoing faintly outside the door, but they passed without stopping. He realized that he was Alone
Totally alone
His heart ached, he looked at the chair that was placed beside the bed, it was unoccupied, no one came into this room today except for the nurse and the healer, he could smell it
His heart ached again, ‘Moody will be here soon’ how did Moody know about him being in the hospital?Did Dumbledore know? What about St. Edmunds?
‘I want to go out’ he felt as if someone was choking him, he couldn’t breathe, he couldn’t move, he couldn’t scream his pain out, ‘No tears!’ he reminds himself
He looked at the unoccupied chair again, his heart ached again, ‘If Moody knew, then the potters should have known too, right?’
‘They probably didn’t know, there is no way they knew’
His friends wouldn’t abandon him, right? It’s true that in the last 2 weeks of the last term went without speaking with any of them after ‘the prank’
But he was unconscious for 4 days, there is no way they wouldn’t worry about him, right??
He kept asking himself, then he remembered
It’s August 15th, and they never sent him any Owl, unlike every summer where the three of them sent him owls daily.
not a single Owl, ‘they don’t care’
He looked at the ceiling, he felt a Lump in his throat, sniffing and focused his eyes so tears won’t come out
‘They knew, and didn’t care’
‘Sirius knew the consequences of the prank he pulled on Snape, and he didn’t care’
‘James knew what Sirius did was the fucking worst, and he didn’t care, forgave him and expected me to do the same’
‘Peter too, he only does what James does’
‘Me not forgiving the holy Sirius Black was enough for them to forget me’
He had spent so many years convincing himself that they cared, that he wasn’t just a ‘secondary marauder’ or a ‘pet charity case’, that they saw him as more than the curse that followed him every full moon.
But now, in the stillness of the hospital room, in the 2 months of not sending a single owl to him he wasn’t so sure anymore
A tear escaped his eye, he robbed it harshly ‘I said no crying’ he screamed at himself in his mind
The door opened, Moody entered the room
“Rise and shine, the hell happened?” He got straight to the point, Remus pointed at his throat and shook his head
“Oh yeah, I heard the healer saying something about you not being able to talk for a while, your injuries weren’t ones of a muggle doings, I have to connect with the other aurors to understand what happened, you don’t remember anything at all?”
Remus shakes his head again “Okay then, We’re going to the Potter’s house, just need to get the portkey ready”
Remus frowned and shake his head firmly
“I guess it’s not up to you, you have to stay in a magical household and the Potters are the only people who know about your condition”
Remus took the paper on the bed table and scribbled quickly [Iamnatgoin to thaPottres, I rutharstai her’]
“Unfortunately this is not up to you to decide, besides your current condition which needs a healer and Effie is the best option, there are some circumstances relate to the war, so shut up and wait for the portkey to be done”
Moody isn’t someone to change his mind, Remus gave up trying to convince him and started thinking of what to do when seeing his friend again, are they still friends anyway?
He didn’t care about Sirius, he was still mad at him, but James? ‘Okay shut up for now you need to calm down your emotions, crying will only make them pity you more that they already are’
He scribbled on a new paper [wat abut maisttof? Theiarstil in St. Emdunds]
“We transfer all of your stuff to the Potters, your wand and books too, the portkey is ready, are you?”
Remus took a deep breath and nodded , Moody went beside his bed, it was only then Remus noticed that Moody was levitating a steel cup “touch it, it will teleport you immediately to the Potters, I need to check some things before coming”
Remus was already tired ‘guess y’all have to bear with the uninvited guest, marauders’ then he raised his arm to the cup, as soon he made the physical contact with the cold steel, he started spinning through space, fast so he couldn’t see anything, there was a change in the scent of the place, from the sterile and potions smell to a homemade Apple pie and warm milk.
When he was finally able to see again, he was in the ground, he felt sick and started empty his already empty stomach, only acidic juice was out, his whole body hurts, his 5 senses were broken, he heard voices he couldn’t understand , smells he couldn’t recognize, he thought that he got the wrong place, he tried to focus his eyes to the soft voice that was talking to him, she looked familiar with these kind eyes, he only was able to catch the “James come and help me” before he closed his eyes again, everything was black.
‘Where am I?’
The place, unexpectedly, was quiet, so quiet that seemed unfamiliar, he felt a breeze hitting his face softly, he opened his eyes slowly, he saw nothing, there was something in front of his eyes, it took him few seconds to realize that he was trapped in a box, he pushed the lid forcefully, it opened and he stood up quickly
He looked around, there were empty rows of chairs facing him, white flowers surrounding him
Looking at where he was standing, it was a coffin, A fucking coffin
‘Did they mistakenly think I died? Seriously?’
He stood out of the coffin, something caught his eyes, a headstone
In loving memory
of
Remus John Lupin
Born in 10 March 1960
Died in 15 August 1976
The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death
‘Is that supposed to be a joke?’
He started getting terrified, why is there a headstone with his name in it?, why was he in a coffin?, why was he assumed to be dead?
Why is nobody here?
He looked around , couldn’t even sense the presence of a fly, let alone human
His breathing became unsteady, chest began to hurt, he clutched his chest and tried to breathe normally, he couldn’t, he was having a panic attack
‘Am I supposed to die here?’
He held his throat in the other hand, trying hard to breathe again
‘Am I supposed to die alone?’
Tears were falling involuntarily from his eyes
‘Am I supposed to be buried here, utterly alone, my friends didn’t even come to say their last goodbye’
He stopped trying to breathe, the panic attack got the best of him and he started losing consciousness slowly
You will always be alone, you will never be loved, you will always be miserable, unloved, friendless and fucking monster
MOONY!!!
He snapped his eyes open, this time the ceiling felt kind of familiar, not the one back in St. Edmunds, not the one from St, Mungo’s, this one felt warm and welcoming
He lowered his eyes and saw a black haired teenager sitting in a chair beside him, with worried Grey eyes, that bony face structure, beautiful messy hair falling randomly on his shoulder, it was Sirius Black
Remus kept staring at him, trying to process if this was a dream or the other thing he just saw, Sirius quickly stood up and left the room
‘Don’t go, please don’t, don’t leave me alone’
He was still unable to talk, so tears fell on the side of his eyes
Few seconds later, the door opened again and this time there were different voices, different scents
“Oh my boy, my little boy, do you still feel any pain? I’m sure I healed all of your injuries by now” it was Mrs. Potter’s soft and kind voice, her tone shakes something in Remus’ heart and more silent tears fell, he covered his eyes with his forearm so the two teenagers standing on the other side of the bed won’t see his tears.
“Oh dear, James give me the yellow potion on your right hand, yes this one” Mrs. Potter pointed at a point placed in Remus’ bed table
After some minutes Remus was finally able to calm down, the warmth scent of Mrs. Potter perfume mixed with the scent of freshly baked chocolate cake couldn’t be fake, couldn’t be a dream, it’s all true, he wasn’t in the Graveyard, he wasn’t in a Coffin, he wasn’t in a funeral with no one in it
He was safe
at least Mrs. Potter warmth made him feel like he belonged, even if it was for a brief moments, he wasn’t left in the dark
“dear, are you okay? Oh, my beautiful boy I almost fainted from worry, here drink this for your throat problem, I couldn’t make you drink it earlier because you were totally unconscious”
He took the potion after sitting up straight, drank it, it tasted like cinnamon and honey, even Mrs. Potter’s potions felt warm for Remus, he took a deep breathe
“Th..an..k Y..ou” in a cracking hoarse voice, Remus was finally able to speak again
“Oh boy, no need to thank me, I will go tell Gally to prepare something warm for you to eat, boys don’t jump on him a lot, he still needs to rest, I’ll take a little nap, wake me up if something happens”
She kissed Remus’ forehead and played with his hair a little then left the room
“You okay mate?” He heard James, he stared at him, he almost felt happy to see his friend, but then memories of the empty chairs and the unsent messages flashed through his mind, so he just nodded and turned his eyes to the window besides him
“Wha.. ahem.. what date is today?” His voice was still raspy, but he felt he was getting better “August 17th” this time Sirius answered, Remus didn’t look at him, didn’t even nod, he stayed still
“Mate, what happened to you? I heard mom saying something about being attacked by silver, who the hell did that and why?!” James was furious, both of them to be honest, Sirius was clenching his hands very hard, Remus smelled the blood
“I don’t remember” Remus stated, he was remembering now what happened, while going to Grant he ran into some gangsters, they were pissed and decided to choose him as their punching bag, Remus fought back in the beginning but some of them were wearing silver chains and rings, they obviously weren’t rich to wear gold, and getting too much silver near him for a long time made him weaker and weaker til he passed out
But he of course won’t tell the boys because
1- he doesn’t want their pity or a treatment as if he was disabled
2- he was still angry at Sirius but now he’s angry at both of the boys, actually at all the three of them even though Peter wasn’t there (Like I know James prefer Sirius and all of that and he’d absolutely forgive him after one apology, but forgetting all about me for the whole summer and not sending one text was very low)
3- he doesn’t want to worry Mrs. Potter even more after knowing that he still feels the silver crawling inside his skin (will get better, hopefully)
He wanted to lay down again, he extended his arm behind his back so he make the pillow in a better position, then immediately one of the boys came to him to reposition the pillow before he could reach it then he put his hand on Remus’ shoulder “rest for now” Sirius said while looking at him both worried but relieved
Remus glared at him and pushed his hand gently “I don’t need your help” said in a raspy voice and laid down by himself, he flinched as he realized how stiff his neck was.
‘Fucking shit, my whole body needs a stretch’
But he was too tired to do so, James felt his mate wasn’t comfortable “want me to bring you another pillow?” He asked, to which Remus shakes his head
“Moony…” Sirius began, wanting to say something that Remus was totally sure he didn’t want to hear but he didn’t want to start an argument “Can you look at us?”
Remus didn’t expect that, he moved his eyes to James, not wanting to see his face
“Moony we were worried sick about you, your Matron called the muggle police and reported that you ran away, Dumbledore somehow got the news and contacted us cause he thought that you came to our house, it took Moody and the other aurors many hours to find you, he said you were 10 minutes apart from passing away, oh Merlin mum almost fainted when she new what happened to you, Pads and I were this near from having a Panic attack, even Pete kept contacting us from America to assure him that you were alright, you made us worried mate” no one interrupted James, his eyes were really worried, but Remus didn’t see that
“Forgive me for making you worried during your precious summer, unfortunately it was out of my hands, cause as it appears the ministry has time to make sure this monster doesn’t attack people but never cares if the monster itself was attacked” he said dryly, rolling his eyes
“Moony you know that’s not true it’s just that…” Sirius wanted to start a speech, Remus couldn’t stop the anger that grows in him when he hears his voice “I hope your friend knows that it’s immoral to stick his nose on other people’s business, Potter” he snapped, looking straight into Sirius’ face, eyes full with anger and hate met Sirius’ shocked eyes, shock turned into realization, then realization turned into sadness, he lowered his head
“I’m sorry” his voice was shaking, Remus noticed his trembling hands, he just turned his gaze to the ceiling “Can I be left alone now? I want to rest” he asked, but he heard the most unpleasant answer from James “No, Mum said not to leave you alone, she’s tired and needs some sleep, Gally has to do the house chores so it’s our turn now to be here”
“I’m fine I don’t need you nursing me!” Remus tried to say it nicely but he. Ended up snapping again
“Moony, you… never mind, sleep now, we won’t bother you, will just sit here, let’s talk when you wake up, Let’s not argue in the heat of the moment and waste our energy on it, you need your energy to recover faster eh?”
James said kindly, ‘he is just like his mom, warm to point makes you want to cry’
“I don’t have anything to argue with you about, James, thank you for hosting me in your home, don’t know how to repay you honestly” Remus said calmly, maybe with a little smile
“Shaddup’ mate, this is your home as much as it’s my and pads home, we’re marauders, so we’re family” James grinned, he was warm, Remus heart was melting, but the picture of his empty funeral kept coming to his head, empty chairs, headstone with his name, no one there, no one at all
His smile vanished, he rolled under the blanket and gave them his back
They are lying
You are not welcomed here
Who would ever welcome a fucking monster like you to their house?
Who would love a fucking monster like you?
‘Shut up’
You will always be alone
Your Daddy killed himself because of you
Your Mummy abandoned you at the children house because she couldn’t tolerate you
‘Please shut up’
Even your ‘marauders’ can’t tolerate with you, they became your friends just because you sleep in the same room
‘I know’
So what if they became Animagi for you? They probably did that just because they were curious, and used you as an excuse
‘I know’
And the evidence is how Sirius decided to tell Snape, you were fun, but he wanted something funnier, so why not make you kill his enemy and get a trip to Azkaban for it?
‘He felt guilty and told James and Pete, he didn’t mean to…’
Oh for Merlin’s sake shut up! If really was guilty, why didn’t he try harder to win you back? Keep saying sorry for a whole day and people around you will think you’re mental, it’s actions all that matters, and he didn’t even text you during summer, does that sound like guilt or care?
‘No…’
Told ya
Remus opened his eyes it looks like he rolled a lot cause the blanket was on the floor, he felt human presence near him, he looked and it was Sirius sitting in the chair sleeping while leaning on Remus’ bed, he looked tired, Remus looked behind Sirius and saw James sitting in another chair, crossed hands and head facing the ceiling, he was snoring lightly. He stared at them for a minute then looked to the ceiling again.
His heart ached, a tear escaped his eyes, he raised his hands to wipe them
“Moony?”
Worst timing ever, he wiped his tears quickly before the other boy notice, Sirius just woke up and he was looking at Remus, realization hit him hard, Remus was crying
“Are you in pain?? Want me to call Mrs. Potter? Water? Painkiller?” He was so worried but he didn’t speak loudly cause he knew how tired James was
“I don’t need anything” Remus answered coldly
“But you were cryi..”
“I was not” Remus snapped “I was just yawning, stop sticking your fucking arse to my fucking business”
No this is wrong
He heard Grant speaking in his head
“Moony I’m just worried” Sirius voice was shaking, like he was about to cry himself
“Stop fucking calling me with that fucking name, and where was your worrying when I almost ripped Severus’ head?!!”
Remus stop it
“I’m sorry, I never…, I didn’t…”
“Didn’t think much of it right? Well surprise! I’m a fucking monster who fucking hunts people, injure them, kill them, the scars in my body shows how this monster is angry not being able to kill”
“You’re wrong!! You never hurt anyone”
“Yeah cause I was fucking locked up ever since I was 5”
You need to calm down, you are going to a point with no way back
“Maybe the magnificent Black heir doesn’t know, but people has serious problems except for an unloving family, for example not having one in the first place” he nearly shouted, James woke up and stared at the two boys
“I know” Sirius was clenching his fist
“For example, being alone for the majority of what you remember of your childhood, cause your Mum thinks you’re a monster and throws you in a children house”
“Hmm” Sirius wasn’t angry, in fact he kinda was happy that Remus was talking to him, even if it was an argument
“For example, being betrayed but the only people you ever trusted and ever cared about” his eyes started burning
Please just stop don’t say it, you’re only hurting yourself
“For example dying, and when you wake up you find no one around you, no one waits for you, no one sends a single message, just nothing like you don’t matter to the world, at least you got James, your best friend, you got your friends..you got the Potters when you… when Christmas’ incident happened, I got no one”
“Moony that’s not true, we..”
“I’m not fucking stupid, Black!!” He snapped
What are you wanting from all of this? Proving how lonely you are? How pathetic you are without them? Why?!
‘I don’t know’
“Moony..” this time James spoke, he came to the bed, sat across of Remus in his bed. “Moony you have us, but you never depend on us, as if we will ditch you if you ever wanted something from us” his voice was warm, but his tone held.. disappointment. “do you see our friendship as something so thin that it would break just because you depended on us from now and then? I know you taught yourself to never depend on anyone before Hogwarts, but you are no longer alone, you are OUR Moony, you are important to us! there is no ‘Marauders’ without Moony” he snapped, frowning, taking few heavy breathes then continued “want to talk shit about Pads for what he did? be my guest I will even talk shit about him with you til you’re satisfied, what he did was fucking shit, totally with you, you have all the right to be mad at him, hex him, whatever you want! but never say that we aren’t friends!”
Remus knew James’ words were right, but all he felt was rage at that moment so he snapped “oh Saint Potter, I’m sorry if this fucking half-blooded werewolf offended you by saying the truth, life isn’t rainbows and sunshine!!! there are a lot of stormy days”
“then fucking get under the umbrella with us!!” James shouted “I don’t understand you at all! friendships aren’t in black and white! me keep talking to Pads doesn’t mean I’m taking his side and telling you you’re wrong, I fucking told you I’m with you with any form of punishment you want to do to him but you kept ignoring all of our letters!! even Mum’s invitation to stay the rest of the summer here after finally being able to convince Dumbledore, you just ignored all of them!!”
Remus looked at him in shock “what letters? no one sent me anything this summer at all, non of you did!”
James looked puzzled “mate, I sent you about 28 letter, Pete sent you many letters too, Pads sent you one every single day, ask Mum, she even scolded us cause she thought that you were mad at us for something we did and decided to make it up for you, she was this close from hexing Moody if he disagreed on your coming”
“can it be that the housekeeper you told us about hid them from you? cause we sent them in a way that looks like a regular muggle messages” Sirius hesitantly asked, Remus looked at him, a memory came to him, Matron checking the mail, taking a bunch of envelopes to her office, once Remus asked about them and she answered coldly ‘some spam mails’
“that bitch!” Remus mumbled, then he looked at James “Matron didn’t give me any of them, I was waiting for your owl to come cause I didn’t want her to read my messages, so I thought that you…” he decided not to complete the sentence and said instead “I’m sorry Prongs, should have asked before acting like an arse with you”
James smiled and hit his arm lightly “shuddup’ mate” he laughed then got up from the bed “now you two, fucking solve what’s between you, gonna go call mum to check your condition, if you lads don’t make up by then, be ready to die” he left the room
the two boys looked at each other, Remus sighed “Sirius I…”
“actually Moony, can you let me speak first? please?” Sirius plead, Remus looked at him then nodded “allow me to sit?” pointing at his bed, Remus nod again, so Sirius sat down
“look Moony, I… My mother raise me and Regulus like the world owe us something, spent many years seeing muggles, muggleborns and half blood as lowly creatures, until Andromeda changed my mind, and I’m grateful for her, but I was still raised by my mother, still reckless, still don’t take responsibility for my actions, Mothers used to use the Lacerocurse when I do something she sees as wrong, so detentions were like trip for me, but I crossed the line this time, I was ignorant, no.. I acted ignorant, I thought that you will be mad at me at first, then laugh with me later, ignoring how you see yourself because of your furry little problem, I really didn’t mind Sni.. Snape getting hurt, but I ran to James and Pete to stop him cause I realized you would never, ever forgive yourself if you injured someone in that form, you already see yourself as a monster, it would kill you if you hurt someone with that form” he paused looking at his own trembling hands, holding them to stop them from shaking “Moony I made a mistake, I was an arsehole, I was this close from fucking up your life, I know all of that, and I really really regret it, I regret it every second ever sense I realized my mistake”
he then looked him in the eyes, his blue-Grey eyes were gleaming with tears
“I made a horrible mistake and I would do anything to make it up to you, I know apologizing won’t be enough but I’m really really sorry… I will try to change the spoiled brat that woman raised me as, I will never do anything that would hurt you or any of our friends ever again.. so please..” he looked down again, “don’t push me anywhere further… please”
Remus stared at him, he thought that his throat problem came back cause he was unable to answer him for a minute, he kinda felt sorry for him, ‘maybe this was enough as a punishment for now’ he smiled “alright” was all he could say, Sirius looked at him, surprised “really? really??? I was about to go kneel in the ground! I read that Asian muggles kneels when asking for forgiveness” Remus couldn’t not chuckle by his comment, Sirius smiled so hard his face muscles started hurting
“no going back on your words mate! a marauder never goes back on his words” he urged “me too I will not go back on my words, want me to do the unbreakable vow?!”
Remus couldn’t handle this puppy version of the usual sly dog he knows, he burst out laughing “for God’s sake, shut up” Sirius was so happy he laughed too
“FINALLY” James shouted from the room, Mrs. Potter was behind him smiling “I could finally sleep without Pads whining”
“shut up!!!” Sirius shouted, totally embarrassed, James laughed and Mrs. Potter chuckled “boys, go prepare the table while I check on Remus’ injuries”
they both nodded and left the room and Mrs. Potter went to Remus
“you know dear?” she started while checking on him “James never stops talking about you to us, he admires you, he might appear like he only consider Sirius as his best friend, but in fact, he sees you as his best friend as much as Sirius, maybe because Sirius’ energy matches James’ craziness he seems to prefer Sirius cause he understand him the most, but that doesn’t mean that he doesn’t love you dear”
she checked the last injury, everything was fine, she smiled and came closer to him, whispering “don’t tell James I told you that, but this summer he begged me to convince Dumbledore to bring you here, even threaten me with running away if I don’t” she laughed and kissed his forehead “after knowing you were injured both of them tried to come to you but Moody didn’t allow them, they ended up crying for the 4 days you stayed in the hospital, they were literally bawling, thank Merlin you’re alive, they might have lost it”
Remus was blushing from her kindness and the story she’s telling “I’m thankful to you Mrs. Potter, for taking care of me and welcoming me at your house”
she stroked his hair gently “No need to thank me, actually I’m the one who’s thankful here” she smiled and sat on the bed “me and Monty wanted to have a big family, wanted to have 2 sons and 2 daughters, and after many tries, many miscarriages, many many years, we finally got James, we spoiled him so much, he became irresponsible, messy, and greedy so we were worried about what will happen when he go to Hogwarts. then, surprisingly in second year when he sent us an owl begging us to accept bringing you to celebrate Christmas with us, we then started noticing his changes, he went from ‘Mum I will take this’, to ‘Mum, can I have this please?’”
“I’m kinda lost, how does that have anything to do with me?” Remus questioned, Mrs. Potter took his hand “James loves you so much, he loves all of you but he’s too shy to show it, but he is willing to drop all of his ego to the floor when it comes to you guys, he can be so selfish sometimes but also so selfless when it comes to you, last summer he didn’t sleep for a whole month just so he can become an Animagi so he could be with you in full moons (yes I know), you know why?” Remus shakes his head “Cause the lonely 11 years old child who went to Hogwarts in 1971, came to me in summer 1972 saying he has 3 brothers now, jumping and waiting everyday for his owl’s arrival, crying silently in bed when he got non from you (he thought I didn’t know)”
“MUM”
they turned their heads to see James, face totally red behind him was Sirius holding his laughter “why are you telling false stories about me” he was totally embarrassed, Sirius burst out laughing“not false, no need to be embarrassed about it” Mrs. Potter said with a little chuckle
“yeah.. no need to be shy.. pfft.. I hope you two drank enough water these days, don’t want you to get dehydrated” Remus then couldn’t hold it anymore and burst out laughing, James shouted at him, wanting to dig a hole to hide in it
you seem to be happy, finally the moody posh is smiling again
‘shut up I’m not that moody’
not that moody? dude I envy the real Grant cause he doesn’t know what’s inside your head
‘well, I’m a human, and a teenager, I have the right to have some mood swings from now and then, it called hormones’
now you’re even making jokes, who are you and what happened to my Remus
‘stop being dramatic, Grants would absolutely laugh too’
but you do seem happier now, change of heart?
‘no, just less overthinking’
yeah, that’s what a change of heart looks like posh boy
‘Shuddup’