Chapter 11
She lays down and Tom puts on one of her comfort movies for her. She needs to lounge around today. He sits next to her and places a hand on her side and reads his book.
She pauses the movie and turns over facing him.
Meeri- “ Tom I think it's time, for the secrets and stuff”
Tom- “No matter how dark you can tell me”
She nods and grabs onto the bottom of his sweater, takes a deep breath to ready herself, trying to figure out where's a good starting point.
Meeri- “ I'm not sure where to start ”
Tom- “ Thats okay”
He reaches down and holds her hand that was grabbing at his sweater, cupping her hand in his.
Meeri- “ for a long time I didn't understand why it all happened but then I understood exactly how my father saw me. Dracos was the first born male next head of the family and when I showed more power then him at such a young age father was pissed, and when I kept getting stronger and Draco couldn't compare I was hidden away and became something else I was no longer a daughter or a malfoy. I was taken to the dungeon and every time Draco disappointed or failed father I took the punishment, everytime father was upset I got a beating. I was so little I didn't understand but I also didn't see how wrong it was ,I didn't know why it happened. But one day when I was about 9 I snapped for the first time and it was discovered I don't need a wand for magic and I killed a servant. I had a complete fit ,I raged uncontrollably when father finally came to check on me that day he found me tearing apart a corpse, I'd painted the room red. From that day on I was kept in chains, my magic locked away, it made me feel so hollow like there was an empty void Inside nothing could fill. As I got older the beatings got worse, they were physical mental and magical torture. Over and over again he would beat me till I broke and had to go to the padded room. I've lived my life as a beating post for him, all because I'm strong. That's the secret, the dirty hidden Malfoy secret is me.”
Tom- “ You don't need a wand but you always “
Meeri- “ it's mainly for show”
Tom- “ What's the padded room”
Meeri- “ i was usually kept in a dungeon cell room and eventually I would start slamming my head against the wall so when I broke like that I'd go to the padded room where I couldn't hurt myself but I was basically just a husk of a person so if there was no interference I'd just lay on the floor and not move for days cause I couldn't feel a thing so they'd have to come in strap me down and tube feed me”
Tom-” Meeri, how have you smiled and carried all this weight silently”
Meeri- “ because I knew if the truth got out I'd never see daylight again, I had no other option, and Tom you made me smile”
He pulls her into a hug, holding her tightly to him. I always knew she was strong but this, and this was the light version, how does she do it? I'll find another way, I will.
Meeri- “ I'm okay Tom, I'm strong”
Tom- “ I know, and I'll find another way, you didn't survive all of that to just know a life of struggle, I'll make sure its worth it that things take a turn for the better”
She knows he needs to believe that, believe there's another option and she won't pop that bubble. She knows how this will all probably end and she's made peace with it, but he can still hope she won't take that from him. She already knows what pain she'll be putting him through when she dies so he can keep hope for now.
She goes back to watching her movie and resting while Tom thinks things over trying to come up with a plan. He comes up with 2 paths, 1) kill her father but Draco Would probably have to die as well, 2) get married that way she is his and no longer under her father's charge.
Option 1 wouldn't be a problem to execute but there would be fall out taking out a family head and heir, it could cause so much more mess.
Option 2 doesn't have those messy cons but it's not the way he thought marriage would happen. He had seen it down the road but not this soon, it would be rushed and skipping steps but with the pros and cons weighed it's the better choice.
Tom- “ I've thought of 2 options”
She turns over and faces him, nodding she's ready to hear the plans.
So he tells her the 2 options and just hopes she takes it well. He waits while she's silently, he knows she's thinking it over from the little thinking head tilts she does.
Meeri - “ Option 1 would have a lot of fall out and mess even though their death would be very gratifying… but are you sure about marriage Tom I don't want to force you into that position just cause it weighs better with the pros and cons?”
Tom- “ I didn't think it would come this soon but I want you forever so yes I am serious about marriage”
She nods while trying to fight back some tears.
Meeri- “ Ask me properly”
He gets out of bed, takes off one of his rings and gets down on both knees next to her bedside. He holds out the ring.
Tom- “Mirabell Malfoy will you marry me and stay by my side always?”
Meeri- “ Yes, yes Tom”
He puts the rings on her finger, stands up and kisses her forehead.
Tom- (whisper) “ Your the only one who can get me to my knees like that”
She smiles and blushes a little bit.
He gets back in and lays down with her cuddling his bride to be. Then he feels her go rigid.
Tom- “ what's wrong”
Meeri- “ I'm not 18, legally I can't get married”
Tom- “ I've already thought of that and there are places where the age limits are different, I've got it handled”
Meeri- “you think of everything”
She starts to toss and turn a bit making annoyed sounds, then she sits up and tugs at her sleeves.
Meeri- “ Did you bring any casual clothes or pj's?”
Tom- “ Yes would you like to change”
Meeri- “ Yeah this shirts really annoying with my bandages”
He gets up and grabs some pj's and brings them to her.
Tom- “ I'll just step out”
She starts to fiddle with the buttons but is having a hard time.
Meeri- “ Wait, can you help me”
Tom- “ With your shirt?”
Meeri- “Your gonna be my husband Tom it's okay”
His hearts racing a little bit, but he can't say no to her. He goes and helps her making quick work of the buttons. She wearing a bra but this is still quite a lot of skin. He makes sure to be careful when removing the left sleeve, the bandages are quite thick, this must have been so annoying.
Tom- “ arms up”
She does as he says and he puts the t-shirt on her. She throws the blanket off and stands to take off her skirt. He places his hands over hers stopping her.
Tom- “ Let me”
She gulps, wow he went from being shy to so forward, he probably doesn't even know the effect he's having. She just nods yes and let's him do it. She keeps her gaze down cause she can feel her face getting so hot and knows she's blushing badly. He pulls the zipper down, slips his fingers under the waistband and pulls down my skirt. Once it's on the ground he puts an arm around my waist holding me rather firmly, then lifts one foot then the other fully removing the skirt. Then he does the same to get my sweatpants on, he pulls them up, his movements so careful I just barely feel his finger brush against the backs of thighs and butt as he pulls them up.
Tom- “ All set darling”
Oh is he doing this on purpose now, nope just obviously doing all the right things.
Tom- “ Are you alright your flushed”
Oh do I really have to explain this, looks like I do.
Meeri- “ maybe some of your research explains the situation?”
Please let him understand that, please.It takes a moment before he gets it.
Tom- “ Oh, like this morning”
Meeri- “ Yeah kinda but more”
He knows about sex and has done it but it was never about having a connection and Involved no foreplay; it was just about satisfying the desire when it became too persistent. So he's not fully aware of what actions spark those feelings. He also sees how easily he can affect her with his actions, he knows she's not inexperienced but still she is younger and can be pretty shy so it makes sense. Right now too much is going on and she's weaknd and hurt, when the time's right he'll exploit all the actions that make her blush.
Tom- “ Is it bad, what I make you feel?”
Meeri- “ No no just, I get shy”
Tom- “ I have every intention of waiting till things settle down.”
She nods, still keeping her head down.
Tom- “ Let go back to the movie”
Meeri- “ yeah”
They get back in bed and watch the movie, her face cools down and her pulse returns to normal. Now she just feels tired, so much had happen in the last 24 hours and she needs a lot of sleep to get ready for whatever comes next. She turns over facing Tom and snuggles against him and puts an arm over his lap as she gets cozy.
Tom- “ Nap time?”
Meeri- “ Yep”
He just reads his book while she sleeps on him. He finds himself just staring at her amazed that tomorrow she will be his wife, then whatever comes next they will fight it together side by side forever. It gives him great comfort knowing she'll always be by his side. He gently pets her head, he doesn't want to disturb her but her hair is so silky soft and she doesn't seem bothered.
That is until there's a knock at the door, it startles her awake, and she's instantly up arm extended open hand to the door ready to attack.
Tom- “ It's alright, there's no threat it's just the guys, deep breaths”
Meeri-” Sorry
Tom- “ No they should be sorry for waking you”
Tom gets up and answers the door, his tone giving away that he's pissed.
The guys only came to check in on how she's doing and if stuff got figured out. Tom tells them it's settled and to meet tomorrow in the woods after breakfast dress nice and leave they disturbed her nap.
He sees she is still a bit frazzled from being startled awake. Her eyes have glazed over and her mind has drifted off somewhere probably unpleasant. He gets in bed and opens his arms to her.
Tom- “ Come here”
She goes to him and he swiftly pulls her onto his lap and hold her. He knows she prefers companionship in silence then questions, this works in his favor to. It take him time for find the words but actions he can do.
Being startled awake always triggers her, makes her expect some impending beating. She's just too fragile today to rationally calm herself down. But now she has Tom to lean on, she plans to enjoy every moment she gets with him, to cherish them. It's not that she doesn't trust Tom or thinks his plans are faulty it's just that she's seen to much to expect a good outcome, to think things will go her way. So she'll cherish every good moment with him so when she does take her final breaths she'll have good memories when her life flashes before her.
She just spends the day laying on him, trying to memorize him. The way he smells, the gradient colors of his eyes, they way his hair curls to the side, how his caine teeth are slightly pointed, his steady breathing pattern, they way he turns book pages, how he gets the focused look and how it changes and softens when he looks at me. She makes a mental image of him with ever detail, feeling and look catologed.
She wishes she could have hope like him, but she swore off hopping long ago.
He brings dinner to her, refusing to let her push herself again. It's nice having dinner with just him at the desk, it feels more intimate, personal. Usually they are seated next to eachother but now they sit across from eachother, she likes this view.
They head to the bathroom together and wash their faces, they get a few odd looks but no ones says a think and trys to get out of their as quick as possible.
Meeri-” I need some things from my room for tomorrow”
So they head to her room together, she stands in the doorway a moment, her feeling toms hand on her back brings her back to reality. They go in and she gets a bag and digs through her clothes looking for a dress nice enough to get married in, she has nothing white but whites not the right color for her anyways she's anything but innocent.
She finds a nice dark green dress and picks that. She grabs some makeup, tall boots, coat, and they leave heading back to Toms.
Meeri-” So what's the plan for tomorrow “
Tom- “ Have breakfast early then meet the guys in the woods and go to Scotland the laws there will allow us to marry, I wish I could you a proper wedding but”
Meeri- “ No it's okay we don't need all that stuff for it to be right”
Tom- “ Then we come back before Snape gets upset about our absence… and I promise I'll give you a real honeymoon vacation during the next break”
Meeri- “ Sounds good”
She gets back in bed with a book to read.
Tom- “ Meeri?’
Meeri- “ yeah’
Tom- “ I need to change will it be an issue if I do that here”
Meeri- “ Nope no problem”
He notes how she looks him up and down, and bites her bottom lip a little. She goes back to her book but he knows she is not reading. So he decides to play with her a little bit, maybe it will help break down some of her shyness.
Tom- “ You can look darling, I am yours afterall”
Instantly she looks up from the book at him, she's trying not to smile so hard and it's very cute and is not hiding a thing.
So he changes, taking off his sweater , then unbuttoning his shirt and removing that. Usually he's very quick and efficient when changing but for her he's taking his time. He knows exactly what clothes he's gonna change into but he purposefully stands in his boxers digging through his drawers for her entertainment. He figures he's drawn this out as much as possible and finishes changing and joins her in bed.
She's got her face in her hands, he thinks he might have overdone it. He hopes she doesn't feel embarrassed for her reaction; he finds it very cute and it boosts his pride.
He puts a hand on her back.
Tom- “ Meeri… come now, stop hiding”
She shakes her head no.
He gently grabs her wrists his fingers going all the way around. He lightly tugs and she gives in and lets him pull her hands away showing her face. She's fully blushing and her pupils are wide. Oh ill enjoy recreating this look in due time.
Tom-” Dont be embarrassed, I was teasing you on purpose”
Meeri- “ W Why”
Tom- “ Because your adorable, and you deserve to feel a good rush, things have been to dark lately. Tell me was I a good distraction, did you enjoy the show?”... “ Humm come now tell me?”
Meeri- “ Yes”
Tom- “ yes what?”
Meeri- “ Yes I enjoyed you provide a really good distraction”
She's blushes even more now going from pink to red as she admits her feelings to me. Such a good girl doing what I say.
He grabs her chin, gently but still a firm hold,so she can't looks away.
Tom- “ I will provide many more distractions and pleasurable moments for you Meeri.
She tries to turn away but his hold keeps their eyes locked.
Tom- “ Nothing is embarrassing between us, there's no need to look away, you can be shy but there's no hiding from me. And if you want more you'll need to learn to use your words because I will fulfill your every request just ask”
He knows he's pushing things a bit too much right now but gets caught up in this moment. She looks so adorable right now, pupils wide, heart racing, cheeks red. Even her gaze has changed. There is that shyness but he can see a hunger underneath, that's what he wants to see come forth that lustful hunger. He's always dominant but for her, oh he would submit to her if she said so, he would fall to his knees and worship her if she said so.
Then it happens there's a distinct switch in her attitude and presence. He may be holding her but only cause she's letting him. He sees her gaze is now hungry and dominant, oh maybe he's in over his head.
Meeri- “ You want words huh? Okay then pick a word for me anything you want, that word will be your safe word. Do you know what that is my serpent?
Toms in shock from her switch, and oh he knows he's in over his head but kinda loving it. He nods yes, finding that he's lost his words.
Meeri- “ Good, unfortunately I'm too tired to play with you properly so today's lesson is to be careful what you wish for and don't tease lightly, and your homework is to pick a safeword you'll need it. Take a deep breath, good boy, I know you didn't expect this and perhaps you think you're in over your head but that's okay you were such a good tutor for me now I can teach you something. Does that sounds good my devilishly handsome serpent?”
Oh holy fucking shit, where was this hidding all this time, and now I have unleashed it. I've never been dominated before, never considered it a possibility, but oh this is doing something to me. Serpent, good boy, why are those little words having so much effect? But by god I will be her good boy.
Oh she's waiting for my response. What was the question, oh yes is probably the right answer I'll go with that.
Tom- “Yes”
Meeri- “ Now do you need some privacy or can we read and go to bed?
Privacy what? Oh?
Tom- “ Read and sleep”
Meeri- “ Okay”
What, How, just like that her gaze returned to normal and she's just reading her book like nothing just happened. Oh what kinda demon lives in her. I'm so glad I'll get to have her forever. I'm looking forward to finding out everything about her, every twist and surprise.