Hey, I didn't know how else to say this but honest I really just wanna tell you like what's been up with me And I really like you, Lila like you are so amazing And my creative and wonderful, but I don't wanna hurt you And I know like When I was with you and you were at my house, I had the most amazing fucking time. I was so happy with you and I just enjoyed being around you. You're fun and you're hilarious and you make me laugh and smile and I really care about you and I'm sorry. I like distance myself quite a bit from you but I didn't wanna hurt you, but I knew that both ways would hurt you like if I stayed and I wasn't able to follow through with being with you it would hurt you and if I stop talking to you, it would hurt you Am I I didn't wanna Have you like me more? Cause I don't, I'm scared of hurting you and I know like part of me wants to be with you so bad and have something with you but the other half of me knows that it wouldn't work Because we both need people who are emotionally available And who are gonna be there for us when we need them? And As much as I think you're amazing and I I really want something with you I just can't hurt you. I can't bear the thought of hurting you. Cause you're so amazing and nice to me and you're so fucking talented And I just, I do apologize But I just I couldn't stay and I wanted you to know that I don't know if you were thinking or not but it's not that I don't want you the fact that like I don't wanna hurt you And that if anything was reversed It could work and I would love to be with you, but I know that I can't And that I would end up hurting you and because our lives are very different But I think you're amazing and I know that well I hope that you are gonna be OK and I'm sorry that this took me so long to tell you I just didn't know how to word it. I didn't know how to word it because I care and part of me just really doesn't wanna hurt you, but I know that I'm also hurting you. By being planned and dismissive, and I just wanted you to know the truth I really do. I wanted you to know the truth and I wanted you to know that you're amazing and I hope you find your person who shows you that you are an amazing person and hold you so high and always looks out for you But it just can't be me And I really am sorry and I just wanted you to know the truth But if you're upset with me and or anything like that That's OK and I want you to know that I'm I'm telling you the absolute truth right now Like the full truth And I'm sorry Because all I like you made me realize that you were someone that I wanted to hold close to me But that I had to let you go because We wouldn't work and I I didn't wanna hurt you And I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me and you're amazing and that I'm sorry and I am I like I'm sorry that this is really long. I just really just wanted to tell you and. Yeah Lots of love