The apartment was quiet, too quiet. It felt deafening, really. The two friends weren’t doing anything. Josh was sitting next to Tyler, distracted and scrolling Twitter on their phone. Tyler on the other hand was anything but distracted, she was fidgeting and leaning over, looking at Josh’s phone, hell, even leaning on them. The heavy blanket of silence was interrupted at times by the two giggling at certain posts.
Tyler really couldn’t stay focused at times, though. She was constantly staring off at nothing. Josh noticed, they paid no mind, though she noticed they were more distracted than usual. Every so often, Josh would just playfully shove Tyler to get her back to Earth, briefly starting shoving fights.
Tyler loved hanging out with Josh. Every day they spent together Tyler would always love to soak everything in. Not today, however. Tyler was either spaced out or fidgeting, or giggling of course. Tyler had too many thoughts in her mind, too many they couldn't get herself to say out loud, but they knew they couldn’t keep it in forever, especially with their best friend.
After the last shove, Josh looked into Tyler’s eyes, leaning her chin down slightly in a ‘Gonna tell me what's up ?’ way. Tyler obviously got the message when they broke eye contact and looked away slightly, fidgeting and twisting a strand of brown hair. Josh took her hand and grabbed Tyler’s , setting it down on Tyler’s lap.
“Can I ask ya’ somethin’?” Tyler asks eventually, still refusing eye contact. They wiggle her hand out of Josh’s grip and crack their knuckles nervously, taking the moment to slightly pick at their polish on her nails, which are already cracked.
“Obviously, dude. Say whatever, I can tell you got somthin’ up in there to ask.” Josh rolls her eyes as she scrolls through Twitter again, slightly leaning in towards Tyler. Their breathing syncs up slightly, just something that tends to happen, but the sync gets interrupted when Tyler breathes in before speaking.
“OkayimprettysureIlikegirlsandwomenandnotmenandidontknowwhattodoandimnotsureifyoucanhelpifIcan—” Tyler mutters under her breath, the words jammed together. They get cut off.
“Dude, slow down. Speak to me calmly, whatever you got goin’ on up there is important. If its THAT important, speak to me in a way I can understand.” Josh laughs at the end, a smile peaking on her lips. Tyler can’t help but stare at her smile before trying to speak.
“Okay,,, I’m pretty sure I like girls and not men and I’m not sure if you can help.” Tyler says, still somewhat muttering but it's cohesive enough. They try to nervously crack her knuckles again, but they’re obviously not ready.
Josh’s eyes widened slightly, turning off her phone before putting her hand on Tyler's.
“Proud of ya’, man. But I have to ask.. What would I do to help?” Josh asks, ending off their sentence with a half-laugh. Scratching her neck with their other hand. “What, do you want to practice kissing me?”
Tyler stops dead.
“I—I mean I wasn’t gonna ask IMMEDIATELY, but I know a cute girl and I don’t want to possibly have my first kiss with her and be a complete idiot with it…” Tyler stutters slightly, looking away and fidgeting with her hands again.
Josh wasn’t serious, really. But how could she say no? Josh honestly wouldn’t mind, and admittingly it would probably help Josh themself with their own thoughts, they’re just surprised Tyler came out first.
“I mean, sure. I’m straight so it won't have any effect on me.” Josh lied, it was such a blatant lie Josh couldn’t get themself to think Tyler would believe her, but Tyler didn’t know that she was also having the same issues.
“I don’t want to force you, you’re okay to say no.”
“I’m fine, you’re fine, I understand.” Tyler didn’t know how much Josh understood, and Josh was thankful because she did NOT mean to say that they understood.
“Really?”
“Really.”
“...Really..?”
“Shut up and just tell me how.”
“...How what?”
“Dude I don’t know, it’s gonna be my first kiss too.”
“Does it count as a first kiss if it's practice?”
“You want it to count?”
“I’m not sure.” Tyler breathed before muttering something along the lines of ‘hope so’.
“You wanna just free ball it?”
“...Yeah.”
Josh didn’t know what she expected when Tyler didn’t do anything. Josh pointed to their lips as a way to ask ‘kiss kiss?’, they were answered with a slight nod., and for some reason, that moment that Tyler nodded, she looked like the most beautiful woman in the world.
Josh positioned herself on her knees so she's approximately the same height as Tyler, who was leaning against the arm of the couch. Tyler leaned up as Josh leaned forward for their lips to touch. It was like time stopped for the both of them. Their bodies, which were originally both cold, immediately warmed up. The heat came from nowhere.
After a few seconds, Josh entangled her hand into one of Tyler's, pressing it against Tyler's chest. Josh didn’t know why they did it, knowing that it was practice for another girl. Josh pulled back.
“Sorry.” Josh went to pull her hand back. “I think you did well, the girl will be pretty happy, really.” Josh’s hand was stopped, however, and was brought back.
“Dude.” Tyler laughed. “The girl is you.” Josh flushed immediately.
Tyler lifted her other hand and wrapped it around the back of Josh’s neck and pulled them down in an invite. Josh basically pushed themself on top of Tyler's lips, her other hand keeping her from not putting their entire weight. At some point in the moment, Tyler opened slightly and Josh’s tongue slipped right in. Josh didn’t know how she was doing it, but being against Tyler, it was almost instinct.
Josh even nipped at Tyler’s bottom lip at some point, which sparked Josh’s mouth on a journey down Tyler’s neck in various episodes of small bites and hickeys. They couldn’t get themself to do anything but do everything to be closer to Tyler. Apparently the small bites were Tyler's breaking point, or more of her lip gave out after biting it so hard, Tyler slipped out a small moan.
Josh pulled back, pushing and clearing Tyler’s face of hair, smiling.
“Well, as the girl, I think you did pretty good.” Josh giggled, leaving a slight kiss on Tyler’s cheek.
“Fuck, dude. Oh my god.” Tyler pressed their palms against her eyes. “That was your first kiss?”
“Yeah, I really don’t know what got into me there—I'll clean up the bites, I'm sorry.”
“No, you’re fine. They feel good.”
“Really?”
“Okay, now we are not switching with the ‘really?’ thing.” Tyler laughed, taking her hands off their eyes and pushing Josh against the other end of the couch and leaning on her chest. “Are you still using that citrus chapstick?”
“Not the same one, but since you got me it I’ve been rebuying the same one.” Josh blushed slightly.
“Gayass.”
“Says you, Ms.‘Saw a cute girl’”
“Not a lie, I did, and I see her right now.”