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Ships included: evan buckley/tommy kinard, evan buckley/eddie diaz, hen wilson/karen wilson, athena grant/bobby nash, sal deluca/tommy kinard, evan buckley/tim rosewater, evan buckley/eddie diaz/tommy kinard, eddie diaz/josh russo, eddie diaz/albert han, eddie diaz/tommy kinard
Gen pairings included: firehouse 118 crew & firehouse 118 crew (in various pairings/capacities), evan buckley & maddie buckley, evan buckley & the buckley parents, eddie diaz & carla price, evan buckley & christopher diaz, eddie diaz & christopher diaz, evan buckley & athena grant, eddie diaz & tommy kinard

CANON-COMPLIANT/CODA/MISSING SCENE FICS
includes fics compliant with canon plots; missing moments, codas, etc.

didn’t know what i was missing, til you walked in like a vision
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.8k, teen & up

And five; number five, in the chronological list of the reasons why today has been so wonderful, is Tommy right now. Tommy, with his face smeared with soot and his entire muscled build clad in the black-and-yellow turnouts, his hair ruffled adorably and his disheveled look so perfectly, effortlessly attractive; his eyes soft at their crease and his laugh echoing on the bitumen, gaze linking warmly with Evan’s every time he dares to glance across the lot. Or the one where Tommy has a natural charm, Evan has a perfect day, and the best things are the ones that sneak up on you.

there is no guarantee, that this life is easy
evan buckley & eddie diaz & christopher diaz, 1k, teen & up

Eddie should have known the risks; he works for a fire and rescue team, he should have realised what can happen – and he doesn’t want Christopher’s disability to limit him the way it does, but as his father, Eddie feels responsible. He should have been realistic about what his son is capable of, he should have been more careful, he shouldn’t have brought him out here, he should have shouldn’t have should have. Or the one where Christopher gets hurt, Eddie panics, and he's pretty sure Evan Buckley might just be a saint.

and in a moment, i knew you best
evan buckley/tommy kinard, evan buckley & the buckley parents, 2.4k, teen & up

His date apologizes for being late, and does the round of handshakes, waves, even going as far to pull Hen and Karen into hugs – and Evan has to talk to him about that later, because he had no idea Tommy was as close with the Wilsons as he’s been acting. Chimney eventually points out the dark smear in Evan’s stubble, and Athena hands over some wet-wipes she swiped from the nurses station; Buck plays oblivious when she starts asking questions, but knows from her sly glance and the hardly-surprised quirk in her brow that she’s cottoned on easy enough. With a brief spell of embarrassment, he realizes it probably wasn’t hard to work out – and everyone seemed to know he was into guys before he did, for some reason. Or the one where sooty stubble, a chaotic closet exit at his sister's wedding, and the best man Buck has ever known all seem to collide at once.

I’m alone in the night sky but caught on the outside
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.5k, teen & up

Having a funeral for a man who died before he was even born is very on-brand for Evan Buckley; and Tommy loves the little quirks in his boyfriend’s behavior, the way he so readily got them both organized to visit the new burial site and pay their respects. In a way, Tommy found all of this Billy Boils stuff hit a little too close to home, and he’s just wanting, at this point, to put it all behind them – which is hopefully what this all signifies. Or the one where Buck has everything Tommy’s ever wanted, and he doesn’t even realize it.

roll your cavalry back, my love, take care of yourself
eddie diaz & hen wilson, 1k, teen & up

“Eggs sound okay?”
“I can, in fact, cook for myself.”
“But you haven’t.” Hen says blankly. “So do eggs sound okay?”
Eddie sighs. “Delicious, actually.”
“There we go!”
Or the one where Eddie Diaz hardly ever takes sick leave, Hen Wilson needs a break from the kids, and the best friends are the ones that stick around for the bad parts.

i'll make you wanna think twice, you'll find that you were never not mine
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.8k, teen & up

No firefighter is a generally fearful person; you can’t be, you wouldn’t cope with the weight of the job, with the heat of an emergency. But for the last two weeks, Buck’s finding himself constantly on edge or even blatantly scared, amusement tinging the edges of his fear. Or the one where Tommy doesn’t scare easily, Buck definitely does, and it’s time for a little bit of revenge.

you let go, of your fears and your ghosts
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 3.3k, teen & up

Buck knew, logically, that Tommy, Hen and Chimney likely hadn’t exaggerated Gerrard’s prejudices; none of them were really the type to dramatize things like that, and they’d all shared a very similar recollection of his leadership. But there had still been a little voice in the back of his head the entire time, telling him there was no way that someone could be that awful. He was wrong. He was very, very wrong. Or the one where Gerrard has significant prejudices, Tommy looks far too good in turnouts, and Evan’s confronted with the shame he didn’t realize he had.

why do stars fall from the sky, every time you walk by?
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.5k, teen & up

What Buck wasn’t expecting to wake up to was curtains still pulled tightly shut at half-past-eleven, the bed cool beside him and the smell of pancakes entirely absent. Tommy’s work clothes are missing from their hooks on the back of the bedroom door, the house is empty of anyone beside Evan, and the sky outside is a bitter, foreboding gray. Or the one where Evan’s perfect morning is interrupted by Tommy’s work, and he makes the next one special instead.

as plain as anyone can see, we’re simply meant to be
evan buckley/tommy kinard, eddie diaz/josh russo, 1.5k, gen. audiences

It’s never a dull moment, around these three, Tommy thinks; even now, Eddie’s telling some fresh story from work, Josh laughing relentlessly while Evan pulls a somewhat pleased smile, cheeks flushed. Tommy snakes an arm around Evan’s waist, pulling him tight against his side and pressing a tender kiss to his temple; Evan moves into the touch, leaning his head onto Tommy’s shoulder and humming quiet contentment. Or the one where Buck, Tommy, Josh and Eddie have a halloween celebration of their own, and Tommy realises the truth that’s coming to fruition.

wishing these memories would fade, they never do
evan buckley & bobby nash, 1.6k, teen & up

Given the complexities of his childhood, Buck should, in all self-honesty, be more adjusted to this idea by now. He spent his fair share of time in the emergency room or the backs of ambulances – as well as one or two cop cars, but that’s mostly irrelevant – and thus has plenty of experience watching teenagers doing the same things he did, getting hurt the same way he did. It’s been eight years since he joined the 118, and he’s had thousands of familiar-feeling calls in that time – and far more than one motorcycle crash. Or the one where the civvies are like mirrors to Buck, childhood is better remembered, and Bobby seems to know just what to say.

some things you can't explain, i know you needed to move on
tommy kinard & bobby nash, 1.6k, teen & up.

The summer is fading fast, and a chill follows Tommy through the firehouse doors; but it’s fast replaced with a warmth that reminds him distinctly of thick woollen sweaters and the space heater that sits in the corner of the living room at Harbor; it sends a streak of something like longing through his chest, but he presses it down, swallowing slowly and letting his eyes flicker across the room. Or the one where Tommy comes back from Harbor to sub in for a shift, and the 118 has a whole new feeling.

forest that once was green, colored black by killing machines
eddie diaz & evan buckley & tommy kinard, 1.5k, teen & up

But when Eddie turned up, when they first became close, it woke Buck up a little. He educated himself; on the troops in Afghanistan, on the tumultuous violence and the horrific sights, on the experiences of incomparable emotional and physical agony. There was more than one night, after that first shift with Eddie, where Buck would spend hours twisted in his bedsheets thinking over the pages and pages of military history and soldier accounts and articles from Texan newspapers about Eddie’s medal. He was determined, really, to understand what the man had been through; that was the only way he knew how to help, was to understand, was to learn. Or the one where Eddie’s past won’t leave him be, Buck doesn’t know how to help, and the military took more than anyone’s inclined to admit.

and i wanna kiss you, make you feel alright
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.1k, gen. audiences

It’s been two months, and Tommy’s been at the loft a lot; his own place feels sort of cold, in comparison, these days, and the dark timber and exposed brick and the low-hanging lights all make the open plan feel so cosy, so homely, that he hardly wants to leave. And the space is flooded with memories, too; the photo on Evan’s dresser with the entire 118, and the drawing Christopher did of their family tree when he was nine, and the weird ferris wheel sculpture that he apparently scavenged thrift stores for after the lightning strike. There’s a weight of life in the apartment that has never held space anywhere that Tommy’s lived in before, and he wants to spend years basking in it. Or the one where Tommy goes over to see Evan, and sometimes a night in is better than one out.

i dont know cause honey, now this house feels like a grave
evan buckley & firehouse 118 crew, 1.1k, teen & up

Buck’s pretty sure they get more calls about this house than any other in their service zone, and they have a few far-from-code regulars, as well as several members of the community with severe ongoing health issues. But the gothic house front, the thick black gloss of the door, the rattle of loose, old window panes echoes out of the building, and it attracts so many false alarms that Buck’s begun to wonder if dispatch should just deny calls from the location. If only they had that ability, he sighs, stepping up to the front path. Or the one where Buck’s pretty sure this house is haunted, old structures aren’t as strong as you think, and sometimes life pulls the rug out from under you.

finding pieces that can fit, we can hope for what we miss
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.3k, teen & up.

A part of Tommy wants to leave; even with the way they’ve re-enveloped him into the fold, his relationship with both Hen and Bobby is one that exists purely in relation to Evan; the person that Tommy was, when last they knew him, is not one that reflects who he is now, nor who he wants to be. Sitting with them, existing with them enshrouds him in a sense of shame he didn’t know he carried, and he can already feel the bitter taste of it rising in his throat. Or the one where Tommy and Evan are going strong, the 118 isn’t what it used to be, and Tommy will always feel a little deserving of what he underwent there. 

 

CANON DIVERGENT FICS
includes fics that come from a canon background; MCDs, non-canon pairings, etc.

heartbreak to the third degree
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 51.5k, teen & up.

It’s been a month since Tommy walked out of Buck’s loft, out of his life, and Los Angeles is feeling less and less like home; but when bushfires in Australia leave the nation pleading for help from the USA, both Buck and Tommy are thrust right onto the fireline, and back into the other’s vicinity. Between the heat and the danger, tensions are running high; volatile words are thrown around like confetti, and love is realised a little past the due date. Sometimes, though, you have to fight for what you want; or you risk watching it burn to the ground.

i love lying next to you, could do it for eternity
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 2.3k, teen & up

“I really don’t want to put you out anymore than I have just by being here tonight, Eds.” Buck says, tone bordering on a whine, insistence thick inside it. “I can just sleep on the couch.”
“Absolutely not.” Eddie waves him away, adjusting the pillows and pulling an ottoman over, tossing his phone down onto the coffee table with a glance up to Buck’s face. “You nearly died trying to get to my kid today, man. You deserve to sleep in a real bed.”
Or the one where Buck crashes at the Diaz house the night of the tsunami, sharing has always been caring, and Eddie has a habit of caring too much.

we could be great, and it would be great, if you'd let it
eddie diaz/josh russo, 30k so far, teen & up. series. MCD.

Josh never imagined himself with someone like Eddie; but that's where he finds himself, not that he's complaining. Just as soon, though, it's torn out from his grasp - and he's left grappling with the loss of a fiancé. A series of Jeddie one-shots that find themselves in somewhat of a story.

you can't save someone too far to find
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 5k, mature. Heed the tags.

Maddie was there, and Jee; Chimney, too. They all hugged him like he mattered, like he meant something. They ate some of the cookies over cups of Earl Grey while Jee dozed on her Uncle Buck’s lap, the late-ticking clock dragging her down with exhaustion. It was all so nice. Warm. The sort of moment that makes Buck almost believe it’s worth him even being there for, when he creates enough joy that someone else might not have been able to replicate. It’s family. But his family went back to their own home, and that was that.
That was that, and Buck was alone.
Again. Always. Still.

i know we're close to an edge
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 5k, teen & up. SWAT crossover.

He doesn’t need it. He doesn’t want distractions, he doesn’t want things to occupy him; he wants his fiancè to sit up in that godforsaken bed, to push the sheets down and stand up and press a kiss to Evan’s lips and hold him and tell him, in that honey-warm voice, we’re okay, mi tesoro, like he does. That’s all that Buck wants.

sinister to love without regard for dear tomorrow
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.3k, teen & up.

“What’s the latest information?” Buck practically tears past the barricades into the command centre, eyeing the skyscraper fearfully. Seventy floors straight up, the tallest building in the city, and it almost seems to sway against the night sky; pillars of grey smoke climb in rickety towers toward the sky, the smell flooding the streets below.

stare into the vacancy, take a deep breath
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.5k, teen & up

First, Evan leans forward, pressing the emergency call button firmly and waiting for a response; when there’s no answer, he lets out a low sigh, shooting Tommy a brief glance but staying facing forward, facing away. Still, nothing comes from the button, so Buck tries again– and Tommy can feel panic sparking in his chest, but he swallows it down. It’s fine.

haven't heard from you in weeks, you must've left town
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.7k, teen & up - sequel coming soon

Buck has gotten good at not jumping at the sound of the phone. He doesn’t flinch when it rings, doesn’t wait by it; he isn’t scared to put it on silent during shifts anymore, he doesn’t check his notifications every ten minutes like some sort of subservient routine. He just puts it aside, tucks it into his pocket or leaves it on the counter and ignores it, no matter how much he still thinks Tommy might call. This? This is different.

if i glued myself shut, you'd find your way in
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 2.1k, teen & up.

Tommy thought it would be a good morning; he was up a little earlier, made breakfast for them both and plated it up right as Evan stumbled out into the kitchen. He was wrapped in one of Tommy’s hoodies, and a pair of his own boxers, still sleepy and soft with a good night’s rest. It was the perfect image; one that, on days where he’s a little more optimistic, Tommy can imagine waking up to every morning. Every morning, for the rest of his life. And the entire thing had fallen apart the moment Evan opened his mouth. I think we should tell people about us.

at least, we can end it right
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 2.7k, mature.

He’d followed Tommy down in the elevator, raced across the busy road; rain pelts down around them, Buck’s t-shirt flimsy against the incoming Los Angeles winter, air still warm but the city streets gleaming with the storm. Tommy’s overshirt clings to his arms, dark hair curling as it dampens; it only serves to make him more attractive, and Evan presses down the heat rising in his gut. “It’s– it’s pouring rain, and we’re not done talking. Tommy, just– just come inside. Please, just come back inside, we can– we can fix it. I can fix this.” Or the one where Tommy comes back up to the loft for one last goodbye.

what if we rewrite the stars?
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 2.6k, teen & up.

Tommy flinches when Buck laughs; because he looks a little lighter, a little brighter than when he first walked in. And yes, that’s what Tommy wants for him– but jealousy beats in his bloodstream, sparking anger in his throat, because that should be him, shouldn’t it? He wants to be the one making Buck laugh. Making him happy. Or the one where they needed some time, needed some space, but Buck and Tommy will always find their way back to each other.

our heads above the clouds, falling like we were just kids
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1.1k, teen & up

“And, uh. I don’t have a hot pilot boyfriend waiting for me, actually.” Buck tries to keep his tone even, insistent with meaning and heavy with his sincerity, but Eddie seems too caught in his own spiral to really pick up on it. He just takes a long swig of his beer and makes an assumption, which has Buck letting out a slow sigh, because he doesn’t really want to have this conversation – except he sort of does. Or the one where it’s Eddie’s first Christmas without his son, but maybe the holiday season will still be alright.

pack up and leave everything, don't you see what i could bring?
evan buckley/tim rosewater (9-1-1 lone star), 2.1k, teen & up

“I crashed my bike, but I’m fine.” Evan waves a hand; he tips his head out toward the sidewalk jerkily, swallowing slowly. His footsteps crunch on the gravel of the driveway, and his expression is lit by the dim shine of the party lights glowing out the front windows, eyes gleaming with blues and reds and pinks. “I gotta talk to you about something.” Or the one where Tim Rosewater and Evan Buckley are more than best friends, they’re intertwined; but Evan has to leave, and Tim can’t follow.

something gave you the nerve to touch my hand, it’s nice to have a friend
evan buckley/tim rosewater (9-1-1 lone star), 2.6k, gen. audiences

There was an immediate flicker of recognition in Evan’s eyes, when he spun around; his mouth had curved immediately into an open smile, and he’d tugged Tim into a hug. Fourteen years, erased with that glance of familiarity and the touch of comfort against Tim’s arm, because he suddenly felt exactly as he did at seventeen, when he was kicker on the team that Evan dragged to two state titles. Or the one where Tim finds an old friend in his hometown, and a lot has changed since high school, but the feelings haven’t.

how'd a guy like me, who'd have been fine with three, wind up with a five leaf clover?
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 6k, teen & up

Considering Buck’s injuries from work and Tommy’s fragmented view of holiday celebrations, their recent breakup and consequent recommitment to each other completely aside, their first Christmas together is looking to be something of a poor one. But with a little help from the 118, the holiday cheer takes hold again, stronger than ever. Or the one where Tommy decides to settle, finally, the cause of the breakup that almost shattered them completely.

why do we climb, to fall so far?
evan buckley/eddie diaz/tommy kinard, 3.7k, teen & up. MCD.

Buck, Eddie and Tommy are in the best relationship of their lives; but between the danger of the job and the harsh realities, at times, of relationships, they can feel so distant. Tommy’s taught his loves so much, in their time together; but now, this time, he teaches them the beauty of love, and the price to pay when it is lost.

i made it out alive but i think i lost it
evan buckley & eddie diaz & christopher diaz

The makeshift-hospital sheets are pooled around his hips, and the lights are a cool, sterile white, dim in the late evening; his lungs heave with his breaths, and he’s dizzy with the way everything rushes back, clarity and confusion hurtling toward him in one twisted package of a sudden flood of thought. He’s only slept for a few hours, but he feels like it’s been years – and yet he’s entirely unrested, all at once. Or the one where Christopher didn’t make it out of the tsunami, even Eddie can’t seem to blame Buck, and sometimes you just need to feel hated.

give me all the pain, give me everything, don't hold back
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.9k, teen & up

It’s been two months to the very day, since Tommy left Buck’s apartment; the summer is pulling to a close, and the chill of the wind seems to chase Buck everywhere he goes, wrapped in the still, cold ache of loneliness. He hadn’t thought to use the word love, with Tommy, not until his heart was left like a doormat to his person, trod upon every time someone walks out the door. Or the one where Tommy and Buck’s reunion comes during Tommy’s worst times, and Buck realises that he’d give anything to keep them.

i thought it’d be hard to find the one til i found you
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 900w, teen & up

Evan Buckley did all of this; Eddie’s pretty sure that his boyfriend rang up his parents, or maybe even Chris, and found the date. He knows that Buck organised the cake, because it reads “congrats on getting all the way around the sun again”, which is an awful lot of text, but it’s also far too big a cake for the small crowd. It’s sweet, in the weird way that Buck is. Or the one where Eddie Diaz has never loved parties, Evan Buckley redesigns the concept, and it all ends up being the perfect birthday.

kiss me, beneath the milky twilight
eddie diaz/albert han, 1.1k, teen & up

But there’s a new face at the table tonight, and it catches Eddie entirely off guard; a cheeky grin and a loud laugh and a sense of humour not unlike Chimney’s, but actually funny. His brown eyes are sparkling in the kitchen light, and he holds out a warm hand, his name seeming to float in the air around Eddie when he says it. Albert. Or the one where Eddie meets Albert, and a dark corridor leaves room for the moonlight.

sorry, the only way out is down
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 2k, teen & up. MCD.

Maybe it was because he was a little behind schedule when Tommy radioed, or because he’d been so huffy about the incident he’d had to turn back and recenter himself for landing at the country club, but Evan wasn’t quite fast enough to get onto the golf course before what he had presumed to be a weather event turned up; and it was almost a weather event, but not quite. Because it isn’t a storm, really; it is, in a way, but it also isn’t like anything Evan’s ever seen. Or the one where Evan finally got his flying lessons, but things don’t go to plan, and Tommy bears the consequences.

don’t you know i miss the times when we used to hang
sal deluca/tommy kinard, 2.5k, gen. audiences

Running from Evan wasn’t running away; or it was, but now Tommy’s standing on Sal’s front step, and it doesn’t feel like it anymore. He ran from something fake– wonderful, but fake – back to the one thing, the best thing he ever had, and that isn’t running away. It’s running home. Or the one where Tommy turns up on Sal’s door after a decade of silence between them, and both of them realise the thing they always needed.

ain’t no way i’m gonna screw up now that i know what’s at stake
sal deluca/tommy kinard, 2.7k, teen & up

He refuses to let his history, no matter how recent, ruin something good– Sal isn’t Evan, and this, this is Tommy’s future, isn’t it? This is the rest of his life, if it goes as he wants it to. Dinner dates and carpooling and, god, Sal’s hand on Tommy’s thigh, warm and soft and grounding the way it was the whole drive here. Or the one where Sal and Tommy finally get their first date, but it doesn’t quite go to plan.

and the words i most regret are the ones i never meant to leave
eddie diaz & evan buckley, eddie diaz & carla price, 1.2k, teen & up. MCD.

Eddie hasn’t heard anything from Chimney, or Maddie, or Buck, for that matter, since he left the firehouse; the last one seems somewhat irrelevant, seeing as the last they spoke Eddie essentially told him to fuck off in the middle of a supermarket, but the chill down Eddie’s spine echoes the disturbance in Carla’s voice. And if his gut is right, if the panic creeping like sweat across his skin is warranted, then something very, very wrong has happened. Or the one where Buck loses his life right in the middle of the lawsuit, and Eddie regrets all the last words he spoke.

you look fine in the evening, honey, it’s starting to storm
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.3k, teen & up

“I know, Evan.” Tommy’s voice is thick, and it cuts through the crisp afternoon air like a flame, sharp against the bitter winds but tender in Evan’s ears; he’s trying to be supportive, but it’s frustrating that so much of their time together has been taken up by the problems at the 118. It’s not even Evan that Tommy’s frustrated with, it’s the department, for allowing this strange roll of power to push against them. “But maybe you should–”
“I’m not swallowing my pride, Tom.” Evan says quickly; he’s been insistent on the matter from the start; it is a matter of pride, and he’s always been a proud person, his entire life, despite the insecurities that have followed him throughout it. Or the one where Gerrard’s prejudices are significant, Evan’s trying to tackle them head-on, and Tommy just wants a moment with his boy.

you and me all the time in a world no-one can find
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1.3k, gen. audiences

The Diaz house is far from large, and the walls are thin; getting a moment alone, for certain activities best reserved for an empty house, has become an endless struggle since Buck moved in. When he still had the loft, Eddie could leave Chris for an hour or two of ‘me time’, and return with both his boyfriend and a takeaway dinner as a treat – and even though Christopher knew exactly what was happening, he wasn’t at risk of being permanently scarred by sounds through the plaster or accidentally walking in on something. Or the one where moving in together makes alone time harder, and Buck just needs a moment with his man.

picking up the pieces, you just wanna leave 'em, killing me a little bit
sal deluca & tommy kinard, 1.6k, teen & up

Tommy’s praying to the universe, really, that Sal’s number still works; it’s been a long time, and chances are he’s changed it, but Tommy isn’t sure how else he’d reach him. Last he heard, Sal was over at the 122; he could always head in and see if anyone around there knows anything, but it’s a bit of last resort – and one that rushes to the back corners of his mind when the call is picked up. “Sal DeLuca here, who is it?”

you’re on the other side, as the skyline splits in two
eddie diaz & hen wilson, firehouse 118 crew & firehouse 126 crew, 2.8k, teen & up. MCD.

Eddie’s good at his job, generally; he keeps a level head with his patients, he doesn’t take risks beyond what’s necessary, and he carries more compassion than the average person, he likes to think. And his friends are good at their jobs, too. He knows that. But when things get personal, when it’s Chris or Tommy or someone from the 118 on the line, he loses sight of it all. He loses the balance, the level head, the medical training and the firefighter training, it all goes down the drain. Marjan grabs his shoulder, dragging him out of the helicopter and further down the hillside, and all the way he feels like he can’t breathe; it’s not just the smoke that’s choking him out. Or the one where Hen’s gone missing, Eddie’s trying like hell to keep his head, and desperate times create panicked firefighters.

if it could go on forever, i got some livin in me
evan buckley & bobby nash, evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.7k, teen & up

Between the absolute rollercoaster of a year under Gerrard’s instruction, the stress of planning his wedding, and the cordial but distant denial of his parents invitation to said wedding, Bobby’s shocked that Buck still has the energy to muster a smile for any of them; let alone maintain such a high work rate, at such a high standard. It’s incredible, and admirable, and truthfully, it has Bobby worried; because how much of this is a front? How much of it is Buck’s constant craving to avoid being the burden he seems to think he is, as opposed to genuine joy? Or the one where Buck needs some reassurance, Bobby can read him like a book, and your real family is the one you choose.

give me dreams i can’t hold, keep me afloat in this cold world
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1.2k, teen & up

"No, you don’t.” Eddie rolls his eyes; this fight isn’t exactly a new one, if you could call it a fight at all; it’s mostly just Buck defending himself determinedly, insisting up, down and sideways that this new experience, this new married experience, is something callous; vitriolic, even. But between the glint of glee in those blue eyes and the comfortable crease at the corner of his grin, Eddie knows better than to believe the words Evan’s saying. Or the one where Evan took Eddie’s last name, and there’s something about it that has them both blushing.

put the pain behind you now, we don’t need it anymore
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1.5k, teen & up

It’s worse, almost, Evan thinks, to watch someone you love go through it. To watch the bloodshot in Tommy’s eyes, the slow, stiff movement in every step he takes, the distance in his smile and the desperation in his melancholy. It’s all a strange form of torture, Evan’s decided, to bear witness to his boyfriend’s pain. Or the one where Tommy needs a shoulder, Evan knows that, and a bad day doesn’t have to end that way.

you’re not even here, but you’re doing my head in
eddie diaz & christopher diaz, 1.5k, gen. audiences

And Eddie thought, when Shannon left and he created this strength, this solidity, that nothing would break it. That no loss, no pain, could ever cause cracks in the foundation that was steadily built on his fatherhood. It wasn’t inherent, that strength; it was something he worked for, something he learned, and something he’d begun not to even notice. It wasn’t going anywhere, he’d thought. But then Chris left. And the strength did, too. Or the one where Christopher’s still in Texas, Eddie’s still in the convenience store, and the space between them feels infinite.

all of your falling, does it get exhausting, have you gotten sleep?
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 2k, teen & up

But when he swings open the loft door, he knows immediately that this is not Evan at his best; the lights are all on, which is rare, because Evan usually packs it all in for the night before Tommy gets home. The house is cold and the heatings off, the curtains are all drawn but there’s a thick wooden cutting board abandoned on the kitchen counter, two knives set on it with capsicum, carrot and zucchini. Or the one where Evan cracks under the weight of his own thoughts, Tommy witnesses his worst times for the first time, and sometimes all you can do is be there.

in some ways, i’m damn lucky to be here
eddie diaz/tommy kinard, 1.1k, teen & up

At this point in it all, too, Eddie’s become used to the ache across his shoulder and back; it was bad enough initially that he asked his physiotherapist, who redirected him to various specialists, all of whom told him the same thing; it’s minor nerve damage. It’s irreparable. It’s chronic. It’s a lifelong agony that he just has to manage. He can’t fix it. He can’t treat it. He just has to learn to live with it. Or the one where Eddie has chronic pain, Tommy doesn't get it, and some problems can't be fixed.

get up and shake the glitter off your clothes
eddie diaz/evan buckley, eddie diaz & chimney han, 1k, teen & up

But drunk, Eddie makes bad decisions; mostly because he forgets basic processes and legalities. He breaks minor laws and does dumb shit that gets him a few short hours in the police station until the charges are inevitably dropped. Or he forgets that the tiny wedding chapels scattered across Vegas have marriage certificates that are, in fact, legally binding. Or the one where Eddie Diaz marries Chimney, and both Buckley siblings are upset.

i hope the love you find reminds you, we’re gonna be okay
evan buckley/tommy kinard, evan buckley & christopher diaz, 1k, gen. audiences

Christopher’s finally coming home after over a year in El Paso, and Evan’s been entirely riddled with his anxiety, the happy homecoming a very stressful one too. They’ve only known for the last twenty-four hours; it wasn’t even information that was shared to the group, really, until Joyce Matthews from B-shift turned up in Eddie’s place, and Bobby announced that he had called in a shift’s leave to go down to Texas to pick Christopher up. He spent the night at his parents place, booked to be flying back up the next afternoon; which leaves Evan and Tommy here, in Tommy’s truck, on the way to the airport. Or the one where Evan’s anxious, Tommy tries to reassure him, and Christopher’s going to stick around this time.

are you with me, are you drifting through your doubt
evan buckley & christopher diaz, 3.5k, teen & up

These thoughts, these ideas of who he is and where he fits in, seem to sit on him a lot now. They weigh on his mind, and they’re heavy now, looking at these photographs, until Buck gives a small whisper of some choice words that Eddie would not be happy to know he’s using in front of Chris. Or the one where Christopher has a lot to learn, Buck can’t be the one to teach him, and the people society shuns are the ones they end up fearing.

everyone else sees what you never see
eddie diaz/josh russo, 1k, teen & up

It’s agonising and it’s stupid and he should’ve just asked Josh on a date, because that would’ve been simpler and far less tense in the first place. Instead, he’s stuck next to someone he still calls a friend; someone who looks way too good in his blue suit jacket, and has spent the majority of the night passing Eddie beers, tossing out relationship jokes, and overall just making him feel closer and closer to losing his mind. Or the one where Eddie has feelings for Josh, and everyone seems to see it - except Josh. 

lay on the horn to prove that it haunts me
evan buckley & athena grant & bobby nash, 1.4k, teen & up

Starting a fire, a flickering flame that eats away at not only someone’s possessions, but their past? Their home, their security, their memories? He’s spent more than half his adult life trying to save even fragments of people’s lives from the chaos of the flames, and anyone who would do the opposite, who would actively destroy them, doesn’t deserve even an ounce of his respect or kindness. So to be accused of such is not only a terrifying experience, but a personal offence, to him. Or the one where Evan Buckley is charged with arson, and he works out who his real parents are.

i’m so sorry, i’m so confused, so tell me, am i out of time?
bobby nash & firehouse 118 crew, 1.2k, teen & up

“I’m telling you, my name is Henrietta Wilson and I’m with the Los Angeles Fire Department. I need to speak to Bobby Nash, he’s here, he’s the technical advisor, it’s urgent, please, I need to talk to him.”
“You have to go through security–”
“Hen?” Bobby practically shoots out of his chair, waving away the crew and ignoring the scoff of the director on the far side of the room. “Hey, she’s a friend.” Or the one where mistakes have been made, it could cost someone’s life, and Bobby just wishes he had been there.

when i scream, you’re my echo, will you cry if i let go?
evan buckley & eddie diaz, 1.5k, teen & up

Of course, when everything happened with the illegal boxing ring years ago, Buck was angry. At Eddie for getting mixed up in it, at Lena for her involvement, at himself, for not knowing what was going on. Eddie was putting Christopher’s last remaining parent in danger, but he was also putting Buck at the risk of losing one of the most important people in his life, and the latter didn’t know whether he was even allowed to be mad at him for that part of it all. It was frustrating, and it was overwhelming, and it was the kind of anger that sat inside Buck, like rust growing over every part of his life until all of his loved ones were red with his pain. Or the one where Christopher’s gone, Eddie returns to fighting to cope with his frustration, and the anger in Buck’s chest changes form, but doesn’t ever quite leave him.

all the love you won't forget, all these reckless nights you won't regret
firehouse 118 crew & firehouse 118 crew, 1.7k, gen. audiences

The atmosphere, tonight, is so foreign and yet so comfortable all at once; because as much as they all are trying to ignore the fact of it, this is sort of a last hurrah for the 118 as a crew. Sure, they’ll still see each other loads, and they’ll still run the tradition of horrific Secret Santa gifts every December, and you’d be mad to deny the kids the opportunity of play-dates. Or the one where the 118 might not be the 118, anymore, but they’ll always be family.

swimming in your sea, tell me where you wanna go
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 1k, gen. audiences

Tommy lets out a small laugh; for the first time since that day at the hospital, he and Evan are having a sunday morning off that actually aligns; and it’s perfect, really, because the domesticity of the outing is striking him as something so sweet. But mostly, Tommy’s loving the shopping trip because he’s never seen Evan so passionate about something so… mundane. Or the one where Evan is a habitual farmer’s market kind of guy, Tommy’s always bought his food at the grocery store, and they come to a soft, domestic intersection in the road.

we aint angry at you love, you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
evan buckley & eddie diaz, 1.4k, teen & up. MCD.

Which shouldn’t be such a terrifying prospect, because Buck is known also for being one to go against the odds, to fight chance, and to win. But this time, Eddie’s not so sure. Eddie’s not so sure that Buck can come back from it, this time; regardless of his pure resilience, his determination, his stubbornness, Eddie just… doesn’t see it happening, not realistically. Not knowing what he does, about Buck’s injuries and about lightning and about loss and about death. Or the one where Buck was struck by lightning, Eddie knows that he needs to let go, and sometimes it’s a disservice to keep someone’s heart beating for our own sake.

never said that we'd die together, that doesn't mean it was a lie
evan buckley/tommy kinard & eddie diaz, 1.7k, teen & up

Tommy knew, when he left Buck, that things would become more complicated; his friendship with Eddie is being practically poured out down the drain, and what was left of his friendship with Howie is slowly disintegrating, the phone calls landing fewer and farther between every time. It’s not surprising, really; they’re his friends, yes, but they’re Buck’s family, and that takes precedence. It would’ve been nice to have someone to call that night, when he came home, sure; but he didn’t have that luxury, and it’s fine. He’s been through plenty of breakups on his own before. Or the one where Eddie has a protective streak, Tommy can’t believe in something he can’t have, and sometimes you have to walk away just to stay on your feet.   

 

ALTERNATE UNIVERSES
includes: different jobs, soulmate au, supernatural elements, etc.

this has more push than it ever had pull
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1.6k, teen & up

But there aren’t even guarantees that you find your soulmate at all, Eddie had thought at the time. What’s the harm in it? He’ll still do his tour, he’ll marry her for now – the catholicism in them both left no room to doubt that – and if he is ever so lucky to meet his soulmate, he’ll work it out then. The odds weren’t enough to worry him. Or the one where Eddie Diaz finds his soulmate, but it doesn’t go to plan.

there is a swelling storm, i’m in the middle of it all
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1k, teen & up

They’ve had the conversation about the telepathy; Buck’s not really supposed to use it on Eddie unless there are special circumstances, like something happens on a call or if Eddie specifically asks him to; or if he can tell there’s something Eddie can’t say that he needs to hear. Other than that, Evan tries his hardest to stay out of Eddie’s mind – for both of their sakes. It’s not always a pleasant place to be, for either of them. Or the one where Evan Buckley has telepathic powers, Eddie Diaz has PTSD, and neither of them have a good night's sleep.

i try to be the chill guy that holds his tongue and gives you space
evan buckley/eddie diaz, 1.2k, teen & up

Eddie’s felt bone-tired for weeks with the effort, and he’s not even convinced it’s working; as much as he can make an effort to protect Buck from his thoughts during the day, once he’s asleep, it’s out of his hands entirely. He spoke to his therapist about it, but there was no helpful advice offered, so he found a GP willing to give him a Prazosin prescription and prayed that the dreams would stop. Or the one where Buck has telepathic abilities, and Eddie’s trying to protect them both.

can you find me soon, because i’m in my head
evan buckley & eddie diaz, 1.1k, teen & up

After the man fell – Eddie can’t even remember his name – Evan Buckley stayed there. He assisted the other passengers in getting down from the ride, and then he’d just sat on the back side of the tracks, high above the world in his harness, until his captain called him to climb down to head back to the station. Long after the five passengers had left in their aid car, he’d rested on the thick steel, looking up at the night sky with an expression so similar to the one he’s wearing now. Or the one where Eddie Diazes third job is as a ride operator at an amusement park, and the firefighter from the rollercoaster rescue came back for closure.

i'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
tommy kinard & original character, tommy kinard/evan buckley, 1.3k, teen & up.

When Tommy returned to the States, to his life in California, after a decade in the service, the haunts were worse than ever; men and women he’d called brothers and sisters seemed to close in on him, pulling around and pleading for him to fix it, to move them on. Or the one where whoever is closest when someone dies becomes haunted by them, Tommy Kinard has more ghosts than most people, and our biggest secrets can cause the greatest divides.

 PRE-CANON FICS
includes: high school/childhood eras, and events before 1x01 - includes events mentioned/implied in canon.

when will it stop being cool to be quietly misunderstood
evan buckley & the buckley parents, 1k, teen & up

This idea, this thing that grew itself in his brain, started out as a tactic. A plan. A way to make his father catch his eye, make his mother look at him; not just look at him even, not look at his face, but see him, really see him. See the parts of him that aren’t all that pretty, the pieces that he hates to see in the mirror, and want it. Evan’s only ever wanted his parents to want him the way other people do, the way Maddie does, and this was supposed to help him do that. Or the one where Evan Buckley would do everything right if it would make his parents care, but he’s had to come up with other tactics.

i’m still trying everything, to keep you looking at me
evan buckley & maddie buckley, 1.2k, teen & up

“It’s not okay.” Maddie insists, grabbing his wrist and holding his arm still as she spreads the white cream down his shoulder, fingers careful but firm. “D’you know what these kinds of burns can do? Melanoma, DNA damage, abnormal cell development. Photoaging. Cancer.” Or the one where Maddie’s leaving, Buck’s pissed, and the burns on the outside aren’t the ones that hurt the worst.

left my past life on the ground, think i'm more alive somehow
tommy kinard/omc, tommy kinard/abby clark, 3.5k, teen & up

The wind is whipping around his ears, and Tommy folds his arms over, walking down the street; he should’ve driven, really, shouldn’t he? Found somewhere else to stay, because now his car’s at the firehouse, and that’s at least a half-hour walk. He would give Sal a call, or one of the other guys from the firehouse; but that would demand his lies, right now, and he doesn’t want to do that. He doesn’t want to drag himself down from the high he’s on at this moment, the high he’s getting from finally giving his truth a try. Or the one where Tommy’s just left Abby, the truth is the road less taken, and sometimes you have to let go of who you are in favour of who you want to be.

COMPILATION FICS
includes fics that compile multiple separate plots, stories or arcs for events

what if it’s meant to be?
evan buckley/tommy kinard, 8.8k, teen & up

Evan loves Tommy because he cares, so deeply, about Evan’s happiness. He’s never had someone who cared that much; never had someone who did this; someone who saw his pain and his dark days and how hard it is sometimes for him to crawl out of the sheets. Someone who didn’t loosen their grip on his hand, but just held it tighter and said 'I’ll help you carry the load. However I can.' Or; seven standalone ficlets for BuckTommy Positivity Week, to celebrate the love shared between our boys, and in our fandom.

it's you and me until the end, wakin' up to start again
many pairings. 118w each. teen & up

118 drabbles in 100 days - for the 118 drabbles challenge on tumblr.