We didn’t poison each other to love
The potions classroom is full of students, and professor Slughorn nowhere to be seen as Regulus enters the room. Searching for Barty and Evan his eyes get stuck on some messy brown curls, James. The whole damn room is full of his smell. Can’t he just spray less of his stupid cologne? Apparently not. He walks over to his mates and sits down, to wait for Slughorn. There’s a weird looking potion placed on the professors table, and even though he would never admit it, he was desperate to find out what it was, not like you could smell it.
A row in front of the trio sat no one else but the marauders, which meant James. He hated himself for noticing his appearance, but it was hard to ignore. His adorable curls not even a meter away. How it would feel to go trough it, no clue. But he was already imagining, being capable of going up to him, one hand on his neck the other in his hair slowly leaning in, and James would gently grab his waist, pull him closer and- “Regulus?” James had asked him a question, he didn’t even notice when he turned around, because he drifted off.
“Sorry, what?” Damn, James speaks to him one time and he didn’t listen.
“ I said don’t spray your cologne all over the room or whatever you were doing with it, the whole room is full of it “
Huh? “What are you talking about, it’s clearly your cologne, I didn’t even spray mine today so you must me imagining”
He sniffed and no, it was James’ cologne, he wasn’t going insane. Wait was James thinking about him. No way, what if James actually liked him. It was probably just a dumb thought, but still.
James did not let this go, most to regulus’ pleasure if he was being honest.
“ imagining? No one could imagine such a smell”
“ if you say so” Reg sounded, he forgot to use his fucking cologne so that obviously wasn’t possible.
Hold on, there was only one good explanation, Amorentia. It would make sense, but no, it only would if James Potter was attracted to him, and that was seriously not possible.
“Does anyone know what potion is standing over there?” Regulus really needed someone to tell him he was wrong, if not he would actually start having something called hope. That can’t be happening.
He looked at James, again.
This time was different, James was already looking at him. Confused.
And then his gaze wandered to the potion on Slughorns’ desk, and back to Reg.
James knew, neither of them dared to say something.
Evan wasn’t dumb too he started to answer Regulus’ question, a question he already forgot about.
“Yeah Evan, I know it’s Amorentia, it’s” he paused “ a bit obvious you know”
“Sooo” Barty started “ That crush of yours isn’t so one sided then”
Barty grinned.
“ keep your voice down, he might hear”
“Who’s hearing what” McKinnon, of course she had to know everything that was happening. After Mary she was probably the one who loved gossip the most of everyone. He was quick to reply a harsh “ no one”.
Marlene though,she already knew. “ wait you mean your not so little crush on James Potter, doesn’t everybody know already?” A grin crossed her lips.
“Who has a crush on me”
That was all Regulus needed to hear, to know he had to get out of here.
James was going to confront him and turn him down. He knew that day was coming, but why did it have to be today?
He was just about to pack his things for a quick exist, but Slughorn had to cross his plans. He should’ve just stayed in bed like he planned to.Allthough the old professor did save him from having to answer so cheers to that.
Professor Slughorn, who just came in with a quick apology about some meeting, started to write on the board.
A few seconds later “Amorentia” was written there in precise cursive letters.
He caught James who almost turned around completely, staring at him. How could anyone ever resist These eyes
Never was he going to look away.
Class ended and Regulus practically flew out the room, almost forgetting his books. He could not under any circumstances talk to James today. Yes even though James might like him back he was somehow scared, scared to ruin this just like he ruined everything. His mother’s voice would never leave his head. He didn’t deserve someone as perfect as James Potter. At some point, he started running through the halls, desperate for sleep, for forgetting. Would it be too dangerous to obliviate himself? Yes.
Thank Merlin potions was his last class. Sure there was lunch, but that wasn’t something he liked to attend.
Hiding here forever sounded good. But latest for spring break, it was not gonna be avoidable.
The two black brothers, spend every break at the potters. Where else, they both ran away in 4th year. Walpurga didn’t let something like that slide so easily, however he was safe know, that’s what matters. Sirius is safe, his brother. All the fights in the world couldn’t make him hate Sirius, all he wanted was for his very few loved ones to be safe.
A knock on the door interrupted his thoughts,
“Don’t u have your dormkeys” he sighed, expecting Barty and Evan.
“Yeah, they don’t fit though, wonder why?” James.
“What are you doing here? And how on earth did u come in?”
“That is a story for later reg, can we talk?”
He tried to think of an excuse, nothing. Damn.
“ uhm sure, let’s talk” why did he need to sound so unsure, James already thought he was a fool, no need to make it worse.
“Inside maybe” James gestured into the room,
They both stood in the doorway, frozen in time.
“‘course”
Regulus stepped aside a bit and James stepped in, looking around.
“ so about earlier” he started “ I- uhm”
James was shamelessly grinning at him, as Regulus stumbled over his words.” I wanted to-“. James was stepping closer and closer, till there wasn’t much space in between them. Now stopping with his stuttered words Regulus looked up to him.
It’s not like they had that much of a height difference, but it was enough, for him having to bend his neck a bit.
His breathing quickened, and he put his hand on James’ neck to pull him down, eyes traveling between the eyes and lips from the boy in front of him. He felt James’ breath on his lips, until he finally felt his lips on his.
The kiss was gentle and Regulus couldn’t help but smile into it, as James held him by his waist.
He wasn’t religious, but this, this had to be heaven. Regulus started to move his other hand in James’ hair, probably messing it up, but the other boy couldn’t care less, he wouldn’t want it any different.
Sadly Wizards did need air, they pulled away and just stared into each other’s eyes.
feeling a little bit brave hen whispered into James’ ear “ you have no idea how long I wanted to do this”
james blushed, it was adorable. It was too good to be true, and everyone knows that good things won’t last forever. Nothing would last forever, not in this life, and not in the next.