Feelings are disgusting...

Headache, Dazai had a really bad headache... He just woke up and he's already like this. He also feels strangely light... As if such a great pain had been contained... Deep inside him. This is strange, very strange... But Dazai decided not to think about it too much, He has more important things to worry about... One of them being how he's going to survive another lesson with Lockheart.

Dazai hates that bastard SO MUCH.... Wait... He hates him? Dazai has never felt so angry before, just from a simple thought... Normally he only felt discomfort when he thought about the teacher... So why did he feel so much hatred now? Where did it come from? Why did he suddenly feel... Strangely emotional? Maybe it's just the headache. Dazai thought.

As always, he got up and went to the Slytherin common room to take a shower, Taking advantage of the fact that he is the only one awake at the moment. With that in mind, he should put a bathroom in the gang room, much more practical than walking to the Slytherin room... A welcome addition. Dazai started to take off his bandages (without looking) so he could take a shower. Seeing his disgusting arms at a glance made him feel sick... VERY SICK, He ended up vomiting in the toilet. WHAT THE HELL?? Dazai thought. Did he vomit??? That never happened! At most he just felt a little nauseous But never actually vomit!!! Dazai finished taking a shower and quickly got ready, he felt strange... Why is he letting his emotions get the better of him? Feelings are disgusting! Ugh, Dazai hates this...

As he rummaged through the Slytherin coat he found something in the pocket, a star clip... Oh! It was a gift from Hermione and Ron! It was a late birthday present... Hmmm... Dazai put the clip in his hair, he looked at his reflection and smiled... He liked the clip, it's really cute! His smile faded when Mori's voice came into his head, telling him that this kind of adornment is unbelievable in Marfia But for the first time, Dazai ignored that thought. Mori can't stop me from wearing whatever I want, he's not even here. Dazai thought as his smile returned, but was replaced by an expression of surprise. Uh?? Why did I... Why did I suddenly feel confident...? What am I thinking!? Saying these things!? Dazai was already ready to take off the hairpin, but then... He felt neither fear nor regret.... He decided to keep the clip on and just left the bathroom, his destination being the main hall.

He walked in silence, a comfortable one even. Something unusual was the fact that Dazai was feeling a little hungry, He felt like he had no control over his body... Before he could forget about hunger or simply not feel it! Now he can simply feel pain from being so hungry! 

Dazai can't put into words how annoying this is, A sharp pain in his stomach... It's like he hasn't eaten in days! I mean.... Well... He really hasn't eaten for a few days... But that's beside the point!

Walking through the hallways, his mind began to wander, today is being a very strange day... Like, he doesn't feel anything? I mean, it's obvious that he feels things, it's just that... He no longer feels guilty or obligated to do certain things. Blank, his mind is blank..

Today is being a strange day... For the first time, when I arrived at the main hall, Dazai was eating on his own.. I didn't need to force him. This is... Wonderfully great! Dazai is really putting aside his questionable eating habits? I hope so...

"You are already eating.."

Blaise commented with a slight smile. Dazai stopped eating and looked at the dark-skinned boy. 

"Yeah.. I was hungry today..."

Dazai said with his usual playful smile. Blaise just sighed and smiled. 

Dazai looked at Blaise's smile with a thoughtful look. It's rare that Blaise smiles... His smile is so... Beautiful... And warm.. Blaise is so handsome normally... His serious features are so... Without him realizing it, his cheeks are getting flushed. Blaise is the most beautiful boy I've ever seen... His laugh, his smile, his eyes so expressive and at the same time so neutral... His hands are so warm to the touch, his way is so caring and careful... Blaise is just perfect! 

"Dazai?"

Blaise nudged the brunette's arm. 

Dazai returned to the real world and felt embarrassed for thinking things like that in front of his best friend!

"Oh, sorry, I wasn't listening..."

The brunette scratched the back of his neck in embarrassment. 

"It's ok, I was saying that today you have a tutoring class with Professor Snape. I wanted to know if you wanted me to take you there."

Blaise said calmly and patiently, as always. 

"Of course, I couldn't get there alone anyway."

Dazai shrugged and smiled. He just remembered something.

"Last class, Professor Snape said I could bring a friend of mine to stay there with me! Do you want to go with me, Blaise?"

Dazai said with a hopeful smile. Even though he already knows that Blaise will accept, his heart can't help but beat fast in anticipation. Dazai can't say why but everything about Blaise makes his heart beat faster... What does this mean..? Is he sick? A cardiac arrest? That doesn't matter now, the only important thing right now will be Blaise's response.

"Of course."

Blaise responded almost immediately.

"Oh, what a cute clip, it suits you."

Blaise said calmly and surprised, he was so focused watching Dazai eat that he didn't even notice the star hair clip. Dazai was surprised by the compliment, his cheeks flushed brightly and his eyes sparkled slightly.

"E-eh!? arigatō blaise... I mean, thank you Blaise!"

Dazai said with his face getting a little redder and shyer, He just spoke Japanese by accident!! That was such a stupid mistake!! Ugh, how embarrassing... Dazai covered his face with his hands

"Sorry, it was unintentional..."

Dazai's voice is muffled thanks to his hands on his face. 

"No problem... Your Japanese voice is very cute... And thin, while your English voice is much more normal. Not that I'm saying your Japanese voice is bad! It's quite beautiful to listen to, to be honest... It suits you well..."

Blaise said with a small smile, his cheeks turning slightly pink. Dazai blushed again... Blaise is calling him cute...? Blaise is calling him cute!? Dazai's heart was beating rapidly in his ribcage, he had never felt so much happiness and anxiety from such simple words...

"thanks blaise! I-

Before Dazai finished, the bell rang, now it's time to go to class.

"Hmm, you can tell me later, now we have to go to class."

Blaise said calmly. Dazai just nodded and got up from his chair, going with Blaise to the classroom. Dazai could already feel a pulsing vein in his face, he was already angry... Lockhart's class hadn't even started and Dazai was already getting irritated...

It's going to be a long day...