god, i have my mother's eyes
The next day the black brothers have a violent argument.
It all started after lunch. Effie and Monty were out and Remus was at his mother's. Sirius had say something about Regulus being too closed, and indifferent, spending all his days reading.
"It's not because I don't wanna play with you and your little friends that I'm asocial! Didn't you ever think that I just didn't want to hang out with you?!"
Sirius huffs, exasperated, "Oh so I'm the problem now?! Never mind, sorry if I wanna spend some time with my little brother!"
Regulus walks towards him, red with anger, "If you want to spend time with me, maybe try showing some attention to my interests! Oh but no- it's funnier to make fun of my poetry or to criticize my friends..."
"That's not- It's not like that, you know I support you."
"Well try to show it more often maybe because, no I dont know!" Regulus hisses.
James tries to calm them down, gently stroking Sirius's arm, who shoves it away without taking his eyes off Regulus.
"You're mean and insensitive!"
"AND YOU'RE JUST CRUEL!"
And that was it.
Sirius had slapped him.
Regulus brings his hand to his cheek, shakyly, falling silent.
Sirius stumbles away.
James had put himself between them, his eyes widened.
Sirius looks at the red mark on his little brother cheek, still breathing angryly.
"That’s enough." Jame intervenes "You two need to calm the fuck down."
Regulus is suddenly looking relieved that James is interposing. And that's when it hits Sirius.
He's scared.
He's scared of you.
You're violent.
You're just like her.
His face falls, forgetting the anger, "Reggie- I'm sorry- I didn't mean to..."
Regulus quickly regains his cold facade, "Just leave me the fuck alone." And he turns on his heels, walking out.
Sirius holds his hands to his face and falls on the couch, "What did I do again..." He mumbles with a small voice.
James sits next to him, "He's okay, you will both be fine."
"B-But I hurt him."
"He hurt you too."
"Not- not physically- I-" Sirius is on verge of tears, "I acted like her"
James pulls him close, understanding immediately what his friend was about, "Hey- hey- hey, no, you’re nothing like her."
Sirius leans to his touch "But I am James, I just- I couldn't even control it, my mind just decided on it's own... And the worst is that it already happened and it could happen again..."
James takes his hands. "You're not like her. You said yourself the difference between you and her. She hurt you both on purpose, when you were innocent. While you weren't in control. You were just angry. And yes, it might be because of her if you're reacting like this, maybe it's the trauma, but it's not your fault."
Sirius sobs quietly against James' chest. "I wish I could just- love him..."
"You do Pads. But you guys are siblings. I don't know much about that but mom said it was normal you two fight."
After a few minutes Sirius talks again "I-I should go check on him."
"Maybe... just wait a few hours? I think you both need to calm down and think," James suggests.
"Okay... B-But could you go then? See if he's okay?"
"Alright I'll go."