Darling, I've been having dark dreams
They come home to haunt me
I can't seem to let them go
“Don’t fucking touch me” regulus scrams awaking from his dream. Shaking, he opens his eyes seeing James who sits politely besides him, not daring to touch or near him. Regulus takes in a shattering breath closing his eyes for a moment before opening them again and closing the space between him and James and curling into his arms. He whisper’s “it was them again, they hunted me. Why can’t they just leave”. James pets his back and whispers back “I don’t know, darling, but you are safe now”
Darling, I've been having sad dreams
I don't know where I've been
But I know what I've gone to
How about we play a game?
I know you'll like it, ooh
You stay as far as you can
Before they get to you
In the following days regulus was in a bad state, he tries to be nice he really tries. But maybe the shadows of the past are just too big for him. But he tries and with that comes that he meets up with his brother. He tries and goes to his weekly meeting with his therapist. He really tries and meets with Pandora. But still he isn’t fine.
And then he and James have a fight. It’s nothing big it really isn’t. James had forgotten to bring toilet paper from his shopping trip. And Regulus? He screamed at him told him how dumb it was to forget fucking toilet paper. James tried his best to keep calm but he couldn’t just sit there and listen to his boyfriend calling him an idiot for fucking toilet paper. So after half an hour he just left, still in the shoes he wore to the market.
Regulus noticed, still angered, that he fucked up. After calming down a bit he called Barty and went in the kitchen to make some tea, finding his favourite in one of the shopping bags. He cries for an hour (or two) while Barty is really trying to help but has a hard time doing so. After they end the call regulus is throwing himself into his bed…their bed. And cries some more.
At the second day of James absence regulus cries more, he didn’t know his body had so much fluid in it, and came to the conclusion that it was for the better. At the end of the day he actually got some sleep in but not for more than an hour before he awoke screaming but without James to comfort him.
I may seem crazy but
It's only 'cause I am
Before they capture your mind
Run, run, run, run
Run
On the third day Regulus meets with his brother. Okay “meet” is a big word, Sirius punches the door (and no he does not knock he punches Reg is not exaggerating) till Regulus stands up and lets him in. He would have been annoyed but he was to tired. “You look horrible, brotherheart” Sirius says while pushing himself inside the flat. “Thanks, love you too” Regulus grumbles. Sirius just lays his arm about the shoulders of his little brother and leads him to the couch. “Hey reg I am going to be honest, I don’t know what happened between you two but you both seem fucking crazy and are doing horrible so please just talk” Sirius says. Regulus is looking at him whispering “I had this dream about our parents, again. They were watching me..us. They tortured him…I can’t, just can’t risk that”. “Regulus, they are dead they can’t hurt you anymore nor can they hurt him or me or anyone” Sirius replies. Regulus stutters “but they live in my mind, they controlled me for so long they are inside me now. They… they still control me. I can’t let that happen to James”
I'm tired but I can't sleep
'Cause they're waiting for me
These bad dreams are more than true
And they'll get you
And they'll get you, ooh
In the following night Sirius is laying besides him stargazing though a window, talking about it all. Their childhood, parents, friends, school, traumas and the stars, the moon. Because yeah the dreams are so true but they are out of the past mixed with events of the past weeks/ month’s what makes them so much scarier.
Darling, I've been having weird dreams
I don't know what they mean
But I know I don't want to
Darling, this is getting scary
Why can't I stop shaking?
At the next day James comes back. And regulus has a full blown panic attack in response. “James I am so so sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you, I really didn’t. I fully understand if you don’t-don’t want to be with me any-anymore” Regulus is full on crying again falling to the floor shaking heavily. “I hope you don't see them
Glances, all I see are glances
Left and right, they like it
When they know I'm anxious
Shadows, all I see are shadows
Hiding where the wind blows”
“See who Regulus? Talk to me? please. ”
“Them, see them”
“Regulus, I do not have a clue about who you are talking about”
And where my mind got torn
How about we play a game?
I know you'll like it, ooh
You stay as far as you can
Before they get to you
I may seem crazy but
It's only 'cause I am
Before they live in your mind
Run, run, run
Run
“James you have to go they will hurt you too. You can’t be with me I am just like them I am going to hurt you just like they did too me. Run as long as you can leave me, just leave me and save yourself. I am crazy and that’s makes me dangerous leave. I don’t want to hurt you I don’t want to let them into your mind to. I am not a good person. I am not strong enough to save you or myself.
They will follow me 'til I can't breathe
And I'm begging for mercy on mine, oh
Run
Run
I'm tired but I can't sleep
'Cause they're waiting for me
These bad dreams are more than true
And they'll get you
And they'll get you, ooh
And they'll get you
Oh, oh, ohs