James hates needles.
He was so excited to start testosterone that he forgot that he absolutely hated needles.
So now he was sitting in the bathroom of his and Regulus' apartment, tears streaming down his face as he stares at the needle in his hand.
He'd gotten it fully ready and prepared and then when it came time to actually inject it, he panicked.
Regulus wasn't home, he still had class today and he wouldn't be home for another hour.
He had the video on his phone running, because he had told his followers about this new advancement in his transition and he had promised to video his first shot by himself.
So now he was panicking, and there's video proof of it.
He's recapped the needle now, and set it down on the counter, so he didn't drop it.
He lets himself slide down the wall to sit with his knees to his chest, god he wishes Regulus was here.
It's almost as if the universe heard his thoughts and granted this wish because right then he heard the front door close and Regulus call out,
"James? I'm home... where are you?"
He didn't think he could get any words out through his hyperventilation, so he hoped Regulus saw the light on in the bathroom and knew he was in there,
"James!- oh, are you in here? Are you okay?"
Regulus gently knocked on the door and James mustered all of his energy together to let out a weak call of,
"Reg?"
The door then opened and Regulus's eyes widened at James' state.
He kneeled down next to him and gently gathered him in his arms, holding him tight against him how Regulus knows he likes,
"Try and focus on me Jamie, okay? Focus on my breathing."
He started to exaggerate his breaths and James listened and felt his chest rise and fall, trying to match the rhythm with his own breathes.
Regulus whispered encouragements to him and ran his fingers through his hair, letting him calm down at his own pace.
Eventually James relaxed, no longer tense in Regulus' arms,
"What happened Jamie?"
"I was supposed to do my first T shot, I forgot how badly I hate needles and shots"
"Oh Jamie, I'm sorry... do you want me to do it?"
"You would do that?"
"Of course I would Love, I did Evan's for months before Barty finally got over his fear of doing it wrong."
James nodded and reached up to rub at his face,
Regulus stood up and reached down to help James up too.
James paused the video and restarted it again while Regulus put on gloves,
"Hey guys, so change of plans here, rather than doing it myself, my wonderful boyfriend is here to do it for me."
Regulus gave a small wave at the camera and ripped open the alcohol pad so he could clean the injection sight,
"I was going to do it, but I had a panic attack when I realized I was going to have to inject myself. In the excitement of this all, I forgot that I am absolutely terrified of needles and getting shots, even after the whole ordeal with my doctor when I got my first one done, so, because he is the best boyfriend ever, Regulus has offered to do it for me."
Regulus smiled and gave him a small kiss,
"Okay, look away, I'm going to inject it."
James complied and he kept muttering over and over again,
"I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine"
He squeezed his eyes shut and more tears escaped from his eyes as Regulus gently inserted the needle.
It was about 2 seconds before James felt him gently applying a band aid and then giving the spot a kiss.
"Are you alright sweetheart?"
"Yeah I'm okay, I'm fine, I just had my first T shot. I JUST HAD MY FIRST T SHOT!" He immediately started jumping up and down and Regulus joined, wanting to celebrate with his boyfriend.
He grabbed James' face and pulled him into a kiss and then immediately a hug,
"I am so proud of you Love, so so proud. I love you so much."
"I love you so much too Regulus, thank you for doing it for me."
"Of course Mon Amour."
Later that night James hands Regulus his phone with the now edited video of him getting his shot done.
It starts with him introducing the whole thing, when he first tried to do it alone, and then into him preparing the shot, cutting off when he starts to just stare at the needle in the minute before his panic attack, and then again at the start of the 2nd video, till the end.
"The fans love you and getting to see us interact, but they don't have to. I can cut out the celebration part if you want."
Regulus thought for a moment.
He was always skeptical of having his business out on social media. He liked his private life to be exactly that, private. Especially because when he was with his family still, his name was always all over newspapers and social media.
He knew what he was getting into when he started dating a famous TikToker, but James was always so respectful and willing to cut whatever he wanted out of his video for him, so he minded less because he could control it.
And he wanted people to see James be so happy and celebrating, so he smiles at his adorable boyfriend and shakes his head,
"No it's okay. I like it how it is."
James smiles and writes a quick caption before posting it, silencing his phone and leaving it on the table, curling up in Regulus' arms and starting the movie they had chosen that night.
He could focus on the comments tomorrow, tonight all he cared about was Regulus.