Harry pulled himself out of bed, careful not to make any noise, and tiptoed down to the kitchen. Ever since the graveyard, his dreams have been plagued with the horrors he faced during the tournament which just so happens to wake him up at odd hours of the night. After what felt like hours Harry found himself near the kitchen entrance where he stops due to voices coming from the room. taking a quiet step back Harry focuses to hear who’s speaking.
“so when do you think you will tell him,” said Remus in a gentle and caring tone. This caught Harry’s interest, curious as to what he was talking about and to who.
“He’s my godson moony, and I don’t want to run him off when I just got him back,” Sirius said slightly panicked. Harry stares wild-eyed at the entrance in a worried state. They were speaking about him. A thousand concerns ran through Harry’s mind but what kept coming up was the possibility of Harry going back to the Dursleys. feeling suddenly sick to his stomach, Harry starts to slowly turn around when he hears Remus voice again.
“Sirius you have nothing to worry about. I only taught Harry for a year but I can confidently tell you that he’s a great kid. If you don’t want to tell him right now then I respect that but I’m certain he wouldn’t have a problem with us being together” he says in a calming and reassuring tone. Now this had Harry shocked for all of five seconds before everything clicked into place.
“that was so obvious,” Harry thought as he replayed certain memories in his head. Even Snape called it when he said they quarreled like an old married couple. drowning out Sirius and Remus's voices, Harry's thoughts begin to run wild.
“Why would Sirius be scared to tell me?” Harry thought. Last year was a roller coaster, being placed in a death tournament, resurrecting Voldemort, and Cedric dying. It was all a lot but during all that chaos Harry found himself in a crisis. A sexuality crisis.
“You try meeting Bill and Charlie Weasley the same year and not be sexually confused afterward,” thought Harry as he remembered all he went through last year. Through all that chaos Harry realized he was bisexual and he had nothing to be ashamed about and neither should his godparents. Shaking his rapid thoughts away, Harry locked into the voices again.
“pads I’ll be making hot chocolate for myself would u want any?” Remus questions as Sirius is about to respond Harry makes the impulse decision to make his way into the kitchen, making some noise as if to warn them that someone is coming. Harry stops short and makes eye contact with his godfather who perks up at the sight of him.
“Hey prongslet! what are you doing up so late” Sirius questions with deep concern wretched into his face.
“couldn’t sleep and I figured id come get some water,” harry said with a slight smile on his face, hoping Sirius would drop it. He doesn’t which is when he is bombarded with questions from the older man.
“you couldn’t sleep? Is it nightmares? Are you having nightmares? do you want to talk about it?” Sirius questions at a rapid-fire pace out of concern for his godson.
“Sirius calm down i’m fine. my insomnia is just acting up” Harry said with mock confidence knowing the real reason he’s down here is because he couldn't get the image of a dead cedric diggory out of his mind. Before he has a chance to question him again Remus clears his throat grabbing both of their attention.
“I’m making some coco Harry. would you like some” Remus said gently hoping Harry would start to warm up to him more. He’s only been his professor so far and he knows that if Lily and James Potter didn’t die that awful night 14 years ago then Harry wouldn’t see him as Professor Lupin but as Uncle Moony.
“I’d love some, thank u Remus,” said Harry grateful he now has a reason to stay and talk with them.
“so Harry how are things going? Anything new going or maybe someone new?” Sirius says with his eyebrows raised and a smirk on his face. This pulls a snort from Harry and as he is about to respond Remus interrupts by handing the two mugs full of hot chocolate.
“Thank u Remus,” Harry says with a smile on his face.
“thank you moony,” Sirius said making direct eye contact with his significant other. There’s a sudden pause as if they couldn’t pull their eyes away from each other. “The look of love,” Harry thought. How could he not have noticed before, he suddenly feels very idiotic that he missed this. They quickly pulled their eyes away from each other, as if a spell was broken.
“Don’t think ur getting out of of responding just because Moony interrupted us” Sirius said with a cheeky smile on his face trying to get some information out of Harry, with hopes of bonding with his godson. Harry lets out a chuckle before taking a deep breath.
“ No, I’m not remotely interested in anyone right now. Last year was quite overwhelming since people wouldn’t leave me alone. Anything for fame I guess” Harry said with a sigh. All he could hope for was for people to want him and not the boy who lived.
“people could tend to forget I’m also a person so it can get rather annoying when people don’t leave me alone. Like for example I had to threaten Cormac Mclaggen that I’d tell McGonagall if he didn’t leave me alone. He was the worst and was way too persistent. I’m bisexual, I have options, so I have no idea why’d he think I'd stoop so low and be with him” Harry said through laughter. There he did it and nothing. just complete Silence. you could hear a pin drop. All Harry could focus on was the shocked faces of his godfather and his old professor. a few moments pass before Remus and Sirius both blurt out questions.
“you’re bisexual?”
“He wouldn’t leave you alone?” picking up his head from looking at his hot chocolate Harry took a deep breath due to his sudden nerves.
“yes I’m bisexual and yes he wouldn’t leave me alone. I handled it though so you two don’t have to worry” Harry spoke softly due to a sudden spike in anxiety. He’s suddenly struck with the fact that these are technically the first people he has verbally come out to. Before he has time to spiral some more he feels arms wrap around him.
“Oh, Bambi I’m very proud of u for telling us. Ur so brave and I’m happy you felt comfortable enough to tell us” Sirius said nearly getting choked up with his words. Suddenly he’s overcome with relief and slight embarrassment for all the attention.
“well you know I was put in Gryffindor for a reason,” Harry says jokingly to cover up how relieved he truly was.
“There’s no need to downplay it, Harry. You truly are one of the bravest people I’ve ever met” Remus said after taking a small sip out of his mug. A comfortable silence filled the room and nothing could be heard besides the few sips Harry began to take. Harry could feel both sets of eyes on him when he suddenly heard a cough grab his attention.
“Harry, Remus, and I are dating,” Sirius said in a rush. It surprised him not because he didn’t know but because he said it so quickly. Up until that point Harry hadn’t seen his godfather in this light, never seen him so nervous to speak to him. It almost made him seem more human.
“I know,” Harry said with a big smile on his face. “ I mean it was pretty obvious,” Harry said chuckling to himself and at the shock on Sirius’s face. A laugh breaks through the momentary silence.
“your too smart for your own good Harry” Remus said with a hint of relief in his voice. A couple moments later a shocked Sirius lets out a laugh of relief and happiness.
“you knew?!?? How did You know” Sirius said making conversation to fill the silence and to curb his curiosity on the matter. A few moments pass before Harry picks up his mug and pulls it towards his face.
“Because you can’t stop mooning after moony,” Harry said laughing into his hot coco. Loud gasps come from a dramatic Sirius, while Remus couldn’t help but smirk at this newfound information.
“Mooning over Moony huh?” Remus said while smirking at a red-faced Sirius.
A few moments passed before they all fell into laughter. As Harry is laughing he’s overcome with the feeling of finally belonging somewhere. This is what he had hoped for in his life and he finally has it.