James didn’t know what to do anymore.
It was just meant to be a coffee meet up,him lily and coffee but the press had other ideas.
Lilly Evans the home wrecker?
Band member of “the Valkyries” was photographed in a coffee shop in London with notoriously taken James potter member of the popular band marauders. In the photo potter and Evans were scene laughing together holding hands and seemingly cosying up to one another. The pair would be adorable if not for the fact that James potter has been in a public relationship with solo artist regulus black for the last year and had been privately dating for the better part of the last 3 so this begs the question was this a friendly conversation or a plot to steel the sunshine boy?
Written by-Rita skeeta
Regulusno1fan
Oh hell no this evans girl can stay away
Valkaries4life
Lily is obviously just friends with James leave her alone
Regulusfanpage
What a slut #kyslilyevans
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Incoming call- Jamie 🩷
“James-“regulus was cut off by a frantic James potter
“Reg love have you seen the news oh my god it’s horrible oh reg look what they are saying about Lilly I have to put something out this must count as slander” his voice trailed off as reg spoke
“James calm down I read the article it was a bunch of rubbish and I know lily is with Mary it’s fine now call Lily and speak to her and tell her I apologise and want to catch up”
“Ok ok you’re right love you bye”
James hung up breathing heavily my god there was so many messages-death threats to lily and reg there was some against him but he quite frankly agreed with them not because he was cheating on reg.he wasn’t but lily was being eviscerated . He called Lilly. She was crying.
“Lil’s I’m so sorry I will put out press releases anything.none of what they’re saying is true”
“James it’s ok I don’t care it’s not your fault-“
“But it is I told you that I saw paparazzi earlier”
“James.” She cut in
“It was not your fault that welch wrote a nasty article about us”
“But-“ Lilly cut his off again
“No James that’s the point she also accuses you of cheating on regulus she was not just going for me.”
“Yeah but everyone is saying horrible things about you Lilly”
“James”
They spoke for a while and then hung up but James couldn’t stop thinking about those comments and it truly was all because of him. He started writing .
RIP to my youth
And you could call this the funeral
I'm just telling the truth
And you can play this at my funeral
He didn’t know what to do usually he would just tell reg how he was feeling but regulus was on tour and Remus and Sirius were on a romantic holiday. He almost went to Pete but he was in Morocco with Barty and Evan . He couldn’t talk to anyone truly he only didn’t go on tour with reg because he was in the middle of recording the album but the guys went on a getaway for a week and James was left alone. So he continued
Wrap me up in Chanel inside my coffin
Might go to Hell and there ain't no stopping
Might be a sinner and I might be a saint
I'd like to be proud, but somehow I'm ashamed
Sweet little baby in a world full of pain
I gotta be honest, I don't know if I could take it
Everybody's talking, but what's anybody saying?
Mama said if I really want it, then I can change it, yeah
James stopped for a moment looking at the clock and continued on writing
R.I.P. to my youth
If you really listen, then this is to you
Mama, there is only so much I can do
Tough for you to witness but it was for me too
I'm using white lighters to see what's in front of me (front of me)
R.I.P. to my youth
And you could call this the funeral
I'm just telling the truth, yeah
You can play this at my funeral
Tell my brother don't cry and don't be sad
I'm in paradise with my dad
Close my eyes and then cross my arms
Put me in the dirt, let me dream with the stars
Throw me in a box with the oxygen off
You gave me the key then you locked every lock
When I can't breathe, I won't ask you to stop
When I can't breathe, don't call for a cop
I was naive and hopeful and lost
Now I'm aware and driving my thoughts, oh
James thought about his dad and how much he missed him .if James was being honest he had been having thoughts for a while now but he couldn’t deal with this so he kept on going and before long he was done and only then did he text her
James- link attached 🔗 new ep can come in to record tomorrow to record when can it be released?
Dorcas- James this is good but are you alright ? I can probably have it ready in a week or two
James- course I’m fine cas I just need this song out and off my chest. See you tomorrow
The next morning James pulled into the car park of the studio ready to record this song
“Hey cas thanks for replying so quick last night you sure you are good with getting it out by next week?”
“Yep if you’re still sure you want this one out?”
“Cas I get you are worried but honestly I’m fine I just think this song needs to be released,for me,for closure.”
“Okay then let’s go”
James started
R.I.P. to my youth
And you could call this the funeral
I'm just telling the truth
And you can play this at my funeral
James wondered what song they would play, he hoped it would be something happy just like how he wanted to be remembered.
Wrap me up in Chanel inside my coffin
Might go to Hell and there ain't no stopping
Might be a sinner and I might be a saint
I'd like to be proud, but somehow I'm ashamed
That part was hard to sing for James,he was so ashamed of how he let lily down and how he was so useless to help
Sweet little baby in a world full of pain
I gotta be honest, I don't know if I could take it
Everybody's talking, but what's anybody saying?
Mama said if I really want it, then I can change it, yeah
R.I.P. to my youth
If you really listen, then this is to you
Mama, there is only so much I can do
Tough for you to witness but it was for me too
I'm using white lighters to see what's in front of me (front of me)
R.I.P. to my youth
And you could call this the funeral
I'm just telling the truth, yeah
You can play this at my funeral
Tell my brother don't cry and don't be sad
I'm in paradise with dad
Close my eyes and then cross my arms
Put me in the dirt, let me dream with the stars
James wanted that.to dream with the stars-with regulus .At that thought he teared up a bit and just for a second thought about what would happen but then he thought of those comments about how they told lily to die and told regulus he should die to make space for lily and James and dispelled that thought
Throw me in a box with the oxygen off
You gave me the key then you locked every lock
When I can't breathe, I won't ask you to stop
When I can't breathe, don't call for a cop
I was naive and hopeful and lost
Now I'm aware and driving my thoughts, oh
What do I do? What do I do?
I don't believe it if I don't keep proof
I don't believe it if I don't know you
I don't believe it if it's on the news or on the internet
I need a cigarette
I'm using white lighters to see what's in front of me
I'm using white lighters to see
R.I.P. to my youth
And you could call this the funeral
I'm just telling the truth
And you can play this at my funeral
Tell my mister don't cry and don't be sad
I'm in paradise with dad
Close my eyes and then cross my arms
Put me in the dirt, let me be with the stars
And then James was done.
“Ok thanks so much babes see ya soon”
“You too sunny boy”
A week later the song was released.
James was ready and as he thought about reg he let a tear escape before pulling the blade across his wrists
Message from Jamie 🩷
Regulus smiled as he opened his phone the car only 10 minutes away from home before it quickly faded
My dear love
I can’t do it anymore,my heart is breaking texting you this I love you more than you know, but I can see how much of a burden I am. Tell Lilly I’m so sorry. Hopefully this way they will stop talking about her and I’m so sorry to you as well. You don’t deserve it either, honestly I don’t deserve you. The minute I opened those messages. I felt the string cut so now I’m going to dream with the stars . I love you starlight.