Have you ever had a moment in your life when you lost the most valuable thing in your life because of your mistake?Regulus will succeed He lost the most precious thing in his life.His brother Sirius.The only person he loved sincerely, the only person Regulus Black had a soft spot for and was willing to show any feelings.Now he was sitting in the library with a history of magic book and trying to force himself to read.He couldn't It's been two months since he saw his brother.Two months of daily pain and worry because his shining star was gone And he had a very bad feeling He was playing with a page from a book, thinking and completely ignoring the words on it.He thought so hard that his head hurt. It doesn't matter, he's used to pain, but he's not used to not seeing his brother for a long time. In fact, they were currently in a quarrel and Sirius' escape from home was violent. But it doesn't change the fact that Regulus still loved him and still worries about him terribly.Especially since he knew him well and was perfectly aware that Sirius without care was a very bad idea.At the mere thought that something might have happened, his hands began to shake.He clenched his hands and put them under his chin.Don't be paranoid that you haven't seen him for a few days, it doesn't mean something happened.They finally broke up in an argument but his heart aches and I feel a squeeze Something is very wrong I can feel it The door to the library banged open. Quick steps ran up to his table.Oh no. This doesn't bode well. He was shaken out of his dark thoughts by a blow to his shoulder, which caused him to open his eyes.Pandor She looked like she had seen a ghost.
-Get up, I need you.
-Pand, I don't feel like talking nonsense - he said, which pissed the girl off.
She grabbed his arm tightly and pulled him and he had no choice. He stood up
-Pandora! Where are you taking me and why?
-God Reg! Sirius is in terrible shape and you're asking idiotic questions!
His brother's name caused him to freeze in place. So his hunch wasn't wrong after all. Something really did happen.
-Where is he?
-Astronomical Tower
He hadn't run that fast in a long time. He'd never done it before, but now nothing would stop him. Etiquette, his mother's anger, people. It didn't matter.He ran up the tower and opened the door, he didn't know where Pandora was and honestly didn't care.A gust of wind blew his hair and clothes Where is he?He looked at the ground and immediately jumped up, falling to his knees next to his unconscious brother.He grabbed his face and brushed his hair back.Pale as a sheet, bags under his eyes. He looked terrible. What happened? He grabbed his arm, felt something wet, looked at his hand. Blood.Blood for Merlin. This brought him out of his reverie and he grabbed his wand, cast a few healing spells, and looked at the floor. Next to them was a bottle of alcohol and a dagger covered in blood and its arms were cut.Regulus jumped up and started to wake his brother.
-Sirius! Sirius!
Nothing. No reaction. He started shaking him and begging all the gods he knew to wake him up.Still nothing Pandora ran into the tower out of breath and looked at her immediately.
-Help me!
She immediately jumped up. Panic and anger shot through his body as they lifted Sirius's body from the ground.The world can't take away the one thing he cares about.He can't because he won't allow it.
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Sirius landed in the hospital wing. And Regulus didn't leave his side for a moment.He still didn't wake up and Regulus didn't sleep a wink. His head was torturing him with questions.What happened? What is the reason?Why did he do it? And most importantly, why didn't Regulus notice that something was wrong.He grabbed his hand and pulled it to his lips, kissing it.
-Brother. Forgive me for not noticing that something was wrong - he whispered quietly, pressing his hand to his face, tears flowing down his cheeks.
This is how Regulus Black cries. Because the person lying in front of him completely unconscious was his whole world.The only person he cares about. The only one A nurse entered the hospital wing and approached him.
-You should really go to sleep, she said quietly but pleasantly with a hint of concern.
-I said I won't leave. He's my brother and I have the right to be here - he replied coldly, immersed in pain as befits Black
The nurse sighed heavily.
-Without sleeping and eating you won't help him.
-No, I don't understand you.
With these words he looked at her with steel grey eyes in which the fire of anger burned.He was tired, worried and irritated and these wonderful tips were not helping him at all.He was about to say something when he felt a really gentle squeeze on his hand, which caused an immediate reaction.He looked at his brother who was gently opening his eyes. He's alive.
-Siri
-Reggie- his voice was really weak and rough
Regulus' heart started beating faster, he leaned down and gently hugged his brother to his chest.Why? The relief he felt and the desire to protect him from the world when he was completely defenseless took over him.He was angry at himself for allowing this to happen. He was angry at the world for hurting his treasure. The most precious thing Regulus had.
-What are you doing here Reg? -Sirius asked quietly.
-I'm trying to understand what's on your mind, you idiot.
He didn't answer, he fell back on the pillow and stared at the ceiling lifelessly.What the hell happened
-Your brother has woken up, so you can go and rest now.
This made Regulus angry. What right did she have to decide that?
-I said I wouldn't leave.
-Reg
A quiet nickname that no one would hear, but Regulus was very sensitive to his brother's voice.After years of Sirius getting into trouble, Regulus had become overly protective of his brother, even though he was younger.It didn't matter, he was always more composed, so he always kept an eye on Sirius's rather explosive temperament.
-You can go, I'm fine.-He whispered
Regulus looked at him, stunned.
-I won't leave you alone, not after what you did.
-You don't trust me, little brother?
-Now. Absolutely not.
Sirius didn't answer, he just closed his eyes. After a moment, he choked out a short "right" and fell asleep once again.
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After Sirius left the hospital wing, Regulus's overprotectiveness and possessiveness towards his brother became overwhelming.At the very beginning he took him to his dormitory and did not let anyone near him.Sirius slept in his bed and in his arms. He didn't let him go out alone and always made sure he took his potions.When Sirius's condition improved, he didn't leave his side and glared at everyone.Especially his brother's stupid friends Regulus was seething as he watched them, but he kept his cool for his brother's sake.One day it was time to talk. Regulus looked at his brother in his arms, kissed him on the top of his head and started this sensitive topic
-Why did you do that?
-I don't know what you're talking about
Defensive maneuver. He didn't blame him. He patted him on the head and hugged him closer to his chest
-You know what I'm talking about, but I don't blame you for not wanting to talk about it.
-Because I'm not worth living. It would be better that way. I would solve the problem
Problem. Fucking problem. Who had the nerve to call his beloved star a problem.Regulus was boiling and his magic was seething, which unfortunately scared Sirius.He tore himself out of his arms and got out of bed.
-I'll go now, sorry for wasting your time.
No. There was no way he was going to let him out into the world unsupervised. He jumped out of bed and pinned Sirius against the wall. He kissed him with all the emotion and feeling he had. He tried to convince him with that kiss that he wasn't a problem. That he was his world and he wouldn't let him go away from him into a world that hurt.During the kiss he pulled him towards the bed and threw him down, covering him with his body.
-You're not going anywhere because I don't trust you not to do anything stupid.
-I've known for a long time that you don't trust me.
The words hit him like a thunderbolt. It wasn't that he didn't trust him, he was just hurt because Sirius had pushed him away.
-It's not that I don't trust you, it's just...
-You just don't want anything to do with me. I'm a traitor, a disgrace, a problem.
-Shut up!
Sirius fell silent and looked at him with a surprised look.
-You are not a problem. Not to me. I was angry because you replaced me, but that doesn't mean you stopped being important to me.You are my world and the meaning of my life and I will not let you close it and I will not let you make the same mistake you have already tried to make Tears were streaming down Sirius's cheeks. It was the first time he had seen his brother cry.He had never seen this before. Never. Regulus bent his arms and kissed him again.He couldn't bear the tears of his star and he will kill whoever caused this.
-What happened and who should I kill?
Silence. Sirius refused to answer how often he drove his mother crazy.
-Please, who did this?
-Me. It's my fault.
-I don't believe it.
-Believe me. I'm not an angel and it's my fault what happened that night.I'm the same as everyone else in this damned family and I should die for the good of humanity.These words hurt like a knife in the heart and he had had enough.He fell onto the bed and pulled his brother to himself so tightly that he wouldn't be able to escape.
-I don't care what you did, but you are my star and the meaning of my life and I won't let you forget that.Because you are the only person in this world whose fate I care about