My Dearest Schneider
Forgive me for writing to you so late that I can't even remember exactly how much time has passed since I last heard your voice, calling me “My Lord”.
It's been raining endlessly outside for days. Every time I walk through the downpour, the cold raindrops swipe across my face, they are so light and gentle, just like soft feathers gently stroke my cheek. I can still smell the faint scent of the green oranges. It seems that all the things around me is trying to bring back my memories.
Since your departure, I've become afraid of the heavy rain pouring from the sky; feeling anxious when seeing people plucking oranges. I started to like some gentle and beautiful decorations, like feathers which makes me feel itchy.
Your heartbeats on the right is the most marvelous symphony I have ever heard. I can still remember the day that I first met you, the day that we secretly devised a plan to deceive everyone. I can never forget your wish, how could you think that I may forget you?
The scene of the last time we met is still vivid in my mind. I just can’t believe that you aren’t an arcanist, can’t receive the fact that I will lose you. And I really do now. I can still feel your hand holding mine, your embrace that making our heart beating together on one side, feeling your heartbeat slowly fade away, slipping away like sand through an hourglass. There are always someone tell me that I should and I have to move on, because I am not just Vertin, I’m timekeeper as well. As the time keeper, I should peacefully witness and experience the storm again and again, witnessing the start and the end of an era, which is my responsibility. To be honest, I think I have done a great job at this point of view. However, you are one of the exceptions among the masses. You brought a rose to pin on the chest of my soul.
I wish we can meet again at the end of the storm, I hate it when hearing you say addio to me, I am not willing to say goodbye to you. But if letting me to make a temporary farewell, then I’d like to say that I wish you can have a sweet dream when you are alone, whenever you feel lonely or you miss me, just open your eyes, I will always be your side. Feel my arms where our heartbeats once aligned.
Eternally yours,
Vertin
Written when the scent of green oranges spreads in the storm