Kiss My Shades

“I want your drama, the touch of your hand (hey)

 I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand. 

I want your love.” 

- Bad Romance, Lady Gaga

A month later: 

It’s a quiet morning at the Potter’s house. Sirius already heard James leave to go running with Frank, and Effie and Monty are cooking in the kitchen (Sirius can hear them laugh, and after that shushing each other not to wake him up. It’s very adorable, he thinks.). When he steps out of bed he gets a message from the group chat. 

Fruit salad (only fruity homo’s allowed) <3:

Mary 🎀:< Remember when I got that job in the new club ‘Leaky Cauldron’?

Cheese guyy (Peter): < Yess

Mary 🎀: <  there is this big event there tonight and I don’t have to work, so who wants to go?

Jimbo James 💪:  < Oeee what big event?

Mary 🎀: < Non-stop dance competition, you just have to dance the sexiest and longest to                                                 wins free drinks for a week. It’s a duo competition so partner up bitches!! x

Ur.local.hottie (Sirius🔥): < I CLAIM MOONY!!!!

Rizzmus: < Who said I was even gonna do that? I can’t dance for shit

Lils 💐: < Don’t worry, Sirius will lead you 😊

Loser Lesbian core ❤️(Marlss): < Is it okay if I take Dorcas with me? Not for the dance but just as company

Cheese guyy (Peter): < Wait who is Dorcas again?

Jimbo James 💪: < She is the girl Marls skinny dipped with and then flirted and then got her number 

Lils 💐: < Dorcas sounds like a nice girl, I would love to meet her so for me it’s totally cool for her to tag along! x

Mary 🎀: < So Sirius and Remus are in, who else do I need to sign up? xx

Jimbo James 💪: < Me and Lily! Right Lils?

Lils 💐: < If you touch me anywhere that isn’t my shoulders I’ll skin you alive. 

Mary 🎀: < Great! So: Remus and Sirius, James and Lily, anyone else? x

Rizzmus: < So are we all just gonna forget I never agreed to this?

Cheese guyy (Peter): < I think that was everyone Mary! xx

Rizzmus: < Are you guys really gonna ignore me??

Mary 🎀: < Alright, I’ll see you all later tonight then! <3 

Private chat: M’lady (Mary) & M’lord (James):

M’lady: < James, you make sure Remus comes too okay?

M’lord: < Ofc Mary x

             < We leave no man behind in this household 💪💪

M’lady: < No I meant like make sure he comes for Sirius 

             < He is finally feeling better and the club is pretty crowded and with loud noise and I just want him to have a good time, and Remus is a pretty good distraction for Sirius since he loves him and all

M’lord: < first of all: i love you so much and yes i will kidnap Remus if i have too

             < or I’ll say that he has to come to pay me back for when we first met and he hit me with his car

            < Second: SIRIUS LOVES REMUS????? HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS????!!!

           < MARY YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THIS IS A HUGE DEAL

M’lady: < It's just a crush or something I think, calm down man 😭

             < He never told me or anything but it was pretty obvious when he dropped his ice cream on the ground and spurted away when Remus showed him his new tongue piercing

M’lord: < Yeah but come on it’s the Rizzmus Lupin tongue piercing, who could resist that? 

M’lady: < Not even Marls

M’lord: < No but Mary, Remus has a crush on Sirius too!!!! He told me and pete!

M’lady: < OMGGGG

             < THIS IS PERFECT IEIEEIEIEIEIEEEE

M’lord: < I KNOWWWW 

             <Not to get in their business, but do we need a plan to get them together or??

M’lady: < “Not to get in their business” hoe please, we can do better than that

M’lord: < I love you so much you have no idea 😭❤️ 

M’lady: < I’ll make a group chat to discuss our plans with Peter, Lily and Marlene

Mission ‘get the oblivious idiots to confess their way to complicated feelings to each other and have a romantic kiss under the stars and have a big fruity wedding’ ❤️:

Marls: < Okay Mary called me and told me about the situation and I’m sooo in!

            < Also, who the fuck made the group chat name and why is it so long?? 😭

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < I’m just gonna act like you didn’t say that for the sake of our friendship 😔

Pete: < So uhm why are we in this group chat Mary? 

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < Didn’t the name of the group chat explain that in very graphic detail?? 😭

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < guys I’m gonna leave the group chat if you keep going on like this i swear 😭☹️

Lilyy: < Sirius has feelings for Remus, Remus has feelings for Sirius. They both haven’t told each other and think the other doesn’t like them back. We need to get them to confess to each other so that they can stop being such idiots and just fuck x

Marls: < like I said I’m soooo in! What’s the plan?

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < We will go to the club like we talked about, but just through the night we try to get them closer and closer until it’s too awkward to not confess their love for one another. 

Pete: < And how are we gonna do that?

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < Mary is gonna take a flower to mine and Sirius’ house for him to give Moony. After Sirius gives Remus the flower, Lily is gonna convince Remus to dance with Sirius in the competition. 

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < We also have a karaoke section, so James is going to sing a duet with Sirius, something like a romantic song. But make sure that Sirius sings at least one lyric with intense eye contact to Remus as like a signal. 

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < And Marlene and Peter, you guys have to really stick the plan together. Marlene's job is to make Sirius jealous of Remus, so that he will go up to him and tell Remus how much he cares for him. Peter his job is to get Remus to do something that Sirius will be jealous of, otherwise Marlene can’t do her part of course

Lilyy: < You do know that if one thing goes wrong the whole plan is ruined right? Like if Marlene can’t get Sirius to look at the same moment Peter is letting Remus do something slightly risky then the whole plan doesn’t work anymore.

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < And that’s the moment we stick to the same principles as the group chat name. Just overshare and yap away for way too long until they get bored and just fuck xx

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < I told you not to make fun of the name, why do yall hate me so much? 😔

*James Potter left the chat*

Pete: < IM CRYING LAUGHING OMG DID HE REALLY JUST LEAVE THE CHAT FOR A DRAMATIC EXIT AND TO PROVE A POINT HE CAN'T BE FR  😭😭

~~~

Sirius is putting his shoes on when the doorbell rings. 

“Boys, Mary is here!” Effie yells from downstairs.

“Coming mum!” James answers. Sirius and James were getting ready together. Well, mostly Sirius. He took an endless shower, did his hair for over an hour, and he was face-timing with Marlene for a long time to ask her which eye shadow suited him better. But for some reason James didn’t mind that Sirius did all of that, in fact James actually helped him pick out his outfit. 

As James and Sirius walk down the stairs, Mary is waiting for them in the living room. She’s holding 2 white corsages. 

“Aw, Macdonald! Are those pretty flowers for me?” Sirius jokes. “You didn’t have to! Just taking me out on a date would have worked too-” Mary slaps him on his arm to get him to shut up. 

“One is for you, and the other one is for Remus,” she explains. “You can pin it on your clothes or wear it like a bracelet, whatever you prefer.” Mary gives him the 2 flowers and he looks at them confused. 

“So, why do I have a flower to give Remus? And why aren’t you or James wearing one?” 

“Well Mary or I aren’t the ones with a fatass crush on our friend- ouch!” James cries out in pain very dramatically because Mary stomped with her heel on his foot.

Sirius is sure he got a heart attack.

He turns to James, “You know?! What- how the fuck do you know?!!”

“Mary told me.”

Now Sirius turns his attention to Mary, “You knew too?!” he yells out dramatically. 

“It’s really not that hard to see, you know.” 

“Oh my god, this is a disaster!” his hands fly to his hair but he stops just in time before he ruins his masterpiece that he worked at for over an hour. “If you both know by just looking at me, then Remus must know already! Fuck fuck fuck-” 

James is confused, “Wait, why is it a bad thing if Remus knows?”

“Because it’s embarrassing? I look like a fucking fool for him! He is so cool, he has the softest sweaters I’ve ever seen, he reads like the nerdy slut he is, and have you seen his lips?!”

Mary is smiling, “Sirius honey, I really don’t get your point but I do know you're in too deep to try to hide your feelings for him.”

“My point is that I don’t stand a chance, like at all!” Sirius looks hysterical. “I really really like him, and I look like a fool for loving him like that when I know that he’ll never feel the same way for me.” 

“Oh love, it isn’t like that at all, Remus likes y-” Mary stops talking immediately when James (without Sirius noticing this time) steps on her foot to get her to shut up. Yes, they were gonna help Remus and Sirius to confess their love for one another, but they shouldn’t be the one to actually tell Sirius about how the situation really is, that’s something Remus has to do. 

James grabs Sirius’ shoulders, “You are not a fool for loving him. It’s okay to love someone, anyone, regardless of the love the other person can give you back. Love is never useless, it’s what makes you, you. The things you love the most are part of your personality. The people you love the most are part of your social life. If Remus doesn’t love you back, then you’ll get over it. If Remus loves you, but you don’t love him back, then he’ll get over it too. Loving people is part of life Sirius, so don’t feel stupid for something so incredibly human. You can’t be sure that Remus loves you. Remus can’t be sure that you love him. But just be grateful to love him anyway, okay?”  

“Just- what do I even do?” Sirius says, looking so lost it’s almost cute.

“Act like you always do,” Mary tells him. “Love him like you are used to do. Nothing changed, Sirius. You’re still you, and he is still the same old Moony. Yes, me and James noticed some changes in your behavior around him, but that isn’t the end of the world. Just act stupid around him again and joke about the flower the same way you did to me.”

Sirius takes a deep breath, “Yeah, I can do that. Just being myself isn’t that hard. I just need to forget that my deep dark secret isn’t a secret at all anymore and more a live stream comedy show,” he says dramatically.

James laughs, “Yeah, you’ll get over it mate.”

“Now come on, we have to leave. The taxi is waiting in the front for us, and Sirius can’t be late to give his lover a cute flower.” 

Sirius laughs and they leave to get in the car.

~~~

Remus grabs his phone and clicks on Lily’s contact name.

Private chat: My little witch <3 (ginger) & My big wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf):

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < Where are you? I’m the first one here

My little witch <3 (ginger): < Pete and I are almost gonna leave my apartment, give us 10 min max

                                               < What are you wearing? 

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < Why are you asking?

My little witch <3 (ginger): < For Sirius

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < In that case, absolutely nothing except edible body glitter for him to lick off me.

My little witch <3 (ginger): < Haha. 

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < Why do you wanna know what I’m wearing, red? 🤨

My little witch <3 (ginger): < Just, what if you dance with Sirius and you can’t move because your pants is too tight??

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < I’m just wearing a loose shirt with normal pants

                                                                      < Am I underdressed or is my outfit approved by Miss Evans? xx

Mission ‘get the oblivious idiots to confess their way to complicated feelings to each other and have a romantic kiss under the stars’ ❤️:

Lilyy: < We have a problem

Marls: < What’s up?

Lilyy: < Remus isn’t exactly wearing his most flattering clothes…

Marls: < Wait let me text Dorcas, she’s coming too but she hasn’t left her apartment yet and she’s a stylist so she will have some clothes for Remus! She will drop them at your place if it’s okay for you

Lilyy: < I love you so much thanks girl! ❤️❤️

Private chat: My little witch <3 (ginger) & My big wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf):

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < I’m just wearing a loose shirt with normal pants

                                                                      < Am I underdressed or is my outfit approved by Miss Evans? xx

My little witch <3 (ginger): < Dorcas is bringing you better clothes, you can change in the bathroom sweetheart <3

My big scary wolf <3 (Wolf John Wolf): < LILY WHAT THE FUCK I WAS JOKING, I DIDN’T REALLY ASK YOU TO JUDGE MY CLOTHES??? 😭😭

My little witch <3 (ginger): < That’s okay honey, you didn’t have to ❤️❤️

20 minutes later Lily and Pete step out of their taxi and walk up to Remus, who was waiting on them. 

“Why is it that out of the 8 people coming I’m the only one actually on time?” He says.

“If you worried about your outfit a little longer you would be a walking sex machine and probably still be here before anyone else.” Lily answers back fast with a grin on her face. She hands him a bag. “In this are the clothes Dorcas dropped off at my place, just go to the bathroom in the bar with Pete and you’ll look amazing!”

Remus signs which sounds more like a laugh, “I should be mad at you for criticizing me so hard.”

“Yeah but you should also shoot your shot with Sirius, so here we are.” Lily shrugs her shoulders, making Pete laugh.

With that Peter and Remus leave and go into the bar, Lily following them closely. Music drowns in their ears, and bright coloured lights blind their eyes. People are laughing loud and singing along to the songs that are being played. There is a staircase which leads to a podium above level ground. The DJ (who is a really handsome man, Remus thinks) is pushing buttons and doing whatever a DJ is doing, Remus can’t really make it out. 

“It’s here,” Peter half screams so that Remus can hear him over all the noise. He pulls him into the bathroom, that’s surprisingly empty of any other people's presence. Remus goes into a stall and pulls the clothes out of the bag. 

“Pete, why is there a shirt that looks like it’s made for an italian man who has chest hair and in his mid thirties ready to pick up multiple women at the same time?” 

“Eh, picking up multiple women, picking up Sirius, it’s basically the same thing,” Peter says, you can hear how much he enjoys the crisis Remus is having.

“Sirius isn’t a slut, you know?”

“I’m sure that if you call him that he would thank you,” Pete answers.

Remus snorts, because yes, Sirius would thank him. Oh, what did he get himself into? “Fine, I’ll do it, but if I find some insanely expensive Italian shoes in the bag I’m out of here.”

“All right, loverboy. And you know, if the Sirius thing doesn't work out you can always try something with the DJ. I saw you looking at him."

"I just noticed he's handsome, I don't want him, there is a difference."

"Okay well just keep it in mind, the whole reason we got you these clothes is for you to get laid by Sirius, and if that plan goes wrong there is nothing wrong with a plan b, just saying."

Remus walks out of the tiny toilet stall, ignoring what Peter just said. "What do you think?" 

A woman's voice comes out the door opening, "I think if I wasn't a lesbian I would have never topped a twink faster in my life." Remus turns to see Marlene eyeing him very judgmentally

"Thanks?" Remus answers unsure while Peter is laughing loudly.

"But really," she starts, "you look very good. That shirt suits you, Lupin. Sirius is here with Mary and James so go win your husband over okay?" 

Remus rolls his eyes, "He isn't my husband."

 "Yet." Marlene corrects him. "Oh and don't act so smug, I can smell your stifled grin from miles away." 

"Alright," He laughs. "Thank you for the clothes Marls." 

"Yeah yeah, just go kiss him already." She says. And so Remus and Peter go to find Sirius (Marlene abandoned the mission fast when she finally found Dorcas). Remus drops his own clothes at the bar, not that he expects to ever see them back, but he likes to hope he will.  

They locate Sirius holding James’ hand, leading him through the big crowd of sweaty dancing people half humping each other. Remus sees Sirius shouting something in James’ ear which makes him laugh loudly. 

“Found them!” He tells Pete. They go through the crowd when suddenly someone screams very loudly. “MOONYYY??! WHERE ARE YOU??” 

Peter yells in Remus’ ear, “Yeah, I think the whole club found him by now.” 

A group of 7 very drunk girls stop right in front of them. “Hey handsome, care for a drink?” The blond girl asks while eyeing Remus without any shame. 

“Me?” he says unsure.

“Well, who else love?” She answers.

Pete coughs, “Uhm hi, I’m also here?”

The girl doesn’t even see Peter. She puts her hand on Remus’ arm. “So, vodka or tequila?”

“Uhm,” Remus looks at Peter confused. “I’m sure you are a very nice woman,” he tries, “but I’m not really interested in a drink right now-”

She takes his hand, “That’s okay! We can dance instead!”

He quickly loosens himself from her grip, never really the person for physical touch anyways but definitely not for a stranger, “No- I meant that I’m just really not interested in you, I’m very sorry.”

She looks extremely offended. “Well why the fuck not?! Am I not hot enough? Is that it?!”

“No no! You’re very pretty-”

“You’re so fucking mean!” She tries to walk up to Remus but almost falls because of how dizzy she is from the booze she’d been drinking. “You’re an asshole! Why won’t you get a drink with me?? I’m the perfect girl! Have you seen me in this dress? I mean, really looked at me?! Not to turn into an object for your eyes but do I really need to point out how good my boobs fit this dress?! Fucking look at them, why are you looking away?! Hello??? I’m talking to you-”

“Gay!” Peter screams out, “He’s gay for his best friend.” 

She blinks. “You like men?”

Remus shrugs his shoulders. “A man wants what a man wants?”

Peter grabs his arm. “Yeah and that’s dick. We really have to go now, goodbye!!” 

They leave the confused girl with her own friends while they walk back to the loud voice of Sirius. When they finally reach them, Peter is still laughing. 

“What’s so funny Pettigrew?” James asks. 

“Remus getting asked for a drink by a blond girl. A girl.” 

“Well with that outfit Lupin, I get her,” James says chuckling. “I mean you look really-”

“Beautiful.” 

Remus looks at Sirius. “What?”

“You look beautiful.”

James snorts, “I was gonna say he looks like a mafia boss from Italy but sure mate, go for it.”

Remus hasn’t taken his eyes off of Sirius. He can’t. Not when Sirius is looking at him like this. Like Remus is the silver light of the moon that would light up and show Sirius the path to love. 

“You- uhm, you look handsome too, Sirius,” Remus tries to say as normally as he can. 

Sirius clears his throat. “I got you a little something. It was in better shape before we entered the club I promise.” He shows Remus a tiny white Corsage.

“Are you taking me to prom next, Black?” 

He chuckles. “With these looks? Lupin, you can only wish.” 

Sirius closes the distance between them while pinning the flower to Remus’ shirt. “There you go.”

“Thank you, Sirius.” 

"You're welcome. Now, come on, let's get a drink!" Sirius grabs his hand, effortlessly leading Remus toward the bar and walking in front of him. This way, Remus doesn’t have to worry about Sirius noticing the deep red flush creeping up his neck, spreading across his face—all from the simple touch of Sirius’ hand.

~~~

It’s a few hours later and Sirius is dancing on the bar counter. 

The funny thing is, he’s barely had anything to drink. 

“Come on Moony, join me!” 

“I’m really okay down here, Sirius,” Remus says, taking a sip of his beer and absolutely soaking in the sight before him. The colorful club lights hit Sirius’ face so perfectly it feels impossible to look away. His silver jewelry is shining brightly, and at this point he notices Sirius is wearing body glitter too. Can this man get any hotter?!

“Whatcha looking at Lupin?” Sirius bows down to sort of get on Remus’ level. 

“Do you know you look like a walking disco ball?” Remus blurts out.

“Yes, but at least I’m a fuckable disco ball.” Sirius jumps off the bar and lights a cigarette, giving it to Remus. 

“What’s that for?” he asks smiling. 

Sirius picks up Remus’ beer and takes a sip off of it. “I’m just trying to get you in a good mood so that you will help me get the glitter off of me later. This shit is fucking everywhere and I could use some help.” 

Remus blinks. “Uhm, and with everywhere you mean?”

Sirius suddenly leans in so close that his lips are touching Remus’ ear as he whispers, “Everywhere.” 

Remus’ cheeks burn up yet again. 

Sirius’ laugh fills the room. “I was joking, Moony. Well, only if you want me to-” he says winking. 

Fuck this man with his endless charm. Remus will go into cardiac arrest if Sirius isn’t gonna kiss him soon, otherwise his heart will literally jump out of his chest. 

“I’m gonna go to Mary for a bit, okay?” he says.

“Sure yeah, go,” Remus answers. He turns back to his drink, downing it in one go. 

“Slow down boy, you’ll be black out drunk if you keep going like this.”

Remus looks at the side and sees the handsome DJ eyeing his drink. “Oh, well I need alcohol today so either you buy me a drink or I’ll keep going.” 

To Remus’ surprise that’s exactly what the DJ does. He tells the bartender something that Remus can’t quite catch with the loud music around them. “So, what’s your name?”

“Remus. You?”

“Neil. I’m the DJ for this place.”

“Yeah, Neil, I noticed. I don’t really understand what you do, but it sounded great, so I’m just gonna say you did a good job.”

Neil laughs, “Thanks. I saw that your friend liked it too.”

“Which one?”

“The one dancing on the bar counter.”

Remus smiles, “Ah, yes Sirius. Well don’t let your ego grow too much at that. He would dance like that on any song you play, he is just like that.” 

“So if I play a remix of Beans by Kurt Cobain and Hot to go from Chappell Roan…”

“He would probably start twerking.”

“He has a lot of character I hear,” Neil says chuckling. 

Drinks arrive, Remus doesn’t have a clue what it is he’s gonna drink, but doesn’t bother asking. “Thanks for the drink.” 

“You’re welcome.” It is quiet between them for a while. Remus notices that Neil is tapping his finger along to the beat of the music that is playing. He also sees a golden ring on it. 

“Are you married?”

“Yes. I have a lovely wife and we are expecting twins this autumn,” his voice is full of warmth. 

“That’s so good I’m happy for you,” Remus says with happiness. 

“I’m taking this extra job to make sure we have enough money to take care of the kids, since we didn’t plan on having 2.”

“Smart man,” Remus tells him while taking another sip.

“Remus, tell me if I’m overstepping,” Neil says while also taking a sip of his drink. “But now we are on the subject of relationships, what’s the deal with you and Sirius? Are you guys in a relationship? I’m just asking because the chemistry was dripping off of you two and I’m too invested now.”

Remus finishes his drink. “If I’m answering that I’ll surely need another drink.”

Neil laughs again, “That bad?”

“It’s just… he doesn’t seem to like me the way I like him.”

“Mate, do you need glasses or something? Did you see the way he looked at you?”

“That’s just the way he always looks. He has this habit of flirting with everyone he sees, but in a platonic way.”

“You really do need another couple drinks if you think that was platonic.” 

Now it’s Remus who lets out a small chuckle. “Neil, why did you even come here?”

“You looked like a nice person to talk to.”

“You can’t convince me that you don’t have enough girls that wanna talk to you. I might be a bit drunk but I’m not stupid. Tell me the truth.”

Neil signs, “Okay, uhm I might-”

He gets cut off by someone covering Remus’ eyes. “Guess who!”

“A ginger with the crushing feeling of always having to be perfect?” Remus says sarcastically happy.

Lily removes her hands from Remus’ eyes while laughing, “You cunt!”

“You are what you eat,” he responds, shrugging his shoulders. 

“It’s karaoke time! Sirius and James have a special surprise for you!” she tells Remus with way too much joy for it to be a normal surprise.

He looks over at Neil. “I’m gonna go, okay?”

“Sure, have fun Remus. I’ll see you around!”

Lily takes his hand and they push through the crowd. “I can practically smell you overthinking what James and Sirius are gonna do.”

“Yeah well knowing them this whole place could blow up as a ‘surprise’.” 

Lily laughs, “If it assures you, the performance is approved by me.”

"Performance?! I thought they were just gonna sing a bit! They made a whole show?!" 

“Ladies, gentlemen and others!” Remus hears Peter say on a microphone. Lily and him finally burst through the crowd and now Remus can see James and Sirius standing on the stage with microphones in their hands too. 

“I’m happy to introduce you to James and Sirius Potter! These lovely lads are gonna sing a song for the one and only Remus Lupin, but I guess you lot can also enjoy the show!” 

Music starts playing. Remus recognises the song as one of the things he has to hear daily when any of the girls are in charge of the music at parties. 

“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,” he whispers.

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

Caught in a bad romance-” James’ voice echoes through the room. 

Marlene and Dorcas are standing next to Remus suddenly. Marlene is laughing her ass off, and Dorcas is visibly judging Sirius and James. 

“I wanna reassure you and say they normally aren’t like that, but that would just be a lie,” Lily tells Dorcas. 

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

Caught in a bad romance” Now both James and Sirius’ voices can be heard. 

“Rah, rah-ah-ah-ah

Roma, roma-ma

Gaga, ooh-la-la

Want your bad romance…”

Remus is watching in absolute awe. He’s actually really enjoying himself. James is clearly having the time of his life and constantly winking at people making them scream in excitement.

 Sirius looks like he’s in heaven. It’s like he owns the stage. He isn’t afraid to make it known that he can sing and is a real show beast. He and James are jumping around, running a hand through their hair, and even doing a tiny part of choreography. (When they made that Remus still has no clue.)

“Walk, walk, fashion baby

Work it, move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk, passion baby

Work it, I'm a free bitch, baby!” The crowd sings along with James. 

Lily squeezes his hand tightly, “Here is the surprise, Remus!”

He looks at her confused, “This wasn’t the surprise?!”, gesturing to the whole performance. 

Sirius sings, slowly walking to Remus while holding eye contact. 

“I want your love, and I want your revenge

I want your love, I don't wanna be friends” 

Remus’ throat goes dry, and suddenly he doesn’t know where to look or how to breathe. 

Sirius stops right in front of Remus and bends himself over until they are on eye level. Sirius puts his hand on Remus’ cheek, he lifts Remus’ face a bit upwards so that they are even closer to each other. “J'veux ton amour, et je veux ta revanche. J'veux ton amour, I don't wanna be friends.” 

Sirius’ hand slides down and is now laying on Remus’ chest. “No, I don't wanna be friends“. 

He takes a few steps backwards but never breaks the eye contact he and Remus have. “No, I don’t wanna be friends.” It’s almost like Sirius isn’t singing the song anymore, but telling Remus what he wants. It feels so real. It doesn’t look like just a karaoke song, but more like a love confession. 

When Sirius finally looks away, the situation settles in on Remus. His heart starts pounding like crazy, and he’s sure he has never been more red in his whole life. 

He looks up at Sirius again, but he’s just acting like he always is. Like nothing happened just now. Did something happen? Was Sirius just playing around like normally? 

~~~

“What the fuck oh my god oh god fuck-” the moment the song was over Sirius had grabbed James’ hand and sprinted and dragged him to the closest place they could have some privacy to freak out about what just happened. Sadly the closest place to have privacy is the men’s bathroom. 

“Sirius, stop panicking, that was amazing!” James says enthusiastically.

“How do you know that?! Maybe he thinks it was the stupidest thing ever and hates me now!” 

“Did you see him when you sang? Like did you actually look at his face?” 

“No, I was too busy trying not to faint from the nerves!”

“He was blushing! He was red from head to toe, mate. He likes you!” 

Sirius runs a hand through his hair. “You sure?” 

James chuckles, “I’m very sure. I swear to god he looked like he saw the light.”

Sirius releases a breath he didn’t know he was holding. “Okay, so what now?”

“Go talk to him! I don’t know how more clear you can be for him to understand that you want to be more than friends with him.” 

“I mean, some was in French…” Sirius jokes.

“Just go before you overthink it. It’s gonna be okay I promise.”

Sirius runs out of the bathroom and just goes straight through the crowd to find Remus. His heart is still beating painfully hard against his chest. It had been a real challenge not to crumble to the ground when Remus was looking at him. His fingers had buzzed with fear and excitement when reaching out to Remus’ cheek. He has no idea how he managed to put his hand on Moony’s chest without passing out. 

Even though Sirius almost threw up from the stress (and probably also from the booze, but that’s not the point) right before Peter announced what was gonna happen, he’s still proud of himself. He didn’t fuck it up, he was clear, and Remus had blushed. Remus had blushed. There is no way that was platonic, right? 

Nothing had gone wrong. Sirius didn’t fuck it up. He was so scared he would ruin at least one part of it. He would have told Remus too late, or never got the courage to confess, or said the wrong words while confessing. He was mostly scared to ruin what they had. Sirius wants to be more than friends with Remus, but if he had to choose between confessing and ruining their friendship because he got rejected, or never confessing and never losing his Moony, he would know what to pick. But no, he didn’t ruin it.

His mother made him feel unlovable, but here he is, declaring his love in front of hundred people for one of his best friends. 

Try calling him a pussy again, Walburga.

He was scared to death, but as he is pushing through people, he thinks it was all worth it. All the times when he thought he was all alone, Remus was by his side. When he needed someone and was too embarrassed to call anyone, he still rang Remus. Because he knew that he would just be there without any questions or judgement at all. He would know what Sirius needed without him having to say it. Remus knows Sirius, and really that’s all he needs. 

He’s in love with being noticed and afraid of being seen. but Remus already saw all of him, so why would he be scared of love like that? 

Sirius finally spots Remus at the bar and makes his way toward him, but his attention is also drawn to the DJ guy nearby.

The DJ who has his lips on Remus’ and his hand grabbing Remus’ ass. 

Sirius turns back around and vomits right on a poor girl's feet. 

~~~

Mission ‘get the oblivious idiots to confess their way to complicated feelings to each other and have a romantic kiss under the stars and have a big fruity wedding’ ❤️:

Pete: < Has anyone seen Remus? 

Marls: < Or Sirius? Peter and I want to do our part in the plan 

Pete: < Can’t let Remus do something to get Sirius jealous if we can’t find either of them 

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < …I found Remus

                                                                      < *photo* 

Marls: < oh shit

Lilyy: < I’m gonna kill him. 

          < for a man with a high IQ he’s really fucking stupid

Pete: < NOOO WHY IS HE KISSING THAT DJ DUDE???? I TOLD HIM AS A JOKE TO DO THAT IF IT DIDN’T WORK OUT WITH SIRIUS I DIDN’T MEAN IT LITERALLY OH GOD

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < did Sirius see?

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < yeah.. he didn’t look very happy with it. Or even healthy. He literally threw up at the sight of them kissing

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < I’m finding him. The plan is off. 

~~~

It has been a whole hour and no one can find Sirius or Remus. James has looked everywhere for them, for very different reasons though. What the fuck was Remus thinking? He told James that he likes Sirius, and now that they finally got Sirius to confess his love for him, he immediately goes off and kisses some random guy? 

James has looked in the bathroom, the bar, the dance floor, and even outside the club. They were nowhere to be found. He called Sirius, but he didn’t pick up. He also called Remus, but he found out that Remus left his phone at the bar. 

“Attention to the dance competition participants; the contest is gonna start in a few minutes. Please gather on the dance floor.” 

James signs. This was not at all how he wanted this night to turn out. He just wanted for his best friends to realise how stupidly in love they were for each other and have fun. He wanted to dance with his friends, laugh about things, get drunk and sing loudly along to music. Was that too much to ask? 

“Anyone found Sirius or Remus yet?” James asks his friends when he is back from his search. 

“No,” Lily says. “I’ve been asking people here too but no one saw them.” 

Peter sighs. “This is so fucked up. We had such a foolproof plan, how did it go this wrong?” 

Lily makes a noise of disagreement at ‘foolproof’, and Marlene slaps her arm.

“Attention to the dance competition participants; the contest is gonna start. Take your places, please.”

“Should we go or- Sirius?!” 

Everyone looks up and sees Sirius arriving at the dance floor where they are standing too (arriving is a big word, he’s more fighting to get through the crowd.) He looks pissed, his face is red, eyebrows furrowed, and his charming smile is nowhere to be seen. He’s mumbling words to the people in his way, probably curse words.

James immediately goes to him and ignores the people yelling at him for pushing them. He grabs Sirius’ arm. “Are you okay? Where were you?”

“I’m fine,” Sirius says bitterly. 

“You saw it didn’t you?”

“I’m okay. Remus is his own person, he can choose what to do with his life.”

“Yeah, but it can still sting,” James tries.

“I told you I’m fine,” Sirius snaps at him.

“You don’t fucking look fine. You look like you might burst out of anger any moment. You can talk to me, you know that.”

“I don’t want to talk, James.” 

He is losing his patience. “And ignoring the obvious problem is the way to go then?!” 

“It’s like you said. I can’t guarantee that Remus loves me and I should just be grateful to love him, or some bullshit like that.” 

“Sirius, you can’t bottle it all up.”

“Fucking watch me,” he bites back.

At that moment Remus stumbles out of the many people and walks to them.

“I’m sorry I have to dance with mister fuck boy now, excuse me.” Sirius walks off in Remus’ direction, leaving James stunned.

~~~

Sirius takes a few deep breaths to calm himself, and then walks to Remus.

“Sorry, I got busy with something,” he tells Sirius shyly.

“Sure, whatever, it's fine.”

Music starts to fill the room. 

“Well, let’s do this then.” 

Remus looks a bit unsure of this all. “And what am I supposed to do exactly?”

“Just follow my lead, don't worry about it.” Sirius gently places Remus' hands on his shoulders, while he himself rests his hands on Remus' hips.

“That okay?”

Remus nods.

They start swaying to some Spanish song Sirius vaguely remembers from James’ playlist. In the corners of his eyes he can see Dorcas making a move on Marlene, Marlene immediately becoming a lovesick teenage girl. 

“They look very happy,” Remus comments, also looking at his friends.

“Yeah, never seen Marlene blush like that before.” 

“You only know her for a few months?”

“My point still stands. Billie Eilish was the only one who came close.”

Remus lets out a quiet laugh, and without thinking, Sirius's lips curl into a smile too.

He hates it.
He loves it.

And he hates himself for loving it.

“Do you reckon we will ever find someone like that?” Remus asks, catching Sirius off guard.

“Why? Got someone in mind already, Lupin?”

“No! Just- I don’t know, they just look so happy. I wanna be happy with someone like that one day.”

“You will, Moony. I believe you will find the perfect partner and he will make you feel even better than just happy.” 

You would think Tití Me Preguntó from Bad Bunny would drown out Sirius’ thoughts, but sadly that isn’t the case. Why did Remus kiss that DJ? But also, why didn’t Moony tell him? It hurts that the boy he likes (maybe even loves?) kissed another dude, but they were friends before the romantic feelings, why didn’t he trust Sirius with this information? 

Remus looks down to hide his smile. “Aww, that’s so sweet. I didn’t know Sirius Black was capable of being so kind.”

“Only for you, my darling,” he winked. His bad mood had vanished fast. It’s basically impossible to be mad around Remus Lupin. 

“You’re almost as romantic as this Spanish song.”

Sirius laughs lightly, “The song is about a man fucking another girl every night, how is that romantic? But okay, if you’re into that-”

Remus steps on his toes intentionally, “I’m sorry I’m not a super fast spanish learner, mister Einstein.” 

“Bet James could teach you. He teached me some things. Really, it isn’t so hard.”

“Yeah, sure. We could do it together, if you want.”

“Whatever you like, Moony,” Sirius tells him softly. 

The song ended and a new one is playing. 

Sirius immediately recognises the song and looks for James across the room. Locking eyes with him, they both yell “Rock Your Body!” to each other. 

“Huh?” Remus says.

Sirius turns back to Remus. “The song! Rock Your Body!”

“... I’m gonna keep it by David Bowie.”

Sirius laughs, “That’s fine, I’ll lead you!” They shuffle even closer to each other. 

“Oh, yes I do know this song!” 

Sirius feels like a proud mom for a second. “Knew you had good taste.” 

“Yeah of course, otherwise I wouldn’t be here dancing with you, would I?” Remus smirks at him.

His face burns up and his heart starts to beat painfully hard again. “Did you flirt with me?”

“Shhh, no talking. You’re supposed to lead me, remember?” He arches an eyebrow.

Sirius clears his throat. “Yeah, yes you're right.”

“Did the Sirius Black actually get shy?” Remus teases. 

That gets Sirius out of his trance. “Love, you wish. This is only the beginning.”  

He somehow managed to get even closer. “Don’t be so quick to walk away. Dance with me.” 

Remus smiles, “Are you gonna sing to me? If this is the beginning, is the end releasing a new album?” 

Sirius takes his hand off Remus’ hips and instead grabs the boy by his hands. “Come on, sing it!”

Remus rolls his eyes, but that doesn’t hide his grin. “I wanna rock your body, please stay.” 

Sirius brings Remus’ hand to the ceiling and gives it a tiny tug so that Remus does a little twirl. “Just let me rock you ‘til the break of day. Dance with me!” 

They both are laughing, and when Sirius is admiring Remus’ smile, he sees the DJ man over Moony’s shoulder. 

Yeah,fuck no.

He takes Remus’ hand and leads him across the dancefloor, even closer to the guy. 

“Wait, where are we going?” 

“To a better spot. Trust me.”

Sirius locks Remus in place fast. His hand on Remus’ chest, and his other on his lower hip, fingers under Remus’ shirt and so feeling the warmth of his body.

Remus looks flushed, but all on board. He just puts his hands behind Sirius’ neck. 

Sirius leans in the crook of Remus’ neck. “Just tell me when I go too far, okay?” 

“Mhm-” Remus can barely choke out. 

Sirius is softly humming the lyrics to the song while his fingers that are on Remus’ chest are tapping on the beat of the music. 

“You- uhm, are you this eager to win the contest?” Remus asks.

“Sure, if that’s what you want. But I was thinking about something else,” He tells him playfully. He sees the DJ finally looking at them, and Sirius takes it up a notch. 

His thumb is softly sliding over Remus’ hip. “Have you ever danced back-to-front?”

“No. Why?”

Sirius winks. “You are about to find out, Moony.”

He chuckles, turns around and just goes with the flow. It’s not like he has ever done it before either or knows what the fuck he is doing. All he knows is that he has a big ass ego that says he can do this.

 So here he is, grinding his ass in Remus’ pelvis.

Leaning his head back on Remus’ shoulder he asks, “Still thinking this is a weak start, Moony?”

Remus is blinking fast, like he can’t get his eyes to focus. “I think the only thing that is weak right now are my knees,” he mumbles, thinking Sirius can’t hear it.

Sirius laughs at that and makes eye contact with the DJ. He mouths, “Jealous?” with a fake sad frown. 

The guy can only stare with his lips parted. 

This is life, he thinks. Music drowning in his ears, Remus’ hot breath in his neck, and making some guy incredibly jealous of something he can’t have but at the moment is all Sirius’. 

Just as Sirius’ hand was sliding up and down on Remus’ thigh, the DJ approaches them. 

“Remus, can I talk to you?” The guy says. 

Remus, who only now has noticed the DJ standing there, freezes up immediately. “Uhm, I’m kinda in the middle of something, Neil.”

“Come on, really fast. We kinda had some unfinished business, care to finish it?”

Sirius straightens his back to reach his full length. “He said no, Neil.” He spits out the name like it’s a dirty disease.   

Neil turns to him. “I’m not talking to you. I’m asking Remus to go with me. And he will, right?”

“How many times do I have to say no? Get it in your head, man,” Remus answers.

Neil steps forward and grabs Remus’ hand, tucking at it for him to follow. “We were doing something, remember? Now come on and finish what you started.” 

Remus pulls his hand back sharply, and in return Neil just grabs his waist instead of hand, but more aggressive than last time. 

That was enough for Sirius to put Neil in his grave. 

“Hands off, you dick. He doesn’t want you!” 

Neil looks at Sirius. “You think you can control your friend?” he laughs bitterly. “Well, Remus kissed me, didn’t he? He put his lips on mine, not yours. Now if you excuse us, lovely Remus here wasn’t done with what we were planning, so you can go cry your fag ass off while he sucks my cock-”

Sirius didn’t let him finish his sentence before slamming his fist right into Neil’s jaw. 

Remus immediately steps closer to Sirius, away from Neil. But before he could have a good look at Remus, Sirius got a fist to the face too. 

His nose is pounding and blood is gushing out of it. 

Anger is boiling in his bones, “You tried to force a stranger to give you a blow job and you punched me?!” he yells at Neil hysterically. “You are a real fucking asshole, you know? Kissing my friend and calling me a fucking slur.”

Neil eyes Remus. “Well, as you can see your ‘friend’ not the only fucking fag-”

Sirius decks him so hard that Neil flies on the ground. “Call him that again and I’ll fucking end you, understood?”

Neil doesn’t respond. 

“You fucking hypocrite! I said understood, or are all your brain cells sucked out of your cock already?!”

“Whatever.”

“Lay a hand on him again and I’ll make sure you are paralysed so that you can’t even try to manipulate people for your own pleasures.” Sirius spits right in his face and turns around. 

“I need some air,” he tells Remus while holding his nose. 

He goes outside and leans against the wall of the club. 

He has so many questions.

Did Neil force the kiss between him and Remus? Was Sirius mad at Remus for no reason? Why did he snap at James for helping him? 

And just like that, he fucked up again. 

There is no way Remus didn’t understand what Neil meant with ‘He put his lips on mine, not yours’. Sirius really thought it was going well. He showed Remus his feelings, but then Remus went off and kissed fucking Neil, turns out Remus probably never even wanted that stupid kiss and Sirius just fought someone because he was jealous. 

“Fuck,” he mumbles while wiping his nose on his sleeve. It stopped bleeding, so that’s good, right?

He’s so fucking done with this night. 

“Sirius?”

He looks up and sees Remus. He clears his throat. “You okay?”

“Yeah. Are you?”

“As long as my perfect nose isn’t ruined and my face still looks fuckable, all is good,” he says trying to lift the mood of the conversation.

“Thank you. I could have handled it myself, though.”

“I know. I just needed to blow off some steam.”

Remus looks like he is gonna ask a question that he has trouble voicing out loud, so Sirius cuts him off before that can happen. 

“Did you mean to kiss him?”

Remus’ eyes widen a bit. “You saw?”

“Yeah, I stood behind you guys.” 

“Oh, fuck.” 

“Well, did you? Want to kiss him?”

“No,” Remus looks down, “It just all happened so fast. We were talking and then suddenly he got very touchy. I was just planning on getting away but then he kinda cornered me and yeah, then that happened.” 

“So you didn’t like it?”

“I mean, he had his hand on my ass when I didn’t even want his lips on mine, so my answer is no.”

“Sorry that happened to you.”

“I’ll be okay. You took pretty good care of it,” Remus says smiling a bit.

Sirius chuckles, but then stops fast when his nose starts to hurt even more. 

“Why did you defend me like that?” Remus tries.

“You’re my friend, it’s what friends do.”

“You insulted and punched him for only grabbing my hand?”

“And your waist.” Sirius says, his teeth clenching together at only the memory. 

“So you did it because he touched me?”

“No, I did it because it’s what friends do.”

“Friends?” His tone was different than it had been before.

“Mhm.” 

Remus sighs. “Okay well, clearly I misunderstood again. I’m gonna go inside, be safe.” He starts walking to the door.

Sirius pushes himself off the wall he was leaning against. “Wait, what do you mean?”

Remus turns around, and takes a deep breath. “What did you mean with the karaoke song?”

Sirius' breath catches in his throat. “Just- nothing special.”

“Don’t even fucking try it, Sirius. You know what I mean.”

“...I can’t say that.”

“Please. Just tell me.”

Sirius doesn’t answer. He hopes so hard that Remus can just read his mind. I want you! I meant it romantically! I really like you! In the end he stays silent, too afraid of that Remus has to say.

“I’m leaving, then.”

“No, Moony-”

Remus’ mood switches in an instant. “No. Don’t call me Moony until you can face what is really happening. We both know it, why can’t you admit it!? My mind is like a fucking maze and everytime I think I found the exit you come along and fucking move the walls of it. I can’t do it anymore! When I think I’ve figured you out, you just get more confusing to understand.” Remus is yelling at Sirius almost hysterically. “You do something that makes my heart beat out of my chest, and then you say it’s a fucking joke! You do something that makes me so flushed I can’t even answer your fucking question, and you say you just are a flirt at heart, like we don’t mean a single fuck. You do something that makes my stomach fill with butterflies and you play it off as a ‘friend’ thing!” 

Remus steps closer to Sirius, their faces barely an inch apart. “Just so you know, your whole ‘friend’ methode didn’t feel very friendly to me,” he spits out. “And I’m done being ‘friends’ with someone who can’t see what really is happening-”

“I fucking love you, you cunt!” Sirius yells at him.

Remus takes a big step back and his whole face changes. The anger is long gone, only shock is left. His lips are parted, and his eyes are staring holes into Sirius’.

“Well, say something!?” Sirius says, very anxious.

“Love me as in friends or…?” Remus says, still unsure.

“I love you. Romantically.”

“Oh.” 

Sirius huffs out a laugh. “You had enough words to yell at me, come on Lupin, making a sentence bigger than ‘oh’ isn’t that hard.” 

“So the whole karaoke song and its lyrics were meant literally? I wasn’t going insane?”

Sirius smiles, “Yeah so that was kinda the whole point and that was me trying to declare my love for you, but sadly fucking Neil had to ruin that plan.” 

“And the flower?” Remus gestures to the flower he was still wearing.

“Mary gave it to me, said it was a good romantic gesture.”

“But why did you say you fought Neil because it’s what friends do?”

“Because I’m clearly a hot headed jealous fuck and I couldn’t really say that now, could I?”

“You were jealous?”

“Well, yeah he had his lips on yours when I’ve been dreaming about doing that for the past couple months!”

“I do the same.”

Sirius looks at him confused.

Remus gathers himself and takes a step forward. “I mean that I do the same. Dreaming about us.”

Sirius' breath hitches. “So does that mean..?”

“I love you too.”

Sirius’ face lights up in seconds and that handsome Sirius Black smile made a comeback. “You actually love me too?!” 

Remus smiles, “Yeah, I do.”

“This is the best day ever!” Sirius says excitedly. “So there is an us now? Like not friends but a couple?”

“I would really love that,” Remus says, beaming in place. 

“Oh god, I’m so happy I could kiss you!” Sirius says almost jumping in the air.

“Shoot your shot.” 

This made him freeze in place. “What?”

Remus closes the distance between them. “I said, shoot your shot.”

Lucky for the both of them Sirius doesn’t have to be told 3 times. He smiles brightly before gently cupping Remus’ face and brushing his thumb over his cheek. Remus’ hand finds Sirius’ hip and holds on to it. 

They both look in each other's eyes before closing them and leaning in. 

Their lips brush against each other, making Remus huff out a little laugh, one that Sirius can taste on his tongue. Their lips now actually lock with each other. It’s a gentle kiss. One so sweet and tender it could come straight out of a fairytale. 

Remus’ fingers grab Sirius’ hip tightly when he softly bites Remus’ lower lip. “You like that?” Sirius says, not breaking the kiss.

“Mhm. But don’t let your ego get too big.” Remus says jokingly.

“Or what? Are you gonna-” Sirius immediately shuts up the moment he feels Remus’ tongue in his mouth.

Remus smiles brightly at that. “Thought so.” 

“Mhm, yeah whatever, do it again, Moony. Please.” 

Sirius' hand had slid from Remus’ cheek to his hair, now slightly pulling stands of gold brown hair. 

And so Remus does what his now boyfriend asks. 

When they finally do break apart, both of their faces are bright red and are equally out of breath.

“Is it bad that I kinda want to ditch all our friends just so that I can have you all alone?” Sirius asks.

Remus smiles, “It sounds like a perfect plan to me.” 

Their fingers intertwine and they start walking to the closest taxi. They step into it, never breaking their hands apart. Remus his thumb is still brushing circles over Sirius’ hand when both Sirius and Remus phones get a notification.

Mission ‘get the oblivious idiots to confess their way to complicated feelings to each other and have a romantic kiss under the stars and have a big fruity wedding’ ❤️:

* Oblivious idiot 1 (Sirius) and Oblivious idiot 2 (Remus) are now added to the group chat *

The man of the plan 💪🔥💯 (James): < * photo *

                                                                   < I’M SOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU GUYS OMGG

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < THEY KISSED????? OH MY GOD IEIEIEIEIEEIEEEE

Pete: < Proudly saying I’ve been shipping them from the start!! 

Lilyy: < OMG REMUS YES GO GET YOUR TWINK!!!

         < Told you the new clothes would work! x

Marls: < JAMES IS LITERALLY CRYING TEARS OF JOY 

           < * photo * 

Pete: < This day can’t get better! My best mates getting together and also having an amazing new wallpaper for my phone with James ugly crying on it! Remus and Sirius for president guys 🛐

Oblivious idiot 1 (Sirius): < You made a whole group chat?? 😭 Potter I fucking love you

Oblivious idiot 2 (Remus): < You’ve all been planning this? 

The queen with the scheme 💪💋(Mary): < We could try to lie about it but I’m too proud of the outcome 

They shut off their phones and Sirius leans on Remus’ shoulder. 

“We have crazy friends,” Remus says.

“I love crazy.”

“Me too, I mean I love you so..”

Sirius laughs and punches his arm. “You dick!”

The taxi stops and they step out at the beach where James took them months ago. 

“Did you know this is the beach where I fell in love with you?” Sirius confesses.

“Really?”

Sirius laughs when he thinks back to the memory. “Yeah, remember that right before we came here I ignored you for like 2 weeks?” Remus nods. “That was because I realised I liked you. So the first time I saw you again was here, and you said things that kept running in my mind even months later. I knew I liked you, but on this beach I fell in love with you.” 

Remus throws his shoes out and Sirius does the same. “That’s so sweet. I never knew that that was why you ignored me for that long, but now knowing the whole story it does actually make sense.” He pokes with his elbow in Sirius’ side. “You actually panicked about me for 2 weeks?”

“Correction: it was a gay panic. Those tend to last longer.” 

They walk to the sea and the salt water overflows their feet. Sirius puts his head on Remus’ shoulder, and Remus his head on his boyfriend’s. 

Sirius thinks back to the club, when he said that the peak of his life was making a guy jealous. Oh, he was so wrong. 

“Kiss me again please?” Sirius asks, just because he can. 

And Remus does. Wind combs through their hair and the Spain summer temperatures consume them. 

This is life. Sirius doesn’t need his parents' model agency or business company, or some club to get waisted in. The only thing he needs is the love from his boyfriend, who kissed him when he got asked to. Who loved Sirius even when Sirius didn’t ask him to. Who was by his side when he got asked but also when ignored. 

Sirius needs a heart to pump blood through his body, but without Remus Lupin in his life there wouldn’t be a reason for his heart to start at all. 

When they break apart Sirius says, “In the club I said that it was just the start, but I honestly don’t want this to ever end.”

Remus smiles at him full of affection, “Trust me, I’m not counting on letting you go.”

The moonlight shines perfectly on Remus’ face. “Your freckles really do look like the craters of the moon.” 

Remus playfully rolls his eyes, “Yeah, whatever you say, fy seren.” 

Sirius covers his face. “Stop, that’s so embarrassing!”

“If you can call me Moony then why can’t I call you fy seren, fy seren?” 

“Because it’s cringe!” Sirius laughs.

“Do you like pookie cutie-pie better? Or do you prefer pumpkin sugarplum?” 

“If you don’t stop I’ll drown you in the sea I swear,” Sirius says smiling.

“But babycakes, then my perfect clothes will be ruined,” Remus fake sad frowns. 

“Remus!” Sirius laughs and splashes water on him.

Remus lets out a little shriek, “No, buttercup, stop!” 

“You prick!” Sirius makes him even more wet and Remus does the same back. 

At some point the sun starts to come up, and the boys are laying on their backs in the sand, clothes and hair still soaked and holding holding hands. Their loud laughs gave way to soft, loving glances, tracing freckles and the lines on each other's faces. As Sirius’ eyes started to close the last thought he had was how much he loves Remus Lupin. 

And as Remus could read his mind, he gave Sirius a tender kiss on his forehead and whispered, “I love you.” 

It might have been a whisper, as soft like the breeze on the beach, but just like the salt in the sea those 3 words never disappeared.