Chapter one
Sirius POV
Sirius had messed up before , of that he was sure. But this time it wasn’t a simple mistake he could fix like getting caught cheating on the test, or Tricking Peter into giving up his dessert. No this mistake was life changing and unfortunately his life wasn’t the one in danger.
Sirius thoughts swirled around in his brain as he raced through the halls trying to find someone to help him. He felt his heart jump in relief as he ran into James. He was sure that his brother would know what to do.
“James, You have to help me.” the frazzled boy called out.
“whoa , Whoa Padfoot slow down you’re acting as if you killed someone or something.” James teased with his award winning smile.
“I might have. I told Snape. Fuck I didn’t mean to but we’ve got to hurry, he is on his way right now to the whomping willow but I couldn’t just let him go, James we have to stop him.” Sirius’s words were all strung together and it was hard for the other boy to follow but as soon as his mind clicked into place the smile that was on his face dropped off. And his eyes, normally filled with life and laughter, turned dark.
“How could you have been so stupid. You realize that your boyfriend is going to kill him right? And then will be killed himself. For fucksake Black don’t you ever think about anything?” Sirus’s veins turned to ice his brother in everything but blood had just called him Black. Not siri, not sirius, not padfoot but black. He had never done that before. “ I have to go stop him. Stay here and don’t fuck anything else up.” James spat before grabbing his wand and cloak and taking off towards the whomping willow.
Sirius felt his body slipping down the wall as he curled in on himself. He knew it was his fault that this was happening, and he would never forgive himself if Remus was hurt because of this, because of his big mouth. Maybe his family had been right, he had darkness in his blood, he was never meant to be good, after all blacks never are.
He wasn’t sure how long he sat curled up on the floor waiting for one of his friends to return. He hoped James had made it in time to stop Snape from entering whomping willow and that everything was going to be fine. He would explain himself and then all of them would go back to laughing and pulling pranks. But even now he knew that wouldn’t be what would happen, and moments later when the door to the fifth years boy dormitory slammed open revealing a pissed off James and a quiet looking Peter he knew in that moment everything had changed and the Marauders and his life would never quite be the same.
Remus Pov
Remus awoke in the Hospital wing, his muscles were much more sore than they had been in months of full moons. But worst than that he woke up alone and that was something that hadn’t happened since first year when his best friends and boyfriend had become animagus in secret to help him with his furry little problem.
But for James, Peter and especially Sirius to not be here when he woke up he knew something must have gone wrong. He was just starting to panic and throw off his blankets when James and Peter came in. Remus’s brows furrowed in confusion they both seemed off and where was Sirius. “Jame’s where is Sirius? What happened last night is everything okay? Did I, Did I hurt him? Oh gods that’s why he’s not here right and why both you and peter are staring at me like someone died.” Remus nearly threw up at the thought of having killed his partner and he was full on spiraling now.
He watched as James approached him as one would approach a frightened deer. “Remus' breath, Sirius is fine . Well for now at least. I’m fine and Peter is fine but something did happen last night. Something well, Something bad. And Madam Pomphrey and Dumbledore thought it would be wise for me to be the one to tell you since I was there but. I.” James stopped rubbing his forehead as if he was trying to figure out how to break the news.
“Prongs” Remus said waiting for his friend to meet his eyes before he added “Just tell me what happened.”
James took a deep breath “Snape knows, About you and your furry little problem.” He managed to finally get the words out.
Remus’s eyes widened in horror. “ No, that’s not possible this is some cruel prank it has to be. Please tell me the boy who hates all of us doesn’t know my biggest secret?!” He begged both of his friends, but when their heads both fell he knew that it hadn’t been a prank that some how some way, Snape had learned that he was a werewolf. He wanted to scream and cry and throw things but he couldn’t he had to learn about what happened to lead to Snape finding out.
“How could he have found out? And where is Sirius?” He asked.
Remus wasn’t sure exactly how but as soon as he asked about Sirius he knew in his heart of hearts his love had played a part in this. And that is when the tears started to roll down his cheeks. “Tell me he didn’t James, Tell me Siriurs didn’t do what I think he did. That my love my mate didn’t tell Snape about me and didn’t betray my trust.” When he received no verbal responses but instead of looks of pity he knew. Knew that everything he had just begged James to tell him would never come because somehow, Some way he had been betrayed by the one person he had given all of his trust to. And in that moment something in Remus broke.
“Leave me” He said barely able to speak through the tears that were still falling.
“But Moony, I don’t think we should leave you alone right now.” Peter finally spoke up.
Remus shook his head “Please just go, I, I need some time. I promise I’m not pushing either of you away. I just need a moment to wrap my head around this. But as soon as I do and I am let out of the hospital wing I will come back to the dorms. I just need a minute.”
Peter opened his mouth to argue but quickly shut it when he saw James shake his head at him. “Of course, We will give you some space. But Moony, If you try and push us away I will kill you.” James said with a smile. Remus offered a small sad smile back “ Understood, now go.”
He watched as James and Peter walked to the door and gave Remus one last glance back before heading back out into the halls of Hogwarts. As soon as the doors shut Remus fell back into the pillows on the less than comfortable hospital bed and cried. As he cried himself to sleep he muttered a last “Oh Sirius how could you,” Before falling into a restless sleep.
James’s pov
Oh James Potter was a ray of sunshine, ask anyone and they would agree with that statement, except for right now James Potter was giving off nothing but pure anger as he stormed through the hallways of Hogwarts, Back to the portrait of the fat lady guarding the entrance to the Gryffondor common room and up the stairs to dorm he shared with his three best mates. Well Two best mates and a traitor.
He stormed the door and threw it open, Rage filling all of his features. “What the fuck were you thinking? How could have possibly done this to us? To Remus!!? Fuck Sirus this isn’t some silly prank that people are going to laugh after and just move on,” James watched as sirius lifted his head from his knees and james yelled. James found himself a bit joyful to see the tears flowing down Sirius's cheeks. I mean the boy deserved to feel some pain after what he did.
“James I swear its not what you think. Snape was…..”James shook his head he couldn’t believe that Sirius was going to try and talk himself out if it. James immediately cut him off. “Shut up Black. I can’t believe that you were about to blame Severus for this mess. Yes he’s awful, and needs a shower and should back off of Lily, he doesn’t deserve to die. But of course someone who was raised a Black Heir like you would think this would be funny.
James shook his head and took a step back from his once best friend and brother. “ I can’t even stand to look at monster like you. Get the fuck out of our dorms and stay away from us. All of us I mean it Black . You are no longer a marauder.”
He watched as Sirius no Black looked at him in shock, his hand reaching out to him begging him to listen but James just turned away and left the dorm room. He needed some space and to go check on Remus.