Were So Dun!
Over 2 hours ago from when Josh was suddenly blessed a blow job by Tyler, everything doesn't go according to plan...
"Tyler, hurry up or were going to be late!" Josh yelled while knocking on the bedroom door. Honestly, Josh hates waiting on Tyler more than he hates waiting on Brendon, which is way longer.
"Calm down, I'm finished okay." Tyler responded while coming out of the for told room.
Everything was amazing, Tyler was stunned to see Josh had reserved them seats at a five-star restaurant. Josh relaxed after the first few happiness assured smiles Tyler had given him.
Then an unexpected question came up that Josh totally blew: "Why didn't you ever tell me you liked me in the beginning...? Not like it's a big deal it's just that I always showed you I liked you to the point it was obvious."
"Well Tyler, I never made a move or anything cause I thought you were with Brendon." Tyler raised an eyebrow at this answer. For one he never did anything to Brendon like he did in the past with Josh. "What makes you think that?"
"Cause--" Josh took a sip of wine before speaking again, "You guys were always close and Brendon is cute. Not much to it." Tyler was a bit hurt from hearing that. "We went over this before...You said you liked Brendon before me and NOW your saying he's cute."
Josh's face turned pale, his mouth opened and closed and his eyes couldn't even focus on Tyler. "I-I didn't mean it. Cute is such a common word these days! Haha it doesn't really have its true meaning anymore! Heh." Josh babbled and only made it worse. "Josh, you tell me I'm cute all the time..." Tyler sadly replied, "I think I know why you didn't ask me out sooner... you were still figuring out if you wanted Brendon or not...right?"
Josh's words seemed to keep getting worse, almost like he couldn't control his mouth. "Yeah, but I wouldn't of liked him if you weren't so clingy, gloomy, quiet and most of all weird!" Josh paused watching Tyler get up. "I went out for a whole day and you repeatedly called me and all my friends and you call me clingy? And you know, if you really don't like me and MY daily problems and issues YOU can go and fuck OFF!"
Josh screwed up, he screwed up big time. His face turned into a mess of mixed emotions, watching his only cared for and life purpose walk away. The only thing that ran across his mind was: 'He left his dinner...'
Tyler paid for a different hotel for the night, it was cheap but he had to keep some money so he could go home in a few days. The night was lonely and full of a few sobs here and there, a couple thoughts of Josh and the TV.
Nothing made him feel better, how could he feel good when there was no one in his bed cuddling and telling him how perfect he was. Even the couch, nobody was there to hold him and fall asleep together or when he's on his phone and nobody to randomly kiss the back of his neck. None of this happened because the person who did these things...was gone.
Josh wasn't doing good either, how is he supposed to Netflix and chill when he's alone or someone to sit down and talk and feed each other ice cream. Or pretend he doesn't know what some things are just to hear his lover keep talking.
It's the small things that matter and their both finding out the hard way.
It took a few attempts to sleep before Tyler knew it just wasn't going to happen without knowing he gets to wake up first thing to see a tree tattoo. His cries wasn't stopped by Josh comforting him, but instead a skype video call.
Tyler answered and saw the bright smile of Debby fade into a concern look. "What's wrong?" Debby asked, Tyler looked at her in pure agony. "Josh is a jerk who doesn't like my natural self and thinks Brendon's cute..." Tyler said, then he suddenly face-planted the table and bursted into tears. Debby frowned seeing Tyler's emotions unstable really changed her emotions too.
"That's weird Ty, he usually always tells me abo- hold on." Tyler responded to Debby's hold on a moment by purposely flopping over sideways onto the ground and groaned. Debby face changed to a more soft look when Tyler finally said he was going out and hung up.
Josh was still on the couch trying to sleep when he heard the door open and close and footsteps getting closer. The room was dark and only light source was the TV, he couldn't make out who it was so he shut his eyes and faked sleep. If it was a robber why should he care? Death doesn't seem bad at this point, but it wasn't a robber. The footsteps stopped at couch, he waited for words but it stayed silent.
So he opened his eyes and there was Tyler leaned against the couch on the floor watching TV. Just like the first month they were together Tyler sat there except he had popcorn. Josh really didn't expect to see Tyler come around after that phenomenon in the restaurant.
He placed his hand on Tyler's shoulder only to get a hand to grab his in return. "Why don't you come lay on me so we can cuddle?" Tyler didn't say a word back, he did do what Josh had said though. His face buried into Josh's chest and quiet sobs came out.
Josh could tell Tyler was crying, he could feel his shirt start to get wet from tears. He gently rubbed Tyler's back until Tyler stopped crying and softly spoke. "I love you...Joshua." Josh felt terrible after hearing how raspy and broke Tyler's voice was.
"I love you too, Angel."