Doing good
Eren pov,
It has been five weeks since I decided to give Levi a second chance and we had amazing sex afterward. I could tell he was sincere when he apologized to me hell the man had cried infront of me and if you knew Levi then you know tears is a rare thing to that man.
I could tell that he was trying to hide his guilt from me, always saying he was fine when I asked but I saw the sad, broken looks he gave me when someone mentioned our past or when he remembered the words he spat at me over the phone. I noticed the undescribable sorrow that overtook his features when he thought about a specific memory before the break up or when Mikasa would say something about his actions just to see how he would react. She stopped though, after she realized the saddness that overtook him she knew that he was truly sorry and regretted what he did... didn't stop her or Annie from busting his chops once in a while.
Honestly I've moved on from the whole thing, it doesn't bother as much as it used to but I guess thats because I know Levi's with me and never letting me go. I have come to terms with the pain I had once felt, I had spoke about it in detail with Levi a few weeks ago. He understood why I felt that way and honestly, I was so happy that he did. He had spoken about how he felt once he realized everything and I felt bad for him, he told me he felt lost, angry, guilt and regret but most of all hated himself for what he's done. That's why we're in the process of getting rid of his guilt though I think that would be impossible but I'm not going to give up.
Me and Levi bought a new loft/apartment... well more like he bought it and told me to quit my complaining about the amount of money he just spent on the thing because he doesn't see what the problem is but thats besides the point. The point is we moved into a new home together, new start for new beginings huh?
The place was absolutely beautiful that I fell for it at first sight. The walls were painted a nice creamy white with black trimmings. The place was also completely furnished with nice black sofas and glass tables, two chinese style lamps rested on two small glass tables, each setteled next to the armrest of the couch and there was a huge flat screen T.V. In the kitchen there was a platinum refrigerator that had two doors for the frige and the freezer, the cabinets and counters were a nice grayish-black marble texture, finished with two large sinks. There were two bedrooms, one was the master and the other was the guest. The master bedroom was furnished with a queensize bed, black silk sheets and white pillows. There was a large walk in closet with sliding doors and a rather nice sized bedside tables on each side of the bed, finished with two floral designed lamps. The guest bedroom was smaller, nice bed with the same sheets and pillows, the only difference would be the closet which was smaller than the masters closet. There were two bathrooms, each connected to the bedrooms. Both had marble textured counter with a pearly white sink and shower head, the curtens were black which matched the walls and toilet lid. The rooms were completed with floral designs on the walls and a nice oval shaped mirror.
I was in love with the place because it had a nice view of the whole area, do you know what its like to look down on your country from two large windows? It's amazing. Our realitor agent gave us two options which was we could either buy the whole thing in one shot and not have to worry about paying rent every month or rent the place. I immediatly started to try and convince Levi to take the rent option but he had already made up his mind, saying he'd rather buy the whole thing in one shot, which was 1.2 million dollars, than pay rent every month. I saw his reasoning but I was still bumbed out tha he paid 1.2 million dollars for the place his excuse "We both loved it".
I had soon realized that he was just try to make up for the pain he caused me by spoiling me and I felt bad because no matter how hard I tried to convince him that I had moved on and forgave him for that he still felt the need to prove himself to me and still went out of his way to get me whatever I wanted and I mean everythingand anythingI wanted. For example; I had always wanted a pet cat since I was a kid. We were passing by a petshop while heading to the café down the block from our loft when I noticed a nice medium brownish kitten with green eyes and greyish-white paws and tips of ears and tail. I instantly fell in love with it and I could tell it loved me two when it clawed rapidly at the glass. I had been so into the thing that I hadn't realized that Levi was dragging me into th store and heading to the owner. Long story short, we exited the store with a the kitten in a carrying case, lots of food and toys, a bed and cat litter with the litter box, some grooming brushes and cleaning tools for it. Needless to say, after the kitten was setteled I gave Levi a prestent of my own.
We're in a good place now and I just hope that soon Levi can get over the regret and guilt to help himself, the poor guy is being crushed by it.