Motives of a bestie
Today is thursday and im at work with Annie. My shift doesnt end until midnight since I work part time and only work only 4 days out of the week, Hitch made my shift hours longer than others. Cant really complain about it since it actually pays off working so late at night. Good money coming in every week.
I can also say that im handling myself pretty well these past few weeks. I've been able to keep Levi and that whole situation off my mind entirely... as long as im keeping my mind busy and distracted. But I still wonder and ponder about him when im laying done or showering. I still hate myself for driving him away but... one little step at a time right?
A year and a half ago I had written a letter. It had been my 24 birthday and I had locked myself away in our- my room. I had been even more depressed by the fact that he had left me a week prior to my 24 b-day. So... to let my feelings out without actually talking to anyone outright, I had taken a blank piece of paper and black fine point pen. Once I had wrote the first sentence, all the words spilled out of me and onto that paper. Soon it held all the words, questions and feelings that I couldnt express out loud to him or anyone. I was careful to stash that letter away somewhere once I moved in with Mikasa and Annie. Recently my mind has been on that letter and so I decided that I wanted to reread it. However, when I checked the place where I had hid it, I found that it wasnt there. Hell, all the letters I had written as a outlet for my emotions were gone! All 54 of them.
Mikasa isnt home when im working, she works almost the same amount of hours as me and when she gets home shes already exhausted. Theres no way she has the time to go through my stuff when she only has a few hours to shower and eat before going to bed and waking up early the next morning. She wouldnt have the time to pick lock my door, move my bed, remove the loose floorboard, take out the metal box from within the confined space, pick lock two different locks on the box, take out the letters and put everything back into place like nobody had snooped around in the first place. That plus the added time to actually find out exactly where that box was. No. Fucking. Way.
Though... Annie could manage to do that since she was just as sneaky as Mikasa when it came to my secrets.
"Hey Annie?" I called. Getting her attention while I wiped all the table tops clean and she washed the dishes.
"Yes my oh so precious cinnamon?" I blushed while she chuckled. I hated it when she complimented me. Calling me her precious cinnamon because she could and Annie did what she wanted when she wanted too. That and 'cinnamon' had been her nickname for me since it always managed to cheer me up in my darkest moods.
"You know that I've had written letters right?"
"Yes sir." She replied in an amused tone.
"Do you know what happened to them? Because I've been wanting to reread them and I cant find them anywhere." I looked at the blonde expectantly. Hoping my theory was wrong and that she didnt have them.
"Yes I do know." She replied. As stoic as ever... just like Mikasa.
"... So... uh do you know where are they?..." I asked after a long period of silence and stares.
"Of course I do. Levi has them." She said without missing a beat and looking as amused as when I blush.
"WHAT!?" What was she thinking.
"What what?"
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN LEVI HAS THEM!?"
"What do you think I mean?" Was she serious right now?
"Did he break into my house... or something?" Annie sighed amused. I cant see what was so funny right now.
"Of course not."
"Then how?"
"I took them." How was she so serious and amused at the same time?
"What!? Why!? How!?" She laughed then and I couldnt be mad at her... just afraid.
"Simple. I waited until you were asleep... remember that time you fell asleep on my couch? Yeah? Well I took the opportunity to pick lock your door, moved your bed out of the way, removed the loose floorboard, took out the metal box from that small space, pick locked the two different locks on the box, took out all 54 letters aaaannnnddd put everything in its rightful place like nothing was touched, then I mailed them one by one to Levi... well more like handed them one by one to the McShorty myself." ...One by one? Handed?
"WHAT THE FUCK ANNIE?!" She didnt even seem disturbed by my outburst.
"What the fuck indeed."
"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!?"
"He deserved to know how bad he hurt you Eren. He needed to know how bad his actions affected you and the only way to do that was to give him those letters that hold the words that express your soul." When Annie gets deep but you're too mad out your fucking mind to realise.
"Are you telling me that he deserved the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me so badly?!"
"No Eren. I can tell you first hand that no satisfaction came to McShorty with every letter." Why did she have a mischieveous glint in her eye?
"Wha..."
"I wish you were there to watch him silently cry, to watch him struggle to keep his little tears that fell heavly on the paper itself." I stared at her dumbfounded.
"Ahhhhhhhhh" Annie sighed.
"It really was a sight huh?" I couldnt even be mad anymore.
"What! Oh man Eren! You shouldve seen his face!" Annie at this point was hysterically laughing. Hearing her laugh so freely just made me laugh hard along with her.
"... Look I didnt mean no harm... but he had to know what he did to you." Annie was still giggling as she said this.
"But... what does this give us?"
"Well for starters he will have to sit at home, look and live with that skank knowing he chose Petra over you." Petra?... PETRA?!
"As for you my precious cinnamon... you can live with the knowledge that Levi is suffering and hating himself over his choices." Annie finished. She was smiling so brightly... something rare from her. I smiled at her as well.
We proceeded to clean the café, listening to all types of music until the bell chimed. Signaling that a customer has entered the café. When I turned to see who it was I froze.
"E-Eren?"
"Levi?"
No. Fucking. Way was Levi standing there. Looking just as surprised and frozen as me. Nope! Immpossible.